The Prize in the Game

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I have been a prize in a game
I have been a queen on a hill
From far and far they flocked to see me.

White am I, among the shadows,

My shoulder is noted for its fairness

The two best men in all the world have loved me.

My crown is of apple, bough and blossom.

They wear my favour but my arms are empty.
The boat drifts heedless down the dark stream.

I — Taking Up Arms

1. (Conal)

“My parents are always fighting,” Elenn said.

Conal looked at her. She really was a distractingly beautiful girl. He had
thought so even when she had first arrived in the king’s hall, wet and bedraggled,
with her huge-eyed little sister standing beside her. Here in the sunny orchard
with the blossoms around her she was the loveliest thing he had ever seen. His
father, the poet Amagien, had already written about her looks in extravagant
terms. But it was very hard to look at her and deny that her hair was reminiscent
of black night or her eyes of stars. She looked like Nive herself come down to
walk among men for a season. It was a pity she didn’t have wit to match her
looks. All she seemed to care about was having everyone adore her. This was the
first time she had said something that wasn’t directly about her, and even this
wasn’t far away. “Always?” he asked.

“All the time,” she confirmed, smiling a little as if she could see something
Conal couldn’t. “

“What about?” he asked, mildly interested despite himself. He knew she was
only walking with him because Ferdia and Darag couldn’t be found and she didn’t
want to walk alone.

“Everything,” she said. “Anything at all. What weapons the three of us should
be taught. What colour my sister should wear for the Feast of Bel. What crops the
farmers should plant and in which fields. Whether the hall needs new rushes yet.
If we are to go to war with Muin this summer. If my brother should marry Atha ap
Gren. Who is the father of the white cat’s kittens.”

Conal swallowed hard. He was glad they were alone. He knew that if anyone
were to catch his eye at that moment, even Darag, he wouldn’t be able to keep
himself from laughing aloud. Elenn looked as serious and as beautiful as ever. In
the month she had been at Ardmachan she had already reproached him for
laughing at her at least a dozen times. “Some of those matters are of great import,
and others are very trivial,” he said, as calmly as possible.

“I know,” Elenn said, composedly. “Sometimes they will fight about whether

this is the way a king should behave.”

“My uncle Conary would say that it is not,” Conal said, definitely. He had
heard Conary’ s lectures on kingship often enough. They were always made to all
the royal kin, though it was Darag he always looked at, and Darag whose
questions were answered first.

“My parents have very different ideas about kingship from King Conary,”
Elenn said, looking up at him under her lashes in a way he would have found
enchanting if he could have believed for a minute that she liked him.

“Which of your parents is the king of Connat anyway?” he asked, realizing that
he did not know for sure. “I think I have always heard them mentioned together.”

“Both of them are of the royal kin,” Elenn said. “My mother, Maga, was the
daughter of the last king, Arcon. My father, Allel, is her cousin. When the kindred
came to choose, many of them wanted Maga, for her wisdom, and others Allel,
who was remarked as a warleader when he was young. So it was agreed that they
should marry and give each other the benefit of their skills.”

“And they’ve been arguing ever since?” Conal asked.

“Oh yes,” Elenn said. They were almost through the orchard. Conal could
already see the oak tree his grandfather used for a school. Emer was there already,
pulling a flower apart intently. Leary and Nid were playing fidchell with leaves in
the dust. There was no sign of Darag, or Ferdia and Laig, or of Inis himself. “I
think marriage of cousins is very wrong, do not you? I think marriages work
better when people know each other much less well to begin with.”

“No doubt,” Conal said, politely. Then he thought of his own parents, who had
known each other since his father had been fostered here as a boy. “Definitely.
But as for your parents, which of them holds the kingship from the land?” he
asked. “Only one person can hold it, that I’m sure about.” They passed the last of
the apple trees and slowed their steps to salute the trees as they passed through the
grove.

“My mother does,” Elenn said, bowing to the birch tree. “But it is something
else they argue about incessantly. My father says that the kingdom would be
nothing if not for his leading armies, and my mother says it would be nothing if
not for her alliances.”

“Are those two paths?” Inis asked.

Conal jumped and Elenn gave a little squeal. His grandfather had a habit of
doing that and it never failed to disconcert him. Conal tried to be aware of people
and movement. Inis was the only person who had managed to surprise him in half
a year, but he managed it almost every time. He strove not to let his surprise show
on his face or in his movements. Most of a year ago he had asked Inis for advice
on how to deal with Darag and Inis had told him that he had already learned how.
That meant his way of taking things lightly and not showing when he was

wounded. He had learned that from his father’s constant prodding, not from
Darag. He had a shrewd idea that Inis knew that too. Now he tried to keep his
reactions to himself as much as he could, while smiling and speaking airily. He
bent his mind to what Inis had said as if it were a riddle he was using to teach
them. Were Maga’s alliances and Allel’s warleading two paths? “I think you
mean that Connat needs both their strengths to be strong, Grandfather,” he said,
phrasing his answer carefully.

Inis looked pleased and began to walk with them towards the others. “Do you
see it, girl?” he asked Elenn. She raised her chin affirmatively, but Conal didn’t
think there was room for much thought behind her pretty face.

“Where are Ferdia and Darag?” she asked.

Most of a month in Oriel and she hadn’t learned yet not to ask Inis questions.
Not to mention how much that one gave away. Even the order of names revealed
her hidden preference, he would guess. Elenn had spent most of the month letting
Ferdia and Darag act as rivals for her favours, offering each of them the hero’s
portion in turn, with the occasional shred of meat thrown to Leary and Conal. She
hadn’t managed to spoil the friendship between Darag and Ferdia. There was no
friendship between them and Conal to spoil, even if he had cared, but he hated to
watch what it was doing to Leary. Conal had originally thought it might be a good
thing for the two princesses of Connat to be fostered with them for a while. He
remembered the time he had spent at Cruachan fondly. But he had forgotten the
great distance that stretched between eight and seventeen. He would have begged
his uncle not to invite them if he had guessed how disruptive rivalry for a
beautiful girl could be. Conal realised that Elenn’ s question had fallen into
silence, which meant his grandfather was looking for the answer across the
worlds. He turned to him in concern, just in time to see the emptiness in Inis’s
face before he spoke.

“Acting on what I taught you this morning,” Inis said. His voice sounded
different, full of the echoes that meant he was speaking from the depths of his
oracle-knowledge. His eyes met Conal’ s without recognition for a moment.

Conal felt disgusted with Elenn for pushing his grandfather away from sanity.
Then he took in what Inis had said, so suddenly his head spun. “This morning we
were learning how to recognise a fortunate day,” he said.

“And you said that all days were fortunate, but there is an art to telling for what
they are fortunate, for some day fortunate for one thing might be unfortunate for
another,” recited Elenn in a monotone, as they came up to the oak tree where the
others were sitting.

“And you read the signs for today and said that it would be a good day for a
great warrior to take up arms for the first time,” Emer said, enthusiastically,
jumping up and taking Inis’s arm. “Sit down now, sir, and teach us how to read

the signs. I could almost see it, but not quite.”

Inis blinked at the girl, rubbed his eyes and sighed. “You would have made a
fine oracle-priest,” he said.

Emer looked down and smiled.

“I have to go,” Conal said. It had never occurred to him that Darag would have
acted on Inis’ s divination. They were seventeen, it was a year before any of them
could take up arms. A year, which Conal had been counting off by months and
days. How could anyone, how could Darag and Ferdia and Laig have gone off to
defy that? He felt stricken. They all spent as much time as they could practising,
but even so they would not be ready to take up arms until they were eighteen, six
threes of years, nobody was. It was a law of Oriel, of the whole island of Tir
Isamagiri, of the whole world as far as Conal knew.

“I must go too,” Elenn said.

“We must all go,” Inis said, sounding as if he knew where he was again. “I
have acted without thought.” He hesitated, looking from Emer to Conal, then he
sighed. “Come back to the dun, we must see the king.”

“What? All of us? Why?” Nid looked up from her game for the first time,
pushing her hair out of her eyes.

“Darag has gone to take up arms,” Elenn explained to them. Nid and Leary
exchanged a startled glance, then got to their feet as Inis gestured to them. Then,
without looking, he put out his hands and held back Emer and Conal, one on each
side of him, and let the others go ahead. Leary and Nid at once flanked Elenn, one
on each side, Leary offering her shy compliments. She did not so much as glance
back at Conal.

Inis sighed again as he held Conal back. “I did wrong, but I could not have
done other; so I did in all the worlds.”

“You said in all the worlds, ap Fathag,” Emer said. “I don’t understand how it
would be possible to know, without looking into every world there is.” Conal
grinned at her behind Inis’s back. That was the way to ask Inis questions if you
wanted information out of him. Conal hadn’t taken much notice of Emer before.
She was a year younger than the rest of them, only sixteen. She’d just gone
through a growing spurt and seemed all eyes and legs. She hadn’t caused
disruption among the rest of them the way her sister had. He’d been concentrating
on Elenn, and Darag, of course. But now it seemed that, unlike her beautiful
sister, she had more wit than hair.

“Some events have such weight that they cannot be changed,” Inis said. “Most
times we are free to choose, and if folk choose the same in other worlds it is
because they are much the same folk and so choice arises. But some things touch
the way the worlds are held together and with them it feels like choice but is not.”

Conal frowned, wishing this riddle made sense. Emer drew breath to speak, let

it out, drew it in again. “I don’t think I can tell the difference between those
events and any others,” she said.

Inis laughed, the laugh Conal’s mother Finca called his cracked cackle. Elenn
and the others ahead turned to look, but Conal gestured them on and they started
walking again. “If I cannot tell after all these years looking across the worlds, then
how can you hope to, child?” he asked. “Being able to tell is part of what an
oracle-priest must know. I cannot tell until afterwards, and that is only the second
such time in my life.”

“It would be very interesting to know the other time,” Conal said.

Inis grinned at him, looking almost like any old man, except for the way his
head was shaved in the front and the brightly coloured shawl that would have
marked him as an oracle-priest however sane he seemed. “It was when I got
Conary on King Nessa,” he said.

It was such an ancient scandal, from so long before Conal was bom, that he was
surprised to see Emer look shocked. Maybe it wasn’t well known in Connat.
Conal’ s parents didn’t like to talk about it, but all the same he had known since he
was five years old.

“If only two events in all your length of life have been of such stature as to hold
across all the worlds, then maybe there will be none in mine,” Emer said.

“Such are lucky folk,” Inis said, “And such are most folk, tmth told. But I do
not think either of you are so lucky.”

“I know better than to ask,” Conal said, looking ahead through the trees to
where Elenn inclined towards Leary. They were holding hands. Nid had gone a
little way ahead. “You know, grandfather, though my mind is quick for the
branches of learning, and though I love you, I hate learning from you. I have
always learned songs and figuring fast enough, but this Oak knowledge of
learning to read luck and the way of other worlds makes my skin crawl. I don’t
even like thinking about it.”

“You know the story of Curog the Oracle-priest?” Inis asked. “He prophesied
that a certain lady would win the love of a certain lord. When the lord died the
lady came to him and reproached him for being wrong, for he had never loved
her. Then Curog said that in the worlds he could see, where he had not spoken,
she had acted to win his love and won it, and in our world she had been sure she
would win it without acting, and so nothing came of it.”

Inis said no more. Conal glanced at Emer, who was frowning at nothing. They
walked in silence for a while. Conal started mnning through arguments he would
make to Conary. It was hideously unfair to let Darag and Ferdia take up arms
early and on a fortunate day, and not the rest of them. But Conary always
favoured Darag of all his nephews. There were good reasons for that, of course.
Conal was good, but Darag was better. But Conal was sure that if he put in more

effort, more time practising, building up his strength, he would eventually catch
up and even overtake Darag. Being strong and fast as a boy was nothing, what
counted was when you were men. Even his father said so. If Darag had taken up
arms today, then Conal would do the same, that’s all there was to it. Anything else
was unthi nk able.

When they came out of the orchard, Elenn, Leary, and Nid were waiting for
them at the foot of the mound. Nid was swinging on the gate. The bottom palisade
was no ring of sharpened stakes but a tall fence of strong bog-oak, the oak that
could break an iron axe. No enemies had ever breached it. No enemies were
expected today however, which was fortunate as there was nobody guarding the
lower gate.

“We thought we’d wait for you slowpokes,” Leary said, sticking out his tongue
at Conal. Conal smiled as if amused at how childish boys of seventeen could be,
hiding all the pain. Leary had been his friend. They had always practised together,
both of them hoping to become as good as Darag. Now Leary hardly spoke to him
except to jibe.

“It is unkind to mock my old bones, grandson,” Inis said, sharply. Leary
jumped. He was used to the old man not paying any attention. Conal kept his face
still, to show nothing.

Inis let go of Conal’s arm, and then, a moment later, Emer’s. He led a brisk
pace past the stables and up the hill towards the dun. Here, where Conal would
have guessed he’d want support, he decided to do without it. The rest of them
followed him in a straggle, Conal first, quickening his own pace, and Emer beside
him. “I didn’t know Leary was ap Lathag’s grandson as well,” Emer said, quietly.

“You’re getting really good at not asking questions,” Conal said, and smiled at
her. This time she smiled back, shyly, not at all like her sister. “But it’s all right to
ask me. Inis had four children. My mother, Leary’s mother and Darag’s mother by
his wife, and Conary by King Nessa as he just told us.”

“I had heard before,” Emer said, even more quietly. “Do you think he told us
that last story to stop us asking questions?”

“Yes,” Conal said. “Or maybe to tell us he isn’t infallible, or that oracle-talent
isn’t infallible. He hates being asked questions, he can’t help but look then, and he
prefers to look in his own time.”

“Can you see across the worlds?” Emer murmured. Conal had to lean close to
hear her.

“Of course not!” he said, quickly, surprised she would ask. “I’m not an oracle-
priest, and you must have heard me saying just now how I hate to think about
those things.”

“That’s what made me wonder whether you could,” she said.

“Can you?” he asked.

Emer shook her head. “Sometimes when I talk to ap Fathag or ap Fial at home I
can almost see how to do it. They say I could learn. But I don’t want to. Fike you.
I’d rather not know what might happen already. You know what ap Fathag said
when I asked him whether I really would marry Darag the way my mother
wants?”

“Your mother might want it, but it will be up to Conary just as much,” Conal
said.

“I know,” Emer said. “1 don’t want to. He’s in love with Elenn.”

“Marriage is nothing to do with love,” Conal said.

“I know that, too,” Emer said. “But anyway, when I asked your grandfather, he
said ‘Often enough you do.’ That’s just so horrible. Even if I don’t, even if I
manage to get out of it, often enough other ones of me didn’t, and have to marry
him, ugh. I’d much rather not know that.”

Inis was at the top gates, speaking to the guard, and they were almost on him.
Conal was intrigued enough to stop. “Ugh? You don’t like Darag?”

“He’s horrible. I hate him,” Emer said, in a whisper. Then she went on, almost
running to catch up with Inis. Conal followed more slowly, trying to smooth out
the frown that wanted to come down between his eyes.

2. (Elenn)

Elenn smiled at Leary, but it wasn’t any fun. He was too besotted, there was no
challenge there at all. He would have done anything for her, but it didn’t matter.
Besides, he might be King Conary’s nephew, but he wasn’t anybody really.
Nobody thought he might be the next king of anywhere. Dear Ferdia was almost
sure to be the next king of Lagin. As for Oriel, it was bound to be Darag or Conal.
Her mother had told her before she left home that it would almost certainly be
Darag. That didn’t mean it wasn’t worth being nice to Conal in case, Maga had
added. As if Elenn would ever be mean to people just because they weren’t
important. That wasn’t the same as not worth bothering with. She smiled at Leary
again, and looked up at him through her lashes. It was amazing how easy it was.

Maga had told her a lot of things about how to act with men, but she had never
had a chance to try them out until she came to Ardmachan. Back at Cruachan
everyone knew her, and what’s more, everyone had seen Maga. Next to Maga,
Elenn thought, she barely counted as prettier than Emer. Away from Maga it was
a completely different story. Amagien ap Ross had written a poem saying she was
one of the three most beautiful women in the island of Tir Isamagiri. That made
her feel quite shaken, and all excited deep inside, but she knew how to act. Alone
with Emer at night she had laughed and recited the poem over, but in front of
everyone she sat listening to it being sung as if it was nothing unusual. But it was,
it was very unusual for such a poem to be written about a seventeen year old girl
who was away from home for the first time in her life and enjoying every minute
of it.

It was strange that Amagien was Conal’ s father. It was hard to imagine people
more different. Amagien was so emotional, and Conal was so driven. Conal was
so handsome, too, like ap Fathag, even though ap Fathag was so old. Amagien
wasn’t at all handsome. But he had good manners, unlike his son. She could have
liked Conal, except that he didn’t like her. He tried not to show it, but he didn’t.
He was too clever. She thought maybe sometimes he could see what she was
doing and laughing at it, or sometimes disapproving of it. She’d have to try harder
with him, she could see that. He thought too much.

The one she really liked was Ferdia. He was the one she was going to ask her
mother if she could marry. Then Maga would fix it. Emer could have Darag, if
she wanted, Maga thought that was a good idea anyway. Maga was good at that
sort of thing. She liked Darag, but he scared her sometimes. Darag was wild. He
might be the strongest and the best fighter, but Ferdia was taller and gentler. She
had the feeling he would have been kind to her even if she hadn’t been beautiful.

He was kind to Emer. Darag and Conal had hardly noticed that Emer existed. In
some ways it was really nice that she was the important one, that nobody cared
about Emer here. But it was wrong even so. Elenn was so used to being compared
to her sister. And she had to share a room with her, she had to hear Emer’s views
on everything. In front of everyone, Emer was quiet, the way Maga had told them
to be. But get her alone and she wanted to share what she thought. So Elenn
couldn’t forget about her. And if she was going to have to care about her, then
everyone else ought to.

She looked to see where Emer had got to. She had been walking with ap Fathag
and Conal, which was all right, but now ap Fathag had gone on ahead and she
seemed to be talking intently to Conal. That wasn’t all right. It especially wasn’t
when Conal paused to hear what Emer was saying. Elenn just knew they were
talking about her. She couldn’t catch up to them either, because she had to walk
with Leary and pretend to be paying attention to what he was saying. What was he
saying anyway? She listened for a moment.

“Nobody takes up arms until they are eighteen, which won’t be until next
Spring,” he was saying. Leary had been talking about Darag and Ferdia being
wrong all the way from the grove. Well, Elenn thought it was wrong too, but she
wasn’t going to bore anyone with it. She closed her ears again, which was a useful
skill sometimes. Sometimes what a queen has to do is just sit and smile and look
beautiful. Maga had told her that, though Maga wasn’t a queen, of course, but a
king. A king needs different skills. But Elenn wasn’t going to be a king, and she
was glad. Being a king would be boring and you’d have to listen to people going
on and on all the time. A queen had a lot of work to do with organising food and
supplies for everyone and being gracious, but no fighting.

Not that Maga did any fighting, she hadn’t for years. But she might have to, if
there was an invasion. No fighting, no being forced to do more than pretend to
listen to boring people and no talking to the gods. Talking to the gods was scary.
Let her brother Mingor be the king, she’d be a queen and make a good alliance for
Connat. If Ferdia were king of Lagin he’d make a very good alliance indeed.

They had reached the top of the mound. It was strange how familiar with
Ardmachan she had got in the month she’d been here. At first it had seemed huge
and frightening. There was the wall at the bottom, and another wall at the top, and
then three big halls inside, as well as the ordinary buildings. Everything was
inside here, except things that couldn’t be on top of a hill, like the well and the
smithy.

Elenn smiled at the guards on the gate as she went through. She always did. It
wasn’t any trouble, and it made them like her, and things were always easier if
people liked her. She knew one of these guards. He was Casmal, who taught them
spear-throwing. He looked worried. She wondered what ap Fathag had said to

him. She gave him a special smile, and hurried after Leary and the others.

Nid gave her a strange look as she caught up. Elenn didn’t understand Nid very
well. She was a girl, but she wasn’t at all beautiful, not even as pretty as Emer.
That wasn’t strange, but Elenn couldn’t understand why she didn’t care about it.
She wore long brown straight shifts, and embroidered overdresses only on special
days. She kept her hair tied on top of her head almost all the time. All she wanted
to do was be a charioteer. Finca, Conal’s mother, who taught them chariot-
fighting, said that Nid would probably be very good at it. She was good with
ponies and she wasn’t going to be heavy, which was important for a charioteer.
She said Emer would as well, and Elenn if she would only try harder. Lots of the
best charioteers were women. Darag’s mother Dechtir had been Conary’s
charioteer before she was killed. There were songs about her. But Elenn didn’t
want to be a charioteer at all. She just wanted to know how to fight enough to
defend herself, that was all. She didn’t need to be a champion. She was going to
be a queen. Her king would have a whole hall of champions to defend her honour.
Like Maga. If anyone insulted her she could just raise a finger and everyone in the
hall would be begging to be chosen to be her champion and she’d choose the best
one and they’d always win. That was better than fighting for yourself. Maga had
explained that to her years ago. Nice as it was to be away from her for a while,
Maga made a lot of sense about that sort of thing.

Ap Fathag charged straight past the Speckled Hall, which was a huge
storehouse for supplies, with a special room where weapons were left when
people were in the dun and didn’t need them. He marched right in to the Red Hall,
which was the king’s. Emer and Conal followed right behind, and Leary, Nid and
Elenn a little behind them. Elenn was starting to worry about what ap Fathag
would do. She knew King Conary wouldn’t do anything awful to him whatever
mad thing he did, because he was an oracle-priest, and his father; even if he had
never been married to his mother. But she wasn’t so sure he wouldn’t be really
cross with the rest of them for following him.

King Conary was sitting in one of the end alcoves playing fidchell with
Amagien the Poet. There was a place above where the roof could be lifted off to
give light on warm clear days, so they and the board were clearly illuminated.
Both men sighed when they saw ap Fathag and his pupils approaching. King
Conary didn’t look as handsome as usual when his face had such an irritated
expression. Elenn found herself remembering stories about his terrible rages. It
was said he’d killed his sister Dechtir in a fit of temper.

“I can guess what you want,” he said, crossly. Elenn kept her face still, the way
her mother had taught her.

Ap Fathag laughed, loudly, the way he did sometimes. It sounded more like a
raven than a man, there was no mirth in that sound. Elenn saw Nid shiver, and she

would have shivered herself if she were younger.

“What did Darag tell you?” Inis asked.

“He told me you told him it was the day fated for him and Ferdia and Laig to
take up arms.” Conary said.

“I told you your foolish nephew was lying,” Amagien put in. Conary glared at
him.

“I told all my pupils that it would be a good day for a mighty warrior to take up
arms,” ap Fathag said. “1 did not tell Darag to come to you.”

“Not lying,” snapped Conary at Amagien. “Enterprising lad.”

Conal hissed air between his teeth, but ap Fathag clapped him hard on the
shoulder and he said nothing. They all just stood there. Conary stared at ap
Fathag, as if daring him to speak. “Have you given Darag and Laig and Ferdia
arms?” ap Fathag asked after a long pause.

“Surely nobody would doubt the right of the king to arm his nephew and
fosterlings in his own hall,” Amagien said.

“Quite right too, I have every right to do it if I want to,” Conary blustered.

“You have every right,” ap Fathag said, very mildly. “But you must arm also
these other nephews and fosterlings who stand beside me now.”

“Sir, I am three months older than Darag,” Conal put in.

“Do you think we could have forgotten your age?” Amagien asked. Elenn had
never seen him snapping like this before.

“Of course I know his age,” Conary said. “It is well past noon, Inis. It is too late
to arm them today, they will never find a beast to kill before sundown.”

“We will take that risk, sir,” Conal said.

“Very willingly,” Leary agreed.

Conary looked at them all as if they were something that had fallen from the
thatch into his stew. “All of you?” he asked.

“I will,” Nid said.

It was only then that Elenn realised exactly what was likely to happen. She
wanted to be armed, yes, but not like this, not in a scramble and with no time to
hunt properly. She wanted it to be an occasion and the whole court there out on a
hunt and leaving the kill to her. She had heard all the stories of how her brother
had taken up arms two years before. She didn’t want it to happen this way. “Not
us,” she said, thinking quickly. “Sir, my mother would not like it if we were
armed in Oriel.” That was nothing but the truth; Maga definitely wanted to arm all
her children herself, as she had done with Mingor. “Besides, I am not ready.”

“But I would be armed,” Emer said. Elenn couldn’t stop herself from gasping.
It was as if her left arm had suddenly developed a will of its own and started
reaching for things she had no desire to grasp.

“Nonsense, girl,” Amagien said. “Your pretty sister is right, it would cause

trouble with Connat. Besides, how can the younger girl be armed and the elder
not?”

“If Elenn feels unready for arms, that is her choice,” Emer said. “She has no
wish to be a great warrior.” Elenn winced, for all that it was true.

“Stout heart,” ap Fathag said, in something that sounded horrifyingly like an
approving tone.

“My mother would wish to arm us herself, Elenn is right. But she would yield
before the news of a fortunate day.” Emer said, boldly.

Elenn leaned forward. “Emer, think, you can’t,” she whispered.

“Oh yes I can,” Emer said, keeping her eyes straight forward.

“Maga will not like it, but will she go to war for it?” Amagien asked.

“She will go to war with us for one cause or another within three years,” ap
Fathag said, rocking to and fro slightly in the stupid way he did when someone
asked him a question. It was so unfair, as his main means of talking was by asking
other people questions, but if you asked him one back his response was to say
something often unintelligible and always uncheckable and then go off into a
daze. He was much madder than the oracle-priests at Cruachan. And his
predictions were always so obvious, just like that one.

Conary leaned forward, looking at Emer. “Do you want to be a great warrior,
then?” he asked.

“If possible,” she replied.

“Has anyone seen if she can even fight?” Amagien asked. “Ah, I thought not.
And she is two years away from age.”

“She can fight,” Conal said. Elenn frowned at him, but he took no notice, he
wasn’t even glancing at her. “She’s young to be armed, but so are we all, sir. And
time and daylight of a fortunate day are wasting as we stand here.”

King Conary had shut his eyes. “She has not strength to fight hand to hand,” he
said, faintly. “Anyone can see that.”

“Strength as much as my daughter Dechtir had,” ap Fathag said.

Conary’ s eyes snapped open and he sat bolt upright, but when he spoke his
voice still sounded weary. “Do either of you youths need a charioteer?”

Leary and Conal both stared at Nid, who shrugged. “I have driven you both and
would willingly drive either of you,” she said.

“You have far more often driven me,” Leary began.

“Then let her drive you now,” Conal said, “If Emer will consent to drive me?”

“It would be an honour,” Emer murmured, looking down and sounding her
usual self again.

“Let her be armed as a charioteer then,” Conary said, as if he were tired to
death of the whole business. Elenn felt a great deal of sympathy for him. “Come,
Amagien. Where is Finca?”

Finca came up immediately. Elenn suspected she had been listening in the next
alcove. It was a large hall, and the alcoves were hidden from each other the same
way they were at Cruachan. It meant proper privacy for eating, but it also meant it
was very easy to hide in them and spy on people when the hall wasn’t full. If she
built her own hall, Elenn thought she would prefer to have a great table to eat on
the way the poets said the Vincans did. Except that it would make it difficult for
people who were at bloodfeud with each other and so could not eat together. She
wondered how the Vincans managed about that.

“You called for me, my brother?” Finca said.

“Rejoice, for today your child becomes one of the people,” Conary said, with
an ironic nod of the head to Conal. “If you can find Elba and Ringabur, and Ugain
and his wife, they may wish to hear the same news. Regrettably, Maga and Allel
cannot be here. Also, the feast I bade you prepare for Darag’s return should
perhaps be expanded a little.”

“Yes, my brother,” Finca said, as if his words had been quite ordinary. She
gave hardly a glance to Conal and no glance at all at the rest of them.

“Oh, and sister, take the elder princess of Connat to help you,” Conary said.
“She does not need to be armed today.”

“No,” Finca said, looking at Elenn a little curiously. Elenn kept her head up and
looked back. “Very well, you can help me to prepare the feast. Come along,
child.”

It was only then, hearing that familiar form of address, that Elenn realized what
she had done. She would still be a child, when the others, even Emer, would be
adults in everyone’s eyes. It was not quite too late to change her mind, but entirely
too late to do it and maintain dignity. She lifted her chin high and walked off after
Finca without a backward glance.

3. (Emer)

King Conary gathered up champions and parents and guards so that there seemed
to be a crowd of them before they even left the Red Hall.

Emer was starting to feel almost sorry that she had spoken up. Elenn’s face had
been like thunder as she went off with Conal’s mother. No doubt she would never
let Emer forget it. Worse, she would tell Maga. Maga hadn’t wanted to send them
to Oriel in the first place. Having fosterlings at Cruachan was one thing. Sending
her own children off into danger was another.

Not that there was any danger. She couldn’t see how such a thing could even
cross her mother’s mind. Maga and Allel had fought over it until Emer’s head
hurt. Eventually Allel suggested that Maga’s reluctance wasn’t fear for her
children but an intention that she herself would break the sacred bonds of guesting
and harm a fosterling. Emer thought he was entitled to say so. After all, the idea
would never have crossed anyone else’s mind. All guests were sacred, even in the
middle of a war, and fosterlings were the most sacred guests of all. Maga had
clawed Allel’ s face so hard that he had marks for days. After that there had been
no more words Emer could hear through the wall, only moans and cries. That
fight had ended up in bed, as her parents’ fights so often did. Emer had wondered
at them the next morning, seeing her father with a scratched face and her mother
purring. She had been overjoyed when Allel had told them that they would at last
be allowed to spend a year at Ardmachan. She had been waiting through all of
Maga’s excuses since she was nine years old and the royal children of Oriel had
gone home without them.

King Conary marched out of the Red Hall, with everyone close behind him.
Emer blinked at the sudden sunlight. There were some champions playing hurley
on the field laid out for it over against the east wall. Their excited cries rose up in
the warm air as someone scored. “Don’t you just wish you were with them?”
Conal whispered. Emer turned and grinned at him and he rolled his eyes towards
the adults. King Conary was walking very fast, with an expression as if he had
bitten a sour apple. Everyone else except Inis was scurrying to keep up. The
king’s counsellor ap Carbad was almost smiling. Nid’s parents looked
apprehensive, and Leary’s looked confused. Conal’s father, Amagien the Poet,
was frowning, as usual. Emer thought it was awful that his mother hadn’t even
bothered to stay to see her son armed.

“Not really?” she said, tentatively, making it a question.

“Oh no, not really,” Conal agreed.

“Besides, hurley is a stupid game,” she said.

Conal laughed. “I don’t know how you dare say so,” he said, sounding
surprised. “Though in many ways it is a very stupid game. I enjoy it sometimes.
But such a lot depends on things you can’t do anything about.”

“Like how many people there are on each team, and when they switch sides,”
Emer said. “Is it true that Darag once played alone against all the rest of you?”

“There was a game once that started off like that,” Conal said, carefully.

“He didn’t want to wait to pick sides,” Leary said. “He won though.”

“Who was left on the other side at the end?” Emer asked.

“Just me,” Conal admitted, and lowered his voice. “But that isn’t the sort of
thing that’s worth making songs about.”

“Hurley is good training for war,” Nid said. “It teaches you how to move in
battle.”

“May the wise gods send that I never have to fight a battle where everyone
changes sides as they see their advantage,” Conal said.

Nid and Leary laughed, but Emer just looked at Conal, knowing he wasn’t
joking. His eyes met hers for a moment, dark and serious. An instant later he was
laughing lightly again as they all hurried to catch up.

Then King Conary flung open the door of the Speckled Hall, and stopped
abruptly, forcing everyone behind him to stop just as fast. Leary’s father fell over
his feet and caught himself. Nid giggled nervously.

The two guards inside the Speckled Hall looked incredibly guilty, as if they had
been caught stealing from the storehouses rather than guarding them. They leapt
to their feet with their spears ready. As far as Emer could tell they had been doing
nothing worse than sitting talking. King Conary looked them up and down for a
long moment. “Better,” he said, at last, and both guards relaxed a trifle.

“I wonder what they were doing last time?” Conal asked, almost in her ear.
Emer bit back a giggle.

“Ap Carbad, take all these people whose children are not here today down to
the stables to wait,” Conary said, without even turning his head to look. Ap
Carbad gathered up the extra people, pausing when he came to Inis, but passing
on as Inis beamed like an imbecile and indicated Conary. Inis was very clever
about using his madness to his advantage when it suited him. He could be
absolutely outrageous and nobody would challenge it. Emer had been afraid of
him at first, but now she knew him better she liked him.

King Conary led the ten of them remaining into the Weapons Room. Emer had
never been right inside the Weapons Room of the Speckled Hall before. As a
child she had had no weapons of her own to leave, and for practice they used
weapons kept down at the stables. The light came in under the eaves where the
roof met the walls. The walls were plastered and painted with pictures of
champions fighting in chariots. Maga would have sneered at the paintings, which

used were crudely drawn and used too much blood-coloured paint. Emer quite
liked them. The way the people were standing looked right, almost as if they
could move. It took a moment or two for her to lower her eyes to the arms they
had come to find.

The room was almost full of weapons of all descriptions, clearly carefully
arranged, but equally clearly using some system she could not imagine. There
were spears and knives and slings in great profusion, and piles of round
slingshots, lime mixed with blood and set harder than stone. Among them were
swords, more swords than she had ever seen. At home her father had a sword, of
course, and her brother, and maybe half a dozen of the other champions. Here
there seemed to be uncountable numbers of them. Emer stopped. She knew better
than that. Ap Fial had taught her the Thom Knowledge, how to count large
numbers. She ran her eyes over them, counting by threes and twelves. “Forty five
and two,” she murmured, impressed.

“What?” Conal asked, setting down a sling and turning to her.

“Forty seven swords,” she said. “That must be one for each champion of Oriel.”

“More,” King Conary said, stopping abmptly again and turning to Emer.
“Many of these swords are mine, battle spoil which I have not yet gifted to any
champion.” He bent and picked one up to show her. “This is a Vincan cavalry
sword. I won it fighting them on the coast of Demedia five, no, six years ago.” He
half drew it out of the scabbard. “Took at the edge on that!” He set it down again
carefully in its place and picked up another nearby. “This one belonged to the
champion Ardan of Muin, before I killed him. It is called Oakheart. See how the
hilt is carved and the blade is veined a little like an oak leaf? It was made by a
smith of Muin, you do not see those patterns on swords made in the north.”

Quite suddenly King Conary seemed to notice that everyone was watching and
listening. His face twitched and he set the sword Oakheart down carefully. “Well,
why are you waiting?” he asked. “Arm these children; it is why we have come
here.” Then as they began to bustle about, he put his hand on Emer’s arm. “Do
you just admire good weapons, or can you use a sword, ap Allel?” he asked.

“I can use one a little,” Emer admitted. “My father taught me. But he said I
should wait until I was tall enough to use a real one. Mostly I have used a wooden
one made the right size for practice.”

“Very wise. The sword must work with the arm, and if you started using an
ordinary sword before you were tall enough you would have too much to unlearn,
or you would need a sword as tall as that one — ” he indicated the Vincan sword
“ — when you had all your growth.”

“Is that the sword of a Vincan who made that mistake then?” she asked. “Or an
ogre?”

He laughed. “Neither. It is a cavalry sword, meant to be used from horseback.”

“Riding on a horse? For battle?” Emer was astonished. “I have ridden, but I
would never have thought of such a thing.”

“Their horses are larger,” Conary said. “Much larger. Even their ordinary
horses are almost three hands larger than ours, and their war horses maybe six
hands higher. They can bear a heavy man in armour. They use them in preference
to chariots. I might do so myself if I had horses that size.”

“And they use those swords?”

“They use thrusting spears first, and then the swords.”

“Sir, I did not realise before what a feat you were recounting when you told me
you won that sword in battle,” Emer said, and bowed with both hands on her
heart, the bow given to a mighty warrior, not the bow given to a king.

Conary laughed, and looked distinctly pleased. “If you have to fight against
them, use spears,” he advised. “Spears have the reach. Get the horse fast, and then
they will be down on your level. Best of all use a belly-spear.” He reached out
without looking and drew forward a spear with a wicked barbed head. “It twists
on the way in, and can’t be drawn out straight, so it’s almost sure to kill. I keep
those for fighting against cavalry. Horse-warriors are a nuisance, but the good
thing is that there are not very many of them. They cannot be everywhere at once,
else raiding Demedia would be a foolish pastime indeed.”

Emer laughed, knowing that Oriel raided Demedia every summer they were not
at war elsewhere.

“You must be armed today,” King Conary said, sounding much happier about it
than he had earlier. He touched her elbow and then her wrist, then held his hands
apart at that distance. “I know,” he said, and looked about him. Then he frowned.
“Conal!”

Conal was on the other side of the room with his father, looking desperately
unhappy. He was wearing an armour coat, leather set with iron rings, and holding
a spear. He and Amagien both looked up at Conary ’s call. As Conal looked up he
smiled easily. Emer was surprised how quickly he could do that. Inis, who was
standing by the door turning a knife in his hands, also glanced over, then away
again.

“Conal, where are those Jarnish swords I said you could use for practice?”

“If you have lost the king’s swords — ” Amagien began.

“Oh no, they are not lost,” Conal said, with a smile like ice over deep water.
“They are here with the sling I use.” He took a few paces among the weapons,
dodging Leary who was pulling on his armour coat, clearly entirely at home in the
room, and took up a pair of long knives and handed them to Conary.

“They are mine, and should not be kept with your father’s weapons,” Conary
said, frowning.

“Useless boy!” Amagien said. “Can’t you do anything right?”

“I am very sorry, sir,” Conal said, looking at Conary.

“Humph. They’re not harmed by it. Have you outgrown them yet?”

“The smaller, yes, but I am still using the longer.” He turned to Emer. “I use
them for practice. Using a weapon with an edge is different from using a wooden
one, even when the weight is the same.”

King Conary measured Conal’s arm the same way he had measured Emer’s,
and frowned.

“This will be the summer he will grow,” Amagien said, grimly, as if he would
personally make sure of it.

“He is smaller than Darag but taller than Leary, he is not small for his age,”
Emer said, surprising herself. Conal gave her a swift frown and shook his head a
little. Amagien looked furious.

Conary laughed. “Does your charioteer defend you already?” he asked. “Well,
so it should be. Emer ap Allel, take this sword. It is a Jarnish weapon. These were
won in a seafight, years ago. When you grow taller and wish to change it, bring it
back to me. Conal, you keep the other until you too need a longer sword.”

Emer took the smaller of the pair and turned it over curiously. It was not quite
like a sword sized for a sixteen year old. The shape was unusual, but the balance
was good. Conary handed the other to Conal just as Nid’s mother came up with an
armour coat for Emer. She shrugged it on over her clothes. There’d be time at the
stables to take off her overdress. She belted up her shift and fixed the sword to her
belt. Beside her, Conal was doing the same.

“And a spear,” Conary said. He touched her head briefly and made for the wall
where many spears were standing propped. He took up one without hesitation and
strode back to her with it. She hefted it for a moment. It was just the right length.
She was glad to see he had chosen an ordinary throwing spear, not a barbed belly-
spear.

Conary went over to Leary then and after exchanging a few words found him a
blade.

“If we are done here, then to the stables,” Conary said. “Time is wasting.”

As soon as they were back out in the sunshine Inis came up to Emer quietly. “I
thought you would need a knife today,” he said.

Emer bit back the first six things she wanted to say, all of which were
questions. “The king has given me a sword,” she said, showing him.

“I saw,” he said. “That was well done.” Without another word he turned and
walked off, towards the gate of the dun, back towards the grove.

Emer stared after him.

“Sometimes he is just impossible,” Conal said.

“I don’t understand him,” Emer said.

“To understand him you’d have to be him, study all the branches of knowledge

for twenty-one years and at last come to the depths of the Oak Knowledge that
drives people mad. And after that he has spent half the rest of his life spread out
across lots of worlds. He’s my grandfather and I’ve known him all my life and he
has been nothing but good to me, but I wouldn’t want to understand him.”

Emer felt almost afraid of the intensity Conal was letting her see. “Come on,”
she said. “We ought to catch up or we’ll be left with the chariot with the wobble.”

“Oh no,” Conal said. “This isn’t practice. We don’t use the practice chariots.
We’ll take my father’s chariot. And his chariot horses. He will do that for me, and
I’ll make him proud of me.” Emer looked. Amagien was up ahead talking to the
king, taking no notice of them at all.

“Thank you for asking me to be your charioteer,” she said.

“I meant it,” Conal said. “Not just today. I mean to be a great warrior. I will
need a charioteer. I want you.”

“Why?” Emer asked. Then as she saw his face fall she added hastily, “I mean,
yes, yes of course, but why me?”

“Because you are brave,” Conal said. He looked as if he might say more, but he
just shrugged, as if that was enough.

Emer grinned, too full of words to speak any of them, then ran off after the
others, with Conal running beside her.

Finca had sent word to the stables, and both chariots had been harnessed ready.
She was even here herself, fussing with the horses. Elenn was with her, still
looking very downcast. Ap Carbad and a great crowd of champions of Oriel were
gathered round talking busily.

Emer stole a moment to dress herself properly in one of the stalls before they
set off. Nid came with her and they helped each other bind up their shifts tightly
and tie back their hair. “My mother’s upset,” Nid said, frowning. “She wanted to
have time to make me new clothes for when I come back, and she’s only just
started to warp the cloth for them never mind got them done. She doesn’t care
about lucky days, she says this is a scramble.”

“She’ll be glad when you come back,” Emer comforted her. Nid looked unsure
for a moment. Then they came out and rejoined the others. The grooms handed
them the reins, and they mounted up. Emer put her spear into the slot for it at her
side. Nid looked much steadier once she had horses to control. Emer’s pair
seemed well matched, both in colour and temperament. They were a pair of dun
mares, both properly mealy-nosed, and absolutely raring to go.

Then King Conary raised his hand for quiet, and everyone stood together
without saying anything. Amagien kept shifting his weight and scowling at Conal.

“You stand before me children,” King Conary said. “Children of my blood,
children of my dun, or fosterlings of my hearth, but children all. Today you take
up the arms you bear, not now in practice but for the first time in truth. Bear them

well and worthily, and as long as you may bear them in honour. Go now and hunt,
and carry back whatever you may kill in token that you return to me children no
more but men and women grown and champions of my household.”

Nid’s mother and Leary’s father were weeping openly, and Leary’s mother was
wiping her eyes. Nid’s father was grinning like a man who was ridiculously
proud. Amagien continued to scowl. Finca looked emotionless. Elenn was smiling
distantly like a queen painted on a wall. Emer was deeply relieved her parents
weren’t here, and that she had got out of doing this before the whole court in
Cruachan. There would be a fight over it, she knew, but just one fight, not a whole
drawn out campaign.

At a signal from Finca she and Nid let the horses go, and a moment later they
were driving down the track that circled Ardmachan.

“Where to?” she asked, wishing she could turn and see Conal’s face. Then he
came and stood beside her so, so close she could feel the warmth of his body.

“Anywhere we want,” Conal said. “Anywhere, anywhere at all, anywhere in the
whole island of Tir Isamagiri, nobody can stop us.” He laughed, and they all
laughed with him. Emer felt as if she had managed to escape a cage that had been
around her all her life.

The farmers in the fields looked up as they heard them. “They probably think
we’re mad,” Nid called, and that made them laugh all the more. They came
towards the first track leading away into the countryside.

“There are four hours to sunset,” Conal said, sobering a little. “There’s likely to
be game in the woods. Let’s go that way.”

Emer obediently turned the chariot south-west, full of delight.

4. (Ferdia)

“If it’s such a fortunate day, why haven’t we found anything yet?” Laig called.

Ferdia would have shrugged, but he knew what shrugging did when you were
holding chariot reins. “I don’t know,” he said, too quietly for Laig and Darag to
hear. He didn’t want to talk. He wanted to think about what he was going to do
when they did find something. He’d been thinking about that all afternoon. He
almost had it clear, but it made such a difference what they found that it wasn’t
easy to make a plan. Darag would be all right. Darag was always all right.

Anyway, it was easy to make a kill from a chariot if you had a charioteer. It
was a different matter if you didn’t. He’d either have to stop and get down or be
extraordinarily lucky. He’d have to be lucky to kill something on foot, too. Or
maybe he would see something, stop, draw the spear, aim and throw. If only the
horses didn’t move just as he was throwing and draw off his aim. If he didn’t kill
something he wouldn’t be a man. He wouldn’t be a boy either, since he had taken
up arms. He didn’t know what he would be.

“We should have gone after the hares,” Laig said.

“Don’t be a fool,” Darag said, roughly. Ferdia glanced over. Above the dust of
the chariot wheels, Darag was standing without holding on, the way they’d been
practising. His hair was clubbed together on his neck, the rings set in his leather
armour were shining in the sun. He had his spear drawn back ready as if he was
expecting to sight a quarry at any moment. He looked like a hero in a song, like
Young Lew going to fight at the Plain of the Towers. But there was still nothing
to fight. The countryside rolled here, with green fields spread out on either side of
the track with the young corn green and growing. Ferdia hadn’t seen so much as
the tail of any animal but those hares since they had left Ardmachan, and they
must be almost to the borders of Connat.

Ferdia sighed and got his eyes back to the space between his horses where they
ought to be. You had to pay attention all the time to drive a chariot, it wasn’t at all
like a cart. Even going slowly was fast enough to tangle the traces and bring the
horses to their knees, and maybe lame them or worse. Ferdia had gone off over his
head a few times before getting the hang of it, and once Finca ap Inis had called
him a clumsy oaf and said he’d have killed his left for sure if she hadn’t been
there to catch them. He had a good pair today; he doubted if King Conary had a
better pair in his stables, except for his own, which Laig was driving. He had
given Darag his own pair and his own chariot. It was an incredible sign of favour.
He had been very kind to Ferdia too. These were very good. They were better than
any he had ever driven in practice. They were both six year olds, used to working

together, one bay and one dun, both with the sprinkling of white hairs on their
muzzles that marks a hardy horse. They had been going steadily all afternoon
without complaint. If he did not kill today he could not blame them. Nor could his
father blame King Conary for sending him out badly equipped. He had even
refused his offer of an experienced charioteer.

“A hare would make a useless trophy to show in the hall,” Darag said. “Don’t
be afraid, Laig, we’ll find something better. A stag. Or a wolf. Or a boar. Or even
a bear. A bear would be best of all.”

Darag was always so sure about everything. Ferdia, who was never sure, who
always stopped and thought things through two or three times, found Darag ’s
certainty compelling. “I’m not afraid,” Laig said. “A bear each would suit me.”
Ferdia had been on a bear hunt once with his father, and all the champions of
Lagin. He would have been worried by Laig’s overconfidence if this was anything
like bear country.

“My kill would count for yours as well, you’re my charioteer,” Darag said. “If
we found a big bear and all three of us killed it together that would count for all
three.”

“But there aren’t any bears in the southern part of Oriel,” Laig said. “And we’re
coming round in a loop and this road leads back to Ardmachan.”

“It does?” Ferdia asked, startled. Sometimes Ferdia wished he’d never left
Lagin where he knew every stone and tree, and, even better, felt that they knew
him. All the same, he should have been able to tell by the shadows if he was
paying attention. The next moon would mark the feast of Bel. That meant by the
shadows there were three more hours of daylight and they were indeed heading
back north-east.

“I forgot you wouldn’t know,” Darag said. “Sometimes it seems as if you’ve
always been here, not just since midwinter.” That offhand comment made Ferdia
feel welcome all through. “The road does lead back to the dun. I didn’t want to
exhaust the horses. But don’t worry, it goes back through the woods. There are
always animals there, it’s where people go to hunt.”

“So why didn’t we go there first?” Laig asked.

“Do you need a charioteer?” Darag asked.

Ferdia glanced at Darag again. He was actually leaning towards him. “Do you
want to kill yourself?” he asked, getting his eyes back where they belonged. He
could see the trees up ahead. He looked forward to the shade. He hoped the woods
would be teeming with wildlife. Even a hare, even a squirrel would be better than
going back with nothing.

Darag laughed, a little uneasily. “Not even when I am ready to throttle Laig,”
he said. “I am no charioteer. We should have brought Nid.”

“I would have, though nobody drives you but me,” Laig said. “She’d have been

glad enough to drive Ferdia. But she was playing fidchell, and there was no
getting her away from Leary. He would have wanted to know and wanted to
come. He’s going to be spitting furious when he finds out.”

“Not half as furious as Conal’s going to be,” Ferdia said, laughing.

Going to the king and asking to take up arms on the fortunate day had been
Darag’s idea. It had taken Ferdia to see the advantage of not telling the others. It
wasn’t just that they would be men and great warriors, and the others would not.
That would be churlish, for a great warrior wants other great warriors around him.
The real advantage was to Darag, for it would put him clearly ahead of his cousins
in the rivalry for Oriel. King Conary’s children were dead, it was very likely that
one of his nephews would be chosen to be king after him. Darag just seemed to
assume it would be him, but Ferdia knew that sometimes things didn’t work out
like that. Darag was the best champion, but Leary was tough and Conal was
clever, and anything that would give Darag an advantage when it came to
choosing was a good thing. Ferdia meant to do everything he could to see that
when he was king of Lagin, Darag would be king of Oriel, so they would still be
equals. It would be ridiculous for Darag to be set below him or have to be polite
to him. They would both be kings and both be friends and Lagin and Oriel would
never go to war. They would always fight together against Muin and Connat and
Anlar and the Isles, especially Anlar, whose king Lew ap Ross was a boring old
windbag.

“What’s that?” Laig said, drawing his pair to a halt. Ferdia had been so far off
in his thoughts that he was surprised to find they were deep under the shade of the
trees. He hadn’t heard anything, but he was glad of a moment’s rest. He halted
beside his friends and spat, clearing his mouth of the dust of the road. He took a
mouthful of water from the skin at his belt, and put it back to stop himself from
taking as much as he wanted and draining the skin.

“Could it be deer?” Darag asked.

Ferdia listened for a moment. “Sounds a lot more like horses to me,” he said.

“Better let whoever it is pass, then,” Laig said, drawing his chariot over to the
side.

Darag put his head on one side as if he were listening too. “No, let’s go and
find them,” he said.

Ferdia twitched the traces and the horses responded at once with a surge
forward. A moment later the other chariot came up beside him. They went
forward along the track through the trees. The trees along the right side of path
were a line of planted alders, so although he had never been here before, Ferdia
wasn’t at all surprised when the woods widened out ahead and there was a mere
on his right, full of reeds and rushes. What did surprise him was the sight of two
other chariots, drawn up facing the water. The nearest was Nid, driving Leary, and

the other with little Emer of Connat, driving Conal. Ferdia could hardly take it in
that they were there at all.

“Ah, greetings cousin,” Conal said, bowing in his typical sardonic way. “Have
you made a kill yet?” His eyes ran over their empty chariots. “No? What a pity.”
Emer laughed. Ferdia scowled.

“I wondered if you might make it after all,” Darag said, in perfect good
humour. “No, we have seen nothing all day. How about you?”

“We have only been out an hour, and naturally we used our wits and made
straight for the woods as the most likely source of game,” Conal said. “But we
have seen nothing yet worthy of our spears.”

He was also holding his spear. He didn’t look as good as Darag, but only
because his chariot wasn’t moving. Conal had the sort of smooth good looks that
made Ferdia want to break his nose.

“Why are you stopped here?” he asked.

“We were looking what birds are on the water,” Nid said.

Ferdia looked at the water. Moorhens, and a handful of ducks. He enjoyed
eating duck as much as anyone, but it wasn’t game for a warrior, they were caught
with nets. Anyway, they couldn’t be killed now, unless someone was likely to
starve to death otherwise. It was late spring. They might be nesting.

“There’s nothing,” Faig said, after a moment.

“We were just looking,” Feary said, gruffly.

“Well, since we have met, cousin, should we hunt together or separately?”
Conal asked.

Ferdia longed to answer that they should separate, but looked to Darag for a
response. As he turned he saw them, gasped and pointed. Darag immediately
turned to see, spear ready. A flight of six swans was coming down towards the
mere, dark against the sky. Swans were warrior’s game, if speared from the sky.
They might not be as good as a bear, but they were a lot better than a squirrel.

His spear was in the charioteer’s slot beside him. With the chariot stopped and
facing towards them it was much easier than it would have been. He drew the
spear, chose a swan, aimed and threw. He knew almost at once that he had
missed. But even as he realized, he saw that Darag had hit. He saw another spear
miss and plunge into the water. He was surprised Conal or Feary had even tried,
from that angle it would be quite impossible. Darag’s spear struck the swan
cleanly, as cleanly as any such hit Ferdia had ever seen, and it fell straight down,
into the water. The other swans landed, swishing in one by one and settling to sit
serenely on the surface. They turned and honked angrily. Ferdia wondered if they
knew they were safe on the water.

“I hit it!” Darag said. “Bad luck, Ferdia. You were very close”

“You didn’t have anyone to hold your chariot still,” Faig said.

“There’ll be another chance,” Ferdia said, furious with himself. “Will you hold
my traces while I get my spear?” He handed the traces to Laig and stumped off
towards his spear. He could see it clearly against some fallen leaves already half
returned to loam. It was a good cast, though that was no consolation as he hadn’t
hit, all it meant was further to go to get it back. The ground was very muddy. He
wiped the spear on some moss as he retrieved it.

When he got back, Darag and Leary and Conal had all got down and were
looking at the floating body of Darag’s swan, a tall man’s length from the edge of
the water.

“My spear is sunk forever,” Conal said, with a wry smile. “If we didn’t need
the swan for you to show, I’d suggest leaving it.”

“My mother keeps dogs to bring back game,” Emer said, staring out over the
water.

“So do we. We just didn’t think to bring any,” Leary said.

“I’ll fetch it back,” Laig said. “It’s part of my job. I was only waiting for
Ferdia. Here, have your reins back.”

Ferdia was in no hurry to take up the reins again. He ignored Laig. “I might be
able to reach it with my spear,” he said. He took a couple of careful steps into the
water and reached with his spear, hoping to hook the swan and have it drift
towards them. The live swans were moving away elegantly. The dead one was a
revolting object, all its grace gone. He could almost reach. The surface beneath
his boots was made up of slippery mud and the roots of reeds and trees.

“You’ll get very dirty if you fall in,” Conal said, in his mocking way. Ferdia
took another step, less carefully, and slipped. He went down on one knee, and
instinctively put his left hand down to save himself. The bottom squirmed away
under his hand. His right hand, holding the spear, reached the swan and poked it
further away. His breeches were soaked. Beyond caring now, he pulled himself to
his feet and waded out towards the swan. The water was thigh deep. One of the
live swans glided towards him, hissing ominously. He wondered if it was the mate
of the one Darag had killed. He knew it was wrong to spear a bird on the water,
but did that apply to self defence? The swan’s beak looked quite threatening.
Ferdia made a warding gesture with his spear, hoping to scare it off. At the same
moment he grabbed the dead swan with his left hand and took a step back towards
shore. Then another swan got inside his guard and made a determined strike at
Ferdia ’s right knee, hard, and he went down again, going right under the water
this time, dropping the dead swan and almost losing his spear. He pulled himself
half up and used the spear like a quarterstaff to push the swans away.

He could hear Conal laughing, and some of the others as well.

“Hold on Ferdia, I’m coming,” Darag called from shore.

“I’m all right,” he said, though he wasn’t. He heard Darag splashing into the

water. He attempted to stand up straight. His armour was heavy and his knee hurt
where the swan had hit him. The water was all churned up with mud and he
couldn’t see the bottom at all now. There were big bubbles breaking all around
him. At least he’d made the swans back off a little, though they weren’t far away.
He made another grab for the dead swan just as everything exploded.

He had been in the water, and now he was looking down on the water. He had
been standing, or crouching at least, now he was upside down. The swans had
been going for him, but now he was being squeezed around his waist. He tried to
see what was squeezing him, but he couldn’t make it out. It seemed to be a huge
silver coil. That made sense, because there were other huge silver coils coming
out of the water. Darag was in the water, fighting the coils with a spear. Leary
wasn’t far from him, also with a spear. This made Ferdia remember that he ought
to have a spear himself. He looked around for one. There was a spear stuck hard
in the smooth coil, though it was not bleeding. It was quivering slightly and stuck
quite far in. Ferdia wondered if he had put it there, though it looked as if it had
been thrown there. He stretched his arm to see if he could reach it, and found his
arm encircled with another loop, a thinner one. People were shouting, but the
sound of thrashing water drowned them out.

What was this thing anyway? It was like a snake, but everyone knew there were
no snakes in Tir Isarnagiri. And where was its head? He looked up, and saw
nothing but sky. He was starting to feel faint from lack of breath. The coil seemed
to be moving him downwards towards the water. There was a huge splash and he
was immersed in the mud and water again. He struggled, but the harder he
struggled the more the loop squeezed him. Just as he was about to give up and try
to breathe water someone rolled him over. He just lay there for a moment,
breathing. Breathing was wonderful. He was on his back in quite shallow water.
Close above him were Conal and Emer, laughing. They both held big knives, or
maybe funny little swords, and were soaked and muddy.

Ferdia sat up, gasping, and saw Darag, still holding a spear, looking concerned.
“Are you all right?” he asked. There was nothing behind him but Leary and Nid,
muddy and dripping, both their spears running with water.

“Where did it go?” Ferdia asked, and coughed painfully.

“We killed it,” Emer said, then amended herself. “Conal killed it.”

“Emer killed it,” Conal said, bowing. “You’re a true warrior, not a charioteer.”

“I’d much rather be your charioteer,” she muttered.

“If you killed it, where’s the body?” Laig interrupted. Ferdia looked to the
bank. Laig was standing there dry and clean holding the traces of both chariots.

“It melted away when we killed it,” Emer said.

“What was it?” Ferdia asked. “Was it a snake?”

“It may have been,” Conal said. “I’ve never seen one, but it was like the way

they are in songs.” He leaned down and offered his empty hand to Ferdia and
pulled him to his feet. The water wasn’t even up to his knees here. Now he could
breathe again he felt chilled all through. He took a step towards the bank and
stubbed his toe on something hard. He saw a gleam through the murky water and
bent for it. It was his spear. He pulled it out and leaned on it.

“I didn’t know they were so big,” Nid said. She looked cold as well, her teeth
were chattering. “And I didn’t know about the wings. I thought it was like a huge
swan.”

“What wings?” Ferdia asked, puzzled.

“I didn’t see any wings. It had scales like snakes are supposed to, but I think it
was a great big fish,” Leary said.

Ferdia looked about for the dead swan he had come into the water for. There
was no sign of it. There was no sign of any life at all, except for one solitary
moorhen cowering in the reeds.

“It wasn’t a swan or a fish or a snake, and we didn’t kill it,” Darag said. If it
hadn’t been impossible, Ferdia would have thought there were tears in his voice.
He must have swallowed some of the water. “She was the Guardian of the
Creatures of the Island of Tir Isarnagiri, and it’s all my fault and I nearly got you
killed, Ferdia. I shouldn’t have killed the swan, I knew it was out of season.”

“The swan was flying,” objected Leary. “You’re allowed to spear swans in the
sky all year round.”

“But he was coming down, and he fell in the water,” Darag said.

“//'it was the Beastmother, and I do not for one moment concede that it was,”
Conal said, his voice like sharpened ice, “Then how is it that you know this and
we do not?”

“It’s just how things are,” Darag said. He ran his wet hand through his wet hair.
“I know you won’t believe I don’t do this sort of thing on purpose, Con, but if I
could be free of it I would. I’d happily give it to you and have it be you who hit
the swan and you that Rhianna spoke to. It’s as if everything I do has significance
beyond anything I would want for it. I can’t just come out and kill an animal and
go back a man, something has to happen to make it special. It’s as if nothing of
my life belongs to me and all of it is tied to something else. It’s as if I don’t have
any choices. Everything I do is ringed about with strangeness. I saw a target and
went for it and I could have got Ferdia killed.” He sounded completely despairing.

“Ap Fathag said — ” Emer began, but Conal raised a hand and she fell silent.

“Any of us could have done the same,” Conal said. “But speaking to the gods is

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“It was because he killed the swan,” Leary said. “He’s the king’s nephew, we
all are, she would have spoken to any of us if we’d killed it. I didn’t even throw,
impossible shot from where I was. You missed, lost your spear. Darag hit it, we

all fought the Guardian, whatever it was. When we did well enough against her
she relented, spoke to Darag to tell him what he did so he wouldn’t do it again.
That’s all.”

“And I’m all right,” Ferdia said, to Darag, as reassuringly as he could. “Really I
am.” Darag came nearer and embraced him, wordlessly. Ferdia hugged him back,
as if they were family.

“Did we kill it?” Nid asked. “Or do we have to go and look for something
else?”

“Emer killed it, but it counts for all of us,” Conal said, doggedly. “The same as
it would in a boar hunt.”

“No head,” Leary said, briefly, looking around as if hoping to find one.
“Supposed to show the head in the hall.”

“They will have to take our word,” Emer said.

Conal laughed suddenly. “Yes, they will. After all, would they accuse all of us
of jumping in a duck pond to muddy our clothes and making up a story about it?”
He bowed to Emer and took her arm to escort her out of the water, for all the
world as if they were going in to dinner.

Ferdia shook his head at Darag. “Will they believe us?” he asked.

“They’ll have to,” Darag said fiercely.

In the end it didn’t matter, because a herd of deer crossed their path on the way
out of the wood so they had venison enough to feast all king’s hall.

II - The Feast of Bel

1. (Conal)

Conal feinted high and thrust low. Emer blocked smoothly, then signalled a stop.
They both stepped back.

The grass behind the smithy was flattened in a rough circle. They had been
coming here to practice alone for half a month now. It was as private a place as
there was in reach of Ardmachan. Conal had found it three years ago. The willow-
bordered stream ran out of the trees and alongside the low stone smithy. This
patch was one of the very few pieces of land outside the dun bare of trees and not
planted with crops. The smith kept a cow, but she did not mind her pasture being
trampled. And the smith didn’t mind the noise, he always made enough himself.
Conal had come to an arrangement with the smith. When the cow was ready, he
would bring his father’s great bull down to her, and this kept the smith in milk and
cheese and meat, or even profit if it should be a heifer which he could trade. The
smith was well pleased with this bargain, always greeted Conal kindly and
sometimes even brought him out a cup of milk on hot days. Amagien knew
nothing about it, but it suited Conal very well. Inside the dun there was plenty of
room for practising. But inside the dun there were also the others.

“What’s wrong?” Conal asked. She couldn’t be tired already. She wasn’t even
breathing hard.

“Nothing,” she said. “Just getting my balance a moment. You’re right about
how different it is using the blades.”

“I’m not going to hurt you,” he said. He wouldn’t have agreed to it if he wasn’t
sufficiently confident of his control of the sword. He had always been told never
to practice steel against steel, but Emer had wanted to so much, and he knew he
could stop.

She laughed. “Of course not.” Conal felt a sudden wave of protectiveness, a
desire not just to avoid hurting her but to keep her from being hurt by anything,
ever. “But I suddenly realised I could hurt you. The next move after the block
would be — ” she mimed the upward strike, slowly.

“Yes, and I would block,” Conal said, bringing his shield round equally slowly.

“We’ve done this with the wooden swords. You’re fast, and you’re getting much
smoother.”

“But if you didn’t block in time, I could hurt you. With a wooden sword that
doesn’t matter.” Conal grinned wryly. They had both felt the force of the wooden
swords in the time they had been training hard together. “Well, if you don’t count
bruises it doesn’t matter,” she amended. “But with this if 1 don’t stop, I could gut
you. And I know I shouldn’t be thinking about stopping.”

“You’re right, it’s the last thing,” Conal said, seriously. He sat down, and
patted the ground beside him. For a wonder, the grass was quite dry. Emer sat,
obediently, quite close. “That’s what Meithin always says, and I see now how
right she is. That’s why we always practice with wooden blades. If you learn to
pull your blows then you’ll pull one in battle, when you need to be gutting
someone. And they won’t do the same and then you’ll be the one who’s dead.”

As he was speaking the smith’s hammer stopped for a moment, and the last
word came out unnecessarily loud in the sudden silence. The sound of the stream
came to him clearly, and a bird singing in the woods.

“Have you ever fought anyone, for real?” Emer asked, quietly.

“Not with swords.” Conal didn’t want to think about the times he’d fought
Darag. He wasn’t sure it counted anyway, real as those fights were, they weren’t
trying to kill each other, only to win. “Only that thing in the water.”

“That wasn’t at all the same,” Emer said, turning her sword in her hand. “It
didn’t have hands or a head. It was a monster. I just wanted to stop it. It wasn’t
like fighting a person. I didn’t use any technique until you told me to cut through
it with you.”

“We were very lucky, I think,” Conal said.

The hammering started up again, louder than ever.

“It felt different from practising,” Emer said, raising her voice. “I think fighting
people for real would feel different again.”

“I think so too,” Conal said. He hesitated, looking at her, still feeling strangely
protective. “You don’t have to fight if you don’t want to,” he said.

Emer looked startled. “Of course I want to! Do you mean you don’t think I’m
good enough to be your charioteer after all?”

“You’re better with the chariot than a lot of charioteers already,” Conal said.
“Even my mother says so, and my mother never gives more praise than she need.
I didn’t mean that at all. It’s what I want. But if you would rather not fight and
kill, rather stay home safe, nobody would think any the worse of you, and I would
defend — ”

Even as he found the words he knew he was saying the wrong thing.

“I think you are mistaking me for my sister,” Emer said, her voice very hard.
She turned her face away, wiping it on her sleeve.

“I’m sorry,” Conal said, after a moment. “I wasn’t mistaking you for anyone
else. I just — ” Her hair was tightly braided, as if to go under a leather battle-cap,
she seemed all eyes, as always. She wasn’t beautiful, like Elenn. But she was
unmistakably herself. He wanted to take her him his arms and kiss her. He wished
she weren’t so young. “You are special, and I want to keep you safe.”

She turned her head back, her eyes still bright with tears, but there was anger in
her voice. “And how would you feel if I said that to you?”

He thought about it for a moment, giving it consideration. “Treated like a
child,” he admitted.

“Well then!” she retorted, and threw a piece of grass at him. It landed on the
leather practice coat around his chest. He looked at it for a long moment as it
moved with his breathing. “I want to defend you, and be defended by you,” she
said. “I want to be your charioteer and fight beside you.”

Conal reminded himself again how young she was, almost a year younger than
he was, not even seventeen yet. “Yes,” he said. “And later, not yet, later, in a few
years time, we could get married, and keep on fighting together.”

Emer didn’t say anything for a moment, and he thought he had spoiled
everything. Then she put her hand on top of his where it lay on the grass. “It
would be like a song,” she said, quietly. “If my mother would let us.”

“You said she wanted to marry you to Darag,” Conal said. He felt far more
aware of his hand where hers touched him than of anything else. “There are no
bloodfeuds between our houses. I am of the royal kin of Oriel. If she would
consider Darag, I ought to do as well, if not better. Through my father I am also of
the royal kin of Anlar.”

“Maybe we could persuade her,” Emer said. She ran her long fingers over the
back of his hand. He shivered. “It isn’t blood she is concerned about, but
alliances. Kings.” Emer frowned.

“Darag is not bound to be king of Oriel,” Conal said. He felt as if his hand was
his whole body, his whole existence. He wanted to move, to put his other hand on
her hand, but he dared not. “And surely if you tell your mother your preference
she will take account of it.”

“My father might,” Emer said, biting her lip. “My mother thinks if Elenn is
married to Ferdia and he is king of Lagin, and I am married to Darag and he is
king of Oriel then they will do what we say.”

“That’s nonsense,” Conal said. “I mean when my father married my mother I
am sure my grandfather Ross of Anlar and everyone here meant it to be an
alliance to bind Anlar and Oriel. But we go to war with Anlar whenever we want,
and my father goes along and takes care not to kill his friends and then makes up
songs about it afterwards.”

“Maga’s plan is that we should make the marriages as alliances for Connat

before anything else, and use our wiles to keep our husbands firm to our alliance,”
Emer said, screwing up her face. “She is full of good advice about how to do this,
and how to be a queen, all of which sounds the most vile nonsense. Not to
mention that it demonstrably doesn’t work, or she and Allel wouldn’t fight so
much. But she says that if we do it right there will be nobody to attack Connat
except Muin.”

“Or Anlar, or the Isles,” Conal objected. “But no, I suppose Anlar couldn’t
attack except through Oriel, and the Isles would have to attack by sea, and I
suppose that’s why she wants your brother to marry Atha.”

“She doesn’t want him to!” Emer said, surprised. Her hand stopped moving,
and Conal’ s breath caught. “My father wanted him to, but Maga says that Atha is
a famous warrior and will always want to be fighting someone.”

“She would, you know,” Conal said, grinning at the thought. “I met her when
she was here last year. She’s not happy sitting still. She had the champions racing
and playing hurley all day and dancing all night. My aunt Elba kept threatening to
take to her bed with exhaustion, and my mother kept forcing her to join in with
dire threats.”

Emer laughed, and stroked his hand again. “I wish I’d seen that. Is Atha really
as ugly as people say?”

“No, nothing like. She’s not pretty, but she wouldn’t crack a plate either. Just
like anyone. But I hear she always spikes her hair and paints herself ugly all over
for battle.”

“Does she fight naked then?” Emer asked.

“Apparently. Almost all the champions of the Isles do. I haven’t seen her in war
paint. But that’s what my mother said.”

“It shows great trust in the gods,” Emer said, dubiously. “Our people paint their
faces and arms and legs, but they wear armour where it will cover.”

“Very sensible of them,” Conal said. “But you’re right that Atha fights in a
frenzy, and your mother is right that she’s not be happy without fighting. Besides,
I have heard that she might be going to marry Urdo ap Avren.”

“Really? And go off to Tir Tanagiri and fight the Jarnsmen?”

“Ah, that’s the snag. Urdo would like that, no doubt, but she’d like him to send
her some horse-warriors to fight against us.”

Emer rolled her eyes and took back her hand. “Marriage alliances!” she said.
“This is getting like dinner conversation at home.”

“I wasn’t talking about an alliance, except incidentally,” Conal said. Now he
was free to move he reached out his hand, meaning to take hers back, but she
moved, and she was in his arms and he was kissing the top of her smoothly
braided head. Her scent was stronger than the scent of the grass. He felt
overwhelmed. “Emer!” he said. “Emer!” The hammering stopped again. “Emer,”

he whispered into her hair.

He knew exactly what he wanted to do, though he knew he wasn’t going to do
it. She might be a grown woman before the law but she was not seventeen yet,
and she was his uncle’s fosterling. No matter what his father said he wasn’t an
irresponsible boy. He could master his desires. But she turned her face up and
looked at him, and in her eyes was such trust that he almost wanted to close his
own eyes. “Conal,” she said, very quietly.

Then there was a hesitant cough, and they leapt apart as if they had suddenly
grown red hot. It was the smith, bringing a cup of milk as he often did on hot
days.

He held the wooden cup out to Conal, who stood and took it, awkwardly.

“Shall I bring some more for the lady?” the smith asked, slyly, looking at Emer.

Conal’ s first thought was to say no and get the man away as fast as he could,
begging him not to tell anyone what he had seen. Then the things he had learned
took over. If he acted guiltily everyone would assume that there was something to
be guilty about. Nothing would make the man gossip more than him trying to stop
him. Much better to act as if there was nothing unusual. “Yes, thank you very
much,” he said, casually, sipping he milk. “How do you keep the milk so cool on
such a warm day?” he asked. Emer was sitting down with her back to them.

“Well, now, I keep the bucket in the stream,” the smith said.

“What a good idea. I shall have to tell my mother about that,” Conal said. “I
suppose you have an iron bucket?”

The smith laughed. “Iron fittings on it,” he said. “A bucket all of iron would be
too heavy.”

“Of course,” Conal said. “I was thinking you could have made one without the
carpenter.”

“Iron fittings, and the wood swelled to be water-tight, for a bucket” he said.
“Ell fetch some more milk for the lady now.”

Emer looked round when he had gone. “How could you talk so calmly?” she
demanded.

Conal laughed. “I’m good at that,” he said.

“I know, I’ve seen, but even so. My face was burning. It still is. I’ve never been
so embarrassed in my life.”

“We weren’t doing anything wrong,” Conal said, draining his cup.

“My mother would scream for days,” Emer said. “Worse, she’d make me come
home. She may anyway. She may not like my taking up arms.” She bit her lip
again.

“Surely she’ll take it all right?” Conal was alarmed. “Uncle Conary sent ap Usli
to explain, and he’s good at explaining. She won’t really make you go home, will
she?”

“I’ve begged Elenn not to ask her to,” Emer said. “And she wrote as well.
Maga takes more notice of her. But Maga didn’t want us to come away. Ap Usli
could be back by now, if she had been happy, it’s only five days to Cruachan.”

“They’ll have asked him to stay for the Feast of Bel,” Conal said, “I can’t see
what Maga can object to, really, when it was a fortunate day.”

The smith came back out, with another cup of milk. Emer took it and thanked
him seriously. They all bowed, then he went back inside and began clattering
again.

“It will be the Feast of Bel in three days,” Emer said, drinking her milk.

“Yes?” Conal said. Then he remembered what that meant. “No,” he said, in a
different tone. The Feast of Bel had three meanings. The first was that the season
of planting was over and the season of war could begin, between planting and
harvest. The second was the renewal of the ancient ward that protected evil from
coming to the island of Tir Isarnagiri. The third was the dance of fruitfulness.
Everyone danced it once, around the relit fires, that the crops and the beasts
should be fruitful in the next year. Then, after the children were sent to bed, it was
danced again by men and women. Conal had heard that nobody ever asked where
anyone had slept on the Feast of Bel. It was a time when the gods came into the
world in disguise looking for willing partners, a time when women whose
husbands had not given them enough children could seek a more fruitful coupling,
and a time when many married couples would try to kindle children in the fields
who had not come to the marriage bed. So many children were conceived at the
Feast of Bel that the Feast of Mother Breda came exactly nine months later.

“Nobody asks where anyone sleeps on the Feast of Bel, and we are adults
now,” Emer said, smiling in a way that made Conal want to hold her again.

“You are not done growing, you are too young to bear children yet,” Conal
said. His voice came out almost as a growl. “Besides, if we go to war with the
Isles this summer you won’t want to be feeling sick as the chariot lurches.”

Emer frowned. “But I’m not married, and unmarried women don’t have
babies.”

“They do after the Feast of Bel,” Conal assured her. “If the gods want them to.
That’s what it’s all about.”

“My mother never explains things properly,” Emer said, crossly.

Conal had heard tales of what Maga did on the Feast of Bel. He didn’t like to
think what she might have told Emer. “There will be plenty of other chances,”
Conal said, stooping to pick up the wooden swords. “But not yet.” He tossed a
sword to Emer. She caught it left-handed, she still had the cup in her right hand.

“Not here,” she said, looking at the smithy and setting the cup down. “Not in
the dun, not anywhere in the dun.”

“No, there’s no privacy there unless you have your own house,” Conal agreed.

“If we get married we could have our own house. Next year, maybe.”

“You could sleep in the king’s hall now if you wanted,” Emer said, picking up
her shield and getting into position.

“I’m not ready to fight that battle with my father,” Conal said. “I need to do it
from a position of strength. He isn’t ready to see me as a man yet.”

“Anyway, apart from the poetic side of it, it wouldn’t do any good. I sleep with
Elenn and Nid.”

“What poem do you mean?” Conal asked, taking his stance.

“Really, for someone whose father is a poet anyone would think you never
heard any,” Emer said. “Cian’s poem ‘Spring’. He’s in love with a woman and
they both sleep in the king’s hall. ‘How can I sleep when your soft breathing fills
the air of the hall, echoes through the whole island’.”

Conal laughed. “Sounds to me as if she snores.”

Emer looked horrified for an instant, then began to laugh so hard she dropped
sword and shield and sat down abruptly.

“I’m not very poetic,” Conal said, apologetically.

“Oh that’s all right,” Emer said, when she could speak again. “It’s Elenn who
wants poetic. I just want you.”

Conal put out his hand and pulled her to her feet. “And I, you know I,” words
had always come easily to Conal, but now there didn’t seem to be enough of them
to say what he meant “I want you, too,” he said, clumsily, and angry with himself
for being clumsy. “Now pick your sword up, and let’s get back to it.”

“With the wooden blades?”

“Yes. Now I really understand why it’s not good to learn to stop, or to gut your
friends in training. We can use the real swords for practising alone. Or maybe we
could use them with ap Carbad, if he keeps coming down to morning practices the
way he has been this last few days. You wouldn’t mind if you gutted him.”

“Not in the slightest,” Emer said, sounding entirely as if she meant it. “No more
than I would an enemy. But he’s going to be very surprised tomorrow when he
sees how much better I am.”

They practised until hunger drove them back to the dun.

2. (Ferdia)

Ferdia’s father, Cethem, the king of Lagin, had told his son that there was no
point in drinking to drown your troubles, because troubles can swim. It was just as
well Ferdia knew this, or he would have been very tempted to try it. He kept out
of the way, leaning on the wall of the Speckled Hall, and looked at the reflection
of the lights in his ale. Everything had gone wrong. First he had unwittingly said
something to offend Darag. Then he’d been unable to get Darag alone to talk
about it properly. Leary had stuck to them like a leach, and Darag had seemed, as
so often lately, to want Elenn ap Allel to be with them.

Ferdia understood why, of course. Elenn was beautiful. He knew how beautiful
women liked to be talked to, and he was always polite. He had two older sisters,
and there were other girls his age at home in Emachan. He knew what they liked,
and she wasn’t any sillier than the rest of them. Besides, Darag was right, she was
nice to look at, and it did make a difference. Conal’s father had made up a poem
about how beautiful she was, which he hadn’t liked much. Leary had made up his
own afterwards, and then Darag had wanted to so they sat down to it together.

The best Ferdia could come up with was to say that the way she looked
reminded him of the smell of snowdrops. Darag didn’t understand, and asked how
a look could remind him of a smell. Ferdia wished he were better with words so
he could explain properly. It was something about the fragrance in the cold air,
with the loam smell and the green growing smell. He was thinking especially of a
wood near home where he always found the first snowdrops in the early spring.
That’s what she looked like to him, not how they looked, the smell. She looked
nothing like them, the green shoots in the dark earth and the nodding white
blossom, but there was something about the smell. Or maybe the taste of the very
first blackberries of autumn. Something like that. Darag laughed and said he’d
never be a poet. Ferdia knew that already.

All the same, he quite liked Elenn. Sooner or later, he knew, he’d have to marry
somebody, and if not for who her parents were, he wouldn’t at all have minded if
it turned out to be Elenn. It would be nice to have her around to look at, her
manners were very good, and a queen everyone thought was beautiful was an
asset to any kingdom. As it was, with her being Maga of Connat’s daughter, she
wasn’t even on his father’s list. Leary’s sister Orlam was, and from what he’d
seen of her today she’d probably do well enough, though she was a lot older than
him. That wasn’t so good. But a queen who was a lawgiver would be a good thing
for Lagin. Orlam seemed to be quick and clever, which would also be useful.

It was such a pity Darag didn’t have a sister. Then he could marry her and

Darag could marry his sister Locha. Or his sister Moriath, if Darag preferred her.
It didn’t matter which one. If they could have done that it would make them
brothers twice over. But Darag could marry one of his sisters and be his brother
anyway. Unless Darag insisted on marrying Elenn. That would spoil that plan. He
sighed and drank another mouthful of ale. She had been with them all spring. She
would be here until next spring, and he would have to go home at midwinter. He
had been hoping Darag might come with him and spend a year in Lagin. But not if
he wanted to stay with Elenn. She wasn’t so bad. She was always polite, and she
seemed to like him. He didn’t usually mind having her around at all. He didn’t
even mind Darag liking her. Usually.

Today it was different. He just wanted to talk to Darag about what he’d said,
and apologise. He doubted very much if Darag’ s mother had done anything she
shouldn’t. In any case, she was dead, and it was no reflection on Darag. He just
wanted to say sorry, but he couldn’t get Darag on his own, even for a moment. It
wasn’t as if Darag wanted to be with Elenn as well as Ferdia, it was as if he
wanted to be with her instead. The only way Ferdia could think of to deal with
this was to act as if he really wanted to stay with Elenn. Leary was doing the
same, as usual. So they had ended up in a nonsensical wrangle about who Elenn
was going to dance with, which Ferdia realized half way through he could only
lose whatever happened. What he wanted was to dance with Darag, and they
couldn’t do that. This wasn’t a dance men could do together, the dances of Bel
were men and women dances. Conary had taught them that when they realized the
thing they wanted wasn’t on the table, it was time to stop negotiating.
Unfortunately, as so often, life turned out more complicated.

He danced with Elenn. She danced very well, in the southern fashion of Connat
and Lagin and Muin, quite unlike the way it was done in Oriel and the Isles. He
could feel Leary shooting him jealous glances as they danced. He hoped Darag
wasn’t doing the same. He tried not to look. After the dance, he took her safely
back to the Red Hall, with the children. Elenn hadn’t taken up arms with the rest
of them, so she had to go inside. She said she wanted to. Ferdia smiled and said
she was taking the light inside with her. He had heard his father saying that. There
was a guard on the door of the Red Hall, to stop the children coming out again. It
was gray-haired Senna, leaning sleepily on her spear. He supposed she had grown
too old to mind missing the rest of the feast.

He had came straight back, and he couldn’t find Darag. He had found Nid, who
had danced the first dance with Darag. She had drunk more ale than was good for
her and insisted on kissing Ferdia for luck. And after that, she didn’t even know
where Darag was, only that he had been dancing with Orlam when she had last
seen him.

The dun was crowded. There were people and animals everywhere, all moving.

It was impossible to find anyone. The music never stopped, when one player got
tired they handed their harp on to another. Ferdia realized after a while that as
everyone was moving, he had more chance of finding Darag if he stayed in one
place. So he had been leaning against the Speckled Hall, watching the crowd. He
had seen lots of people, but not Darag. He hadn’t seen Conal either.

Then he spotted Laig. Laig was drunk. His clothes were disordered and his hair
was rumpled. Ferdia thought almost everyone looked better with their hair tied
back. He didn’t know why keeping it loose at festivals was a sign of respect for
the gods. If he was a god he’d prefer people to stay tidy. If there was ever a
chance to mention it to Inis ap Fathag, he thought he might do, because it would
be interesting to know. Just looking at Laig made Ferdia want to straighten and
smooth down his own hair. Elenn’s hair always looked smooth, he wondered how
she did that.

“Have you seen Darag?” he asked.

Laig stopped and ran a hand backwards through his hair, which might have
accounted for the state it was in, except that it also seemed to have grass in it.
“Yes, he’s down by the hurley field,” he said, his voice slurring a little. “But don’t
go and disturb him. Tonight all the young married women are looking for dancing
partners. Darag’s got his hands full. Even I have had offers. More than offers.”
Laig leaned towards Ferdia confidingly. Ferdia shrank back a little from the ale on
his breath. “That’s where I was,” he said. “Pressing the grass flat. Ploughing the
fields. And with a champion too. I won’t tell you her name, that isn’t the thing to
do, but definitely not one of the ugly ones.”

As Ferdia remembered Conary’s champions, that left two possibilities, and one
of them had three children already. Though Laig might be counting charioteers as
champions, being a charioteer himself, which left much more scope. Not that
Ferdia wanted to guess, but how could anyone avoid it when he said things like
that? “Well done,” he said, because Laig was definitely expecting some such
response.

“You should try it yourself,” Laig said. “Plenty of them would want you, being
a king’s son. You’d be even more popular than Darag, and Darag is very
popular.” He laughed.

Ferdia shook his head, absolutely certain. “I don’t want to,” he said.

Laig giggled. “You might find you liked it if you tried it. But it’s up to you.
The unwilling gift isn’t a gift at all, better a gift unoffered than a gift spurned, and
all that. Well, I’m going to find more ale and then see what other dances I can
learn tonight.”

He wandered away unsteadily. Ferdia set down his own cup in sudden disgust.
There wasn’t anything here for him. He wished he was back home in Lagin. He
wished he were still a child to go to bed after the first dance. He thought he might

as well go to bed anyway as stand here watching the people dancing in the
firelight. The only thing that stopped him was the thought that it wouldn’t be quiet
enough to sleep for hours yet. Standing here wasn’t good, but being inside awake
listening might be worse. Ferdia hesitated, then decided he could always stuff his
blanket into his ears. He set off through the press towards the Red Hall.

Everyone seemed to be laughing and touching. Several women, some he barely
knew, insisted on kissing him for luck. He realized that Laig was right, he would
have no trouble finding partners if he wanted them. He was quite sure he didn’t,
not at all. He was glad to win safely to the shelter of the Red Hall. He made his
way to the other side of the building, where the door was, away from the crowd.

Old Senna had left the door, there was nobody there now but Inis, who was
sitting on a stool by the door, rocking to and fro a little. He did not look up until
Ferdia was almost up to him. His eyes seemed very bright in the lantern-light.

“Well met on the Feast of Bel, son of Cethem,” Inis said.

“Well met, ap Fathag,” Ferdia said, uncomfortably. He wanted to get past Inis
and go in to bed. He hated the necessity of being polite while making sure to ask
no questions, even the most innocent.

“Not dancing?” Inis asked.

“I’ve had enough of it for tonight,” Ferdia said. “I’m tired and ready for my
bed.”

“Seeking your lonely bed,” Inis said.

Ferdia didn’t know if he was making a comment or quoting something. It
sounded like a quote, but it wasn’t any song he knew. He didn’t know if it was
something he might reasonably be expected to know but had never heard. With
Inis it could be something really unusual, or something from another country or
even another world. The worst, the absolute worst, would be if it was something
from another world written about him, now, and Inis knew that. The problem with
Inis was that he was both very mad and very wise, which made him just
impossible. Most people were limited in what they would say by politeness, but
never Inis. Sometimes Ferdia thought the Vincans were right to kill all the oracle-
priests or drive them out of their empire. But then Inis was especially rude even
for an oracle-priest. It might have been because he was the king’s father. Nobody
even dared reproach him.

Whatever Inis meant about the lonely bed, Ferdia didn’t want to talk to him
about it. He realised he’d just been staring at him for a long time without saying
anything.

“I don’t mind if it’s lonely as long as I can lie down,” he said, and faked a
yawn.

“Darag won’t be there,” Inis said, plainly.

Ferdia wanted a god to swoop down from the sky and catch him up to the

clouds. He wanted the hill to open so he could dive inside. He felt his cheeks
heating so much he feared that Inis would see. He swallowed, and tried hard for a
casual tone. “No, he’s still dancing. He’ll probably get to bed late. Or maybe not
until tomorrow.” He tried to sound amused, rather than distressed, and thought he
did quite well.

“I wish you could stay boys forever,” Inis said, and he sounded really sad.
What did that mean?

“Too late,” Ferdia said. “We are men already and have taken up arms.”

“He has killed the deer and the swan. Soon he will add a man. All of my
grandsons will, and you will fight too, son of Cethern.” Inis rocked again and
closed his eyes. Ferdia bit back questions. Soon must mean this summer, it had to.
He didn’t want to know more than that. He didn’t want to know anything. He
knew he would have to deal with oracle-priests all his life, but he just wanted to
do things without it all being doomed and prophesied. Often enough if you
listened to them you ended up worrying about things that didn’t happen anyway.
His father told him that. He took a step towards the door. Inis’s eyes shot open
again. Ferdia froze.

“So, though you are a man, you go to bed early on the Feast of Bel, like a boy?”
Inis asked.

“I’m tired,” Ferdia said, and was horrified to realise it came out like a whine,
like the child Inis said he was.

“This could be a night you would get strong sons,” Inis said.

Inis knew that sort of thing. Everyone knew that he did. He was one of the three
best reckoners of lucky days in the island of Tir Isamagiri. The story was that
years ago King Nessa had asked him what the day was fortunate for, and he had
replied that it was a lucky day for begetting a king on a king. As he was the only
man around, she had taken him to her bed, for all that she had a husband and he
had a wife, and the result was Conary. Nobody could deny that Conary was a
king, and one of the best kings Oriel had ever had. But even if Inis did know it,
what good would it do anyone? “I could beget sons, maybe, but not sons of my
house,” Ferdia said. “They would be neither heirs for Lagin, nor grandsons for my
father.”

“No,” Inis agreed. “But children of your body. Heirs for Mother Breda. A son
might come of this night who may not bear your name but who will take your face
down the years.”

“That would be a child denied to the wife I will one day marry,” Ferdia said.

“Now there is the thought of a man who would live long,” Inis said. Ferdia
stared at him again, the whole world narrowed to Inis on his stool. What did he
mean? That he was going to die soon? Or that he wasn’t?

“I have two sisters and a brother,” Ferdia said, at last, as the thought came to

him.

Inis smiled sadly and gestured to the darkness. “Then you may deny a wife
nothing, if you can find her here tonight.”

Ferdia didn’t want a wife, or a child, not yet, not now, not like this. He just
wanted to go inside and go to bed and maybe later Darag would come back and it
would be like every night. Or not. He didn’t want to do things Inis suggested,
wide things without edges. He didn’t want to go to the hurley field and lie down
with any of those laughing kissing teasing women. Yet to go inside past Inis now
would be like running away. Though to do something he did not want to do for
fear of Inis was also cowardice. What Laig had said to him earlier came back.
“The unwilling gift is no gift,” he said.

“No, it could not be unwilling,” Inis agreed calmly.

Then he stood up and walked away into the night, around the hall towards the
lights and the dancing, leaving Ferdia gaping. He hesitated. Nothing constrained
him now. He could go inside to bed. But he did not move. He stayed on the
threshold, thinking it through. He shrank from the thought of doing it. Yet
somehow it felt impious to turn aside from so clear an oracle. He wondered if this
was how Darag felt when Inis spoke of a fortunate day for taking up weapons. He
took a step towards the door, then stopped again. No man was bound to have
children. If he let this lucky time go, then the gods might never smile on him and
bless his eventual marriage bed. Inis’s words came back to him, the thought of a
man who will live long. That might have meant that he would die this summer. It
was a chance any champion took. Leaving a child of his getting in someone else’s
marriage bed would not make much difference. Did he want to leave a child who
would grow up like Darag, fumbling at questions about the Feast of Bel? That was
no legacy to leave. And yet, what if turning away now meant no child ever?

He turned and looked up at the moon, who looked back at him, offering no
counsel. “Help me, Nive,” he murmured. No answer came. Then around the
comer of the hall came a woman. Ferdia knew her a little, though he didn’t
remember her name or how to address her. She was one of the people who looked
after the king’s dogs. She smiled when she saw him. He didn’t know whether
Nive the Beautiful had sent her to him to make up his mind. But he decided he
should make a willing offering, if she had. The woman came straight up to him as
if they’d arranged to meet. She kissed him, and he embraced her. It felt strange.
He could feel the softness of her breasts pressed up against him, and for a moment
he wanted to push her away in revulsion. Then she took his hand and led him
down to the hurley field.

3. (Elenn)

When Finca shouted outside the door they all got up and dressed by candle-light,
getting in each other’s way. Nid kept yawning and complaining about having to
be up so early as if she didn’t care what day it was.

At home, they would all have had new clothes. Maga had sent new overdresses
for both girls, pale green with red and blue hatchings. Elenn smoothed hers down
carefully. It was the first dress she had had for years that she hadn’t worked on
herself. She had neither helped weave the length nor sewn the finished cloth. She
might have carded or spun the wool before she left home, and she found herself
hoping she had, that when Maga had come to choose the wool to weave she had
run her hands carefully along the store until she came to some Elenn had spun. It
was strange to wear a dress that had none of herself in it. She had only her old
shift to wear underneath. Maga had not sent one, and she had not thought in time
to beg Elba for wool and the use of her loom.

They did not seem to make new clothes for the Feast of Bel in Oriel. If they had
all been preparing, she would have remembered. But nobody had said anything
about it or been extra busy at the looms. Nid was wearing the overdress she
always did. Elenn had seen her wear it every time she’d seen her more dressed up
than the shift and jerkin she wore every day, like a boy. Nid’s hair, left bare and
unbound for the festival, looked like a rat’s nest. Elenn took up her comb, a very
good hawthorn comb her father had made. She combed her own hair smooth and
left it loose on her shoulders. She turned to Emer and was about to offer her the
comb when she saw that her sister was wearing her usual mottled heather-
coloured overdress.

“You forgot your new overdress,” Elenn said.

“It doesn’t fit,” Emer replied, untwisting her hair from her sleeping braid.

“How can it not fit? Mine fits.”

Emer shrugged and looked down. “Eve grown a lot since I left home.”

Elenn frowned. She had grown too, and her dress fit. But it was true that Emer
had grown a lot.

“You should have said before,” she said. “I’d have helped you let the seams
out. It’s fortunate to have new clothes for the Feast of Bel.”

“Is that a custom of Connat?” Nid asked.

“It’s what we say at home, yes,” Elenn said, trying not to sound as if she
thought less of Oriel for doing differently. Maga had warned her about that. She
had warned her about a lot of things, but not of the important one. She didn’t
think Maga had ever imagined the possibility of Emer’ s mutiny.

Emer still wasn’t meeting her sister’s eyes. “The dress isn’t long enough,” she
said.

“An overdress doesn’t need to be long,” Elenn said. “Let me see if I can do
anything with it.” She couldn’t force Emer to do anything any more. The last half
month had shown that only too clearly. But she could persuade her.

“There isn’t time,” Emer said, sulkily.

“She’s right,” Nid said. “It’ll be light soon. I need to find my parents and you
need to join the king.”

Without waiting for Elenn, or combing her hair, Emer took up the candle,
parted the curtain on the door and started out into the hall. Elenn and Nid had no
choice but to follow.

At home, Maga and Allel would have had every fire in the hall lit, ready to be
doused. Then they would lead their way around all the houses of the dun and
down into the village, making sure there was no fire anywhere before Maga made
the sunrise vow. Here, there were hardly any fires lit. Well, nobody could say it
had been cold. It was one of the warmest springs Elenn could remember.

The hall was dark and shadowed. King Conary was standing with Ferdia,
Darag, Leary and Leary’s parents. As Elenn came out of their room, Conal and his
parents came into the hall through the outside door, letting in a little dawn light
with them. Inis came in a little behind them. Emer went straight to Conal and
stood beside him, abandoning her sister. Nid joined a group of people going
outside, and slipped off to join her family.

“The fires in the dun are cold,” Finca reported.

Elenn walked over to stand by Ferdia and Darag. At least they looked pleased
to see her. Ferdia was even wearing new clothes. That made Elenn feel more
comfortable somehow. It was so strange when everything was the same and
different. She wished she was at home with her brother teasing her and her father
making special porridge for them to eat before the fires were put out. Nobody had
offered her any early breakfast, so it would be nothing but cold food all day.
Ferdia smiled at her, and Darag complimented her on her dress. It was nice that
somebody noticed.

King Conary led the way around the whole half starting in the kitchen. The
fires were almost out already. He quenched all those that were still burning, using
water. At home, Maga would have used her charm. Everyone knew the charm for
lighting fires, but the charm for putting them out again was something special.
Maga had promised to teach it to her daughters when they were grown. Elenn bit
her lip and hoped she would not teach it to Emer first now. There had been a
message for Emer with the clothes, but nothing for her. Was Maga angry with
her? And if so, for what? For letting Emer take up arms or for not doing the same
herself?

Conary led the way back through into the main hall and they all trooped after
him. Even the hearthfire, which never went out except for the Feast of Bel and the
Day of the Dead, was little more than embers. Before bending to it, Conary
touched the heads that hung on each end of the stone mantle above the fire. Elenn
knew they were only vanquished brave enemies, protecting the hearth, the same
as the ones at home. But the ones at home were familiar; she had heard their
stories told many times. There were no more here than at Cruachan, but they
somehow seemed more sinister. She wondered if any of them were people she had
known. It was not polite to ask.

Conary took up a poker and stirred the embers apart. When they sparked to life
he poured water on them, sending up a choking cloud of smoke. Emer coughed,
and for a moment Elenn almost went to help her. Then she remembered that her
sister wouldn’t want her help any more, and stayed where she was. When he was
quite sure the fire was out, Conary blew out his candle. The others who had
candles hastily blew theirs out too.

Ap Fathag opened the door outside, and they all followed Conary through it.
The sky was quite light now. Everyone was gathered in the space between the hall
and the hilltop. It looked as if not only everyone in Ardmachan but all the farmers
for miles around had come. On the hilltop was a cold bonfire, ready for sunset.
Conary strode towards it through the crowd.

“Do we follow?” Elenn asked Ferdia. The grass was wet and cold with dew,
chilling her feet. But it wasn’t really cold, not like sometimes. There had been
Feast of Bel mornings at home when Elenn had shivered in her bare feet almost as
much as on the Day of the Dead six months later.

“We can stay here,” Darag said. “We have seen the fires put out, the king
doesn’t need his household with him now.”

Conal’s family, with Emer, her eyes red and streaming, stopped a little way
ahead. Leary’s family followed Conary almost all the way up to the crest.

“Shhhh!” Ferdia said.

Conary had reached the top and was looking out eastwards, waiting for the first
sliver of sun to clear the horizon over the distant sea. A hush grew through the
crowd, a quiet expectancy. This, at least, was just as it was in Cruachan. At this
moment, Elenn knew, her mother would be waiting as Conary was waiting, as the
kings of Muin and Lagin and Anlar and the Isles would be waiting.

As the sun revealed itself, Conary raised his arms, first palm up and then palm
down. “Hear this,” he said, very loudly. “Lord Bel, Mother Breda, and all gods of
earth and sky and of home and hearth and clan. And hear this, my people
assembled here before me. The fires are cold. The folk of Oriel have kept the
Ward.”

Nobody moved or spoke. Behind them, Elenn knew, the sun was rising slowly.

Usually she stood beside her mother and father and brother and watched it rise. It
seemed a great deal of trust to put in Conary to let him watch alone, though he
was the king, and he had no wife or children to stand beside him.

After a time which seemed endless, Conary spoke again. “The sun is risen,
Lord Bel, master of life and death. No fire will be kindled again in Oriel until we
see the fire that has been kindled on the Hill of Ward.” It was much too far to see
the Hill of Ward from here, of course. But there was a bonfire prepared on each
hilltop, and as each hilltop sighted the fire on the next they would light their fire
until every fire in the land was lit. Then the feasting and dancing would begin.

“Let the Ward hold across Tir Isamagiri,” Conary said. “Let there be death in
bright sunlight, life out of darkness, war without hatred, strife without bitterness.
And let the evil time come not.”

Everyone murmured their assent. Then everyone sang the Hymn to Dawn,
voices rising together. When it was done, people started moving and talking.
Elenn stayed still. Weren’t they going to sing again? But it seemed they were not.

“Come and have breakfast,” Darag said, taking Elenn’ s arm.

“It seems strange to do this and be hungry,” Ferdia said, taking her other arm.

Elenn smiled up at him. “Do you eat first in Lagin too?”

“Ah, but breakfast is the best part,” Darag said.

People were going into the Speckled Hall and coming out with baskets. Finca
was setting up an ale barrel. “Are people going to start drinking already?” Elenn
asked.

“Some people will, others will wait until this evening,” Darag said.

“We could drink some ourselves,” Ferdia said.

Darag grinned. “I hadn’t thought of that. Have you ever had any?”

“A little cup at dinner with my father sometimes,” Ferdia said.

Elenn smiled to cover her uneasiness. She wouldn’t have wanted ale even if
she’d been allowed it. Maga had told her all about it, how it muddled people’s
minds. She did want something to eat, though. She wondered what was in the
baskets. She saw Emer going with Finca into the Speckled Hall. “Should I go to
help?” she asked.

“They look as if they know what they’re doing, but I expect they wouldn’t turn
help away,” Ferdia said.

“You should stay with us,” Darag said. He smiled at Elenn, and she smiled
back. She liked Darag. There was just something strange about him, even now,
when he was being nice.

Leary came running up to them, whooping. “Ale. Did you see?” he asked.

“We saw,” Darag said, smiling amiably at him.

“Get some for you, Elenn?” Leary asked.

“I’d prefer to have some well water,” Elenn said, meaning it. She’d tried ale

and found it much too bitter.

“Get you that, then?” Leary begged. Elenn smiled graciously at him and gave
him permission, while they went to collect some food.

There were apple pies and meat pies, cold but delicious. They filled their
sleeves with them. The boys got wooden cups of ale, and Leary came back with
Elenn’ s water. They sat down to eat it on the far field, right over by the wall.
Nobody was playing hurley or practising slingshots today. There were other
people around, but nobody was really close. Elenn sat down, spreading her skirts
out and putting her pies on them. The boys sat sprawling, Ferdia and Conal on
each side of her and Leary opposite.

“Aunt Finca’s been baking for days,” Darag said, munching an apple pie. “She
says they’ve used up every last one of last year’s apples and she’s asked Uncle
Conary if we can have a big hunt soon to replenish the meat stores.”

“Hunt?” Leary sat up a little. “For what?”

“Boar, deer, whatever we find to fill the smokehouse,” Darag said, spraying
crumbs.

“But we could go with the champions?” Ferdia asked, looking eager.

“Of course we could.” Darag grinned. “We’re champions now, just the same as
the others.”

Elenn didn’t say anything. She took neat bites out of her pie. She didn’t want to
go hunting anyway.

“Do you think it’ll be tomorrow?” Ferdia asked.

“Probably he’ll leave it a day or two, to let people get over tonight.” The three
boys laughed.

“Oh, that happens here too?” Elenn asked. She had heard about that from
Maga. Nobody cared who slept where on the night of the Feast of Bel, once the
children were put to bed. It was a wild festival. “People getting drunk and dancing
and ploughing the furrow in the fields?”

The boys looked at each other, and then awkwardly at her. “People will get
drunk,” Ferdia said. “Then they’ll be hungover tomorrow and not ready to hunt.”

“You going to do that?” Leary asked.

“Definitely not,” Ferdia said. Elenn looked at him approvingly.

“1 don’t know,” Darag said. “I’ve never had the chance before.”

Ferdia looked disappointed in his friend. “I’m not going to,” he said again.

Leary giggled. “Drunk. Ploughing the furrow... Know what they say about the
Feast of Bel? Feast of the Mother comes nine months later.”

Ferdia laughed.

Elenn was horrified. It just wasn’t the sort of thing people talked about, and
especially not men and women together. It seemed almost an impious thing to say.
She looked at Darag, who had neither said it not laughed, and saw that he was

also looking shocked.

“You know what they say,” Ferdia said, grinning, oblivious of the fact that
nobody wanted to hear this. “They say children born at the Feast of the Mother
always know for sure who their mother is!”

“They don’t say that to me,” Darag said, forcing the words out. He looked as if
he’d been hit quite unexpectedly and very hard. Elenn put her hand out
unthinkingly and pressed his shoulder for a moment, offering comfort.

Ferdia looked surprised and a little taken aback. “Were you born at the Feast of
the Mother, then?” he asked.

Leary also looked chastened. “Didn’t mean you,” he said.

Darag looked as if he was never going to get a word out again.

“I was born at the Feast of the Mother,” Elenn said. It was true. She had always
thought it a good time of year for a name day. Mother Breda gifts all children to
their mothers, but Elenn had always felt especially close to her because she had
been born at her festival. Besides being true, she said it because she wanted to
distract Ferdia and Leary from going after Darag when he felt so bad. Maybe he
really didn’t know who his father was. Both his parents were dead, after all, and
both when he was very young. She’d never heard him addressed by his father’s
name since she’d come here, he was always Darag, as if he were king already.
“Maybe my parents went out to the fields,” she said, smiling.

“Yes, definitely,” Ferdia said, much too quickly. “I’m sure they did. Lots and
lots of married couples do.”

“Lots of married couples go together,” Leary confirmed, unhesitatingly, clearly
not believing a word of it.

Elenn now understood something of what Darag might be feeling. She felt
stupid. She knew that Maga didn’t go into the fields with Allel, but alone, to find
a new and willing partner. She had never thought, before, how Mingor and Emer
looked like Allel but she didn’t. Where babies came from was a Mystery, a
Mystery of the Mother, people shouldn’t talk about it like this. Not that it
mattered. She’d ask Allel if it was true when she got home. Allel, not Maga. Maga
knew a lot, and understood things really well, but sometimes she said what she
wanted to be true. Allel didn’t always know, but he always told things straight
out.

Darag looked as if he was a painted statue of a young man someone had set up
in the field. Ferdia looked anguished, clearly realising he had hurt her, though he
was staring at Darag, obviously too distressed even to look at Elenn. Leary looked
uncomfortable.

“Think we should get more pies,” he said, and took Ferdia’s arm.

“I think not,” Ferdia said, shaking him off. “Darag — ”

“Darag’s thinking. Be fine in a little while. Elenn wants more pies, don’t you

Elenn?”

It would give her a few minutes to gather herself, at least. Darag looked as if he
was going to be quiet for a long time. She raised her chin affirmatively. But as
soon as they were gone, Darag stirred.

“You are festival born?” he said.

“Yes,” Elenn said. There was hardly any point in denying it. “But it’s a
Mystery. Leary shouldn’t talk about it like that.”

“He shouldn’t,” Darag said, very quietly. “Or Ferdia either.”

“Ferdia didn’t know,” Elenn said. “1 didn’t know.”

“My mother didn’t know who my father was,” Darag said. “She told my uncle
he was a god.”

“I have heard stories of that happening, at the Feast of Bel,” Elenn said. She
was starting to wish she had gone with the others. “Nive, or Lew, or Govannon
coming to join the feast.”

“But my mother wasn’t married,” Darag said. “So it must have been a god. Or
maybe not. I’ve never known. Sometimes it seems that it was just some lucky
man, and other times I think it must have been — ” he stopped and put his head in
his hands.

“It is a mystery, truly,” Elenn said. “But it would explain a lot if it was,” she
added.

“Explain, yes, but what’s left for me then?” he asked. “Who would want me, or
even see me, when everything I touch turns to wonders?” He shook his head.
Elenn saw Leary and Ferdia coming back slowly, talking to a pretty girl she didn’t
know, laughing with her. “I know I’m not a normal man. Strange things happen to
me. Omens. Portents. And I keep dreaming such strange dreams.”

“About your mother and a god?” Elenn asked, gently.

“No. Not that. I keep dreaming about how they built this dun,” Darag said.
Elenn blinked, surprised. “There wasn’t even a hill to start with. They brought all
the earth here, piling it up and up, little horses pulling it up. It’s this place, this
dun, before it was a dun.” He gestured around him, as if he could see it. “One of
the horses is a mare, and she’s pregnant, worse, she’s actually giving birth,
shuddering with it, and the man, the king, keeps on driving her up with load after
load, whipping her, whipping all the horses, forcing them. And then she stops and
gives birth to a filly, just over there, where the Red Hall is now. And the king
takes the filly and draws his knife to cut her throat. And then, talk about
mysteries, then the filly changes and grows and it’s Beastmother he has hold of,
Rhianna herself, and she’s huge and powerful, like a horse but not, like a woman
too, and black, black as night, flecked all over with blood and sweat. And she
shakes the man in her great teeth, and then the hill is built, all finished, but the
people are all clutching themselves and crying out in pain, and the horses are all

gone.”

“That’s horrible,” Elenn said, and shivered.

“I don’t know why I keep dreaming it,” Darag said, miserably. “1 don’t know
what it means.”

“Have you asked ap Fathag?”

“It’s impossible to ask Inis anything,” Darag said. “I haven’t told him. Maybe I
should try. But he always looks at me as if he isn’t really seeing me, or if he’s
seeing too many of me.”

“I think you should try,” Elenn said. The others were nearly up to them. She
wondered who the girl was. Ferdia seemed to be paying a lot of attention to her.
“And tell me what he says. Now, quick, stop being upset about it, whatever it is it
doesn’t matter, you or me, we know who our mothers are, and for both of us that’s
the important thing. Don’t let anyone see you’re upset.”

“I have to fight anyone who says anything against my mother’s honour,” Darag
said.

“When you’d kill them? Where’s the honour in that?” Elenn asked. “Besides,
what’s against her honour to say she lay with a god in the fields on the Feast of
Bel? She was the king’s own sister, after all.”

“Thank you for understanding,” Darag said. Elenn gave him one of her best
smiles. She wasn’t at all sure she understood, but she wasn’t about to let him
know that.

4. (Emer)

She thought the best thing would be if she could provoke him into saying
something disparaging about Connat. Anything would do. Then she could fight
him in honour, without making Conal a cause. She thought she could do that
without causing Conary to throw her out or Maga to summon her home. Maga’s
words had seemed almost scorched into the paper as it was, demanding to know
what she thought she was doing. She wouldn’t tolerate any more independence
right now. Defending Connat’ s honour, or better Maga’s own honour, would be
ideal. Amagien didn’t guard what he said at all. She thought she could kill him
quite easily. He was slow, and he rarely came to practice. The only problem then
would be the impiety of marrying Conal after she’d killed his father. No, she
couldn’t do it no matter how much he annoyed her. It would be a bloodfeud, and
people with a bloodfeud between them couldn’t marry. That would be a disaster.
She’d heard of a bloodfeud being reconciled so that people could marry, but only
after six generations. Though maybe she could provoke a quarrel between him
and another warrior. Only she wouldn’t do anything so dishonourable.

Emer had never thought Maga’s lessons in how to smile sweetly whatever you
were thinking would come in useful. She’d never been as apt a pupil as Elenn. Yet
now she found herself doing it every time Amagien opened his mouth. He didn’t
seem to be able to say anything at all without making Conal squirm. It didn’t
matter than Conal didn’t show it. It was just the same as standing by while
someone stuck little knives into him.

The clouds in the western sky blazed purple and red. The sun was down and
Conary had made the sunset vow. They were waiting to catch sight of the first
fire. Conary was standing alone by the fire. Near him were Elenn and Ferdia, arm
in arm. Elenn had been ignoring Emer all day. Emer had almost repented of not
wearing her new overdress when she saw how unhappy her sister was. It wouldn’t
really have made any difference. The one she was wearing was just as much
Maga’s gift if she stopped to think about it. She just didn’t want to take a gift
from her mother right now. Also, she didn’t want to wear the same colours at the
same time as Elenn ever again. She was tired of being dismissed as the ugly sister.
She wanted to be seen as herself. No, she had made the right choice and been
right to stick to it. It was strange to feel pity for Elenn. But now her sister couldn’t
do anything to stop her, even what she said didn’t hurt. It just sounded like a weak
echo of Maga.

Her eye moved on through the crowd. Elba and Ringabur stood with Leary,
who caught Emer’s eye and grinned. Next to him was a woman Emer didn’t

know. She was stocky and well balanced, and her face marked her as obviously
kin to Leary. Darag was next to her.

“1 didn’t know Leary had a sister,” she said to Conal.

“Where?” he turned to look.

“The elder ap Ringabur came back from Rathadun of the Kings today,”
Amagien said. “She has been there nine years learning the law.”

“She’s back to stay?” Conal grinned. “You’ll like Orlam, Emer. Let’s go over
and I’ll introduce you.”

Anything that got them away from Amagien was all right with Emer. She
raised her chin affirmatively.

“You’re not to waste her time,” Amagien said. “She won’t want to be bothered
now she’s a lawspeaker. Let her see that you’re a man now, don’t behave like a
puppy dog.”

Conal froze. Emer decided to change the subject before one of them said
anything they regretted.

“Have you ever been to Rathadun?” she asked.

“Never,” Conal said.

“You’ll go there one day,” Amagien said. “I went there for my initiation, and
you’ll go there when you’re chosen to be king. If you ever shape up enough that
you are chosen. Rathadun of the Kings is a wonderful place, very holy. The nine
hills have a peace like nowhere else. The Hill of Ward, where even now the fire
will be alight, is the very heart of it. And nobody stays there but priests and
initiates, and they make no difference between initiates for law or poetry or
priesthood or kingship. It is a wonderful way to live.”

Emer smiled another excruciating Maga smile, and wanted to scream. She
hadn’t exactly forgotten that Amagien was a poet. How could anyone, when he
went on about it all the time? Nor had she forgotten that poets were, like kings
and priests and lawspeakers, immune to challenge. But she somehow hadn’t
connected it up. He didn’t act like a poet. Even when he sang his stupid song
about how pretty Elenn was, he just seemed too full of his own importance. Still,
she should have remembered, and it ruined everything. He could say anything in
perfect impunity and nobody would be allowed to challenge him over it. At least
this solved the riddle of how he had lived to grow as old as he was. He could say
whatever he liked and nobody could even kill him. It really wasn’t fair. What was
so sacred about poets anyway? A king, yes, or a lawspeaker, of course they
shouldn’t be challenged, because then they might be afraid to judge fairly. As for
priests, challenging them insulted the gods. But poets? Nobody would challenge
someone because they didn’t like their poetry.

“There!” Conal pointed, and a rustle went through the crowd as everyone
craned to look. The first faint spark of fire blazed out to the south, looking distant

as a star. “That’s Mornay,” he said. “And now, watch to the west, we’ll see Lusca
next.”

“Nemglan next,” Amagien said. “Then Lusca.”

It didn’t matter. But if she said it didn’t matter it would make Conal feel worse.
The points of light spread, like red flowers bursting into blossom. Conal named
them all for her until at last it was time. Conary raised his hand and the bonfire
beside him burst into flame. People stepped back from the sudden heat. The
drummers began to play, and the harpists joined them. From somewhere came the
sound of a pipe, the music twining around the harps.

“I must join Finca,” Amagien said. “Take good care of ap Allel, Conal. And
make sure you take her safely to the Red Hall after the dance.”

Emer smiled a farewell. Conal raised his cup and took a relieved sip. “Why are
poets sacred anyway?” she asked Conal.

He choked on his ale. “To keep words free,” he said, when he had recovered.
“But why were you thinking about that?”

“Your father made me wonder,” she said. “Look, the fires are spreading north.”
Thankfully Conal accepted this distraction and turned to look. The fire was
indeed still leaping from hilltop to hilltop across the darkened countryside.
“That’s Edar,” Conal said, pointing at a nearby blaze to the northeast. “My
father’s farm.”

“I didn’t know Amagien had a farm so close,” Emer said.

“We used to live out there,” Conal said. “But since my mother is Uncle
Conary ’s keykeeper, we have all moved into the dun.”

“Do you ever go out there now?”

“All the time,” Conal said. “Not so much recently, but whenever my father can
find an excuse to send me with a message or something to do out there, he does.”
He laughed. “Don’t tell Amagien, because he thinks it a punishment to send me.
But I like going. I like the farmers there — and see what a great blaze they have
made.”

“Why does your father think it’s punishment?” Emer asked. “Like ‘Pleeeease
don’t turn me into a bird, Uncle Math?”’

“Partly that,” Conal said, grinning at her Little Wydion voice. “But I used to be
afraid of the bull, a few years ago. He’s a huge creature, and fierce. My father
made me lead him about and take charge of him.”

“Your father is a monster,” Emer said, before she could help herself.

“Well, but it worked. I’m not scared of the bull any more. And he isn’t a
monster. He means well. He wants me to help me grow up to be the best.”

Emer knew she couldn’t say what she wanted to say. She knew too much about
parents who wanted things for their children. Instead she looked away at the
distant lights. “I wish we were out there,” she said. “Away from them all.” The

music was getting louder, people were forming up for the dance around the fire.

“It’s a pity we didn’t think of that earlier,” Conal said. “We could have gone
out to Edar. The farmers there are good people. They’d have been glad to share
their feast with us.”

“We still could,” Emer said, all at once eager for it.

“It’s two hours walk,” Conal said. “And it’s nearly dark already.”

“We could take the chariot,” Emer said. “We’d be there much sooner. And
people won’t stop celebrating tonight until late.”

“Do you mean stay the night out there?” Conal asked.

Emer felt her cheeks heat. Elba came by before she could say any thing and
gave Conal a little push. “Take your places, we’re starting,” she said. Emer
realised that almost everyone was lined up ready to begin the dance. Conary was
at the head, with Orlam ap Ringabur. Elenn was with Ferdia, and Darag with Nid.
Conal and Emer hastily took up a place as the music grew insistent. Some of the
champions grinned at them and made teasing remarks.

“Yes, I did mean stay the night, but not what I said before,” Emer whispered
under the music as they started to move. “I believe what you said. But if nobody
minds where we sleep, then we could just sleep out there, in a storehouse or
something, and come back in the morning. No parents, no Darag, no Elenn.
Strangers are lucky on the Feast of Bel, they’ll be glad to see us.”

Conal danced in silence for a moment, looking tom. They circled the bonfire,
then Conary led the chain of dancers around the wall of the dun. “Can you drive
in the dark?” Conal asked at last.

Emer raised her eyebrows and smiled. “Of course.”

“Have you done it?” Conal persisted.

“It won’t be very dark,” she said. “There’s light in the sky still, and the moon is
rising. And you know the way.”

Conal shook his head and grinned. “All right,” he said. “Let’s do it. Straight
after the dance.”

Emer felt as if they were escaping as they made their way down the hill.
Nobody noticed them in the general confusion. People were preparing food and
hurrying children to bed and bringing animals to be led around the fire. They
could still hear the merriment as they came to the stables.

There was nobody there, and no horses either except one strange horse. “That
will be Orlam’ s horse,” Conal said. He dragged out the chariot while Emer went
out to the paddock and caught the horses. She had been afraid they might be hard
to catch, but they all came mnning as soon as she whistled, and the problem was
separating out the pair she wanted. She had to light a lantern to see what she was
doing with the harness, but before long she had them safely yoked to the chariot.
She looked up. Conal was watching, smiling at her in a way that made her feel

warm all through, despite the chill of the night.

“We should have brought cloaks,” she said. “The wind’s cold, even if it is the
Feast of Bel.”

“Our armour coats are down here,” Conal said. “ThatTl be warm.”

As they were coming back with them, they heard the sound of someone
whistling a plaintive tune. They glanced at each other guiltily. The chariot was
waiting outside, there was no sense in trying to hide. The whistling stopped as
they came out. Meithin ap Gamal was looking at the chariot. She laughed when
she saw them. “Oh, so it’s you two new champions? I might have guessed.”

“We were just — ” Conal began.

“Sneaking out?” Meithin laughed again. “Well, you’re not children, I’m not
going to stop you. I’m not even asking you for an explanation. I’m just here off to
fetch my Swiftfoot and Windeyes up to take around the fire, and if anyone asks, I
haven’t seen you. But what horses have you got?”

Emer breathed a sigh of relief and set down the lantern beside the chariot so
Meithin could see them properly. “Whitenose and Crabfoot,” she said.

“Very sensible of you,” Meithin said, approvingly. “Nobody’s going to want
the geldings tonight. You have been careful to put Crabfoot on the right?”

“Yes, I’m quite used to him,” Emer said.

“We make sure you have difficult horses for training to that you get used to
challenges,” Meithin said. “You’re not going to do anything crazy, are you, not
going to blindfold yourself and drive three times round the dun backwards? Or go
down the waterfall road in the dark?”

“Of course not!” Emer hoped she sounded as horrified as she felt.

“Orlam and I went backwards round the dun blindfold one Feast of Bel,”
Meithin said, sounding wistful. “We were only a year or so older than you two.”
“We’re just going out to Edar,” Conal said. “I know the way, and we won’t be
blindfold.”

“Edar?” ap Meithin sounded taken aback. “What’s there?”

“It’s my father’s farm,” Conal said. “It’s a fire hill, so they have their own
festival there, with good ale and dancing. They roast a sheep, which might even
be done not long after we get there, if they had it ready, unlike the cows here,
which won’t be cooked until breakfast. There’ll be room for us to sleep out there,
and we’ll come back in the morning.”

“And it’s a long way from parents and everyone you don’t want to see,”
Meithin said. She sighed. “Well, have fun. I almost wish I was ten years younger
and coming with you.”

Conal looked at Emer enquiringly. She squeezed his hand, loving his generosity
and his consideration.

“Why don’t you come, then?” Emer asked. “There’ll be a fire there for you to

drive your horses round.”

“I’m not so young and wild,” Meithin said. “Besides, the last thing you two
want is me coming along like a third horse to your yoke.”

“It isn’t you we want to get away from,” Conal said, saying exactly the right
thing, as always when he wasn’t with his father. “You’d be very welcome to come
with us. But you do know Orlam’s back?”

“I could hardly have missed her,” Meithin said. “But she, but I, well.
Sometimes what you wait for isn’t what you were hoping for. Orlam’s back, but.”
She hesitated. “Well, maybe it wasn’t a good day for it. But she said she isn’t
going to need a charioteer.”

The misery in Meithin’ s voice was so painful that Emer wished she knew her
well enough to hug her.

“That’s too bad,” Conal said, sympathetically. “Come on, yoke up, or the sheep
will be eaten before we get to Edar.”

“I haven’t said I’m coming,” Meithin said, but she so clearly wanted to that
Emer couldn’t bear it any longer.

“We’ll get your chariot, you get the horses,” Emer said, decisively. Meithin
raised her chin and went off to the paddock.

Fortunately, Conal knew which chariot to take, even in the darkness of the
stable. “You don’t mind, do you?” he asked, as they dragged it towards the
doorway, grey against black.

“Mind? I asked her. How could I mind?” Emer let go of the chariot and put her
arms around Conal, resting against him for a moment. “I want to be with you.
You wouldn’t be you if you didn’t want to ask her to come. Besides, I like
Meit hin .”

Conal squeezed her tightly and her body felt as if it were melting. Not tonight,
she thought, not tonight, but soon. Then, wordlessly, they each let go and took up
the chariot again.

“I like Meithin too,” Conal said. His voice sounded strange, as if he only just
had it under control. “She’s helped me more than anyone with my swordwork this
last few years.”

“Me too,” Emer said, and she was surprised to find that her own voice shook a
little. “I didn’t know she was a charioteer.”

“She used to be,” Conal said. “She’s mostly a champion these days. But she
was Orlam’s charioteer, before Orlam went off to Rathadun. They were very wild,
and very close, too.”

“I’d gathered that,” Emer said. Then they were outside, and they could see
Meithin coming back from the paddock with her mares.

The lower gate stood open, with no guards. Emer had expected they’d need to
talk their way out. “Where’s the guard?” she asked.

“Nobody would attack on the Feast of Bel,” Conal said. “We leave it open for
the gods to come in, if they choose to visit, and the farmers. It doesn’t seem worth
making someone miss the festival to guard it. It worries me less than leaving it
unguarded in the daytime when it’s quiet, really. If an enemy isn’t stopped until
the top gate we’d have given away a lot of ground for free.”

“Have you said this to Conary?” Meithin asked.

They turned westwards around the hill, to meet the northern road. It was lighter
than Emer had feared. The moon and the stars were bright. She could easily tell
the road from the fields. The horses were eager, but she kept them the pace
Meithin set beside them.

“He won’t listen to me,” Conal said. “He said I’d soon learn how much
champions enjoy guarding gates when there’s no war.”

“I suppose he does have to manage his champions as well as his enemies,”
Emer said.

“He’d have heard it if Darag had said it,” Conal said.

Then they came to the northeast road and turned, and Emer let the horses have
their heads for a little, and Meithin did the same with hers, and for a little while
they raced down the road. Meithin would have won, having less weight, but they
pulled up after a little and went on more sedately, talking sometimes but mostly in
a companionable silence. There were no other chariots, no sign of anyone else at
all. Only the fires on the hilltops told them that they weren’t the only people left
in the world. It felt peaceful and exhilarating to go along through the dark like
this. Emer would have been happy to have travelled on like that forever, Conal
close beside her and the horses eager under her hand.

Edar turned out to be bigger than Emer had expected from Conal calling it a
farm. There was a ditch around the bottom of the hill, almost dry after this very
dry month, and a palisade around the top of it. It was completely dark by now, but
the moonlight was sufficient to show them that the way up was too steep to drive.

“Should we unyoke the horses?” Meithin asked.

“But then that there’s nowhere to put the chariots except just leaving them out
here,” Conal said, biting his lip. “I think we’d better leave them yoked and lead
them up. It’s not too steep if we’re careful. If I drove out here more often I’d
suggest we ought to build a stable at the foot of the hill like at Ardmachan. But I
always walked before.”

As they neared the top of the hill, the wind changed, taking away the scents of
hot ale and cooking meat and bringing Emer the scent of salt-water and tide-
wrack. “Are we so near the sea, then?” she asked.

“It’s just two miles east of us here,” Conal said.

They led the chariots up and were met at the top by a cluster of delighted
farmers. Emer gathered that they loved and honoured Conal and had not seen him

for some time. She soon found herself plied with marvellous hot ale, and not long
after with roast lamb and palm sized griddies hot from the pan.

“I haven’t had griddies since I left home,” Emer said, thanking the smiling
farmer who had brought them. “I thought you didn’t make them in Oriel. I like
them so much better than bread.”

“We always make them on special occasions,” the farmer said.

“You couldn’t have said anything better,” Conal murmured, when the farmer
had moved on to share the griddies with everyone. “Ap Anla prides herself on her
griddies.”

Emer ate seven griddies, and felt ready to burst. After they had eaten, everyone
was needed for driving the animals around the fire. Emer had never seen this
done, she had always been sent to bed long before. The animals were garlanded
and driven round while everyone sang to Rhiana the Mother of Beasts and danced
with them. There were no instruments, and Emer found herself thinking that next
year she would bring a harp, if she could. Meithin threw herself into the
celebration, drinking and dancing and laughing. At last she went off with two of
the young farmers, one on each arm.

“Do you think she’ll feel better about Orlam?” Emer asked, watching from
where she sat with Conal, near the fire.

Conal put his arm around her, and she leaned back against him. “Not really,” he
said. “But at least she hasn’t had to stay in Ardmachan with Orlam there and not
with her. I’m glad we brought her.”

“I’m glad we came,” Emer said. “Maybe we could come every year. I really
like the people here.”

“You really like the food,” Conal said.

“Maybe we could live out here,” Emer said. “Your father isn’t using it, and he
isn’t here, and we could be in Ardmachan if Conary needed us.”

Conal hesitated, and Emer wondered what she’d said wrong. “I need to be
under Conary ’s eye, and where all the champions know me well,” he said. “If
they’re to choose me king over Darag I have to be in Ardmachan.”

“You don’t have to be king,” she said. “It isn’t the only good thing to be.”

“Anything else is a failure,” Conal said, decisively.

Emer bit her lip and didn’t say anything. There were so many things to be, why
did he have to set his heart on that one? It was his father insisting on it, she knew
it was. She couldn’t say so, she could never make him see it. She just sat there and
watched the dancing and the people going off together in pairs.

At last her eyes started closing, and she and Conal staggered off to lie down in
the hall. They kept all their clothes on, except their armour coats, but lay all night
curled up very close together, sharing the warmth of their bodies and feeling each
other breathe. Soon, Emer thought, sleepily, but for now this was enough, this was

marvellous, she didn’t want anything more than just to lie together like this for as
long as they possibly could. She drifted between sleeping and waking, feeling
happier than she ever had.

She must have slept at last, because she was woken at dawn by one of the
farmers coming to tell them that ships from the Isles were landing troops down on
the shore, and they wanted Conal to tell them what they should do.

Ill - Atha ap Gren

1. (Conal)

On the waking edge of sleep, Conal drifted a little, half-dreaming across the
worlds. He held as tight as he could to place and time. Even deep down in sleep
he had known he was in Edar. There was a smell to the place, the particular
mixture of burning peat and heather bedding and hams hanging from the roof that
told him he was home. He always slept better here than in his father’s house at
Ardmachan. Edar he knew as well as he knew anywhere. But this was not
childhood. He could feel Emer curled up beside him, familiar and homely as his
own heartbeat. Emer, in Edar, this place, this time and no others. Drifting, he held
to time and denied the gift. Asleep, he turned away and strove to close eyes closed
already.

He heard the door to the hall open, and came nearer waking. It could still have
been any time, anybody coming in. He was warm and Emer was safe beside him.
But two pairs of footsteps came hurrying towards the alcove where his bed was
made up. Conal’s eyes opened, the struggle over, he was entirely and effortlessly
there. When Old Anla and Garth came to the foot of the bed he was awake, alert
and sitting up. Anla was the steward, responsible for Edar in Amagien’s absence,
but he was getting old and frail. For a year or two now more and more of the
responsibility fell on his daughter’s husband Garth. If they were both here now it
must be something urgent.

“Raiders,” Anla said, his voice quavering. “Folk of the Isles. Six ships, coming
in down on the shore.”

“I was going to wake the folk and go out to fight them, stop them stealing the
cattle,” Garth said, sounding angry. “But your ap Gamal insisted we stay inside.
She shut the gates. She demanded we get you.”

“Thank the Mother of Battles that she did,” Conal said, pushing back his hair.
“If a straggle of you had gone running down the hill Atha’s folk would have
picked you off at their leisure.”

“Then are we to cower inside without facing them?” Garth asked. “The cattle
are all together in the near pastures, they were all brought in for the blessing last

night. They will take them like reaping corn.”

Conary had told him that no matter what good plans you thought you had, you
almost always became alarmed when a crisis hit, which was why it was necessary
to have everyone know the plans well in advance so they could stick to them
instead of each going their own way. Conal didn’t have a plan made in advance, it
was all coming to him now and cohering as he thought of it. He didn’t feel
alarmed, though, he felt unusually calm. Emer too seemed calm. She rolled over
and began binding back her hair. But he could see already how would have been
helpful for everyone else to have known the plan before.

“Oh no, we must fight,” Conal said, getting the order of things clear in his
mind. “Anla, wake Nerva and tell her to get the paint ready. Garth, wake everyone
who can fight and get them painted as quickly as you can.”

Old Anla jerked up his chin and went off to find his daughter, who was in one
of the other alcoves of the hall. Emer stood up, stretched carefully, and reached
for her armour coat. Garth hesitated, looking at Conal. “I hadn’t thought we’d
time for paint,” he said, sullenly. “Nor need to bother with it. We could keep them
from the herd if we were quick, if they thought there would be easier pickings
elsewhere they might leave our cows alone and make for another farm. It isn’t as
if we can hope to stand and fight them all.”

“We can hold them off for long enough for King Conary and the champions of
Ardmachan to get here,” Conal said. “We can do it better if they think we’re a
lord’s household and not just a bunch of farmers.”

Garth frowned. “It won’t work,” he said. “They won’t come. They won’t know
they’re needed. What do you know about it? You’re the lord’s son, not the lord,
and even your father is only the lord because the king gifted him this land. He
wasn’t born to Edar. You’re only a boy. Why should I take your orders?”

Conal didn’t know what to do. He could kill Garth for saying that, but that
would not make him obey him nor keep Atha from the herd. Garth was a foot
taller than he was, and twice as broad across the shoulders, so knocking him down
was out of the question. It was essential that the people of the dun obey, or he
could do nothing.

“Conal ap Amagien is one of the king’s champions of Oriel,” Emer said, her
voice as cold as steel. “He was armed by Conary himself this season. What you
have said would be accounted treason in Connat, and my mother would have your
head for it.”

Conal blinked at her. He had never heard her sound the outraged princess of
Connat before, though Elenn did it often enough. Garth looked at her in
amazement. “In these parts we speak the truth to our lords,” he said.

“And here I am speaking the truth back to you,” Emer said. “Conal is young,
true, but a king’s champion.”

“What is a champion but someone who has a chariot to fight from and need not
be down in the crush with the rest of us?” Garth demanded, thrusting his chin
forward.

“Someone who knows how to lead,” Conal said, the words coming from his
dream or from nowhere.

Emer looked cross enough to spit. “Conal is your lord’s son, he is here, he has a
plan to save you, and while you stand here arguing with him time is wasting that
might mean all our lives, or the loss of all your herds.”

To Conal’ s amazement, Garth hesitated only half a moment longer, gave a
clumsy half bow and went off towards the door.

“I don’t know how he dares speak to you like that,” Emer said, twisting her hair
into place behind her head with both hands. “I suppose it is from having seen you
grow up and not really realising that you are a man now.”

“No doubt,” Conal said, still a little dazed.

“What is most needful for me to do first?” she asked. She was standing ready,
looking at him expectantly.

“I love you,” Conal said, surprising himself even as he spoke.

Emer gave a little surprised laugh. “I love you too, but — ”

“I know,” Conal interrupted. He stood up and buckled on his own armour coat.
“Get the chariots harnessed. Find out where Meithin is and make sure she’s ready.
I need to see exactly where they are and how many of them there are. Six ships
could mean two hundred warriors, but not if they are raiding and planning to take
cattle back with them.”

She bowed in acknowledgement and headed off without a backward glance.
Nerva came in as she went out, carrying a great cauldron of paint and followed by
most of the people of fighting age of the dun, naked and clamouring. None of
them were blue so far.

Conal finished fastening his coat and went towards them.

Nerva made an awkward gesture with her head when she saw him. “We wanted
to know what to paint,” she said, swinging the big cauldron onto the hook over the
fire. Nerva ’s daughter Hivlian, who was surely too young to fight, blew on the
embers and started to add some wood.

Conal stopped. He had not the least idea. “What to paint?” he repeated,
stupidly, wishing Emer was still there. He was a champion of the king’s house of
Ardmachan, but paint was a not something he knew anything about.

“Defence or attack, or which gods to call on... ” Nerva said, stirring the paint.
Then everyone started talking at once, each with their own suggestions and
demands. Cevan slopped white paint onto the floor from the little pot he carried as
he gestured too emphatically. Conal could not hear it all, and time was wasting in
which he could be seeing how to stop Atha.

“Protection, of course,” he said. “And beyond that, victory. Paint yourselves to
win, and do it as fast as you can, time is short.”

That sufficed to create enough silence for him to leave, though he could hear
their voices being raised again before he was quite clear of the hall.

The dun outside was in uproar. Meithin was standing at the gate holding a
spear. Garth was beside her holding another and wearing an old armour coat.
Another part of his plan came to Conal, and he smiled. Emer was harnessing the
horses. Women and children were running everywhere, dogs were barking
furiously, pigs and hens were loose and complaining. Conal ignored them all as
best he could and went to the point of the wooden wall where, by long practice, he
knew he could swing himself up to see down towards the sea.

Six boats, Anla had said. How many people could Atha have persuaded to miss
the Feast of Bel for this raiding?

He was looking almost straight into the sun, he had to squint. He saw at once
that they had brought no chariots. But there were more of them than he had hoped.
He did not let himself be daunted, but counted them as Inis had taught them. He
made it eight twelves two threes and two, a hundred and six, armed and on foot,
but there might have been more. They were among the herd already which made
counting difficult. Still, that could work to his advantage. Few of them were
painted; they were not expecting much opposition here. They would be about
even for numbers, so he would need what advantage he could take. They would
not all be champions, some would be farmers come for the raid and many of them
would have come to sail the ships. But none of his people were champions except
himself and Meithin and Emer. He squinted harder, looking among the cows,
wondering.

He walked calmly over to Garth and Meithin. “Can you stand in a moving
chariot?” he asked Garth.

Garth frowned as if he thought it some sort of test. “I never have,” he said after
a moment.

“Practice a little, once they are harnessed,” Conal said. “I am not asking you to
fight from one. That is a matter of years of practice. I just want you to stand in
one until we are down there. Then you can get down and fight on foot. But you
are the only one who has an armour coat and might convince them.”

“Your lady was right to say I am no champion,” Garth said, scowling.

“You are steward of this dun,” Conal said, holding his ground.

“My father is steward,” Garth replied.

“And shall we set old Anla bouncing down the hill to frighten Atha ap Gren
and her chosen champions?” Conal lowered his voice. “I am not trying to punish
you for insolence. I am trying to save the herds. We all want the same thing,
Garth, and I know how to get it.”

“I will stand in your chariot,” Garth said.

“Very well,” Conal said, and turned to Meithin. “Ap Gamal, when we are
ready, take ap Madog here up behind you, go down the hill before the footmen,
just a little behind me. At the foot of hill let ap Madog jump out, then wheel as
fast as you can and make for Ardmachan. Tell them what is happening and bring
them here to our aid as fast as you can.”

“As fast as I can is going to take an hour there and back, which will mean
closer to two hours than one, even if Conary listens at once,” Meithin protested.
“It’s better for me to stay here and fight. We can’t really use both chariots
properly, but a chariot with a charioteer and without a champion is better than
nothing. And I am a champion.”

“They will come in time if you are quick,” he said. Meithin looked as if she
would have liked to argue more. If they had been anywhere other than Conal’ s
father’s dun, he was quite sure she would have tried to take over. In some ways he
would very much have liked to take her advice, but everything screamed to him
that doing so would be fatal to his already shaky authority. “Practice with ap
Madog now,” he said, and walked away.

Naked people stained blue and painted on top in black and white were starting
to emerge from the hall.

A small child started to scream. Anla picked him up and started to soothe him.
Conal could not wait. “Where is Old Blackie?” he asked. “Have they taken him
already, or wasn’t he with the herd?”

Anla blinked, and continued to rub the child’s back as his cries subsided into
gurgles. “He is here,” Anla said. “He is in the calving house. He came up last
night for the blessing, and he couldn’t be left with the cows after, or they would
all get in calf, and it isn’t time.”

Conal could feel himself smiling. “We really can do this,” he said, and looked
around.

Emer had harnessed up both chariots. Garth was practising standing still as
Meithin drove hers around in a small circle. Emer stood by theirs, holding the
horses’ heads. More painted people were coming out of the hall.

Anla had been talking, but he hadn’t heard a word of it. “Where are the
spears?” he interrupted. This wasn’t Ardmachan. There wasn’t a separate hall for
weapons. But it wasn’t the barbarian countries either, where people would take
weapons in where they ate. How strange it was that he’d never needed a weapon
at Edar.

“In the smokehouse,” Anla said. “Shall I fetch them? Or shall I send Garth to
fetch them? He has his own already.”

“You fetch them, and take some people who do not fight to help you,” Conal
said. “Are there any weapons there besides spears? I know my father keeps most

of his weapons beside him at Ardmachan, but did he leave anything here?”

“There is one sword of Amagien’s, and there is another that belonged to Howel
when he was lord here, and which his daughter did not want when she went to
Rathadun. There are many slings besides which we use for hunting, and a few
shots for them, and plenty of stones.”

“Does anyone here know how to use a sword?” Conal asked, knowing the
answer would be no.

“Lord, it is a champion’s weapon,” Anla said.

“Bring the swords to me,” Conal said. “And share the spears out to those who
are ready to fight. Give the slings to those who can best use them.”

Anla hurried away and Conal walked over to where Emer was waiting.

“He has two swords, but I have no idea what size they are,” he said to her.

“Give one to Meithin. I have a knife if I need one for the traces,” Emer said,
showing the little belt knife no charioteer would go without even on a peaceful
summer night.

“Meithin is going to ride for Ardmachan as fast as she can,” Conal explained.

“Then I will take one,” Emer said, unruffled.

Anla came back with armloads of spears and started to give them to those who
were painted already. It seemed to be taking hours for them all to get ready,
though the shadows had hardly moved since Conal had come out.

“You should get them ready, or they will fight each other,” Emer said, very
quietly. “Shall I drive you to the gate?”

Conal could see that she was right. The young farmers were over-excited
already and did not want to wait.

They looked up as he came over. He ran through what he would say to them in
his head, but what came out of his mouth was his first thought. “Where are your
shields?” he asked.

They were naked and painted blue. Across their chests, men and women alike
though it looked more horrific on the women, was a great black battle crow.
Down their arms and down their faces were white spirals. They had been boasting
and teasing each other. Now they looked at each other in confusion at Conal’s
question, like children, and began to slink away to their houses to fetch their
shields. By the time they came back their fellows had joined them, and at last
Nerva came out of the hall, painted, and carrying the black paint.

Anla came back with the swords, which Conal took. “There were some
throwing spears as well,” he said. “Only five.”

“My great thanks to you for keeping the dun so well,” Conal said.

“It is Garth you should thank,” Anla said, grudgingly. “I have kept it for many
years, but he thinks it is his time.”

“His time will come,” Conal said. “Now, as soon as we are out, get Blackie

from his house. Watch from the gate. When I signal by throwing both hands up in
the air and calling his name, let him go.”

Anla hesitated. “You know how Blackie can be,” he said. “There’s no promise
he’d know his friends in a battle.”

“Do it all the same,” Conal said, as firmly as he could.

Anla drew breath as if he would speak again, but Conal stared at him. He didn’t
want a conversation about what Amagien would say if Blackie were hurt. At last
Anla raised his chin in agreement and went off to help with distributing spears.
Conal arranged the throwing spears in the slots in the chariot, so they would be
ready to his hand. He set a long weighted fighting spear beside them, in case he
needed it, then looked at the swords. They were both much bigger than the swords
they had been practising with.

“Which do you want?” he asked Emer.

She looked at them. “They’re both very old,” she said.

“Anla said one of them was my father’s and the other was left by the lord who
was here before him.”

“Which was your father’s?” Emer asked, suspiciously.

“I really don’t know,” Conal said.

“Then I’ll take the one that’s a little shorter,” Emer said. “I wish I had my own
that King Conary had given me for my use.”

“So do I, said Conal, buckling on his sword.

Nerva had been painting Garth’s face. As soon as she was done, Garth climbed
into Meithin’s chariot and Nerva came over to Conal. “We are painted,” she said.
“Will you wear the victory sign yourself?”

He bent his head and closed his eyes and felt the pig-bristle brush sweeping
across his face. Nerva murmured the charm as she painted, calling on the Mother
of Battles for Victory, and he felt it taking effect, filling him with confidence,
making him more ready to fight and kill. The calm that had filled him since he
woke receded a little and although the paint was supposed to take away fear he
felt a little fear for the first time.

“And you, lady?” Nerva asked Emer.

Emer looked at Conal, then shook her head.

Conal waited until Nerva had set down the paint and picked up her spear. Then
he raised his hands palms up and then palms down.

“Branadain Mother of Battles, and Edar of the Spring, be with us now when we
call on you. Right is on our side. These folk have come from the Isles meaning to
take us by surprise, steal our herds and harm our people,” Conal said. Then he
looked at the waiting farmers. “Our plan is to hold them off for long enough for
king Conary to come here with his champions and help us. Ap Gamal will be
going to fetch him, so they will be back here almost before we know it, and well

before the folk of the Isles can expect them. If I give a great howl like a wolf,
break off and come back up to the dun, we will hold them off inside. We are
fighting for time, and they have no help coming. And most of all, remember, the
cows are ours!”

Anla swung the gate open, and Emer drove out, Meithin close behind with
Garth clinging on to the side of her chariot. The painted farmers, giving a great
roar, came boiling out behind. Conal saw heads turning down among the raiders.
He gave his own battlecry as Emer headed the chariot straight down the hill
towards them, and suddenly his feelings, which had been far away from him all
morning came back and were close. He felt his love for Emer not as a distant
knowledge but as a burning presence. His fear that he might disappoint his father,
or die with nothing done, his joy at being alive and going downhill fast enough to
rattle his teeth, and the love and comradeship he felt for Emer, so close beside
him, all welled up in him at once and he thrust them all into the battle cry which
rose up on the air above the howls and cries of the others.

Then they came up to them, and after that there was only the fighting.

2. (Elenn)

Emer still wasn’t there when she woke up. Nid was fast asleep and snoring in a
beam of sunlight that had come in through a hole where the roof sat on the wall.
Emer’s bed was still as she had left it the day before. Elenn sat up and combed her
hair and felt strange inside, as if she wanted to cry, but she didn’t know what she
wanted to cry about. She swallowed hard and kept back the urge. She had cried
when she’d come in last night, and it hadn’t helped at all. Anyway if she cried
now it might wake Nid.

She didn’t know if she was dreading or hoping for what would happen when
Emer got found out. She didn’t even know if anything would happen. She knew
for sure that she wanted something to happen. There was a tightness in her chest
which she thought an explosion of anger with Emer would clear. For a moment
she stopped still, considering being angry with Emer herself. She almost wished
she could. But Maga said losing your temper was letting people know what you
were thinking and something you should only do with a very good reason. Even
Allel said it was better to control your temper, so Elenn never lost hers any more.
She had not lost control of it since she was a very small child having tantrums,
and she felt embarrassed to remember that now. So she didn’t want to be angry
with Emer, she wanted someone else to be angry with her and make her feel
better.

Elenn went out to find some breakfast and see if she could find Emer. Finca
was stalking around the hall looking as if she were looking for someone to shout
at. The cooks were keeping their heads down. They didn’t even look at Elenn as
she went up for some porridge from the pot over the fire, just ladled out a bowlful.

Elenn walked around the alcoves looking for someone to eat with. There was
nobody there she wanted to see or who called out to her. It wasn’t early, but
maybe it was early for the morning after a festival. King Conary was there, but he
looked so grumpy that she didn’t want to try talking to him. In the end she sat
down next to ap Dair the poet and Leary’s sister Orlam, who were talking about
music. Music didn’t interest Elenn much. But Orlam had only come back here
yesterday, and didn’t know anything about Elenn, and ap Dair seemed like an old
friend from home, because she had seen him sometimes in Connat.

As soon as they had greeted Elenn they took up their conversation again. Elenn
took a spoonful of her porridge. It was thin, and could have done with some fruit
or honey. Maybe there would be wild strawberries soon. There would at home.

“You get the best music in the world in Rathadun, it spoils you for coming
home,” Orlam said.

“It has wonderful music,” ap Dair agreed. “But I enjoy going around to
different king’s halls and playing with different people, and learning the songs of
the different places.”

“Where have you heard the best music, then?” Orlam asked.

“I have heard very good music in this hall,” ap Dair said, courteously. “And I
have heard very good music in Cruachan,” he continued, turning to Elenn and half
bowing as best he could sitting down, which meant that she had to say something
back. She racked her brains for a proper response to that.

“Do you like travelling so much that you mean to travel all your life?” she
asked. “Or would you like to settle down and sing in one place eventually?”

“When I grow old,” said ap Dair, stretching. “There are certainly songs you can
only learn by staying in one place, though they may be less obvious than the ones
you can learn travelling.”

Orlam made a noise of agreement, though Elenn had no idea what he meant.
Surely it didn’t take more than four hearings to learn any song? And poets were
supposed to be able to learn a song in two, ap Fathag said.

“But I’m not ready to be just ap Dair,” ap Dair went on. “You know what I
mean?” He looked at them and grinned. He put his spoon down and gestured with
both hands. “The king’s hall, full of people. They want music. The visiting poet is
introduced, comes up to the great harp and sings a new song to much applause,
rich gifts. Then the king’s own poet comes out, and people say oh, it’s just ap Dair
our poet, who we have heard many times before. And even if it is a new song they
only listen with half their ears, because they know they will hear it again. When I
am old I may be ready for that, but for now I have too much vanity. I like to travel
to different places and be acclaimed and eat my breakfast surrounded by beautiful
women.” He grinned at them again, and Elenn smiled back.

Orlam looked thoughtful. “I am not a poet or a warrior, but a lawspeaker,” she
said. “So fame plays little part in my desires. But there are many mornings when I
would be glad to see not new and beautiful people but the same faces that delight
me. It is the same with places. I have been nine years at Rathadun and at first I
missed Oriel badly. Now I am home for the first time for longer than a few days,
and I am already missing Rathadun. A lawspeaker can go anywhere. Some of my
friends are planning to travel throughout the island and see all the wonders. But I
know if I did that I would only find more places and friends to miss.”

“And what of you, ap Allel?” ap Dair asked.

“I have never thought about it,” Elenn said. “I have never been anywhere
except Cruachan until this year. I have always thought I would live in one place.
I’ve never thought about the alternatives.”

She sounded impossibly naive in her own ears, but Orlam made a sympathetic
noise. “I heard at Rathadun that your parents didn’t follow the custom of fostering

with you,” she said. “I have met your brother, Mingor.”

“We are fostered here this year,” Elenn said.

“But this year you are what, seventeen?” Orlam asked. Elenn raised her chin in
agreement. “That’s old enough that you have largely formed your expectations of
conduct already, and travelling never crossed your mind, because you never did
any.”

“It’s a good thing you don’t want to be a poet,” ap Dair said.

“My sister plays the harp,” Elenn said, though she herself could play and sing
well enough not to disgrace herself if called upon.

“What do you want to be?” Orlam asked.

Elenn looked at her blankly. “What choice have I? I have always been a king’s
daughter, although my brother is the heir, and I have always known I would grow
up to marry to further Connat’s alliances.”

Orlam winced, and ap Dair frowned. “Like a princess in a song,” ap Dair said,
after a moment. His voice sounded strange, as if he thought that sad rather than
enviable.

“I am of the royal kin of Oriel myself,” Orlam said, which Elenn naturally
knew. She was Leary’s sister, which meant that her grandfather was King
Fiathach. “I could have made such a marriage myself.”

“You still could,” ap Dair murmured. “I saw ap Cethem looking at you
yesterday when we were dancing. He isn’t betrothed to anyone yet, and he will be
king of Lagin unless things go very badly for him.”

Elenn went cold all over, as if someone had poured well water straight down
her back. She bit her lip to avoid saying anything. Even with her short hair, Orlam
was very pretty, and of course she was quite grown up already.

“He’s a child!” Orlam said, and laughed as if the suggestion was absurd.

Elenn breathed freely again. She would have liked to have put her face in her
hands and shut her eyes for a moment of relief. She made herself smile. “He is
seventeen, the same as I am. And he has taken up arms.”

“And I am twenty-six, and a lawspeaker, because I have made other choices
about what my life is about,” Orlam said, rolling her eyes. “Marriage and children
are things I want, and I am even feeling ready for them now I am home. But
marriage for policy and being a queen, well.” She screwed her face up. “I mean,”
she looked at Elenn in belated but well intentioned courtesy, “that it is not for
me.”

Elenn finished her porridge and set the wooden bowl down carefully. “It is
what I have been brought up to,” she said.

“And you never wanted to be a king or lawspeaker or harper. . . ” ap Dair began.

“... or smith, or champion, priest or farmer?” Orlam finished, miming counting
out the cherry stones.

Elenn laughed. “I never thought about it, but now that I do, no, I don’t want to
do any of those things.”

“You are beautiful enough that you will doubtless have all the kings of all the
world fighting to make you their queen,” ap Dair said, getting up and bowing
extravagantly.

“Thank you,” Elenn said, as she had been taught.

Ap Dair bowed now to Orlam. “And as for you, ap Ringabur, they say your
mother and her sisters were the most beautiful girls of their generation, but you
outdo them all. I am sure all the men in the hall are jealous of me sitting here with
the pair of you.”

Orlam laughed, but a little impatiently, and got up herself, offering her hand to
Elenn. “Let’s go outside where the air is not quite so thick with prettily turned
compliments,” she said.

Elenn took the proffered hand and pulled herself to her feet. She liked
compliments, usually, but she had also noticed something odd about those, after
the conversation. It was as if ap Dair had stopped addressing them as people and
was saying something that could be addressed to any pretty girl. In some ways it
was more comfortable not to be seen as herself, but in others it was refreshing and
she liked it. She definitely liked the way Orlam talked to her.

She walked towards the door with Orlam, though she wasn’t sure where they
were going. “I hate how even the nicest men can just turn words to emptiness like
that,” Orlam said.

“Oh yes,” Elenn agreed enthusiastically.

Just then Finca intercepted them. If she had once been one of the most beautiful
girls of her generation she didn’t show much sign of it now. She was bony and
hard faced and had scars on her arms from fighting. “Have you seen Conal?” she
asked.

Elenn shook her head. “Not since I came home,” Orlam said. “That’s strange,
now I think of it, he was still hanging around me like a puppy dog when I last
visited. But like Darag and my little brother he must be seventeen and an adult, by
what I hear.”

“You hear right,” Finca said, and walked away without another word.

Orlam laughed quietly. “That sounds like more than too much merriment. Do
you think he’s been out all night with some girl my aunt disapproves of?”

“My sister,” Elenn said, and sighed. It would be very unfair of Finca to blame
Elenn for not keeping Emer in order, but from the set of her jaw this morning it
didn’t seem beyond her.

“Your sister?” Orlam said. “I thought — ”

Just then Darag came into the hall. He looked as if he had not slept enough.
“Elenn!” he said. “Orlam!” Then he stood looking lost in the middle of the floor

as if he had no idea what to say next. Orlam giggled, and Elenn had to fight not to
giggle herself.

“Drink water,” Orlam advised, kindly. “Lots of water. You’ll need it.”

“Have you seen Ferdia?” Darag asked. Then he looked appalled, as if he said
something terribly rude, though Elenn didn’t know how he could have.

Orlam giggled again. “Not since the time I saw him with you after my brother
introduced us yesterday. Everybody seems to have lost someone this morning.”

“Who have you lost?” Darag asked, looking alarmed.

“Why, nobody,” Orlam said, making her eyes wide. “But Finca is having
trouble finding her little boy.” Then Orlam took Elenn’ s arm and took her off,
leaving Darag staring after them. “People who can’t hold their drink can be
disgusting. Do you think he will remember the water?” Orlam said into Elenn’s
ear, and this time Elenn could not keep her giggles to herself.

In other company, Elenn might have been distressed to see Ferdia looking ill
and tired and making his way to the hall. Somehow, with Orlam, it just seemed
like a continuation of the joke. “Drink water,” she said, as a greeting.

Ferdia started, and rubbed his eyes. “Thank you, I shall,” he said.

“Darag is looking for you,” Orlam said. “And have you seen Conal?”

“Conal? No?” Ferdia said, distracted. “Where was Darag?”

Elenn had just opened her mouth to tell him, when Meithin ap Gamal came
running in through the gates and pelting across the grass towards the Red Hall as
fast as her legs would go. Elenn stopped and stared at her.

“What’s wrong, Meithin?” Orlam called.

“Invasion from the Isles, at Edar,” Meithin said, without stopping. “I have to
get to the king, fast.”

Ferdia’ s eyes widened, and his shoulders went back. All the laughter went out
of Orlam’ s face. “He’s eating in the hall,” Orlam called after Meithin.

Meithin charged on into the hall. The three of them followed her. When she
skidded to a halt in front of Conary, they were only a little behind. The other folk
of the dun who saw Meithin running came pressing up behind them to hear what
was happening. Conary had finished eating, and was talking to Finca in front of
the fire.

“Invasion, from the Isles, at Edar,” Meithin panted. She sounded as if she had
been saying it in her head all the way. “Six ships, a hundred and six people. The
folk of the dun are holding them off, under Conal ap Amagien.”

Finca’ s lips pressed into a hard line. Conary’ s eyes bulged. “Conal?” he asked,
incredulously.

“We went there for the feast,” Meithin said.

“He was here at sunset,” Finca objected.

“We went out there after sunset,” Meithin said, putting a hand to her head. “But

this is all wasting time. He’s there right now, fighting Atha for all I know. We
need to arm and get back to help him.”

“Did you bring the chariot back and leave him there?” Finca asked. She looked
so angry that Elenn took an involuntary step backwards and trod on someone’s
foot.

“There wasn’t any point in me staying, without a champion to fight or someone
else to drive so I could fight,” Meithin said.

This made sense to Elenn, but apparently not to Finca, who rushed at Meithin,
her voice rising to a screech. “Was Conal not champion enough for you that you
left him there on his feet?”

“We had two chariots!” Meithin said, sidestepping just in time. Ap Carbad
caught Finca before she ran into someone and straightened her as if she was a
child just learning to walk.

“So Emer ap Allel drives him? Babes to the slaughter,” Finca said.

Elenn suddenly felt worried herself. She had thought Conal and Emer were
pretty good. But Finca taught them to fight from a chariot, she ought to know. She
bit her lip. There was nothing she could do now. She’d worry about how to tell
Maga that Emer got herself killed if it happened.

King Conary shook himself “To arms!” he said. “To arms, my champions, let
us ride out and defend Edar and come to the aid of my valiant nephew. Finca,
have the chariots harnessed. Ap Carbad, open the Speckled Hall. Time is short.
We ride as soon as we are armed.”

Everyone began to bustle about. Ferdia and Darag embraced, then rushed off
towards the Speckled Hall together, looking much less as if they were suffering
the aftereffects of drinking strong ale. Meithin went off after them. Nid almost
knocked Elenn over as she ran past, dressing as she went. She and did not even
look back to see if Elenn was all right.

Orlam stayed where she was, with Elenn, an island of stillness in the midst of
the bustle. She looked torn. “I was a champion, before I went away,” she said to
Elenn. “Now I am bound to watch with the old and the weak and the children and
be defended while others put themselves in harm’s way. My little brother and my
mother and father are all going, and I am staying.”

“Have you sworn an oath not to fight?” Elenn asked.

“No, one not to be killed needlessly,” Orlam said, putting her hand to her hair,
cut in a lawspeaker’s crop. “And one not to fight when there are other good
choices. If it were a case of defending the hall and everyone needed, I should take
up my arms again, it not being so long since I laid them down that I would have
forgotten the use of them. But for a raid on a May morning? A hundred and six of
Atha’s people against all the champions of Oriel and the spearmen of Edar? They
don’t need me, and there is no honour to me to fight those who would find

themselves cursed for killing me.”

“Amagien fights,” Elenn said.

“That rests on his soul,” Orlam said. “But if someone’s parents were to ask me
to judge recompense when a poet had killed their child who was piously avoiding
hurting them in such a battle, the laws would not find the poet guiltless. I do not
wish to go to this fight.” All the same her eyes followed Meithin until she was
right out of the hall. Then she sighed. “I’m sorry. It’s just as bad for you, because
your sister is in the battle. But next year you will be able to go out and fight, and I
never will again.”

“I don’t know why I’m not more worried about my sister than I am,” Elenn
said. “I wasn’t worried at all until I saw how worried Finca was.”

“Finca fusses over Conal, though never where it would do him any good,”
Orlam said. “He was shaping up well when I last saw him, better than Leary.
Unless he’s stopped practising since then, I doubt he’d get your sister killed. Not
and survive himself, in any case, which may not be much comfort if he’s fighting
one to one against Atha ap Gren, but it’s something.”

“We should go and cheer them off,” Elenn said, hoping it might brighten
Orlam’ s thoughts.

Orlam hissed like a cat. Elenn looked at her in surprise. Orlam laughed. “It isn’t
so much even that I want to fight,” she said. “It’s how much I hate not being able
to do anything.”

“Oh!” Elenn said. “I understand that. I hate that too. Sometimes, even if I don’t
want to go, I still hate being left behind.”

“Cheering them off seems like the very essence of being left behind,” Orlam
said. “But I do see how it is our duty to do it.”

They walked together down the hill, avoiding running champions and
charioteers as best they could. Outside the stables Conary was trying to organise
the people, the horses and the chariots. There was a tremendous din as everyone
shouted at once. Darag came up to Elenn and kissed her hand for luck before
getting into his chariot. “Go with glory,” Elenn said, as she had heard her mother
say.

“Remember your healing charms,” Orlam advised him.

He shook his head at her and laughed. “You’ve come back very wise, cousin,
but I think it is my fighting I shall need to remember.”

“Sometimes it’s the charms, if you want to fight another day,” Orlam said, and
embraced him.

Then Amagien came up and kissed her hand, and after him Leary and his
parents, and a host of other champions. Ferdia was almost the last of them. She
wished she could embrace him at parting, to show her friendship, but he made no
move towards it.

There was some squabbling as Conary insisted that some of the older
champions stay behind as gate guards. Conary had to raise his voice, which would
have surprised Elenn when she first came, but seemed almost normal now. Then
everyone mounted up. When Conary gave the signal they all surged forward and
followed him up the road around Ardmachan. Only one chariot tangled the traces
and had to stop, the rest swept off as creditably as the champions of Connat could
have managed.

Elenn held up her hand until they were out of sight, then she walked back up
the hill to the dun, deep in conversation with her new friend.

3. (Ferdia)

“It doesn’t matter,” Darag said. He threw his last spear at the target and, without
even looking, flung himself face down in the grass.

Ferdia had to bite his lip to stop himself from complaining about it again
anyway. He wanted to murder Conal. Everything he had done had been foolhardy
at best and outright demented at worst. He had not only got away with it but won
a praise name and was getting everyone’s attention. And the rest of them hadn’t
even got to fight. By the time they got there it was all over. But try to suggest that
a stampeding herd of cattle wasn’t a legitimate weapon of war and not even Atha
would agree with you. Even now, a month later, Ferdia couldn’t leave it alone. He
straightened his own last spear and looked at the target, where Darag’ s spear
quivered a hairsbreadth from his other two spears, right through the throat of the
champion-shaped target. One of Ferdia’s spears pierced it through the gut, and the
other stuck ignominiously in the turf low and to the left of the marked figure. He
hadn’t done as badly as this for years, it was as if he had completely lost the
knack.

Down on the other side of the practice field Nid and Leary had their chariot out
and were endlessly turning and passing in front of another target. At least he could
still do that right, he’d been practising that enough. Everyone else had gone off to
play hurley, but Darag had stayed to help Ferdia with his spears. The excited cries
of the hurley players could be heard faintly. Ferdia looked back at his target.
“Conal,” Ferdia said in his heart as he aimed. The spear went straight and landed
just above Darag’s trio.

“Ha!” he said.

Darag sat up and looked. “Oh much better, yes, well done,” he said, warmly.
“You’re getting it again.” Ferdia smiled at the praise. “Sit down a moment.”

He sat down beside Darag and looked at his friend as he sprawled on the grass,
dappled by the leaf- shadow and sunlight. Darag smiled up at him lazily, then
rolled onto his back and stared up through the aspen leaves at the sky. “The thing
is,” he said, “Conal has always felt he’s competing with me.”

“He is competing with you,” Ferdia said. Darag never took it seriously enough.

“Well, in some ways he is,” Darag conceded. “But if he is, I keep on winning. I
don’t mean I don’t want to win when we fight. I do, of course I do. I want to be
the best, and I’m glad I am. But it’s the same to me if I beat Conal or you or Leary
or anyone. I just want to win, it isn’t personal. But it is for Conal. Conal thinks
we’re competing even when I don ’t want to. He thinks so even when he doesn’t
want to, like with Elenn at first. He thinks so much that it ought to really do him

good to get a really good win in against somebody else where I wasn’t involved.
Now maybe he can stop feeling he’s losing to me with every breath he takes and
we can be friends.”

“You’ve thought about this a lot,” Ferdia said. It wasn’t exactly that he didn’t
want Darag to be friends with Conal. It was just that he didn’t think he could ever
manage it himself.

Darag sat up again and looked at Ferdia seriously. “Before you came, Conal
and Leary and I were the only ones our age. I had to think about why he doesn’t
like me.”

“But it’s not just competing at practice,” Ferdia said, having worked it out
properly now. “Conary’s children are dead, and he had four, so there aren’t going
to be any more, even if he gets married again. So when he dies and the people
chose between the Royal Kin in your generation, it’s going to be you and Conal
and Leary and Orlam they’re choosing between. That’s the prize Conal has his
eye on.” It was a prize Conal had come closer to in the last month, Ferdia knew,
winning Conary’s approval and a great deal of popularity among the champions.
He knew Darag could have done even better if he had been the one who had had
the chance. But now it looked as if there would be no more fighting at all this
summer. It wasn’t fair.

“It wouldn’t matter if Conary’s sons were alive or not, in Oriel,” Darag said,
yawning. “They choose the best of all the Royal Kin. Anyone whose grandparent
was a king.”

“Well, in Lagin too,” Ferdia said, delighted that Darag was prepared to talk
about it for once. “But in reality my father says it’s perfectly easy for the king to
make it really easy for the people to choose by making sure the heir you want is
the one who has the experience and the opportunities. He’s doing that for me, so
that when he dies I will be the obvious choice to succeed him, the way he was for
his uncle. Well, Conary can do that too. So Conal thinks — ”

“I don’t care,” Darag interrupted.

Ferdia blinked. “How can you not care?”

“I decided last winter, before you came. It sometimes seems like everything in
my life is doomed, everything happens with a significance I don’t intend. Things
happen no matter what I do, no matter what I want. From my birth. Before that,
from my conception. Remember the day we took up arms? Like that. Lots of
things like that, things that seem to mark me out as special. Dreams, too, strange
dreams all the time. I talked to Inis about it, and he said lots of stuff, the way he
does. What it amounted to was that I was special, in lots of worlds I do special
things. And I thought all right then, but I’m only going to do what I want to. If
that happens, it happens, but I’m not going to help it. I don’t care about that, I
can’t. If doom wants me to be king, or war leader, then it’s going to do that

whatever I want. So I’ve been doing what I want, and be who I want to be,
myself.”

“And what do you want to be?” Ferdia asked.

“Ah, that’s the question.” Darag paused a moment, then leaned closer, speaking
quietly. Ferdia’ s heart beat faster. “I want to have friends. I was always so lonely
before you came, and then the girls. Now you’re my friend, and Elenn is, and I’m
getting to be better friends with the older champions too, now I’ve taken up arms
and they see me as one of them. Then later, I’d like to marry and have children.
I’d bring them up properly, be there to do the things fathers do for their children.
Like Ringabur carrying Leary home from the stables on his back when he was
small. I think about that sometimes. And I want to be a champion. That’s
something I want for myself. I am good. I have a good eye and a good hand, and I
want to be better. I want to be good enough that whatever doom has waiting for
me I’m good enough to get through it and survive — survive past that, survive to
have a life afterwards on the other side of it if I can. Because I want to find out
what I want, and what doom wants from me, and get as much as I can of what I
want in despite of it.”

Ferdia thought for a moment, and Darag leaned away again and let him. That
was something he really liked about Darag, he didn’t mind him taking time to get
his thoughts in order. He heard a great cheer from the hurley field. Someone must
have scored.

“Inis says that if someone is doomed to do something and they don’t do it, then
if it really is doomed, someone else will do it,” he said at last. “He says it doesn’t
matter who does it, usually, only there are some things that can’t be stopped from
happening. He said most things aren’t doomed at all, even when he’s seen things
in other worlds its usually a chance that can be taken or refused.” He thought
uncomfortably of the Feast of Bel. He kept seeing the dog woman since, with her
husband, or with the hunting dogs. She kept smiling at him. He didn’t know how
he could ask her name, now, and if he asked anyone else they would just tell him
her father’s name so he could address her politely, which wouldn’t help. He
pushed the thought of her away resolutely. At the other end of the field Leary
made his three attacks perfectly for the first time. “But my father says what you
said, to do what you want and not worry about what may be prophesied. Live
without looking over your shoulder, he says. And I think that’s the best way,
generally. Leave all that to the oracle priests. Though if you have dreams I
suppose that’s hard.” He stopped, uncertain.

“They’re not oracle dreams,” Darag said.

“It can be difficult to ignore even ordinary dreams though,” Ferdia said, from
heartfelt experience.

“Oh yes,” Darag agreed. “Shall we throw another set of spears and then go and

join the hurley before they finish?” He rose to his feet with his usual grace of
movement. Ferdia pulled himself to his feet, feeling clumsy, and as if he had said
the wrong thing.

They started walking over to the target to retrieve their spears. “I know I can
trust you,” Darag said. “I can talk to you about real things.”

“Of course,” Ferdia said, his heart overflowing.

“Do you want to be king of Lagin?” Darag asked as Ferdia was bending down
to pull out the one that had missed last time. It left a clear gash in the turf that
covered the peat.

“Yes,” he said, straightening. “Not now, but when my father dies, yes, of
course I do. It’s my duty.”

“If I felt it was my duty to be king of Oriel then maybe I would want to. I’d
certainly do it. As it is, I feel it’s a prize Conary is dangling in front of all his
nephews, setting us against each other. And it’s actually a false prize, an empty
one, disguising the real one. He talks about kingship to all of us, kingship and
strategy and never about what the land wants, what the farmers need, the demands
of the gods. It’s not just him, it’s his sisters and their husbands as well. Maybe if
my mother was alive she’d be just like that, but I like to think she was different.”

They turned and walked back up the field. “What happened to your mother?”
Ferdia asked. He had heard stories about the death of Dechtir ap Inis, of course.
The worst of them he had only heard whispered.

“She died in a chariot accident when I was five,” Darag said, staring straight
ahead. “She and Conary were going around the dun, I don’t know if it was
practice or if they were going off somewhere. They never got there anyway, never
got off the road around. She pitched right over the rail and hit her head on a rock,
a godstone beside the road. She cracked her head open and died before anyone
could do anything.”

He gestured south-east, and Ferdia realised he knew the very stone it must be, a
looming single stone that stood between the fields and the road.

“How awful,” Ferdia said, hearing the banality of his words but unable to catch
them back.

“The worst of it is that it’s such a freakish accident that some people whisper
Conary must have thrown her out. Nobody with any sense has ever believed that.
Not only was she his favourite sister and his charioteer, but he was absolutely
heartbroken, really inconsolable. I can just remember. People have told me he was
even harder hit by her death than when my aunt and cousins died in the plague.
He blamed himself — I suppose they must have been going fast for it to have
happened. He does have a temper, it’s true, and I can almost imagine him getting
angry and hitting her. But can you imagine anyone getting angry enough to throw
their charioteer out of the chariot? Anyone at all, let alone Conary?”

“They’d have to be mad,” Ferdia said, shuddering thinking about it. “It would
risk their own life.”

“Not to mention the difficulty of doing it,” Darag said. He gestured with his
spear towards Nid and Leary. “Think of the angle you’d have to get.”

Ferdia looked, and on reflection thought of a couple of ways it would be
possible. Just as they straightened out of a turn, if the charioteer wasn’t expecting
it, bend and heave. It wouldn’t be easy, and it would certainly be dangerous. He
doubted it could be spontaneous, but it was by no means impracticable, assuming
you wanted to do it in the first place. The hardest part would be taking the reins
just right to avoid crashing after the charioteer was out. He wondered if Conary
had crashed. He opened his mouth to ask, then realised suddenly that Darag must
have thought about it a lot and wanted very much for it to be impossible. “The
idea is just the sort of nonsensical gossip people like to pass along,” he said.
“They must have been going fast and hit a stone or something in the road, when
she wasn’t holding on at all.”

Darag smiled. “That’s what I’ve always thought.” They were back at throwing
distance. “Head, throat and gut this time?” he asked. Ferdia raised his chin in
agreement. “Your turn to go first,” Darag said.

Ferdia stuck two spears in the ground, held the third straight, and turned his
back on the target. Then he turned and threw, without aiming, hitting it too low
for head, somewhere between neck and chest. It would have been enough to kill,
if it had got through the armour. He took the second spear and tried for a throat
shot. It seemed to skim along the same path as before, landing almost beside his
first spear. Gritting his teeth he took up the third spear, the one that had made the
throat shot last time, and sent it towards the gut of the figure on the target, putting
all his force behind it. It ended up a little to the left of where it should have been
but within acceptable range.

“Not bad at all,” Darag said. He stuck his own two spears into the ground then
turned his back on the target, the third spear in his hand. Ferdia loved to watch
Darag like this, his whole body completely engaged in what he was doing. He
looked as if he was bom to do what he was doing, every action the only possible
movement. He took a breath, spun round and hurled the first spear in one motion.
He bent and took up the second, threw that, then a moment later sent the third
thudding home after it. “You’re not looking,” he said, laughing.

Ferdia realised he had been so engaged in watching Darag that he hadn’t even
glanced at the target. “You always hit where you aim,” he said. “I was trying to
see how you do the shoulder movement with that turning and bending and still
keeping the spear straight.”

Darag put his hand on Ferdia’ s shoulderblade. “Turn from here,” he said. “And
just let them go. You put your eye out thinking too hard.”

A woman laughed close by. Ferdia looked up quickly, and Darag dropped his
hand as if Ferdia’s shoulder suddenly burned him. It was Atha, spears in her hand.
As she was being treated as a guest while Conary negotiated with her mother for
her return she was allowed arms and acted as if she was on an ordinary visit. Any
hostage might try that; Atha succeeded. Ferdia had never met anyone with more
pride.

“One of you thinks too much and the other too little,” she said, grinning. “You
do it so easily you don’t know how you’re doing it, Darag. You’ll never make a
teacher unless you know in your head as well as your body. It isn’t the shoulders,
it’s the legs. Have you been practising a lot in the chariot, ap Cethem?”

“Yes, and I’m much better in it,” he admitted.

“Well, you have to do it more often, so it’s just as well. But it can give you bad
habits for throwing on the ground. The chariot moves under you, and you’re
trying to compensate for that when you don’t need to.” As she said it, Ferdia
realised she was right. He remembered how hard it had been to get used to the
chariot at first. She sent her own three spears casually thrumming down, each
landing a thumb’s width to the right of Darag ’s three.

“You’re right, ap Gren,” Ferdia said, as soon as she had finished, so he would
not be distracting her. “I think that is the problem. Thank you.”

“I’ll fetch them all back, and see if you can do better now you know what it is,”
she said, and set off down towards the target without waiting.

“Well,” Darag said, quietly, watching her go. “She may not be as pretty as
Elenn, but she has an amazing amount of nerve. And nobody can deny she knows
about fighting.”

Ferdia looked at him in consternation. Darag laughed. “She knows all about
fighting and has nerve yes,” Ferdia said, as quietly as he could. “But Elenn is
notably beautiful, while Atha definitely isn’t. I don’t see how it could come into
your mind to compare them like that.”

“Atha’s much easier to talk to, though,” Darag said. Atha pulled all nine spears
out of the peat easily, then turned and started back towards them. “Conary’ s
talking marriage alliances with her parents. It would be a good thing for Oriel.
Elba really doesn’t want Leary to marry Atha, though he said he would if he had
to. Conal has turned the proposal down flat, unsurprisingly. I said I’d think about
it, and I’m starting to think it might be a good idea.” Ferdia was completely lost
for words. He hadn’t been delighted at Darag’s devotion to Elenn, but it was such
a different kind of friendship he hadn’t really been jealous. It was something he
could almost share. But Atha could do everything he could do, do everything he
could do better than he could. If Darag married her she would always be there.

She came back and handed them their spears. Ferdia took his with hands that
felt cold. She stood between them. “Now, remember your feet are on solid ground

and let’s see you do it,” she said.

“It could be you I’m putting one through next season,” he said, forcing a smile.

“Oh yes. Or the other way round, which is more likely if you don’t get better at
it,” Atha agreed cheerfully. Darag laughed.

Ferdia stuck his spears in the ground. Solid ground, he reminded himself. Then
he turned, paused, turned back and threw. “Atha,” he thought. “Lagin against the
Isles, next summer.” He made his head shot. He drew the second spear out, aimed,
looking at the figure, black against the green turf of the target. “Conal,” he
thought. “Fighting for Connat because of Emer. Lagin against Connat, a huge
cattle raid, the biggest ever.” The spear went straight through the figure’s throat.
He took the third spear, not holding his breath, that beginner’s mistake,
remembering solid ground, practice ground, Darag and Atha watching. “Darag,”
he thought, before he could stop himself, remembering the laughter.

Then he wanted to catch the spear back, but it was too late, it soared smoothly
and made the gut shot just where it needed to. He turned to the congratulations of
the others feeling sick. He knew now why his father had told him never to pretend
he was fighting against anything but what was really in front of him. It was too
easy for anger to make you think something you never meant to. He spat to take
away the omen, and bent to touch a fragment of fallen wood from the tree. Darag
looked at him curiously, but said nothing.

When the other two had made their shots, Atha called to Leary and suggested
they all go and join the hurley. Ferdia was the first to agree. He didn’t want Darag
to know he was hurt, let alone that he’d felt that angry about it. He needed time to
think about this, to get it all straight in his mind.

4. (Emer)

After she stopped being afraid and before her sword broke, it was even better than
she had imagined it would be.

It wasn’t at all like the songs. The songs never said how noisy battle was. They
sometimes mentioned the clash of arms, but the clash of arms was the least part of
it, after the howling of battle cries, the dissonant music of the war-trumpets, and
the bellowing of the cattle. Even Conal yelled out the battle cry at the top of his
voice. It was deafening, like a very loud game of hurley played for some mad
reason in a byre. It tested her skill to the limit, but with Conal beside her she
found herself enjoying it all enormously.

To begin with she had been nervous. It was clear that their reputations as
champions would stand or fall on what they did today. She harnessed the chariot
ponies with the same hollow feeling in the pit of her stomach with which she
always anticipated a quarrel with her mother. She wiped her palms nervously on
her shirt before fastening her gloves. Then Conal came to wait with her, looking
calm and beautiful, like a young god in the morning of the world. She ran through
all the advice she had ever been given about chariot fighting. She knew that in a
fight like this where nobody else was mounted the most important thing was to
keep moving, if they were brought to a standstill they could be pulled down. Yet
she had no other horses so she could not risk exhausting the pair she had. She
worried that the horses would not fight properly, would not obey her. She had
heard of chariot teams running away from battles when the charioteer wasn’t firm
with them. She thought of the things Finca always said at practice. Mistakes now
would not mean embarrassment and bruises but wounding and death.

Then ap Anla painted the battle crow across Conal’ s face, changing him at a
stroke into a wild and fierce stranger. Hardly knowing why, Emer refused the
transformation. So it was as herself that she took up the traces and drove out of
the gates and down the steep slope. She felt very young and inexperienced. When
the horses pulled hard and tried to turn away from the raiders she remembered
that they at least had seen battle before. It was much harder than practice getting
them back under control, but after a moment they responded to her hand on the
traces. She brought the chariot up beside Meithin’s. The steward who had
questioned Conal’ s right to lead earlier was riding in it, clutching the rails and
keeping his balance uneasily. Meithin grinned at her and rolled her eyes. Emer
found herself laughing, all the fear burnt off like mist in the sun now that there
was something to do.

They caught the raiders entirely unaware, scattered among the herds, trying to

bring them towards the ships. Meithin wheeled and set down the steward, then
brought her mares around and set their heads for Ardmachan. Emer turned her
horses only to give Conal clear room to strike to the right. Out of the corner of her
eye she saw the farmers of Edar charging down the hill. They were painted to
make a fearsome sight and they held their shields above their heads. Those who
had them waved their spears, the rest waved axes or mattocks or billhooks. All of
them screamed out battlecries as they ran.

Conal took down three of the invaders with his throwing spears while they were
still standing open mouthed. Anyone would have imagined he had been doing it
for years. Emer gave a shout of encouragement and brought the horses around
again, closer this time, forcing Crabfoot to turn in just the way he hated most. The
invaders were starting to get organised and some of them were forming a line, but
most were still among the cows. Emer looked for Atha ap Gren but couldn’t tell
her from any of the rest of them. Several of them had limed hair. None of them
had chariots, so they couldn’t challenge Atha to a single combat, and there would
be no fighting chariot to chariot.

The fight seemed to last forever. The farmers and the raiders fought each other.
Conal and Emer and the chariot moved among them like one creature, scattering
the raiders where they could, avoiding places where the raiders tried to trap and
slow them, trying to stop them finding time to close up. A spear from behind
narrowly missed Whitenose, and another stuck in the chariot beside Emer. Conal
pulled it out and returned it to its owner or one of his friends.

Emer’s arms began to ache badly as they turned again. A moment later Conal
put back his head and threw up his arms gave a great shout, and the black bull
came running down the hill, head lowered. The bellowing of the cows redoubled
as the whole herd began to move, trampling enemies and the occasional badly
placed friend alike. Then Conal had her drive along the edge of the stampeding
herd as he leaned over, calling all the time to the bull, forcing the cattle to go
where he wanted them, out along the shore, away from the ships and the raiders.

By the time they came back the raiders were scattered, some of them making
for the ships with blue-painted farmers running after them. There seemed to be
only one knot of organisation. “Atha,” Conal said, then gave a rallying battle cry
again. Emer drove her tiring horses straight towards the knot of raiders.

She went straight at them. They had been leaping out of her way all morning,
though she could not tell whether they had been fighting for minutes or hours.
Behind them, in the distance, on the road to Ardmachan, she could see a cloud of
dust which might have been Meithin going for help, or help coming back already.
Then Whitenose stumbled and before she could right him Crabfoot fell, leg
broken, tangling the traces. Conal drew his sword as he vaulted neatly over the
wheel on his side. Slingshots, Emer thought, ducking as she hacked at the traces,

she had given them time for slings and the horses at least would die for it.
Whitenose was still dragging the chariot and his fallen companion forward in
lurches. If she survived she swore she would practice cutting traces. The leather
was tough and the knife was not sharp enough. Her fingers were clumsy in her
gloves. Everyone said how important it was, and made sure charioteers had a
knife for it, but nobody practised doing it. She was half sobbing for breath as she
hacked at the leather.

“Jump!” Conal shouted, from somewhere off behind her. She jumped and
rolled without thought. Almost as soon as she was free of it the chariot and horses
went down together with a crunch and squeal. Whitenose must have been hit
again.

As she started to straighten to her feet she saw a huge grinning raider right in
front of her.

His spear was coming down towards her. There was no time to draw her sword.
She leapt at him, inside the arc of his spear, and thrust the little knife upwards into
his belly as hard as she could. He looked completely dumbfounded. Then she
leapt away as fast as she could, leaving the knife buried to the hilt. The raider
toppled slowly sideways. Stupid knife might be useless for its purpose, but it
could kill, she thought, and giggled. She reached for her sword, and Conal was
there protecting her back.

For a moment it was even more like hurley, the two of them against everyone,
except that the enemy wanted to kill them. They could only move together, and
the enemy could move as much as they wanted. Then some more of their side
came up, the steward and a handful of others, and it was more even. Emer
wondered if they might make a song of it if she and Conal died together in their
first battle.

There was a woman with limed hair, fighting with a long knife in each hand.
Emer couldn’t get near her, but she managed to keep her away for a little while,
because her sword had more reach. Then she parried one of the knives hard and
her sword shattered. One of the fragments bit into her leg and another struck the
raider on the shoulder. Emer stared at the useless hilt for a moment, then looked
around for another weapon. As she did, the woman slashed at her face and cut it
open.

For the first moment she did not feel pain, only the wetness of blood, and then
she felt the cut and clapped her hand to it. Her cheek was hanging by a flap of
skin. If the knife had been a breath further to the left it would have taken her in
the throat and she would be dead already. She had been wounded and could have
been killed, could still be killed, she, Emer ap Allel of Connat, now, today.

She lay on the ground, not quite sure how she had got there, struggling to get
up. Conal stood over her, and as he fought he gave a great battlecry again.

“Who are you to come marked for victory?” the woman with the knives asked.

“Don’t you know me, Atha?” Conal replied. Emer pulled herself to her knees,
one hand still holding her face together. She looked around for a weapon. Conary
said that everything could be a weapon to someone who truly knew how to fight.
Could that really be Atha? She looked just like anyone else.

“I thought I knew all the champions of Oriel,” Atha said. “But I don’t know
you.”

There was a thundering sound. “Run!” Emer heard the steward shout, sounding
very far away. Somehow she couldn’t get any further up, however much she tried.
Everyone seemed to be running, except Atha and Conal, who were still engaged.

“I am Conal ap Amagien of Edar,” Conal said. “You have hurt what I love best
in the world, but give me your knife and I will spare your life.”

Atha laughed, and attacked again. “You were a child when I was here. I am
famous among champions. You have done very well, but it is I who am going to
kill you.”

“Listen,” Conal said, blocking her. “Drop your knife, or you will die.”

“Never,” Atha said, her eyes on his.

“Look, then,” Conal said. “If you do not drop your knife we will all die
together, but I can stop them.”

Atha laughed again, spun around, weapons ready, not dropping her guard for a
moment, and then, amazingly, as she spun back, instead of attacking again she
dropped one of her knives onto Emer’s lap.

“Get down,” Conal said, and he called out and raised his arms.

In one smooth movement Atha crouched beside Emer and then the herd was
there all around them, parting around Conal’ s spread hands.

There was a long hot moment as the herd ran past. Even half-dazed Emer was
aware how large and fierce and close the cattle were and how strong their smell
was. Then they were past, and Conal was on one knee beside her, holding the
knife to her cheek and singing a healing charm, weaving her name into it.

“Don’t forget the charm against weapon rot,” Atha said. Emer could not move
her head but she moved her eyes. Atha was standing watching, holding her other
knife. Conal sang on, the charms against weapon rot and blood loss. When it came
to the charm for strength Emer felt well enough to join in. She ran her fingers over
her cheek. There was a ridged seam of scar that felt years old already. She pulled
herself to her feet, feeling as if she had just woken from a dream. Conal put his
arm around her and she leaned on him gratefully. It hardly seemed strange that
Conary and Finca should be there in the king’s chariot.

“So, Atha?”

“So, Conary?”

“So you are defeated by the cows you came to steal?”

“So the battle was won by the courage and leadership of Conal ap Amagien of
Edar. Conal the Victor I call him now, for he painted for victory and victory on
the field is his. Nobody has defeated me in personal combat.”

Finca smiled a little at her son.

“Even the youngest of my champions can win a battle against the best the Isles
can send,” Conary said, and glanced approvingly at Conal and Emer. “Is this an
invasion from the Isles?”

“No,” Atha said, quickly. “This is a cattle raid only, my mother knows nothing
of it. There is no feud between your people and mine.”

“There is no feud, only a cattle raid,” Conary agreed. “It seems we have much
to discuss. Will you accept my hospitality at Ardmachan?”

Atha turned her head. Emer followed her gaze. The ships of the Isles were
rowing away. There were a straggle of raiders left on the shore. Between them
and Atha was the herd of cows, now placidly grazing, and the assembled might of
the champions of Oriel. Darag and Laig were in the front row.

“It seems I will,” Atha said, and bowed.

It seemed Conal wanted to speak to every surviving farmer of Edar, and every
champion of Oriel wanted to speak to him. Emer was happy enough to sit quietly
and drink water and eat some bread and honey ap Anla brought to her. She still
felt far away from ordinary concerns. It wasn’t until Conary suggested she ride
back to Ardmachan that she woke up properly.

“I will drive Conal,” she said.

“I don’t mind if you want to rest,” Conal said. Now that the battle was over he
looked exhausted.

“I want to drive you,” she repeated. “I know we wrecked the chariot, but there
must be another we can use.”

“The horses will be eaten at the victory feast,” the steward assured her. His arm
was bound up. She hoped they could find the weapon and heal him properly. “We
will all honour them, and you. We also honour the generosity of King Conary for
leaving the captives with us.”

Emer smiled at him, and he bowed. She could see the straggle of leftover
raiders being brought into the dun. They looked sullen and resigned. Serving at
Edar for the season was not at all what they had expected when they had left
home. It was so near the beginning of the season too, it would be months before
they got back to the Isles.

“I still want to drive,” she said.

“The warriors can make space,” Finca said, meaning that some of them they
could go back three to a chariot. “You can drive my son if you want to.”

Conary looked as if he was about to protest, but bit it back.

Conal and Emer took their place in the array of champions. Not far from them

they could see Atha getting in beside Meithin. Emer laughed quietly.

“What?” Conal asked.

“Yesterday I’d have been so proud to be here, but today we are the only ones
who have fought. We won the battle ourselves.”

“Along with the farmers and the cows,” Conal said. “Twelve farmers were
killed, though no cows were either taken or harmed.”

“And how many raiders?” Emer asked.

“Around thirty, many of them trampled,” Conal said. “Garth brought me eleven
heads he says are mine. One of them is yours, the big man you killed with the
knife. I told Garth, and he will send it to you when it is ready.”

There had not been time in the battle for Emer even to think about taking his
head. “How very kind,” she said. “I should have thanked him.” She looked round.
The steward was over by the gates now.

“It was your kill,” Conal said. “And Garth understands you were recovering
from your wound. I thanked him for you. And indeed, he would hardly take a
word of thanks. Edar will do well from this raid, when it could have done very
badly, and Garth and Anla both know it.”

Then Conary came over to them. “You both did very well indeed,” he said. “I
am proud of you. You did everything you could have, except maybe you could
have tried to set fire to the ships to stop them getting away.”

“I didn’t think of that,” Conal said.

“Nobody can think of everything. You might have sent Meithin off and held
Atha negotiating and boasting for long enough, but it might not have worked.”

“I didn’t think Atha would agree to fight me,” he said. “She wouldn’t fight
someone she’d never heard of, and when there weren’t any other champions
present.”

“She didn’t have a chariot,” Emer put in.

Conary looked at her, startled. “I wasn’t suggesting that you fight her, just
exchanged challenges and boasts to buy time, establishing that it was a raid not a
feud, speaking of a champion who would fight, meaning when we came up.”

Emer met his eyes. “Conal held her off for a long time,” she said, proudly.
“They stopped fighting because the herd came back, but he might have won.”

“I wouldn’t,” Conal said, and shrugged. “She’s too good for me yet. But if I
keep practising.”

Conary laughed. “You did very well. And what you did with the bull was
inspired. It was a great risk, but anything was a risk. You saved the herd and the
farm. What you did worked, that’s the most important thing.” Conary embraced
Conal then, and went to his own chariot.

They set off back to Ardmachan. The fields seemed very brightly green and the
hawthorn blossom on the hedgerows almost unnaturally white. Emer felt as if she

had run a hundred miles. Conal stood very still beside her. “Conary’s really
pleased,” he said, after a while, as if he was turning the thought over in his mind.

“He ought to be,” Emer said, indignantly. “It’s about time people started to
appreciate you instead of making a fuss over Darag all the time.”

Conal laughed. “Darag came and congratulated me while you were dozing
under the tree. So did Leary. Leary used to be my friend, you know.”

“Good for them,” Emer said. “And your mother smiled. Maybe even your
father will realise you’ve done something good.”

Conal’s smile was crooked. “No, I’m fairly sure my father will be angry that I
endangered the herd getting them to stampede and furious that you broke his
second-best spare sword.”

IV - Amagien’s Feast

1. (Conal)

“Now Conal, you know your father’s very proud of you,” Finca said.

Fifteen impossible answers flashed up ready to Conal’ s tongue, topmost of
them the desire to deny emphatically that he had knowledge of any such thing.
Next in priority came the urgent wish to ask his mother why, if that was the case,
Amagien had never done anything by word or deed to indicate it. He swallowed
all the responses whole and stood mute and choking on unsayable words, his eyes
on the worn rushes at his feet. Words were his shield and his defence against the
world. He went through his days skimming along on them like a dragonfly over
the water, words to bring laughter and keep trouble away. It was only with his
parents that their shield crumbled away and left him helpless.

At least he had managed to catch his mother alone. It was not easy. Most of the
time she was in the king’s hall or down in the stables, surrounded by people. What
little time she was in their house Amagien was almost always there too. He could
not even begin to think of facing his father about this directly. He had only caught
her now because she had come over from the hall to fetch something.

He took a breath and looked at Finca, disconcerted to find that he had to look
down and not up at her. He had noticed that he had been growing all summer. It
had made him clumsy. He hadn’t quite taken it in that he had overtopped his
mother. Finca regarded him with visibly fraying patience. “This isn’t what I
want,” he managed to repeat, pushing away the real arguments, the ones he knew
she could never hear.

“The feast isn’t just to honour you, it’s to honour all the folk of Edar who
fought the attackers. You can’t refuse it without insulting them,” Finca said. Her
tone was deliberately reasonable, as if to say that nobody could disagree. It was a
tone she used on Conary and Amagien all the time.

Conal winced and looked away from her, his eyes sliding over the familiar
curved walls and chests stacked against them. He could deal best with Finca when
she saw him as ally, not obstacle. “I know. That’s why I didn’t refuse at once,” he
said, keeping his tone reasonable. “But the more my father talks about it the more

he makes it seem that it is to honour me, and —

“What’s wrong with you? Most champions would be glad of an honour feast to
their victory,” Finca interrupted. He looked back at her. She seemed more
impatient than ever.

“Most such feasts would be given by the king, and Conary has honoured me for
it already,” Conal said, not letting himself react, pulling the words together
quickly and lightly. She was listening, at least. “The problem is, mother, that it’s
really not very subtle. It’s too much, making too much of it in a way the others
don’t like.” He stopped, seeing the idea take root. He could never get anywhere
with Amagien. Sometimes he could with Finca, and then Finca could get through
to his father.

“You won a great victory,” she said, more slowly. “You won it almost single
handed. That cannot be remembered too much.”

Now he bit back the urge to remind her he could not have done it without Emer,
or without the folk of Edar. It would only distract her from the scent he wanted
her to take. “If it were Conary giving the feast, here, maybe,” he said, stroking the
dark fuzz that was beginning to grow on his chin, which only Emer called a beard.
“But my own father doing it at Edar, and building onto the hall to do it? That
could look like ambition rather than boasting.”

Finca hesitated, and for a moment he thought he had her. Then she shook her
head swiftly. “At last I understand the direction you are wandering with all this
reluctance and I don’t have to think you’ve taken leave of your senses. But you’re
worrying too much. Nobody will think it is ambition. That is a line which is very
clear to me, much clearer than it is to you. You think they will see that because
there is some ambition in there. You do want to be king, after all, and this is a step
towards that. But nobody else will notice. Conary will be there, he will honour
you, and it is there that you won your name. Nobody will see it as ambition on
your part when we feast the whole farm of Edar and all the king’s champions.”
Finca stopped and looked at him keenly. “You need to stop being so shy, that’s
half of why Conary doesn’t notice you as he ought. You think you are putting
yourself forward too much when in fact you are too retiring. If Amagien had
written a praise song about his own son that might have been seen as ambitious,
maybe. It was fortunate that ap Dair was here to do it, and he did a very
workmanlike job. A little too much about Oriel and Connat working together,
perhaps, but it is a song that will begin to make your fame known.” Conal felt his
cheeks heating at the thought of that song, and perhaps his mother noticed,
because she laughed. “Let me worry about such things for now,” she said.

“I am not a child,” Conal said, and then immediately regretted it as his mother’s
face froze.

“Then don’t act like one,” she said, and turned on her heel and left the house

without whatever it was she had come in for. Conal stood still for a moment
staring after her, his hands clenched.

It took him some time to find Emer. Discovering that she was not among those
on the field playing hurley made him muddy and sweaty but cheered him up a
little. He got to out-run Atha and to cause Darag and Ferdia to run hard into each
other.

When he ran out of places to look in the dun he went down to the stables. As he
walked down the hill he was struck by the beauty of the trees and hedgerows
spread out below him, gold and red and brown in the afternoon sunlight that was
so gold as to seem almost green. This was the light in which he pictured Manan’s
underwater halls. Although the afternoon was still warm it was an autumnal light.
It made him thi nk of short days to come. He could not decide whether he would
be sorry to be done with this summer. Some of it had been so good, and the rest so
painful.

The stable-yard was full of people. Uthidir the chariot maker and his assistant
were arguing with one of the leather workers who made harness. Meithin was
trying to calm them down. Ap Felim, the kennel mistress, was trying to quiet a
bunch of puppies who kept leaping up and barking. In the comer, Casmal was
arguing with ap Carbad about training schedules. It was turmoil, and he could not
see Emer anywhere. He edged around the buildings and saw Nid and Eeary off at
the far end of the rough paddock turning circles in a chariot. Then he saw Emer
quite close, walking a pair of horses around her on a long rein, getting them used
to the feeling of being yoked together before adding the weight of a chariot to the
mix.

Conal stood for a moment in the shadow of the kennels watching her. She was
completely absorbed in her work. As always, his eyes went to her scar, and then
quickly away. It was an honourable wound, yet it made him feel as if he had been
given something precious to guard and had broken it. She was not crippled, or
even really hurt, but she could so easily have died if Atha’s sword had found her
throat instead. Whenever he saw it, it made him know what a mad risk he had
taken with her, with them all. There had been no time to think about it until
afterwards, when there had been time to think about almost nothing else. The scar
made him apprehensive in a way he had not been in the battle. He had said
nothing to her about that. He already knew how she felt about being taken care of.
That she would go into battle beside him was just something else he would have
to endure, quietly, every time, until she died, or he did. He would smile and fight
beside her, and keep what he felt in his heart buried. In some ways it hurt most
that there was already something he could not say to her. There had been such a
little time when he felt he could tell her everything.

He walked out onto the muddy field towards her, noticing how she had grown

into her legs over the summer. She looked like a charioteer now, not like a colt.
She looked absurdly pleased to see him, but did not stop. He waited, well out of
the way, and watched her working. The outside horse was an older mare, pale
brown, with the scattering of white face hairs that marked her stamina. She was
slightly tubby with easy living. The other was a leggy two-year old gelding,
mostly white but with patches so dusky as to be almost black. He was just getting
the feel of being yoked to another horse and not sure he liked it. He kept throwing
up his nose, and Emer kept holding him back to the pace of the steady mare on the
outside. After a few even circuits she drew them to a halt so Conal could come
closer and embrace her.

“I think Patches is finally getting it,” she said, smiling up at him. “Did you see
him stop then?”

“I managed to speak to my mother,” he said, quietly.

Emer turned her face up to him, all at once serious. “Did she hear you?”

“Not a word of it. I would rather have my hair tom out by sparrows, but we will
have to go, and endure whatever humiliation my father heaps on me.”

Emer sighed. “Oh well. One evening, some speeches, a feast, how bad can it
get? You’re worrying about it too much. It’ll soon be over. And afterwards Atha
will be gone.”

“I keep having dreams about it,” he admitted.

Emer started the horses moving again. “What kind of dreams?” she asked after
a moment, when they were moving evenly. “You know what Inis said about the
three kinds of dreams.”

“I think they’re the silly mixed up worry kind of dreams,” Conal said. “But
they don’t quite feel like that. They feel ominous.”

“Did you tell your mother that?” Emer asked.

Conal shook his head, looking out over the horses’ heads at the hill and the dun
behind them. “She wouldn’t have heard that at all.”

“How about talking to Inis, then?”

“Inis’s remedies are often worse than the problem.” Conal sighed. He could, he
supposed. But Inis had been very close to madness all this summer and he didn’t
want to make him worse. It seemed that talking about this would be likely to push
him further away from his balance. What could he do anyway, against Amagien’s
determination? “I think you’re right and we’re going to have to go through with
it.”

“Did you ask your mother about the other thing?” Emer asked.

“I just didn’t have the chance. There’s no point asking when she’s angry.
There’s time yet. We couldn’t possibly get married for another year at the
earliest.”

“I’ll have to go back to Connat at the Feast of the Mother next year,” she said,

not looking at him, hands busy with the reins. “You think your parents are
difficult but you don’t know what my mother’s like for making arrangements
people don’t want. We should get something sorted out before that.”

“I don’t want to be away from you either. Maybe you could speak to my
parents and I could speak to — ” Conal began.

“Look out!” Leary screamed, much too close. Conal could hear the horses and
chariot tearing down towards them out of control. Emer dropped her reins and
leapt to the side. He followed her, diving to the ground and rolling, coming up just
in time to see what happened. The chariot careened past them, almost through
where they had been standing. The iron wheels looked huge and much too near.
He could picture one of them rolling over Emer’s head, crushing it, almost as
vividly as if it had really happened. His heart was pounding so hard that it felt as
if it would beat its way out of his chest. He took a deep breath and tried to calm
himself.

Emer’s horses, spooked, ran in different directions. Leary seemed to be driving,
or attempting to drive, the chariot, though it was clearly out of control. There was
no sign of Nid anywhere. He was pulling the horses to the left, to get as far from
Conal and Emer as he could, or maybe in the hope of making a circle around the
field and drawing the horses to a halt when they were exhausted. But when the
gelding bolted in one direction and the mare in the other, she went straight into
the side of the hurtling chariot. Conal felt frozen in place. He could see what was
about to happen. He held his breath. Emer clutched his arm. Neither of them could
do anything to prevent it. Horse and chariot met with a great crash, and the chariot
collapsed in a shattering of timber. The mare screamed. Leary’s bolting horses
were pulled to their knees.

“Oh no,” Emer said, under her breath. “Oh no, oh no, oh no.”

“Come on,” Conal said. Starting to move was hard, but once they had begun
they ran and reached the fallen chariot in a few moments. People were coming
running from the stableyard; they must have heard the crash even over all the
tumult. Conal took in the crash with one rapid glance. Leary was half-lying over
the rail, his eyes closed. His left side was bloody and bruised. Nid was slumped
on the floor of the chariot with blood on her temple, but she seemed otherwise
unhurt. The mare was still alive, but breathing heavily with blood around her
mouth.

“Help me get them out then look to the horses,” he said to Emer. He went to the
other side of the fallen chariot and began to pull Leary out. He was breathing, and
Conal felt his own breath come easier for it. They had quarrelled a lot in the past
year, but before that Leary had been his friend.

He laid him safely on the muddy grass and went back to help Emer pull Nid
out. As he carried her over to lay beside Leary, Ap Felim and Uthidir came to

help. Soon they were singing charms Conal did not know over Leary and Nid and
there was nothing he could do.

He looked up. The chariot horses had been cut free and people were seeing to
them. Meithin was with Emer by the wreck looking at the mare, who was
plunging wildly and struggling to breathe. They both had tears on their faces.
Conal stood up and took a step towards them. He was surprised to discover that
his legs quaked like a bog.

“I knew her,” Emer said. Meithin made a motion, but Emer drew her knife.
“Forgive me, Barley, forgive me Rhianna,” she said, and plunged the knife into
the mare’s neck.

Blood spurted out, covering them. The mare slumped for a moment, then
swelled. The sun went behind a cloud. The mare’s flesh fell away from her bones,
like cooked meat falling away from a bone in stew. Conal could not move his
eyes away. The mare’s bones fell apart on the ground, and inside her there was
something small and bloody and very ugly. It grew and darkened until it was
unmistakably a horse, an enormous black horse, bigger than the chariot, bigger
than any horse that ever was, with huge yellow teeth. Conal did not know how his
legs had given way but he was sitting staring up at the great and terrible horse
shape.

“Forgive me, Rhianna,” Emer said again. She was still upright, the bloody knife
in her hand, and her voice shaking only a little. Meithin, who has been beside her,
was face down on the ground.

“Thou I forgive, brave charioteer of Connat,” Horse Mother said. Her voice
was like the thunder of hooves towards battle. “Thou struck from mercy. But
Oriel — no. This is the third time I died at Ardmachan.”

“Accident,” Leary gasped. Conal half turned, and saw him sitting up, looking
ghastly. Nid was still unconscious. Uthidir and ap Felim had flung themselves
face down like Meithin. “A stone struck my charioteer, and I couldn’t hold the
horses. The mare was — ”

“Careless and cruel are not far apart,” Rhianna said. Conal turned back to her.
Her face seemed more like a woman’s now, but still with those huge rending
teeth. “Once it was cruel, once it’s a tool, and now it’s a fool. Beasts are not tools
to bear your burdens, they are companions. Well that you learn this. I set a curse
on the folk of this dun once, now I will call it to force. And all of my beasts who
are here I will take.”

Conal wished desperately that Conary or Inis were there to speak for Oriel. He
cleared his throat to speak. “Mother of Beasts, we love our horses and mean them
no harm. We risk them in war, but only as we risk ourselves.”

Rhianna stared at him, and her eye was like a woman’s and a horse’s at the
same time. Then she nickered, and the two chariot horses and the gelding,

Patches, came running towards her. Patches was still tangled in his harness. One
of the chariot horses was limping. They came right up to Beastmother and pressed
close. They did not seem even slightly afraid. Conal dared not drop his gaze. He
felt she was weighing every time he had ever had to do with animals, from his
childish fear of Blackie the bull to his killing the two chariot horses in the battle at
Edar.

She threw back her head and shook it, like a horse bothered by a fly. “True are
your words, son of Oriel, you love them,” she said. “And the beasts say they stay.
Still I will bring down the curse that I gave you, long long ago when the dun here
was raised. When next the red tide of battle is flowing, when folk in arms cross
the borders to fight then will my curse come to make you remember, the fighting
folk of Oriel will suffer that night.”

“Suffer?” Conal asked.

She reared up, dark against the sky, as tall as the dun, taller, blotting out the
hill, her eyes red and her mane tossing like stormclouds. “As the mare suffered, as
the mare suffered, as the mare suffered,” she said, each repetition more like
thunder, and was gone from the paddock into the sky.

Conal sat staring up at the racing clouds, his mouth still open.

2. (Elenn)

Edar wasn’t much of a place. It was just a farm on a hill with a palisade around it,
like hundreds of other farms. And the hall wasn’t big enough for everyone, even
though it had clearly been extended recently and given a fresh coat of limewash.
There wasn’t even a proper kitchen. The far end of the hall, the old end, had a
proper stone fireplace. It was there that the ox had been roasted, whole. It still
hung there, a little away from the fire, smelling wonderful, waiting for Amagien
to go and carve it himself. There weren’t enough alcoves on the hall so trestles
had been set up, with boards over them, and everyone was lined up sitting along
them, Vincan fashion. She liked being able to watch everyone. There were three
tables, two of them running down the hall and the top one running across. One of
them was packed tightly with the farm people, one was full of the champions and
court of Oriel, including Elenn, and the top table was for the king, his family, and
those who were being especially honoured, including two of the farmers.

Conary sat at the centre of this table, with his family around him. Everyone was
dressed in all their finery. Finca looked very dignified. Elba

was wearing a new overdress embroidered with pearls. Ringabur was engaged
in a long conversation with Darag about something that seemed to need lots of
arm gestures. Leary put in the occasional remark. They really did look like
champions now, not like boys. Conal, looking like a poet, was talking to Emer,
who was looking respectable for once, with her hair combed and wearing a clean
overdress. Beyond her were the two farmers, who looked clean but
uncomfortable.

Elenn wished she felt more certain that Maga would approve of Emer behaving
like this and being singled out. It was certainly an honour, but it might not be the
right kind of honour. She hoped Emer wouldn’t do something to bring disgrace on
Connat. She didn’t know what she could do that would do that, but she’d never
have been able to imagine half the things Emer had done already. Emer was
wearing a gold arm-ring Conary had given her after the battle, and another one of
thick twisted bronze snakes which Conal had given her. Elenn didn’t know if it
was right of her to accept them, but she was quite glad she had it now, because
she was too young to have adornments of her own and without those she’d have
been the only one at the king’s table bare of it, except for the farmers of course.

“In Lossia they eat lying down,” Ferdia said. The other good thing about the
seating was that she could sit between Ferdia and Orlam, a little way down the
right side of the champions’ table. No ordinary seating arrangement would have
put her with both of them for a formal feast. She’d normally have been tucked

away in an alcove with Emer and Atha and some of the lesser champions of Oriel.

“Lying down?” she asked, trying to picture people eating stretched out on the
floor — or maybe they ate in their beds? “That’s absurd.”

“It’s true,” Orlam confirmed. “There are two songs that mention it.”

Orlam was looking especially beautiful. She was wearing a pale blue overdress,
a gold arm-ring on each arm, and a circlet on her head of silver and pearls. She
made Elenn feel very young. It didn’t matter if Amagien had written a song about
how beautiful she was, her friend had so much more style. She was wearing the
overdress Maga had sent for the feast of Bel. Lacking adornments, she had made
herself a head-dress of purple daisies, which sat comfortably on her braided hair.
“How do they do it?” Elenn asked.

“I don’t know,” Orlam said. “I’d imagine they’d suffer a great deal from
indigestion.” They laughed.

“Where is Lossia anyway?” Ferdia asked.

“Far off across the sea, beyond Tir Tanagiri, beyond Vinca, way off further
than anyone’s been,” Orlam said, looking dreamy. “I’d like to go one day and see
what’s really in the wide world.”

“Raiding?” Ferdia asked, looking interested. “My father has raided Demedia.”
“Further than Demedia, and not raiding, just exploring,” Orlam said. “Just to
see what they do and what they eat. . . “

“And how they eat,” Elenn put in, smiling. “I’d like to do that too.”

“I’d like to eat now, I’m starving,” Ferdia said.

“Well, you’re about to get lucky, here comes Amagien at last,” Orlam said “Be
quiet.”

People were shushing each other all around the tables as Amagien came in. He
was dressed in his best for the occasion, glittering with what

must be every tore and arm-ring and brooch he had ever won as a poet. Elenn’ s
heart sank to see that he was carrying his little harp. She saw Leary whisper
something to Darag and roll his eyes, and wondered if they too would rather leave
music until after they’d had a chance to eat.

“Be welcome to my hall of Edar, King Conary, champions of Oriel, Atha of the
Isles, prince of Lagin, and princesses of Connat,” Elenn inclined her head politely
as she was mentioned. Emer visibly squirmed, at the top table, though it was no
more than courtesy. “Never were such a splendid company gathered in this hall,
nor were such splendid deeds done at Edar before as those we gather here to
honour today. Edar was threatened, and on the very first day of summer. With
only the folk of the farm and two chariots with their charioteers, my son Conal
beat off an attack by Atha ap Gren herself and by the champions of the Isles.”
Now it was Conal who squirmed. Some of the farmers didn’t look very happy to
hear their part played down so much.

“Nothing can be sufficient to honour those who fought and fell, whose names
will always be remembered. This feast is my small offering for those who fought
and lived to see the victory. The herd was saved, until today when one of them
will be served up to you.” It was a feeble enough joke, but people were laughing
at it, so Elenn made herself smile politely. Orlam’s stomach growled.

“I have made no praise song for the victory at Edar. It is a little much for a poet
to write praise songs for their own family. But Gabran ap Dair made a song,
which I shall sing now before we eat.” Everyone’s face fell a little, even Conary
and Finca lost a little of their air of pleased expectancy. People kept looking at the
fine roasted meat as if to ask whether letting it get cold was a good idea. Only ap
Fathag settled back comfortably as people usually did while harps were tuned.

Amagien began to sing. His voice and his playing were as good as ever. Elenn
had heard the song before when ap Dair first performed it in Ardmachan, so there
were no surprises. When it came to the part about the co-operation between
Connat and Oriel, she glanced at her sister. Conal and Emer were both listening
with sober expressions and their heads down. If Elenn hadn’t known that Emer
had been brought up properly she would have wondered if they could be holding
hands under the table. At last, after much too long, Amagien brought the song to
its dramatic conclusion with the charge of the bulls and the capture of Atha. Atha,
knowing everyone would be looking at her, was grinning back with a little malice
in her expression. Elenn wondered what it would do to Atha’s reputation to have
that song widely sung. She supposed it spoke well of her that she had been so
honourable in defeat as to give Conal a praise name.

Everyone drummed their feet politely at the end of the song, Elenn among
them. The farmers of Edar around their table were extremely enthusiastic,
drumming and cheering. They liked it so much so that Elenn was afraid they
might ask for a repeat. The old man sitting by Emer had tears in his eyes. But at
last Amagien put down the harp and picked up a carving knife. Even so Elenn was
afraid it would be hours before she got any dinner. Carving could be a slow
business. A quiet buzz of conversation rose as everyone began telling each other
that they would faint with hunger in another moment. Then one of the farm
women came around with a tray of hot fresh griddies. Elenn thanked her and bit
into one gratefully. Before she had reached the top of their table with the griddies,
Amagien had

carved the first piece, the top of the rump, sometimes called the hero’s portion.

Elenn ate her griddie delicately, catching the crumbs, and watched Amagien put
the first serving onto a bronze plate. Everyone watched, admiring his hospitality
or just waiting for him to give it to Conary and get on. The air of hungry
impatience was almost tangible, especially at Elenn’ s table, where they could not
hope to be served for some time. Instead of giving the portion to Conary,

Amagien took the plate to Conal and bowed his head to his son. A silence spread
out from them. Amagien spoke into that silence, his poet’s voice filling the room.
“Take the hero’s portion, my son, for your victory, the first serving to honour the
first among the young champions.”

Conary closed his eyes. Conal looked sickly up at his father. He reached for the
plate slowly but before he could take it Leary leapt to his feet. “Conal’ s victory I
will honour,” Leary said, loudly, almost shouting. “But I won’t sit still to hear him
called first among the young champions. That is yet to be decided.”

The woman with the griddies froze, and shrank back against the wall.

“That is yet to be decided,” Conary echoed. “Divide the hero’s portion into
three, ap Ross, and share it between the sons of my three sisters.”

Amagien hesitated. Finca put her hand on her brother’s arm. “Conal has earned
it,” she said. “What have your other nephews done since they have taken up arms?
Maybe it is time to decide.”

Conary looked at her with dislike.

“What chances have they had this summer?” Elba said, from Conary’ s other
side, in reasonable tones.

Conary turned and gave her the same look. “It will be for the champions of
Oriel to choose between my nephews when I am dead,” he said. “They will have
plenty of time to show their prowess before that, if the gods are kind.”

A murmur ran through the hall as everyone invoked the gods to give Conary
life and strength. Elenn joined in, sincerely enough.

Ferdia stood up as soon as the informal prayer was over. “We are not talking
about inheriting Oriel now,” he said. “But it seems to me that the question of
which of the king’s nephews is now the best among the young champions could
easily be settled by some friendly contests, after dinner.”

There was a general laugh at the last two words. To her surprise Elenn saw that
Darag was frowning urgently at Ferdia.

“Very well,” Conary said, looking like a man seeing a clear way out of a maze.
“We will have contests after dinner, and Orlam ap Ringabur shall arrange and
judge them.”

“But she’s ap Ringabur’s sister,” Ferdia said. Darag shook his head at him
fiercely.

“I am a lawspeaker of Rathadun, I am sworn to judge fairly,” Orlam said,
quietly, yet all the room heard her. “Nor do you see me sitting with my brother
and my parents as royal kin at this feast. Is that a challenge to my honour?”

“No,” Ferdia said, and sat down. Elenn breathed a sigh of relief.

Orlam looked down the table, and sighed herself. “Still, who will say that I can
truly decide fairly between my brother and my cousins in such a case as this,
when it will be remembered in the far time when it comes to time to choose kings

again in Oriel? This is the blind spot I did not see which makes coming home a
burden and not a benefit. We are all too close akin here, Conary, your lawspeaker
is your niece and your oracle-priest is your father. You had best set the contests
and judge them yourself.”

“Not I,” Conary said. “That is advice, not a judgement, and I reject it. If you
will not decide I call on you to choose another to judge these contests.”

Orlam stood up and sighed. Elenn moved a little away from her. She looked
different, more serious, older. Everyone kept very quiet, hardly moving. Orlam
pulled off her pearl circlet and dropped it onto Elenn’ s lap. Elenn took careful
hold of it, it was delicate work and could be crushed easily. Orlam let down her
hair, shaking it until it was loose around her face. She extended her hands, palms
up and then down. “Before all the gods of home and hearth and of our people, and
especially Damona, Lady of Justice,” she said. “I am Orlam ap Ringabur, a
lawspeaker of Rathadun, and this is my judgement.” She looked all around the
hall, making eye contact with everyone in turn. She did not take any less time
with the farmers than with the champions. Nobody fidgeted while she was doing
it. Elenn could hardly breathe as her eyes followed Orlam’ s gaze. Darag looked
calm. Leary looked defiant. Conal looked desperately unhappy.

“These three young champions are the heirs of Oriel,” she said at last. “Nobody
here could choose between them without room for some to say that there was bias,
one way or another. There must be four contests, each arranged and judged by the
other four kings of Tir Isamagiri.” She paused, lowered her hands, and everyone
drew in their breath all at once. “1 do appreciate that this isn’t going to happen
immediately after dinner,” she added. There was a feeble laugh. Orlam sank down
beside Elenn, looking exhausted.

“And for now?” Amagien asked. Elenn offered Orlam her circlet back, but she
shook her head vigorously.

“Put aside that portion,” Conary said. “Serve the rest of us first, for we are all
hungry. The boys can wait for their meat until all is decided, for honour is the best
sauce, as they say.”

For the first time, Darag looked as if he wanted to speak. He just shook his
head. When the woman with the griddies came to him, Elenn noticed that he took
two.

Elenn offered Orlam the circlet again, under the table, questioning with her
eyes. “Keep it,” Orlam said. “It’ll look good on you. And I never want to wear the
thing again. But for that pressing on my head, reminding me that my mother gave
it to me and it was my grandmother’s, I’d have felt I could have judged fairly
myself.”

“But if it was your grandmother’s, it’s an heirloom, and I can’t take it,” Elenn
insisted.

“It was given to me freely,” Orlam said. “And now I want you to have it. It
won’t weigh so heavily on you. Wear it, and remember to make good choices.”

“Thank you,” Elenn said, after a moment, turning it in her hand. It was very
beautiful.

“How are they going to manage to get the four kings to judge?” Casmal asked
from across the table.

“That’s their problem now,” Orlam said.

“It’s only Muin that could be a problem as far as I can see,” Ferdia said,
looking self-conscious, glancing at Atha and then at Elenn.

“Damona alone knows how they will decide,” Casmal said.

“It’s her business to know,” Orlam said, smiling a little.

“They should be able to choose fairly, as they have no stake in the outcome,”
Elenn said.

Casmal opened his mouth to reply, then looked at Orlam and thought better of
whatever he was about to say. Elenn smiled at him encouragingly. “They’re
bringing us some meat at last,” he said.

3. (Emer)

“Are you feeling any better?” Conal asked, bending over her.

Emer lay still and wished that the deck below her would do the same. “Is the
storm over?” she asked. It had stopped raining and the heaving of the deck was
definitely better than it had been. She was chilled all through.

“We’ve rowed around the cape, and we’re inside the bay here, so it’s more
sheltered,” Conal said.

“What cape?” Emer asked.

“The wind has changed again and it’s all wrong for Oriel. We had a choice of
going back to the Isles or making for Fialdun, and decided not to go back. So this
is the Firth of Anlar we’re going into.”

Emer’s stomach heaved. Going back to the Isles was unthinkable. It would
have taken them another day and night at best, and leave them with the prospect
of attempting the crossing again later in the season when the winds would be
worse. “How long before we reach shore?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” Conal said. “Not long, I hope. I wish we were there already.
Shall I see if they’ll spare some water for you? You look almost green.”

“It would only come out again,” Emer said. That was what had happened last
time. A hot drink might be different, but she knew that was impossible, on a boat.
“How are the others?”

“Laig and Leary are pretty near as sick as you are, and lying down on the other
side. Darag’s feeling a bit unsettled but rowing, and Nid is running about as
cheerfully as if the ship were a chariot. Darag says it’s a pity we didn’t bring
Ferdia, who knows all about boats.”

“Ferdia isn’t in the contest. He’ll be all right back at Ardmachan with Elenn,”
Emer said. “And how about you?” She clutched the wet blanket around her more
tightly for the tiny bit of warmth and comfort it provided.

“I felt bad for a while, but I took a turn rowing and I found looking out at the
horizon made me feel better.”

“Do you think I should try it?”

“I can’t see what harm it would do,” Conal said.

He bent and put out his hand. Emer didn’t want to move at all, but she took it
and pulled herself up. Standing up made her head swim, and almost at once she
retched, heaving and gagging over the rail though there was nothing left to come
out.

Conal kept his arm around her, supporting her. “I’m sorry,” he said.

“Not your fault my stomach is heaving,” she said, and clutched the rail. She

clamped her teeth and looked out at the horizon as Conal had recommended. To
her surprise there was a steep-sided rocky coast quite close.

“My fault you came at all,” Conal said. “You could have lived your whole life
on land and never known that the sea made you heave.”

She laughed. One of the sailors came pushing past them and they moved to let
her go by. “I’d have missed seeing the Isles then. And missed the contests. And
missed being with you.”

Conal smiled down and tightened his arm around her. Even feeling so terrible
the touch was a great comfort.

“It’s so good to be away from our families,” she said. A gull soared out ahead
of the ship and she followed it through the air with her eyes. The half month of
contests in the Isles had been wonderful. The weather on the way over had been
smooth and she’d barely felt ill at all. Gren and Skatha had treated them like
adults and given them a room to themselves. Maybe it was because the Isles were
so close to Demedia but they seemed to have a positively Vincan attitude to
blanket sharing, smiling indulgently. They hadn’t even blinked when Atha went
off with Darag after supper every night, though Emer had. She felt there was
something very strange about the pairing, as if she wasn’t sure which of them was
more of a danger to the other. She didn’t think she would ever like Darag.

There had been contests all day, then feasting and sweet nights alone with
Conal. She couldn’t even feel a ghost of desire with her stomach wanting to turn
itself inside out, but she could still remember. She smiled. The contests had gone
well, too. Darag had won the spearthrowing, but Conal had won the
swordfighting. She was still kicking herself about the chariot race, but it had been
very close. Conal hadn’t reproached her for it, and there were other chances. Next
time they’d do it. Lagin, Muin, and then Connat. Cruachan. Maga. But she didn’t
want to think about that, yet. She looked at Conal and pushed the thought away.
She was feeling a little better. “If we’re landing in Anlar we’ll be away from them
a little longer.”

“Lew ap Ross of Anlar is my uncle,” Conal said, regretfully.

“Of course, your father’s brother, how could I forget,” she said, her heart
sinking and her stomach with it. She looked at the shore and saw a palisade
around a hill and limewashed buildings curving up inside it. There was a
scattering of small buildings around the shore. It was shadowed by the higher hills
all around, making it seem a gloomy place. “Is that Fialdun?” she asked.

“Fialdun at the head of the bay,” Conal replied, clearly quoting something.
Then, in quite another tone, “I must get them to change the banner. Lew will think
he’s being invaded again.”

“He’s not at war with the Isles, is he?” Emer asked. Surely she’d have heard.

“No, but his wife and daughter were killed raiding them last year, so feelings

are running high. There isn’t a war, but Lew personally has a bloodfeud with
Atha. One ship couldn’t really be an invasion, but it could be Atha coming to
challenge his champion to single combat, it’s the kind of thing she made her
reputation doing.”

“She can’t challenge him. He’s a king,” Emer said.

“Challenge his champion, I said,” Conal said. “Wake up. But anyway, I think if
we put an Oriel oak branch under the Eye of the Isles he’d find it reassuring.”
Conal patted her arm and went to speak to the master of the boat. Emer held on to
the rail and watched the land approaching. She stayed there until the boat was
drawn up, then climbed down to splash through the last few feet of water.

“If I never set foot on a boat again I’ll die thanking the gods for it,” Leary said.
He looked wretched and his clothes were filthy. She laughed ruefully. “At least
your sister isn’t here to see,” Leary went on.

Emer looked at him blankly. “Elenn would probably have been puking over the
side with you,” she said.

“Oh, surely not,” Leary said, his face full of serene confidence.

Emer gave up. Elenn had never looked at him for more than long enough to
make sure he was still dangling after her, but that seemed to be enough. Poor
Leary. Poor Elenn for that matter. How terrible not to love Conal and be loved by
him. Emer followed Darag and Laig up the beach. She wondered if Darag loved
Atha and if she loved him. How could she? How could anyone? They waited for
Conal up on the shingle.

Some of the people of Fialdun came to see what the sea had brought them.
Most of them seemed to be expecting a trading voyage. They were taken aback to
find three princes of Oriel and their charioteers. There was a little flurry of
confusion, during which Emer found herself shivering and gratefully accepted a
dry warm blanket someone brought out of one of the houses. Then they had to
wait for the boat to be secured before they could go up to the dun. It was too much
to hope that Lew would come down and welcome them so that they could have a
hot drink straight away. Once the horses and chariots were offloaded she forgot
herself in concern for them. The horses, all geldings, were more miserable than
she had ever seen animals. They took careful awkward steps when she kept them
moving for warmth. If Rhianna came and reproached her for the state of them
now she would just lie down and admit it.

When everyone was ready, Emer reluctantly handed back the blanket and made
her way up the hill with the others.

As at Ardmachan there was a lower gate and an upper one. They gave their
names at both. Emer was reluctant to leave the horses at the bottom of the hill, but
there really was no choice. There was a stream, fortunately, and some pale late
sunlight was spearing its way through the clouds. She kept glancing behind her,

and noticed Nid was also looking back at them. There were stables, but nobody
came out to see to the horses. “When I heard about the welcome given to
travellers I always pictured it as a bit more, well, welcoming than this,” Nid
whispered.

“I suppose they’re waiting to make sure we’re peaceful,” Emer said. “But the
horses go right into the stables at Ardmachan.” She remembered from when she
had arrived from Connat. But she had been with ap Carbad, who had escorted
them all the way. Maybe that made a difference. It had been raining. Conary had
welcomed them and then Finca had taken them off to get dry. She wasn’t sure
what happened at Cruachan. When she got back she’d find out and make sure the
horses didn’t have to wait about.

Lew met them at the door of his hall with the welcome cup in his hand. He had
long moustaches, longer than his beard. Apart from that, he looked a lot like
Amagien, until he saw Conal and smiled. Then suddenly she could see a
resemblance to Conal. If Amagien ever smiled like that, she had never seen it. She
had always thought Conal looked like Inis and his mother, but there must have
been something of Amagien in him after all. Lew handed the welcome cup to a
champion who stood beside him and came forward to embrace Conal as kin. Then
he took up the cup again and offered it around to all the others and exchanged the
ritual peace and welcome greetings. The champion came behind with salted bread
to complete the ritual. Emer was almost the last. She had given her name twice
already, but when Lew heard it he gave her a shrewd look, as if to take note of
her.

Inside, the hall urgently needed new rushes. The floor was musty and almost
slippery smooth. The hall was very dark. There seemed to be a lot of people there
but not very much organisation. After a little while Emer was given a bowl of hot
broth which she sipped gratefully. It was much too salty and had fish in but it
gave her strength. As her eyes adjusted to the dark hall she saw that there was dust
and cobwebs in all the comers. There were dogs lying in front of the fire;
champions and servants stepped over them.

Lew came up to them and bowed politely.

“I had heard of your contest, but I thought I’d been left out of the list of kings
you were to visit,” Lew said to Conal.

“Indeed, uncle, this visit is not part of our contest,” Conal said.

“What are they teaching at Rathadun these days if ap Ringabur could give a
judgement that the five kingdoms of Tir Isarnagiri include the Isles and not
Anlar.”

Emer wanted to laugh. It was well known that Tir Isarnagiri was divided into
five parts, but what exactly those five parts were was a great matter of dispute.
Maga considered Anlar almost a part of Oriel. Muin had once been two kingdoms.

The kingdom of the Isles had long ago been a part of Demedia and not Tir
Isamagiri, but not for hundreds of years. It seemed strange to hear Lew saying it
seriously. She’d always heard the five parts of Tir Isarnagiri talked about as one
of those questions where asking two people got you three different answers.

“I’m sure she meant no insult, only that you are my uncle and could not be seen
to judge fairly, as she herself could not,” Conal said. Emer met his eye and saw
the laughter bubbling up under his sober words.

“Maybe,” Lew said, looking mollified. “One of my counsellors suggested that
was the reason, and it may well be so. Another suggested that this was an insult in
itself.” Lew frowned again.

“I don’t see how it could be,” Emer said firmly. “She wanted to avoid even the
appearance of partiality casting a shadow on the outcome.”

“I see,” Lew said. He looked relieved.

Just then Nid came over to them. “Excuse me a moment,” she said. “I’m going
to go down and see to the horses. I’ve just said this to Laig as well — I’ll do all of
them, because you two are recovering from the journey and I’m fine. You can
owe me some other night.”

Emer shook her head. “I’m quite recovered now. I’ll come with you.” The
stables, whatever they might be like, seemed a much more pleasant place to spend
the next little while than the hall.

“People will have seen to your horses already,” Lew said, waving his hand
vaguely. “There’s no need to go.”

“I don’t mean to doubt the hospitality of your stables, but charioteers are
always concerned about their horses, and these have had a bad voyage,” Emer
said.

Lew smiled kindly. “I understand. Yes, of course, a good charioteer always
wants to see to the beasts. I won’t stop you. Come back soon, we will eat in a little
while and I would like you to eat with us, ap Allel.”

Nid and Emer bowed to Lew and Conal and went out. The wind that was a
storm out to sea was strong even here, blowing away the fustiness of the hall. It
was chilly. The sun was already behind the shoulder of hill to the west and they
walked down into deeper shadow.

Somewhat to Emer’s surprise their horses had been taken into the stables,
rubbed down, fed, and were in stalls with blankets over their withers. They
thanked the grooms, who made nothing of it, just admiring the horses. They could
easily return the compliment — the horses in the stables were in very good
condition.

“The stables are cleaner than the hall,” Emer said as they walked back up the
hill.

“Lew has a good head groom,” Nid replied. “He clearly needs an equally good

keykeeper.”

“His wife was killed in battle last year,” Emer said. “Conal mentioned it.”

“That would explain it,” Nid said. “But there should be someone else.”

“His daughter was killed too, apparently. Maybe he’s been too struck with grief
to get organised.”

Nid rolled her eyes. “He needs to find a keykeeper quickly. I’ye heard people
say that Lew sways with every wind, and that he thinks too much of himself. He
won’t like it if they start saying he keeps a dirty hall, and they will if he keeps
on.”

“Although I’ve only just met him, I suspect it’s true that he sways with every
wind,” Emer said. “But he seems a good enough man. He needs guidance.”

“A good man, maybe not a good king,” Nid said. “I don’t know. I’ve also heard
that he makes shrewd alliances.”

They went back into the hall. Lew was still talking to Conal, who looked even
more pleased than usual to see Emer.

“Think about it, Conal,” Lew said as she came up. He patted Conal on the
shoulder. He smiled at Emer in a friendly way, and went to speak to Darag.

“Think about what?” she asked quietly.

Conal looked stunned. “He asked me if my heart was given to Oriel or if I
might like to come here,” he said, gesturing at the hall. “There’s only three people
in our generation who are Royal Kin of Anlar, and none of them born here. He
said if I came he’d treat me as his heir.”

“Well?” Emer asked. Half of her mind was making rapid plans for cleaning up
the hall and putting heart into the place, but the other half of her mind knew that
Conal would only accept one kind of success.

“It isn’t Oriel,” he said, as she had known he would. His eyes were on Darag,
who was talking to some champions on the other side of the hall. “Lew isn’t so
old, not forty yet, he could marry again. He said he would if I wasn’t interested.
He looked back at her, his eyes full of ambition. “Who would have Anlar if they
could have Oriel? Who would guide good weak uncle Lew for the next thirty
years and hope nobody said anything to change his mind between the desire and
the action?”

“It’s away from the curse,” Emer said, lowering her voice to a whisper. “And
it’s away from your parents.” As soon as she’d said it, she knew she shouldn’t
have. He wouldn’t want anyone to thi nk he was afraid of the curse. And he
couldn’t see what his parents did to him, not really. She also wasn’t sure she
wanted to live here. It was a strange place, and felt more distant than it was
because of the way they’d come here. It was barely two days ride from
Ardmachan, and hardly more than six from Cruachan.

Conal laughed shortly, as if he’d hardly heard her. “Lagin,” he said. “Lagin,

Muin, and then Connat. We’ll see what we see. You know how I’ve been
practising. And I’ve grown. I’m taller than the others now. I won the
swordfighting fairly. I’ll show them. I’ll show Darag. I don’t need any second
best kingdoms.”

4. (Ferdia)

“It has been an honour and a pleasure,” Conary said. “You came to me a boy and I
am sending you home a man any father could be proud of. These gifts I send with
you are a token of friendship between you and me, and

between Oriel and Lagin.” He took a wrapped bundle from Finca and gave it to
Ferdia. Everyone tapped their feet in restrained applause and looked pleased,
except Finca, who looked prune faced as always. The hall was quite full, but at
least the dog woman wasn’t there. If the weather had been warmer they’d have
been doing this outside and he could really have just got in his chariot as soon as
they were done.

“Thank you,” Ferdia said, taking it and wondering what it was and where he
could put it. “And please accept this small gift in thanks for the hospitality you
have shown me.” People tapped their feet again. They would have whatever he
said. He hoped it was all right.

He handed his own bundle to Conary, who politely bowed over it without
uncovering it. Of course nobody would ever refuse a gift, it would be a fighting
matter, a rejection of friendship. The only time it was ever done was in ritual
declarations of war, where the cover would be drawn off and the gift, whatever it
was, scornfully returned, broken, or passed on to someone else. He was more
worried that it would not be good enough when examined. It was an embroidered
sword-sheath he had asked his mother to made and send. Conary was very fond of
swords. It was well made, and his mother had sewn pearls onto it and gold thread.
He thought it was a rich enough gift that nobody could reproach him. It would not
be right for him to give any greater gifts on leaving. His father would send
something later to match whatever Conary had sent him, gifts of friendship from
Lagin to Oriel. This was supposed to be personal from Ferdia to Conary.

Conary had set his gift down on a table. He looked at Ferdia expectantly. He
looked about helplessly, then put the bundle down by his feet. Conary leaned
forward and embraced him as a foster-father. Ferdia returned the embrace. He
hadn’t thought he’d be glad to leave, but he was. He hadn’t thought he’d spend
the last season almost alone either. He’d never imagined Ardmachan without
Darag or realised how lonely it could be. When they left he had thought they
would be back in a month, but it had proved an unexpectedly slow contest. All the
kings seemed to take forever to devise different testing feats. They had been half a
month in the Isles, then his father had kept them a half a month, and then they had
sent word that they would need to stay in Muin for a month. That was almost up,
but they hadn’t even reached Connat yet. Anyway, it was too late. It was

midwinter. Ferdia had been in Oriel a year and his father wanted him home.

He picked up his bundle and stepped aside with it. It was bulky. Elenn came
forward. She was wearing warm travelling clothes with a soft blue cloak over
everything. She was carrying a little wrapped bundle. He wondered where she had
found whatever it was. There hadn’t been time for her to send home for
something. She looked cool and beautiful and assured, not at all the way she had
looked when she had begged him to escort her home. She should have stayed
another few months. She hadn’t been here a year. But she had said she was
desperate to get home, and looked it. She said she couldn’t bear to stay here
entirely on her own after he left. He couldn’t help feeling sorry for her. She said
she would tell Conary her father was ill. It wasn’t all that far out of his way to
take her to Cruachan, really. She was still a child so she couldn’t go on her own,
and it was a bit much to expect anyone to take her before it was time. He was glad
he’d stuck out his year even if the last part had been lonely.

Elenn and Conary exchanged the same kind of gifts and ritual farewells that he
had. He tapped his feet when everyone else did. Fostering was an ancient custom.
His father said that it was one of the things that helped to bind the peace between
the kingdoms, just as much as the Ward, in its way. He had thought he agreed.
But now he wasn’t sure he knew what he meant. He looked forward to asking his
father about it, about lots of things. There were things you couldn’t say in a letter.
And, of course, there were things you couldn’t say at all. Maybe that was the real
difference being grown up made, not taking up arms but having things you
couldn’t ask anyone.

Conary embraced Elenn and she came over to Ferdia. They had officially left
but they were still here, which was awkward. He shifted the bundle in his arms.
He had packed the chariot already and he wasn’t sure there was room. It was five
days to Cruachan, and then four more days before he got home. He knew exactly
where he was going to stay every night, but he had food and a leather tent in case
he needed it. It wasn’t the best time of year for a journey. It was cold. But the
weather looked settled. One good thing he had done this year was learn weather
signs from Inis. He couldn’t say he had mastered the Fir Knowledge. He certainly
couldn’t control the weather as some people said they could. Still, it was useful to
be able to look at the sky and see if a storm was coming.

“Shall we go?” Elenn asked, quietly. She also held a bundle. He wondered if
they were the same. They pretty much had to be, unless Conary was meaning to
indicate more friendship to one country than the other, which might be dangerous.

Nobody was looking at them, though people were still gathered around not
talking as if something was going to happen. But there was nothing else. They
were gone already. “Come on,” he said, and led the way out of the hall.

He blinked at the sunlight as they came out. Frost limned each blade of grass,

making the world glitter.

“I’m so glad to be leaving,” Elenn said, leaning towards him in her confiding
way. “Thank you for taking me.”

“It’s not far out of my way,” he said, knowing he sounded awkward. “Did
anyone make any difficulties?”

“No, they didn’t mind at all,” she said. She sounded a little hurt, but when he
looked she was still smiling.

They walked down the hill. Elenn said goodbye to the guards on the gate as
they passed, so he did the same. The trees and fields were glistening. He felt filled
with relief at leaving. No more Ardmachan. No more trying to make decisions on
his own without enough time to think.

One of the grooms had yoked up the chariot ponies ready. There was probably
just about room for the bundles. Ferdia was about to tell Elenn to get in when, to
his dismay, the dog woman came out of the kennels and smiled at him. Her
breasts and stomach were hugely swollen with pregnancy. She had two hounds
with her. She looked as if she was going to walk right over to Ferdia.

“Wait here a moment,” he said to Elenn. She looked puzzled. He crossed the
yard to the dog woman.

“Ferdia,” she said.

He hadn’t heard her voice before, not talking, only whispering and then crying
out. He still didn’t know her name, and he writhed with embarrassment. He had
hardly exchanged a word with her before or after. He had thought he ought to talk
to her, but not known what to say. There had been too much and not enough
between them. Her belly stood between them now. A child to be, a child that was
and was not his. He couldn’t ask her name. He should have asked it on the feast of
Bel or he should never learn it. “I’m going home,” he said.

“I know,” she said, looking down at her dogs. “I wanted to give you
something.”

“I don’t have anything for you,” he said. He was conscious of Elenn and the
grooms across the yard. They couldn’t hear, but he knew without looking that
they were watching them.

“You’ve given me a gift already,” she said. “Come inside a moment.”

She turned, and he followed her into the kennels, the hounds padding silently
beside them. At least there was nobody else there to see. The light came in under
the eaves, so he could see quite well, but it was shadowed after the brightness of
the yard. She walked over to one of the pens. Inside was a bitch, her teats swollen
in a way uncomfortably reminiscent of the woman’s, and a litter of pups. He
hadn’t known what he’d expected her to give him, but it wasn’t a dog. Though
what else would she have to give? He didn’t know what he could do with a dog.

“This is Swift,” she said, bending down and patting the bitch. He wished she’d

think to introduce herself like that.

“She’s lovely,” he said, inadequately. “Does she live up to her name?”

“She’s one of the three best hunting dogs in Oriel,” the woman said, pride in
her voice. “And she’s mine, not Conary’s. She came into heat very late this year,
and the father of this litter is Conary’s famous Blackear. These pups should be
great hunters, and half of them are mine. Choose whichever one you want.”

He looked at them. They all looked alike, puppies, greyish brown, with darker
gray brindling just beginning on their coats. His father had a kennels full of
hunting hounds at home. How could he explain bringing one from Oriel? “Are
they old enough to leave their mother?” he asked.

“They’re just ready,” she said, approvingly.

He looked at her. She was standing with one hand on her belly, and he thought
he saw it move. He looked hastily back to the dogs. He didn’t know her name and
the baby would have her husband’s name, which he didn’t know either. It was so
strange to think that what they had done on the hurley field had swollen so and
would soon be a child, a person. He looked away, back at the puppies. “I don’t
know enough to choose,” he said, honestly.

“Then I’ll give you the pick of the litter,” she said, and put her hand in and
drew one of the puppies out. It tried to squirm away but she held it tightly. “She
doesn’t have a name yet. You can give her one.”

Ferdia took her, awkwardly. She tried to get away. He couldn’t think how he
would manage in the chariot, but he wanted to get away as much as she did.
“Thank you,” he said.

“No, thank you” she said, and turned away to fuss with one of the other
hounds.

Ferdia was left standing there feeling that he didn’t know whether the
encounter was over or not. The puppy licked his ear. He backed away, and she
didn’t look back at him. Maybe he’d never have to see her again. But in a way he
would like to see the child, even if he had no claim on it.

He blinked a little as he came out. The puppy whimpered. Elenn was staring at
him. She was going to ask, he just knew she was. What’s more, she was going to
have to hold the puppy while he drove.

She amazed him by taking the puppy from him without protest. “Isn’t he
sweet,” she said. “Aren’t you the sweetest thing? Look at his brindling just
starting. Oh look, the hair underneath is so much lighter.”

“She’s only just old enough to leave her mother,” he said. “She doesn’t have a
name yet. Her mother is a hound called Swift, and her father is King Conary’s
Blackear.”

“She’s a little beauty,” Elenn cooed. The puppy clearly returned Elenn’ s
approval, her tail was wagging almost in a circle and she was licking everywhere

she could reach.

“Do you like her?” he asked, an idea striking him. He turned it over in his mind
and couldn’t see any disadvantage to it. Elenn liked the puppy. Elenn could have
her. He wouldn’t have to explain anything to anyone at all.

“She’s wonderful,” Elenn said.

Ferdia glanced back at the kennels. The dog woman was still safely inside.
Some grooms could see them but not hear them. They were gone already, after all.
“She’s for you,” he said.

“Oh Ferdia!” she said, so enraptured that he felt guilty. “She’s the best present
anyone’s ever given me.”

“I’m glad you like her,” he said.

“I’ll call her Beauty,” Elenn said, looking from him to the puppy.

“But then when people call you won’t know if they mean you or her.”

Elenn smiled, not her usual smile but a broad grin. “I’ll work something out,”
she said. The puppy chewed the corner of her cloak. “No, Beauty, don’t eat my
clothes.” She turned back to Ferdia. “How are we going to manage in the
chariot?” she asked.

“I thought you could hold her,” he said, realising as Beauty squirmed how
inadequate a plan it was.

“I need a box or something. I’ll get one from the kennels.”

“No!” Ferdia didn’t know how he was going to stop her, but he knew he had to.
He hated thinking quickly. “I just want to go now,” he said.

Elenn’s face softened. “I want to get away as well. But she’ll escape and jump
out and maybe hurt herself.” Then she went back to cooing. “My Beauty, my
beautiful puppy.”

Ferdia looked at the pile of things in the chariot. None of them would do for a
puppy. “When she’s trained she can run along beside a chariot,” he said, and
sighed. “I’ll go and find something.”

“I’ll go,” Elenn said, looking up.

“You wait here and look after her,” he said, firmly, and took a deep breath
before plunging into the stables. The dog woman was crouching over the
remaining puppies. She looked up as he came in. “I need a box or something, to
carry her safely,” he said.

“Of course you would,” she said. “I didn’t think. Now what — ” she straightened
carefully, a hand to the small of her back, and looked around the kennels
thoughtfully. “I think I’ll have to go over to the stables.”

“Isn’t there anything here?” Ferdia asked desperately.

“I don’t think so. People don’t normally take puppies in chariots.” She frowned.

Ferdia knew what was about to happen. She would go outside, and Elenn would
still be cooing “My puppy” and she would know that Ferdia had given away her

gift. The possibilities then started from his having to fight a champion of her
choosing followed by fighting one of Elenn’s, and ran right up to all out war
between Oriel, Connat and Lagin. How could he have been so stupid as to think it
could possibly work? Even if she didn’t come out now, Elenn would say
something to someone before they left and it would get back to her. The worst of
it was that he really had acted dishonourably. It hadn’t seemed like that at the
time, because he hadn’t really been thinking of the puppy as a gift, just a
nuisance, but now he could see what he had done.

“What’s that?” he asked, as his eyes lit on at a wicker basket in the shadows.

“It’s just some apples,” the dog woman said. “I brought it in from home so I
would have some to eat here. It is the right sort of size. I don’t know if it’s strong
enough.”

“It looks strong to me,” he said. “Ell help you move the apples.”

He hardly dared to breathe, but she assented mildly.

The apples went into a sack. He barely managed to restrain the dog woman
from coming out to settle the puppy in the basket. He came back out alone
imagining more disasters, but Elenn was sitting alone on a stone playing with the
puppy. “Here, put her in this,” he said, offering the basket.

At last, at long long last, after Ferdia had died a thousand coward’s deaths of
fear of having his lies and ingratitude discovered, the three of them drove safely
out of the lower gates of Ardmachan. Elenn said goodbye to the guards, but didn’t
mention the puppy. Ferdia drove past the stone where Darag’s mother had died,
past the turning to the woods where they had killed the swan, and turned south for
Lagin by way of Connat. The puppy gave a few yelps, then when Elenn soothed
him, curled up and went to sleep. Ferdia drove on, knowing now that the puppy
was something he would never be able to explain to anyone. Five days to
Cruachan, where he could leave Beauty and Elenn. If he had his wish he’d leave
them at the gates and never see either of them again.

V - Connat

1. (Conal)

The Isles had been good, Lagin had been better, Muin had been wonderful, only
Connat lay between him and victory. Leary and Nid’s chariot rolled along ahead,
Darag and Laig came behind. The road rose and fell over rolling farmland, winter-
brown now. Apart from the occasional pheasant he hadn’t seen any life for hours.
A feeble sun shone now and then through clouds, and it hadn’t rained all day. If it
hadn’t been for Emer’s set scowl, Conal could have sung.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, when the silence had stretched too long, although
he already knew what was wrong. She didn’t want to get to Cruachan, to see her
mother, for this journey to be over.

“For someone with parents like yours, you’re very reluctant to believe in
parents like mine,” Emer said between her teeth, her eyes on the road ahead.

“But why do you think they won’t let you go back to Ardmachan for the three
months left of your time there?” Conal tried hard to sound reasonable.

“You don’t know how hard it was for me to get away at all,” Emer said. “And
it’s hardly fostering, now I am of fighting age. She’ll say there’s no use to it.”

“Well I don’t think she’ll be that unreasonable,” Conal said, hopefully. Emer
gritted her teeth. “And even if she does, whatever she says, as soon as I get home
I’ll talk to Conary and my parents, then I’ll have Conary send me back to ask
her.” His mother had half-agreed before they left, after all. Speaking to Conary
about it wouldn’t be easy, but it would be easier than it would have been before.
As for his father, well, when he got back Amagien should see that he was a boy
no longer.

“And what about this stupid half arranged thing with Darag?”

“Everyone knows neither of you want that. And if. . . ” he trailed off, not daring
to say it. It was the most ill-omened thing you could do, to count on victory half
way around the course. “Whatever happens, I should look like a good alliance to
your mother, and it won’t be more than a year you have to stay there,” he said,
instead.

“You don’t know my mother,” she muttered. “I wish I was a champion of

Muin.”

Conal laughed in surprised recognition. “So do I,” he admitted. “I’ve never had
such fun in my life. Even exhausted. Even covered in mud and freezing cold and
starving.”

“They really know how to have a good time,” Emer agreed, then giggled. “It
was a good time, though, it really was.”

“And not only that, but unlike all the contests in the Isles and Lagin, it was a
good challenge, because it was actually something that does count for being a
king,” Conal said.

Emer raised her eyebrows and darted a quick glance at him. “Flying Leary’s
breeches like a banner from the top of the palisade is something a king needs to be
able to do?”

Conal laughed. “Wasn’t he furious! But you know what I mean. Not that
specifically, not any of the specific goals, but organising the watches, arranging
the raids and the defence, even little details arranging how people eat so that
nobody has to sit down with anyone they have a bloodfeud with, getting everyone
working together. It’s useful knowledge. I think it’s a better way than Conary’s,
having the champions working together in watches like that, having rivalry
between watches instead of rivalry between champions. I learned a lot doing it,
from Samar and the others. Think how cheerfully Samar let me take her place as
watch captain and make mistakes, and how she helped me.”

“Once we’d shown we were competent.” Emer was staring out at the road
again. “It really felt like belonging, as if we had a place in the Heather Watch. As
if they’d be there at our backs when we needed them. All of the rivalry, all of the
goals were just part of that, and that was what was important. It was easier for me,
of course, I didn’t have to be organising everyone, didn’t have to be in charge.”

“Even that was fun,” Conal said, “once I’d worked out how to ask anyway.” He
grinned. “I don’t think I’ll ever forget the last month as long as I live.” The road
widened ahead of them, making a broad straight track.

“I’ve never had such a good month,” Emer agreed, smiling. “I just wish we
could have stayed there for ever.”

“If I am ever king I will organise the champions of Ardmachan into Watches
like that,” Conal said. “And whatever else, next time it snows, whenever it is, I’m
going to have another snowball fight.”

“I’ll be stuck on my own in Connat,” Emer said, suddenly glum again.

“Not forever,” Conal said. “I may have to go back alone, but I’ll come and
marry you as soon as I can.”

“Come soon.” He moved a little closer to her. “Everything rests on what
happens in Cruachan now.”

“What do you think they will arrange?” Conal asked.

“Before we went to Muin I’d never imagined anything but contests the way we
had them in Lagin and the Isles, racing, fighting, spear-throwing, hurley. But
Maga will want to out-do Muin. I have no idea what she’ll come up with. She will
have had plenty of time to think. She will also have had time to hear that you won
in Muin, Darag won in Lagin, and the honours of the Isles were divided between
you. She may well have her own ideas about who she wants as the next king of
Oriel.”

“You can’t mean she’d cheat?” Conal tried to speak lightly to disguise the fact
that he was shocked.

“I don’t know. I sometimes think she would cheat for her advantage unless she
was afraid she might get caught,” Emer said, lowering her voice although there
wasn’t much chance of the others catching what they were saying. “She won’t
cheat directly. My father would catch her if nobody else. But she’s setting the
rules, and that’s somewhere she might try to give someone an advantage. Be very
careful with her.”

“Hoy!” Laig called, coming up on their left. “How about a race?”

The road stretched ahead of them straight and inviting, wide enough now that
the three chariots could run abreast. Nid, ahead of them, dropped back a little so
that they were almost even.

“We’ve been doing nothing but racing for months,” Emer called, but she was
smiling and Conal could see that she was already tightening her grip on the reins.
He saw Darag putting his hand on the side of his chariot, as if casually.

“We didn’t race at all in Muin,” Nid replied, indignant.

“But Lagin made up for it,” Laig said. “I wouldn’t normally want to risk the
horses on strange ground, but this road could have been made for racing, and
we’re nearly there, aren’t we?”

“Very nearly,” Emer said, sounding despondent. “We’re less than an hour from
Cruachan here, coming in on the south road. But we’ll get covered with mud,
racing, and it’s bad enough anyway.” It was wonderful how she could sound like
that with every muscle tensed and ready to be off, as if there was still a decision to
be made and she was giving it consideration.

“We may be doing nothing but racing in Connat,” Nid warned, her eyes on the
road.

“Go!” called Leary, unexpectedly, but the others were as fast off the mark as
Nid.

For a little while they were ahead, and Conal remembered the second race in
Lagin, the one they had won. Then Nid and Leary came up on the side

and pulled a little ahead. Conal looked to see where Darag was and saw that he
was lagging well behind. As he looked Darag signalled to him to let Leary go. For
a moment he frowned, then he saw it and began to laugh.

“Let Leary get ahead,” he whispered to Emer. She did not turn to look at him,
she needed her attention for the horses. She slacked off as he had asked though,
unquestioning, and Nid and Leary surged forward, far ahead of the others, as
Emer and Laig drew their chariots to a halt.

“I wonder how long it will take him to notice?” Darag asked, laughing.

“I wish I could see his face,” Conal said.

“It was Laig’s idea,” Darag said.

Laig grinned. “He’ll be thinking this time, this time at least I’m winning, and
then he’ll realise that this time doesn’t mean anything, and then he’ll stop and
look round and realise — ”

Up ahead Leary’s chariot drew to a halt, spraying mud.

“We should go up,” Emer said, seriously. Conal realised then that she hadn’t
been laughing with the others.

“Make them come back,” Laig said, still laughing.

“No, Emer’s right, we should go up,” Darag said.

“What’s wrong?” Conal asked quietly as they drove up.

“That wasn’t funny,” she said, giving him a quick sideways glance. “Think if
they’d done that to us. Leary doesn’t need to have it rubbed in that he can’t win
now.”

“You’re right,” he said, immediately contrite.

But Nid and Leary were laughing helplessly when they drew up. “I’ll strangle
you,” Nid said.

“Get you next time!” Leary chortled, taking a battle position with empty hands.

“Thought you’d like to win for a change,” Laig said.

Leary stopped laughing. “Don’t mind being fairly beaten,” he said. “Do mind
seeing the chance snatched away. I know I was a fool to make an issue of the
hero’s portion, been meaning to say that for a while. Know I’m not as good as you
two, never have been. Amagien got on the wrong side of me. Don’t want to be
king anyway. But I’m not sorry now. I wouldn’t have missed Muin for anything.”

“Well said,” Conal said. “And we don’t blame you at all.”

Leary grinned and Nid rolled her eyes.

“I’ve enjoyed it too,” Darag admitted.

“Well, let’s get on with it then,” Laig said, and twitched his reins.

They drove on, still abreast but no longer racing. The sun was buried deep in
clouds now, and the light started to dim, the short winter’s day almost over
already. The road curved around between two hills, and at last Cruachan was in
sight. Conal had spent a year here when he was nine. It had the strange familiarity
of something known in childhood and not seen for years. It seemed both larger
and smaller than he remembered. Nid gasped at the sight of the cluster of
buildings nestling inside the palisade at the foot of the craggy hill.

“Do you all live down here?” she called to Emer. “What happens when raiders
come?”

“There isn’t room on the top for everyone to live,” Emer said. “There’s two
halls up there, though you can only see one from here. That one’s called the
Upper Hall, or the Dun Hall, and we usually just use it for big feasts. The other is
a storehouse. A few of the champions have houses up there. Everyone else lives
down here in the village usually and they just go up in time of danger or for
festivals. The hill is very steep, as you can see, and there isn’t much flat space on
the top, not like Ardmachan.”

“How unusual,” Laig said. Conal was quite sure that all of them were thinking
how easy it would be to capture the village. Conal craned his neck upwards. He
had stayed in the Lower Hall, down in the village. He had been to the Top Hall,
but he didn’t think he’d ever been right up to the top of the hill. As best he could
tell in the fading light, it seemed to be a desolate crag. Dark birds hung on the air
around it, giving it a sinister air.

Emer drew ahead of the others as they came closer. Her reluctance to finish the
journey seemed to have been overtaken now that the end was in sight. The
palisade seemed very sturdy and two guards came out of a little hut behind the
south gate when they drew up before it.

“Ap Allel,” one of them greeted Emer cheerfully. “Both of you back on the
same day without warning?”

“It’s good to see you back,” the other said. “What’s this I hear about you taking
up arms already at your age?”

“The priest said it was a lucky day, so I did,” Emer replied.

“Luck has come of it, from what we hear,” he said. “Ap Dair passed through
singing about you and the Victor — is that him behind you now?” Conal squirmed
inwardly at the name, but kept his face still.

“Indeed,” Emer said. “Don’t you remember teaching him how to hold a spear
when he was here before?”

Conal had only hazy memories of it himself, and certainly couldn’t recall the
guard’s name.

“There are so many children,” the guard said. “Who can tell which ones will
grow up to become heroes?”

“Ap Fial,” said the other guard, at which they both roared with laughter.

“Ap Amagien, these reprobates are ap Roth and ap Nemed,” Emer said,
indicating. Conal bowed. Just then the other two chariots drew up and Emer
introduced them.

“We had heard you were coming,” the second guard, ap Nemed, said. “You are
all expected, though nobody was looking for you today especially. Your sister
didn’t say anything.”

“My sister? She’s here?” Emer sounded dismayed. Conal wondered what had
made Elenn leave Ardmachan early. Boredom seemed most plausible.

Ap Roth looked at Emer. “Your parents are in the Lower Hall. Do you want to
take your guests there, or do you want to welcome them here?”

“Can I?” Emer asked, sounding surprised. Then she smiled. “I can. I hadn’t
thought, because I haven’t been home since I’ve been grown up. I’d like to.”

“Your mother will probably want to do it again in the hall, but no reason you
can’t give them the peace of Cruachan,” ap Roth said.

“That way the horses won’t have to stand about,” Emer said. Ap Nemed looked
at her strangely, but he opened the gates and they all drove in. Ap Roth
disappeared into the hut and came out while they were dismounting, carrying a
plate of salted bread and a cup of ale. Emer took them from him and welcomed all
of them individually to Cruachan, beginning with Conal and ending with Nid.

They all went to the stables, where Emer took much longer than usual fussing
with the horses and arguing with the stablemaster about their need for hay after
the journey. Conal couldn’t help picking up some of her nervousness, however
hard he tried to speak lightly.

“As if there’s any goodness in grass at this season,” she muttered as she led
them out again. Then she took Conal ’s hand and squeezed it.

She led them to the Weapon Hall, a small building which had no purpose but
storing weapons, not a room in a storehouse as at home. Conal found himself
reluctant to leave his sword here, although it had lain with his spears in the
weapon room in Muin gathering dust the whole time he was there. It was the
larger sword Conary had given him after he had outgrown the Jamish blade.

The daylight was completely gone by the time they came through the lanes of
the village to the Lower Hall.

The doorguard wanted them to wait. “Say I have given them welcome already,”
Emer said to him. He raised his eyebrows at this. “Say that they have given their
names already and accepted the peace of Cruachan. Tell them who is here,” she
said.

He went in to announce them. Emer shifted her weight between her feet. Conal
stood still, not touching her. After a moment he came back, and they all followed
him in.

Inside, by the light of candles and hearthfires, the hall seemed much like the
Red Hall at home. The doorguard led them to an alcove where to his astonishment
he saw Ferdia sitting with two other men. Ferdia was smiling but seemed a little
nervous. The other two men were a young champion and a graying champion one
on either side of the fireplace, like older and younger images of each other, clearly
father and son. Emer rushed forward and embraced the older man. “Father!” she
said. Then she embraced the younger man, more formally. He must be her

brother, Mingor. Conal’s memories of him eight years before were of a gawky
boy, nothing like the way he was now.

Then Allel turned to the rest of them. “I hear my impetuous daughter has given
you all welcome to Cruachan already,” he said, smiling. “But let me repeat that
now in my name, and my wife’s. You are all welcome, and may your quest
prosper here.”

“Where is Mother?” Emer asked.

“She is talking to your sister,” Allel said. “She asked me to send you in to her
as soon as you arrived.” He smiled at the rest of them. “My wife has been
separated from her daughters for such a long time. I’m sure you understand. Do
sit down, there will be a servant with drinks in a moment, and we will eat later of
course.”

Emer looked at him, an unreadable mix of emotions in her face, then she went
off into the shadows of the hall, leaving Conal feeling entirely bereft.

2. (Elenn)

They had been talking for only an hour when Emer scratched at the door and
asked for entry. Maga called her in at once, and they both looked at her for a
moment. She wore no overdress and her shift was bound around her legs. Her
hair, as so often, was straggling out of its braids. She looked as if she had just
come from the stables.

“Mother — ” she said.

“Darling,” Maga said, and opened her arms, just as she had done with Elenn an
hour before.

Then Emer came to embrace Elenn, awkwardly. Emer had grown taller in the
three months since she had seen her.

Maga sat down again on the bed, which sent up a waft of the scent of heather
and lavender. Smelling that again really made Elenn realise that she was home at
last. She felt the prickle of tears at her eyes.

“Now, girls,” Maga said, lowering her voice confidentially. “Sit down, both of
you, and tell me everything.”

So it began again. Elenn had been telling her about their reception at
Ardmachan and Emer’s taking up arms. Now she would want all the rest. Emer
and Elenn sat down on the stools on each side of the fire. Beauty wriggled closer
to Elenn as she sat down, getting further away from the white cat curled on the
bed. She didn’t make a noise, just nestled into Elenn’ s legs. She was such a good
puppy. Elenn stroked her head. Ferdia hadn’t exactly said he loved her, but why
else would he have gone to all that trouble to get her Beauty? He probably wanted
to talk to his father before saying anything official. He had behaved perfectly all
the way from Ardmachan, paying her compliments but never touching her. He
was so honourable.

Elenn came back to reality to see her mother and sister both looking at her.
“I’m sorry,” she said, blood heating her cheeks. “What?”

“Why did you leave Ardmarchan early?” Maga asked, leaning forward on her
elbow.

“I wanted to come home. I was lonely,” she admitted.

“You should have asked me,” Maga said. “It might have been useful to keep
you there a little longer.”

“I’m going back until the spring,” Emer said, eagerly, almost bouncing off her
stool. “I’m only here now because I’m Conal’s charioteer, so whatever you
needed Elenn to be there for I’ll be able to do.”

“No, I don’t think either of you need go back there,” Maga said, soothingly, as

if she hadn’t heard that Emer wanted to be there. She’d told her mother how Emer
had changed. But Maga would have to see for herself before she believed it. “As
for being Conal’s charioteer, you should have asked me about that. It would have
been much better for you to have been Darag’s.”

“Darag and I don’t get on,” Emer said, bristling like a cat.

“Conary and I have been negotiating about you and Darag, you know that,
darling,” Maga said, sitting back and letting a touch of reproach creep into her
tone.

“Conal’s going to be the king of Oriel,” Emer said, defiantly.

“I don’t think so,” Maga said, and smiled her most satisfied smile. “That’s
certainly not what Conary intends, and really, he ought to know more about these
things than you do, don’t you think?”

“It isn’t only Conary’ s decision. Conal would make a wonderful king. The
Royal Kin of Oriel will see that. And if I were married to him — ”

“You’re only sixteen, much too young to be deciding about marriage yet,”
Maga said. Emer subsided and Elenn let out a breath she hadn’t known she was
holding. She hated it when Maga and Allel fought, and it had looked as if Emer
was going to fight in just the same way. “You’ve both been away from me for so
long, there’s a lot you don’t know about the way the world’s going, just as I need
to catch up on what you’ve learned while you’ve been away. You’re much too
young to be making alliances for yourselves yet, and I won’t have you trampling
across the ones I’ve already made. As it happens I haven’t quite decided what to
do about Oriel. Maybe I will find some weakness, then we will go to war with
them. Since you have been away I have been making military alliances that will
surprise you, I think. Your father is positively longing to fight. But if I were
thinking about settling Oriel with a marriage, it would be Darag I’d be thinking of
for you.”

Emer drew breath to speak. Elenn gestured to her to be quiet. It was the wrong
moment to interrupt. Emer ignored her. “Mother, I don’t want to marry Darag. I
love Conal.”

An expression of pain crossed Maga’s face, then she laughed. “I haven’t taught
you very much at all if you think that love has anything to do with marriage, or
marriage with love. Most especially the kind of love you fall into when you are
sixteen years old. That love may be very sweet indeed, and I would wish that for
you both, but marriage is a serious business.”

Elenn could have kicked her sister. Now she’d ruined everything, there would
be no careful bringing the subject round to alliances with Lagin.

“But unless there is love in a marriage there will be no children,” Emer said,
stubbornly insistent. She rocked forward and made her stool scrape on the hearth.

“Duty can be enough,” Maga said. “And that is a different kind of love from

what you are talking about.”

Elenn’s eyes met Emer’s across the fire. For once they seemed to be in
agreement in trusting their love and their loved ones. It was too much to hope to
get Maga to understand. Elenn scooped Beauty up onto her lap and held him. She
could get around Maga, if left to get on with it. She tried to signal as much with
her eyes, but Emer, heedless as ever, caught none of it.

“As well as love, it would make a good alliance. Conal is winning, Mother,
really he is.”

“Put it out of your mind,” Maga said, firmly. “Conal ap Amagien is not for you.
If you truly will not marry Darag, well, I am considering other offers, ones that
would make both of you queens.” Elenn blinked. Where was there for Emer to be
queen of, apart from Oriel? Muin had a queen already, and the royal children
there were babies. Lew ap Ross of Anlar was quite old, wasn’t he? Not Lagin,
surely not Lagin? She suddenly had the awful vision of Maga marrying them off
to the wrong men, Emer to Ferdia and her to mocking Conal. “1 don’t suppose
either of you have given any thought to Tir Tanagiri?”

Elenn blinked. She certainly hadn’t. She shook her head. From Emer’s blank
face the big island to the east hadn’t crossed her mind since she left home either.
“An alliance?” Elenn asked, knowing she had to say something, keep her mother
talking about it until she came to what she wanted to say. What could Tir Tanagiri
have to offer them?

“An alliance, perhaps, but with which side?” Maga smiled again, and stroked
the white cat, which rolled onto its back and purred. “Urdo ap Avren is High
King, for as long as he can stay on top. He wants fighting folk, and in exchange
he offers gold and a marriage alliance. Would you like to be High Queen of Tir
Tanagiri, my dear? But can we spare the champions to send across the water? He
might lose in any case. As well as the Jarnish enemies he knows about, his sister,
the Queen of Demedia has been looking around in secret for alliances against him.
She is sitting up there at the north of his kingdom plotting against him, and will
rise when she is ready. She also has sent to me.”

“What does she offer?” Elenn prompted.

“Gold, and a promise to fight with us in our need. Urdo does not offer that, it is
his sticking point. If he did, well, with cavalry war with Oriel would be practical.
But the Queen of Demedia does not have cavalry, whatever she says, and without
that what are a few Demedians more or less? And she can offer no marriage
alliance. Her older son, the one who will be High King should they win, is
married already, to some Jarnish princess.” Maga rolled her eyes. “Her younger
son is not yet ten years old, as if younger sons were good enough for my darlings
anyway.” Maga made her voice caressing.

“How old is Urdo?” Elenn asked, her heart sinking.

“Twenty- five or six. He’s never been married. He was betrothed to one of the
Crow of Wenlad’s daughters, but she died in a plague. He is holding out for a
good alliance, but he will not wait much longer, he has no heirs. He would be
ideal for you, if only we could be sure that he would survive.” Maga frowned a
little.

“But I don’t want — ” Emer began, tears in her eyes.

Elenn decided to interrupt. All Emer would do was make Maga more and more
set on a course that so far, however awful it appeared, was not settled policy. If
she could be distracted, she might change her mind another day and forget about
these suggestions as if they had never been mooted. Tir Tanagiri was far away
from everyday affairs. If she became angry, she would never forget. “You said
war with Oriel,” she said, straight across her sister’s voice. “Did you mean a raid,
or a real war?”

Emer shut up and glared at her across the fire between them.

“That would depend, darling,” Maga said. “Certainly a raid next summer, to
test them. As for war, I think we’re too well matched. Everyone will fight in a
raid, but a war takes people who really care about it. Nobody minds dying in
battle, but they like to be taken prisoner if they lose, not like in war. So I don’t
think so. Unless. . . Did you notice any weaknesses when you were there, anything
that would give us an advantage?”

“Mother!” Emer burst out. “You know you can’t ask us that! We were fostered
there. It would be enough to put us under the Ban, and you too.”

Maga trilled the laugh she laughed when she did not mean it, the laugh she had
taught Elenn. Beauty cowered down on Elenn’ s lap at the sound. “Darling, despite
what they may have taught you, the priests aren’t quite so urgent about enforcing
that sort of thing as you may thi nk . You have to do considerably worse than that
to be put under the Ban. Besides, who would ever know? What have you
discovered, Emer?”

“Nothing,” Emer said, looking down and biting her lip.

Maga raised her eyebrows. “Extraordinary. Elenn?”

Elenn could think of nothing anyway. She shook her head. “They don’t always
guard the lower gate at Ardmachan,” she said, remembering Leary swinging on it.
“But everything is at the top of the hill, and they always guard the upper one.”

Maga didn’t seem to be listening. She wasn’t looking at her but at Emer, who
was staring defiantly at the rushes on the floor. Maga got up, dislodging the cat,
who hissed. Beauty scrambled down from Elenn’ s lap and stood between Elenn
and the bed, as if to defend her from the cat. Elenn put her hand down onto
Beauty’s head, willing her to be still and quiet and not draw Maga’s attention. But
Maga did not even glance at them. She walked across to stand before Emer, who
continued to stare downwards. Elenn stayed calm and silent, hardly moving,

keeping her face tranquil, making herself untouchable inside herself even if Maga
should turn on her. Maga put her forefinger on Emer’s chin and tilted her face up.
Emer met her eyes defiantly.

“What did you learn?” Maga asked, softly.

“Nothing. I told you, nothing,” Emer said. Her voice sounded too loud in
contrast and was full of the stubbornness Elenn had come to recognise.

“Will you put your new friends above your own mother?” Maga asked, her
voice now reproachful.

“I saw no weaknesses,” Emer said.

“Then why this talk of the Ban, of a fosterling’s duty? Someone has told you
that, to stop you doing your real duty to me and to Connat. Who told you?”

“Nobody. Ap Fial taught me about the Ban when I was seven years old and he
was teaching me the law.”

Elenn had no idea what Emer was trying to hide, but it was completely obvious
that she was keeping something back. Maga stared down at Emer for a moment.
Elenn kept having to remind herself to breathe. She kept her hand on Beauty’s
head. Having her puppy with her helped to make her brave.

“I know you’re hiding something,” Maga said, anger creeping into her voice
now. “And now I know there is something to find, I will find out what it is
whether you tell me or not, so I will know anyway, but it will be the worse for
you.”

“No, Mother,” Emer said, steadily.

“Then there is something, some weakness that would let me conquer Oriel, and
you are keeping it from me?”

“There’s nothing,” Emer said, passionately and emphatically.

“You’re lying,” Maga said, and caught hold of Emer’s braids and pulled her
head back by them, twisting them hard, so hard Elenn was afraid she might pull
them out by the roots. Elenn’ s own scalp hurt in remembered pain. “I can tell
you’re lying to me. Tell me now.”

“If I would ever have told you I wouldn’t now,” Emer screamed, tears of pain
and chagrin on her face. She stood up, wrenching her hair free. A hank of it stayed
in Maga’s hand, blood on the ripped out roots. Emer’s hand went to her waist
where her sword would be if she was wearing it, and Elenn thanked Damona,
Lady of Wisdom for making the law that no weapons must be brought into the
hall. She didn’t trust Emer in this mood to remember that she would fall under the
Ban just as much for kinmurder. Emer pushed Maga away from her, forcing her
mother to take a step back. They were almost equal in height, and standing glaring
at each other they looked very alike.

“I see you have gone very far away from me,” Maga said, coldly. “I thought my
daughter had come home, but I see I have been rearing snakes to betray me.”

“I am your daughter, yes, but not your property,” Emer said, taking a step
towards the door. “It might be as well for you to leave me out of your schemes
from now on, Mother.”

“Where are you going?” Maga asked, her voice like ice.

“Back into the hall,” Emer said.

“Oh don’t be such a fool,” Maga said. “Do you think your father will take your
part against mine?”

“If I tell him you wanted me to betray my foster-father? If I tell him I have a
marriage alliance arranged with Conal and that Conal will be king of Oriel? He
might.”

Elenn looked at her sister with horror. Could Emer really be proposing to start
another war between their parents? War between Connat and Oriel would be
nothing in comparison.

“With Conal, not with his parents and his uncle?” Maga’s tone ridiculed the
notion.

“Sometimes, when I am away from you, I almost forget how impossible you
are,” Emer said. “If I have to run away with Conal and live in a ditch, then I will.”

“His parents and his uncle will just adore that,” Maga said, her voice dripping
scorn. “If you are anything to him, it is as princess of Connat, as you would soon
find out if you tried that. But you are my daughter, my blood. I bore you and
suckled you and named you.” Maga’s voice softened. “If you truly want to marry
Conal this much, if that’s what all this is about, then just tell me what weakness
you saw in Oriel and I will see what can be done.”

“You should have said that before,” Emer said. “What sort of fool and traitor
do you think me?” Then she grabbed her torn hair from where Maga still clutched
it and threw it into the fire, where it flared up quickly, filling the room with the
harsh funeral smell of burned hair.

Maga did nothing, just watched the hairs shrivel and bum until Emer left the
room. Then she sang her charm to make the fire stop burning. The room was very
dark suddenly, with only the flickering candlelight. She reached down into the
cold grey embers and took up what was left of the hairs. She shook her head over
them. “Ashes. But I’m her mother. Doesn’t she realise I have enough of her hair
and blood for anything I might want?” Then she looked at Elenn for the first time
in a long time. The look made Elenn feel cold inside, made her wish she had
stayed in Ardmachan even though she had been so lonely. “Go after her. And try
to do better than you have for the last year at stopping her doing stupid things,”
she said. Elenn stood, her legs shaking a little. Then she stooped to gather up
Beauty. “No, leave the puppy here,” Maga said.

Elenn tried to speak and swallowed, finding her throat too dry. “But she’s
scared of the cat,” she said. The cat’s eyes shone very green in the dim light.

“Nothing but defiance on all sides,” Maga said, shaking her head. “Take her,
then. But I take it you haven’t told my secrets to anyone, or contracted any
alliances, and aren’t keeping any secrets from me?”

“Oh no, Mother,” Elenn said, hugging Beauty. It was true, she hadn’t any
alliance, only a hope. As for telling Maga’s secrets, she’d have thought Emer’s
refusal to tell Oriel’s secret, whatever it was, would have made Maga realise how
unlikely that was.

“And you at least will do as I tell you?”

“Oh yes, Mother,” Elenn said, fervently. Beauty was getting heavy, and trying
to lick her face, but Elenn held her tight.

“Then get after her,” Maga said. “Find out what she knows about Oriel, if you
can. Stop her going straight to Conal and pouring out my secrets along with her
silly infatuation.”

Elenn raised her chin and made for the door. She didn’t have any idea how she
was going to do it, but at least she’d be away from Maga and the chances were
good that by tomorrow she’d be back to being sweet to her.

“Come back afterwards,” Maga added, as she opened the door. “I want you to
tell me all about this silly contest, how it was declared and what everyone thinks
about it.”

“Yes, Mother,” Elenn said, and went out after Emer, shutting the door quietly
behind her and not sighing at all, not on the outside where anyone might see.

3. (Emer)

Emer was shaking. She had been through a battle and it hadn’t made her shake the
way she did after a quarrel with Maga. She stood and forced herself still, taking
deep breaths. Her father would, as always, be drinking in the hall. She couldn’t go
to him like this. There was nobody around. These rooms belonged to the royal
kin. She didn’t know if one of them was still hers and Elenn’s. She didn’t want it
to be.

It was dark and shadowed, the only light coming from the fires in the open part
of the hall. Emer put her hands up to her head and loosened her hair. She shook it
out around her head for a moment. She almost wished she could keep it like that,
mourning her hopes. But she had known Maga would not be easy. Maga always
got her way by being impossible. When you thought you knew how impossible
she could be, she surprised you by seeming to be sweet and reasonable only to
twist around and be more impossible than ever. She made you lose your temper,
or she co-opted you. The only way Emer could deal with her was to get right
away from her. Emer pulled her hair back hard, ignoring the pain. Elenn said it
was possible to learn a lot from Maga, and so it was. It was possible to learn by
bad examples. She would be a mother and a ruler and never act like that, never.

She was old enough to fight back. She was a warrior. She wouldn’t strike Maga
unless she had to, but she wouldn’t let her pull her hair and slap her face any more
either.

Deep calming breaths made her feel more like herself. The horrible things
Maga had said were still going around in her head. There was just enough truth in
them for them to sting. Conal didn’t only want her because she was a princess of
Connat, but she had known her threat of running off to live in a ditch was hollow
even as she made it. Conal wanted to be king of Oriel, and that meant everyone
would have to agree. Why did Maga have to be so impossible? It was a good
alliance, or it could be. Could have been. Emer gritted her teeth. She had lost a
battle, but not the war yet. She would stand up to her. She would win. A year,
Conal had said. A year! She had only been home an hour so far.

She wiped a last few angry tears from her face and took a few steps towards the
hall.

Maga’s door opened, and she spun around, expecting her mother. She would be
cooing, now, making any opposition sound like the sulks of a baby. But it was
only Elenn, saying “Yes, Mother,” as she closed the door. She was doing what
Maga wanted, like always. She had a hound puppy in her arms. Emer had half
noticed it in her mother’s room but paid it no attention.

“I’m here,” Emer said, not wanting her sister to fall over her in the shadows.

“Why do you have to be such a complete idiot?” Elenn burst out angrily.

Emer blinked. This wasn’t the perfect princess act Elenn usually showed the
world. “What do you mean?” she asked.

“Deliberately tightening all Maga’s threads to breaking point like that. You’re
as bad as she is, worse, because she does use diplomacy and you just go head on
like a bull. If you want to marry Conal you’ve gone exactly the wrong way about
it, antagonising her like that. You need to make her think things are her idea, or a
good idea at least, or you need to get her so tangled up in the complications of
several ideas that she loses sight of where the whole thing is going.”

“But that’s so dangerous,” Emer said.

“Oh, and getting her furious so she loses control is safe?” Elenn must have been
squeezing the puppy too hard, it gave a little whine of protest and Elenn set it
down at her feet. “Or sensible?” she went on. “Or good strategy? Because when
she gets furious it makes her more and more set on what she wanted to do, when
otherwise she might change her mind.”

“What got her so furious is my refusing to betray my honour,” Emer said,
stiffly.

“You should have told her whatever it is. It’s probably nothing, anyway,” Elenn
said, scornfully. “What could you have found out that would really make a
difference?”

Emer thought of Beastmother rearing up and her terrifying curse, and said
nothing.

“All right, maybe you do have something,” Elenn said, after a moment’s
silence. “But whose side are you on?”

“Oh stop trying to do Maga’s work for her,” Emer said. “It’s disgusting. She
may have no honour, but you do. They treated us well at Ardmachan, and you
know how sacred the laws of fostering are. You know the Hawthorn knowledge
as well as I do, that breaking them is under the Ban.”

“That’s harming a fosterling,” Elenn said, uncertainly.

Maybe she didn’t know the Hawthorn knowledge as well as Emer. Emer had
always found a certain fascination with the idea of cursing, and of the Ban in
particular. There was something quite horrible about the thought of putting
someone under a curse that stopped them reaching the gods at all, so that they
could not even light a fire or clean their wounds or keep food fresh. It had always
seemed worse than killing someone. And the things that could bring it on had a
gruesome fascination as well, or they had when she had been a child. Maybe
Elenn had shut her delicate ears to them.

“Yes, harming a fosterling, but also using anything you learned when fostered
against your foster family,” Emer said. “Think about it. It has to work like that, or

fosterlings couldn’t be sacred guests, because they’d be little spies. Nobody could
trust them.”

“Harm, yes, but remembering what you’ve seen, whatever it is, and telling your
mother can’t possibly count,” Elenn said. “What is it anyway?”

“I’m not going to tell you,” Emer said, straight out. “And you ask anyone about
the Hawthorn knowledge. I’m not making it up. You ask ap Roth. Ask your friend
ap Ringabur.”

“Orlam’s in Rathadun,” Elenn said, sounding desolate. “Talking about the
decision she made and whether she can be Conary’s lawspeaker. Everyone was
gone except me.”

“Ask her when you see her,” Emer said, feeling a little sorry for her sister
despite everything.

“I will. But even so, you ruined everything defying her head on like that. She
won’t let you marry Conal now, you know.”

“Not right now, no, but it might seem like a better idea in a little while,” Emer
said, as positively as she could. “When Conary sends to her about it. When Conal
has won.”

“You’re the one of us who’s supposed to be grown up,” Elenn said. “Don’t be
so silly. You heard what Maga said, as if you didn’t know already. Conary wants
Darag to be his heir. This contest will only change anything if it goes the way
Conary wants.”

“It isn’t up to Conary, it’s up to the Royal Kin of Oriel once Conary’s dead,”
Emer insisted.

“While he’s alive it’s up to him, and he’s not an old man. How long were you
thinking of waiting?” Elenn asked. “I want to get married when I’m still young
enough to have children.”

“I didn’t say anything about you.” Emer was confused. The puppy came
pushing against her legs, she put her hand down and petted it.

“If you were married to Conal that gives her one daughter less to play alliances
with.”

“Who do you want to marry, then?” Emer had no idea. Elenn flirted with
everyone.

But Elenn just sniffed. “If I told you, you’d do something to mess it up, and
right now your saying a word about it for or against would mess it up with Maga.
She won’t rest until she finds out whatever it is you’re keeping from her.”

“She won’t,” Emer said. Nobody who knew was likely to tell Maga. But if she
crossed the border in arms she would find it out soon enough.

“Whose side are you on?” Elenn asked. “You wouldn’t fight Conal, would
you? Would you fight Oriel?”

“I’m Conal ’s charioteer,” Emer said, very sure. “I don’t think I could, unless

Oriel invaded us. When I marry Conal, I’ll fight for Oriel against Connat if
Connat invades.”

“If mother finds that out she’ll never let you marry him,” Elenn said, hardly
above a whisper. “That’s like saying you’d not make her alliance. If you had a
choice where to live, you’d pick Oriel then?”

“Muin,” Emer said, and laughed. She wished she could see Elenn’ s expression.
“Look, I’m going into the hall. I’m still absolutely furious with Maga, but you can
feel sure I’m not about to kill anyone. I’m also never going to tell Maga or you or
anyone what it would be dishonourable for me to tell, so you may as well stop
trying.”

“What are you going to tell Allel?” Elenn asked.

“Right now in front of everyone? Nothing. But when I get the chance to talk to
him properly, probably tomorrow outside somewhere, I’m going to tell him what
Maga asked, and I’m going to tell him about my arrangement with Conal. He’ll be
on my side when he sees it, I know he will.”

“You’d start a war between them?” Elenn asked.

“It’s Maga who wants a war,” Emer said, puzzled.

“Not between Oriel and Connat, between Allel and Maga!”

“They’re always fighting,” Emer said, dismissively. “If Maga is going to be
utterly unreasonable, then of course I’m going to go to father. Wouldn’t you?”

“Life is completely impossible when they’re really feuding, as opposed to just
normal bickering, and you know it,” Elenn said.

“Well sorry if my desire to marry the man I love is getting in the way of your
comfort,” Emer said, entirely out of patience with her sister. “I’m going to the hall
now. I want a drink.”

“I’ll come with you,” Elenn said, ignoring everything else.

They had to greet a number of old friends on their way to their father. Many of
them Emer was genuinely glad to see. Everyone said how much they’d grown,
and most commented on Elenn ’s beauty and Emer’s height. Old Barr, who had
nursed them and Maga before them, tutted over Emer’s scar. “I’m proud of it,”
Emer said. “It was a fair fight and a won battle, no shame to be wounded by Atha
ap Gren.”

“An honourable wound, sure enough, and healed well and clean. But it spoils
your beauty,” Barr said, touching her fingers to Emer’s cheek.

Emer winced away, though it did not hurt and had not since the moment Conal
healed it. “It’s Elenn who has songs sung to her beauty,” Emer said, trying to
smile. “I am a champion, and have songs sung about my fighting abilities.”

“Songs, is it?” Barr asked.

“Amagien the Poet did write a song about me,” Elenn admitted.

Barr chuckled. “To think of my nurslings grown up enough for that already.

And was it Amagien the Poet who wrote a song about you, Emer?”

“No, it was Gwyn ap Dair,” Emer said. “The song’s mostly about Conal the
Victor. Em his charioteer.”

Barr looked most impressed, and let them go.

Allel was still sitting in the alcove, drinking with Mingor and his guests. They
all glanced up as she came in. She had thought she was getting away with
appearing outwardly calm until she saw Conal catch sight of her. He rose half to
his feet, then remembered himself and sat down again.

“Does our mother want me?” Mingor asked.

Emer suppressed the strong desire to snap that Maga must have wanted him
more than anything once, but rarely since. “I don’t thi nk so,” she said.

“Darag was just telling me about the contests,” Allel said. He moved over a
little and patted the bench on each side of him. She walked over with Elenn and
sat down beside her father. Emer grimaced at Conal as she passed him, that being
the nearest to private conversation they were likely to get tonight. She could read
the worry in his eyes. She wished she’d been able to explain properly about Maga.
But Maga’s impossibility defied description.

She sat back, taking deep draughts of the ale when it came around. She listened
to Leary giving a fair account of the chariot racing at Lagin, helped out by
occasional comments from the others. Elenn’s puppy moved among the company,
sniffing everyone’s feet in a friendly way. It seemed to know Ferdia already, and
to be very taken with Darag, who rubbed it hard behind the ears with practised
ease. Conal kept looking at her inquiringly, but she couldn’t say anything without
everyone hearing.

After a little while, a servant brought supper, a pot of lamb stew with bowls for
the company, and a ladle.

“Help yourselves,” Allel said. “I thought it was unwise to serve you a roast,
with the hero’s portion in dispute among you.”

There was an awkward laugh.

“A good hot stew is ideal in this cold weather,” Ferdia said.

“As long as it’s not served with a knife,” Nid said. The laughter this time was
much more heartfelt. Everyone knew the story of the champions fishing about in
the stew with their knives and eating the first thing they managed to stab, and with
the pot in front of them it suddenly seemed even funnier than usual.

Emer got up to serve herself and managed to seat herself next to Conal when
she sat down again. They still couldn’t talk without everyone hearing what they
said, but at least their knees could touch.

After they had eaten and Allel was just beginning to pester Emer to sing, Maga
came to join them. She had changed her clothes completely, and was wearing all
her gold. Emer immediately felt travel-worn and dowdy. She wished she had

worn the two arm-rings she had brought from Oriel, the gold one Conary had
gifted her with after the battle and the twisted copper and bronze one Conal had
given her.

“No need to get up,” Maga said, after everyone had stood and bowed. “I am not
really well enough to receive guests this evening, but I wanted to greet you.
Cruachan is fortunate enough to have so many distinguished visitors in this
season.”

“They are here on a quest, my dear,” Allel said, cheerfully.

“I have heard of it,” Maga said. “I have been thinking and consulting about it
since I first heard that you three young princes would be coming here to
compete.”

“They had contests in the Isles and chariot races in Lagin and in Muin — ” Allel
began, but Maga raised her hand and cut him off.

Emer felt her stomach clench. There was not much Maga could do to cheat in a
fair contest. Darag was very good, but so was Conal. But Maga was setting the
rules of the contest, and that almost guaranteed it wouldn’t be fair. But it wouldn’t
be too blatant either. Maga was quite shrewd enough to know when people were
watching.

“I have decided that the fairest test would be for the three of you to go,
unaccompanied, up to the heights of Cruachan, tomorrow evening at sunset. There
is a cave up there, among the rocks. You will stay there, without going into the
cave, for three nights and days, defending yourselves against anything that comes
against you. Whoever does this will be awarded Connat’s prize.”

Emer stared at her mother as if she’d never seen her before. Nobody ever went
up to the heights of Cruachan. Nobody dared. Even the Ward fires were lit from
lower down. All the things Barr had said when making threats to get her to behave
came into her head, the monsters, the ghosts, the lane to the land of the dead.
They said there was something there that would come out to defend Connat, if it
was called. Nobody went up past the bonfire mound except a new king of Connat,
who had to spend one night on the heights. Emer had never liked spending the
night even at the Upper Hall. Sending them up there for three nights was terrible.
Maga ought to know what was there, she was the king, but Maga wasn’t
trustworthy. She wished she could be sure Maga wasn’t sending the three of them
to certain death. What could Conary do if they all died, after all, other than
complain? He could go to war to avenge them, even if Maga said it was an
accident, but it wouldn’t make them alive again. Maga wasn’t bound by the things
that bound other people, the web of honour and fear and trust that made the world
safe.

Leary drew breath to speak, but Conal got in before him. “What lives in the
cave?” he asked.

Maga laughed. “Some say one thing and some say another. It is an unchancy
place.”

“And if we all complete the quest?” Leary asked.

“Then I will have to devise another test,” Maga said, sounding as if this were a
very unlikely contingency. Emer agreed with her for once. She would have been
more inclined to ask what happened if none of them were ever seen again. Darag
said nothing, just stared into the fire. Maybe he had a better idea about the top of
Cruachan than the others.

Maga sat down then, between Darag and Leary and made herself as agreeable
as she could be, which was sufficient to make both young champions unbend.

Elenn was sitting stroking her puppy and talking to Ferdia. Allel was drinking
amiably. Emer turned to look at Conal. He was as beautiful and as beloved as
ever, and she longed to hold him. “Eve never been to the heights of Cruachan,”
she said, quietly, but not so quietly to be accused of whispering. Nid could
certainly hear. “Everything I know about it I learned from my nurse when she
wanted me to be good. I have heard that it is a strange and dangerous place,
maybe a gateway to the land of the gods, a haunt of monsters, god-touched, a
place where time acts strangely. I don’t know what is true about it. Be careful.
Keep close track of time.”

Conal smiled, undaunted. Emer tried hard to smile back.

4. (Ferdia)

He had been longing to leave, but now he had to stay until the contest was over.
He just had to. Darag understood, of course. Strangely enough Maga didn’t seem
to have any problem understanding either. She just smiled, assured him he was
welcome, thanked him again for returning Elenn to her, and said that it would be
more than flesh and blood could bear for him to leave now. She was much nicer
than he had expected. He wondered if his father could possibly have misjudged
her.

Everyone in Cruachan went out to see them go. It was strange to see three
champions setting out on foot with swords and spears and waterskins. Their
charioteers seemed to think the same and kept fussing over them until the last
minute. They were to ascend in order of age, the next to follow when the first was
out of sight. Ferdia didn’t see what good it would do, considering the top of the
hill could hardly comprise half a mile of craggy land, and that they’d all been told
how to find the cave.

Conal left first, as the sun began to slip behind the shoulder of the hill. He
embraced Emer fiercely and set off among the rocks. Emer did not go back to her
parents but stood still, watching him out of sight.

“Do you want to take my cloak as well?” Laig asked.

“This one was warm enough on night watches in Muin,” Darag answered, with
commendable patience. It was chilly and damp, typical winter weather, not
terribly cold.

“You had hot drinks then, and somewhere warm to go before and after. Three
nights and days outside at this time of year is a challenge in itself. It would have
to be midwinter.” Laig shot a furious glance at Maga, as if to hold her responsible
for the season.

“Just past midwinter,” Ferdia said, and smiled at Darag. He had no doubts of
his friend’s powers of endurance.

“At least it isn’t snowing,” Darag said, and won a reluctant smile from Laig.

Then the priest, ap Fial, called to them that it was time for Darag to go. He
embraced them both swiftly. “Good luck,” Ferdia said. “But I’m sure you will win
this.” Darag just smiled, turned and walked uphill with an even stride, not looking
back.

When Darag was out of sight and Leary began to make his way up, Ferdia
turned back to the others. Elenn, the wretched puppy at her feet, was standing
with her parents and brother, most of the people of the court and village around
them. Ferdia and Laig went to join them. Emer was still standing alone where

Conal had been. Nid went to her and said something quietly, and they walked
back to the Upper Hall together, just ahead of Ferdia and Laig.

“What do you think is in that cave?” Laig asked Ferdia.

“1 don’t believe any of the stories about monsters,” Ferdia said, as decisively as
he could. “And it can hardly be wolves, up here. Maybe a bear?”

“Darag could deal with a bear,” Laig said, made more cheerful at the thought.
Ferdia wondered if he had ever seen a bear. “He has his spears. Anyway, a bear
would be snoozing at this time of year. I’m more worried about the cold than
anything. It might snow in the night. He’ll have to sleep sometime.”

The Upper Hall was smaller but more sturdily built than the Lower Hall. There
was a boar roasting over the fire. Ferdia wondered for a crazy moment if there
might be boar in the cave, in contradiction to everything he had ever learned about
the habits of boar. He was glad they would be staying up here, nearer the heights.

That evening they feasted, drinking to the three princes of Oriel and their
ordeal. It was strange to be warm and well fed, sitting in the light hearing music
and conversation, knowing that Darag was not very far away but outside in the
cold and the dark. He sat in an eating alcove with Allel and his children and some
of the champions of his household. Nid and Laig were sitting with Maga and
some of her women. Ferdia heard occasional loud laughter from Laig and worried
that he would get very drunk and disgrace Darag. Laig was a good charioteer, and
undoubtedly devoted, but sometimes he disgusted Ferdia.

The next day was bright and clear and very cold. Laig looked the way Ferdia
had felt after the Feast of Bel. He swore, not for the first time, that he would never
drink again, and said that Maga kept asking questions about the security of Oriel
which he knew better than to answer, drunk or sober. Ferdia wondered if she was
really planning a war against Oriel. It would be something to ask his father when
he was home. Maybe knowing what she had asked Laig would be information that
would help his father put together a picture of what Maga was doing.

After breakfast, Mingor led out a hunt. Ferdia went with them. There seemed
little chance of anything happening on the heights the first day. There was nothing
to watch, after all, and hunting was always a pleasure. But when they came back
in the twilight, pleased and tired, having killed two hinds and a stag, Leary was
sitting beside Maga in the hall, a cup of hot ale in his left hand. His right arm was
bandaged.

“What brings you back so soon?” Ferdia asked. He hadn’t thought Leary would
give up, even if he couldn’t win.

“To save him wearying of repeating it, Leary will tell us all his story after
dinner,” Maga said. Leary smiled, sheepishly. They contained their curiosity
while they ate. Tonight Maga seemed to be devoting herself to Leary. He
wondered if Leary would let slip any secrets about Oriel’s defences. He sat with

Elenn and Laig and some champions of Connat and talked mostly about the hunt.

After dinner, Emer took up the harp and sang the old song of Manan and
Rhianna declaring their love for each other while dashing about the field
despatching their enemies in the Battle of the Towers. Ferdia thought it exactly
the song one would expect a charioteer to choose.

Then Leary came forward and took the musician’s stool. “Mine’s not much of a
story,” he said, and was met with sympathetic laughter. “I went up the hill last.
Found the cave easily enough, but there was no sign of the others anywhere. I
settled down to keep watch, and watched all night, with no sign of anything. The
sun came up at the usual time, though it felt like forever. The day passed
uneventfully. The only odd thing was where Conal and Darag could be. I walked
about a bit looking for them. I didn’t go in the cave. The second night, I must
have dropped off for a minute. Something came out of the cave, a great dark
shape, I couldn’t see it properly. It attacked me, and I fought it. That’s when I got
this scratch.” he indicated his bound arm. “I didn’t kill it, it fled back into the
cave. I slept a bit more the next day, had some strange dreams, too. The third
night three armed warriors came out of the cave, but I was ready for them. At
least one of them went down, but by the time it got light her body had vanished. I
came back down at sunset today.” He spread his hands as if to say that was all
there was to it.

There was a silence. Ferdia was baffled.

“It’s only been one day,” Nid said, at last.

“Maga told me that,” Leary said. “Very strange indeed. No accounting for it.
Doesn’t make sense.”

“It may yet be that Leary will win the contest,” Maga said, her voice very
smooth and assured.

When Ferdia went off to bed, Leary was leaning on Maga looking deep into her
eyes. It looked almost amorous. Allel was across the hall taking no notice at all.
When Ferdia passed them Maga was smiling in a very pleased way and saying
something about Beastmother, so he must have been mistaken, it must have been
a religious discussion. No wonder Leary wanted to drown his troubles, really,
after three days turning into one like that.

The next day was even colder, with a few flakes of icy snow blowing about. He
managed to forestall Laig by assuring him right away that he thought Darag ’s
cloak would be warm enough even for this weather. He couldn’t help looking up
to the icy heights and worrying. It was waiting that was so difficult, not doing.
Late in the afternoon he managed to evade Elenn for a little while. She was so
persistent in her attentions that he wondered if Maga had asked her to keep watch
on him. For a girl who had wanted to be home so much, she seemed to have
nothing to do now she was here except get under his feet. She had never seemed

this irritating at Ardmachan.

He wrapped himself in his cloak and walked up to the bonfire height, where he
had stood to watch Darag leave. He wasn’t entirely surprised to see Emer up
there, shivering. They greeted each other and then stood in their separate silences.
The snow was thickening, and as it began to grow dark Ferdia was ready to
suggest they go back together. Then a figure appeared, making his way down
among the rocks. He couldn’t tell for a moment which of them it was, which was
ridiculous considering how much taller Conal had grown this last year. When he
saw that it was Conal he felt a great relief. He slipped away, leaving Emer to greet
him. They wouldn’t have wanted him there any more than he wanted to talk to
them. When he came into the hall, brushing the snow off his shoulders, Elenn was
there again, waiting for him.

“Conal’ s back,” he said.

She smiled. “You never doubted Darag would win, did you?”

He hadn’t, really. He didn’t like to say that Darag would likely win anything
that touched the world of the gods. Darag so hated feeling the weight of that. He
wouldn’t want everyone knowing. Nor did he want to claim victory until Darag
was back and risk ill-wishing him. “I have never doubted that he is the best,”
Ferdia said. He let her take his wet cloak.

Emer did not sing that night. Conal told his story straight after dinner. “I have
been away two nights, but to me it felt like three,” he began. “The first night I
went up first and alone, and saw no sign of the others coming to join me. The cave
mouth was very dark when I reached it. I did not go inside but walked to and fro
outside the entrance. For hours nothing happened, but I kept moving, doing some
exercises to keep warm. Then in the depths of that first night a creature came out
of the cave. I have heard talk of monsters, and I suppose it was monstrous, yet it
seemed to me somehow beautiful as well. It was like a huge black cat, bigger than
I am, with claws like swords. I fought it all over the heights. At last I slew it
among the rocks on the very summit. I went back to the cave mouth, and after a
short time a troop of armed warriors came out. They did not see me at first and I
heard them talking, using a language that was completely strange to me. They
were strangely armed too, most of them had only short spears which they carried
against their shoulders.”

Conal paused, staring into space. “I hadn’t been told to kill anyone that came
out of the cave, only to defend myself against attack, so I followed them. They
went over the hill, talking quietly. There were twelve of them, too many for me to
fight alone, but not a whole army. I saw a woman who seemed to be their leader,
and I thought she was explaining to them how they would ambush something.
They were folk like I have never seen. I followed them until they seemed to melt
from one minute to the next as they came over the crest of the hill near where I

had slain the beast.”

“Do you think they were the spirits of our ancestors?” Allel asked. “Maybe the
woman was Craa who founded this dun?”

“Maybe,” Conal said, but he shook his head. “I only saw them in the darkness.
They usually took good care not to be seen against the sky, as if they were hiding
from someone. But I thought they had short hair. I would be very interested to talk
to the priests about them. In any case, I went back to the cave mouth, my mind
full of speculation. I watched the rest of the night, and watched the sun come up.
There was a chill mist clinging to the top of the hill. I saw ravens now and then
throughout the day, but nothing else. I ate some of the provisions I had brought
with me, and I slept a little, around mid-day when it seemed safest. I also went up
to the top of the heights, to examine the body of the beast in daylight. It was gone,
there was no sign of it. Nor could I find any prints of the people I had been
following, nor even of my own. The ground was hard, but the thin winter grass
did not even seem bent. The night came soon enough. That second night I was
attacked almost as soon as the sun was down. Bats came streaming out of the cave
like smoke. I say they were bats, but they were not like normal bats for they came
towards me plainly intent on attack. I fought them for a long time in the darkness,
trying to protect my face from them.” He shuddered, and Ferdia shuddered in
sympathy. He had never liked bats.

“Towards morning they left and I saw people again, two men, who attacked me
as if they knew and hated me. I thi nk they called my name. I fought and killed
them both but when dawn came their bodies had gone again. The day was damp
and misty again. Unlike the day before I did not sleep at all. I found I had some
tiny bites from the bats, and sang charms over them. When night came I tied my
hair back very carefully in case more bats came. There were no bats. What came
out was a troop of four huge horses. The first carried a woman slumped over the
saddle. The second carried a warrior. The third carried a man who seemed to be
me, and the last carried a woman who seemed to be my charioteer, Emer ap Allel.
I called to her, but they all rode on as if they could not see me. I ran after them,
but however fast I ran I could not gain on the horses, though they were only
walking and I was running as fast as I could. I could not catch up, but as I went
back towards the cave I saw the man I had thought was me, walking. I saw that he
was badly wounded. He kept murmuring for water, but when I tried to give him
my water bottle he didn’t seem to see me. At last I went back to the cave, walking
to and fro quietly, reciting poetry inwardly to keep myself calm and awake.”

Conal smiled reassuringly at Emer, and then looked around at the puzzled faces
in the hall. “I don’t understand it either,” he said. “I’m nearly finished. Near dawn
a huge man came out of the cave carrying an ax. ‘Conal ap Amagien,’ he said.
‘Let us have a contest. Kneel, and I will strike off your head, and then you may do

the same for me.’ ‘Let me rather strike first,’ I replied. ‘And let me know your
name, for it seems you know mine.’ ‘I am called Bachlach,” he said, and laughed,
so that I knew his name meant something though I had never heard it before. He
then handed me his huge ax, and knelt before me. I hewed as hard as I could and
chopped off his head. He then stood, picked up his head, put it under his arm and
bowed to me.” Conal hesitated. “I think he went away, back into the cave.
Perhaps I fell asleep. The next thing I knew it was morning, a wintry morning
with some snow in the air. I waited all day and returned here at sunset, to find that
only two days had passed and not the three I had experienced.”

There was much muttering about Conal’ s story, especially about the strangely
armed people and the huge man, Bachlach. Elenn seemed especially concerned
about Conal seeing Emer on a horse and kept asking what it could possibly mean.

“His death, do you think?” Mingor asked. “Seeing himself as an old man
wounded and looking for water?”

“I’m glad I never have to go up that hill,” Elenn said.

“Kings only have to spend one night,” Mingor said, not sounding very happy
about it. Ferdia was glad the kingship ritual of Lagin was nothing so unpleasant.
He didn’t see why Maga had thought this an appropriate test, unless she had also
wanted to make sure Darag would win. He wondered what Darag was seeing, out
there beyond the walls of the dun.

The next day was bright and very cold. At sunset everyone gathered again at
the bonfire height. Ferdia and Laig were there first, and the others came by ones
and twos until it was full, the way it had been when they all left. Maga and Allel
were both there, dressed in their finery. Conal looked better for his night’s sleep,
and Leary’s arm was evidently healed enough that he did not need it bandaged
any more. Elenn came over to stand with him and Laig. He wished she wouldn’t
take the puppy with her everywhere, or at least that she would train her to wait
quietly. The puppy ran about, chasing smells. At least she showed no sign of
trying to go up the hill. Laig talked to Elenn about how she should train her, most
of it sensible advice that he doubted Elenn would follow. They waited until it was
much darker than it had been the night before when Conal came down. The
conversation died down as sunset passed. “What happens if he doesn’t come until
tomorrow?” Laig asked. The thought had crossed Ferdia’s mind too. Was four
days closer to three than two? Past that came the thought he did not want to think
at all, what if he never came? What if the dark world he feared claimed him
entirely?

“There he is,” Elenn said, pointing. And there was Darag, making his way
slowly down.

“Greetings, Darag, first among the young champions of Oriel,” Maga said as he
came down among them.

He looked dazed. He ignored her entirely and went up to Ferdia, who let him
lean on his arm. “Get me to where I can sleep safely,” he muttered.

“Darag’s very tired, he needs to sleep before he talks,” Ferdia said, as loudly
and decisively as he could. Nobody argued. “Are you wounded?” he asked,
quietly.

“Nothing to make a fuss about,” Darag said. “I just need to rest.”

He and Laig supported Darag back to the hall. They took him to the room
where they had been sleeping and undressed him. He let them do it, he was almost
asleep already. He was cold, and wounded in several places, by what seemed to be
teeth and claws as well as a sword. Laig insisted it was his place as charioteer to
sing over the wounds, so Ferdia let him. They wrapped Darag in warm blankets
and Ferdia lay down beside him so he could share his warmth with his friend.
Laig lay down on Darag’s other side, and they all three stayed like that all night,
not going into the hall to eat.

In the morning Darag woke very early, in the first light of dawn. He woke
Ferdia by laughing.

“There can’t be anything much wrong if you’re giggling like that,” Ferdia said,
deeply relieved.

“You were snoring low and Laig was snoring high,” Darag said. Laig was still
snoring, proving Darag’s point.

“So what happened?” Ferdia asked.

“Oh, lots of strange things,” Darag said, dismissively.

“You’ll have to do better than that when you tell your story in the hall,” Ferdia
said.

“Nive’s hair, is that what she’s making us do? What happened with the others?
I know I was last down and won. I wasn’t quite so far out of it as that.”

“Leary lasted one day, Conal two. They both thought they’d done three. Leary
fought a monster and some warriors. Conal had some very strange adventures
including seeing himself as an old man and meeting an ogre who cut off his
head,” Ferdia said.

“Bachlach,” Darag said. “He cut off mine, and I knelt for him to do it. I’ll
mention him. There’s ever such a lot I won’t say though, daren’t say to Maga.”
He yawned. “I think I’ll sleep a little more now. I didn’t sleep a wink for three
days. I’ll tell you all about it when I wake up again.”

He put his head down again and was asleep again almost at once. Ferdia lay
with his head propped up on his elbow, feeling happy and proud, watching over
Darag as he slept.

VI - The Suitors

1. (Conal)

Conal took a deep breath and smiled pleasantly. Nobody was looking at him
except Inis, but he had to be ready for Maga. It was half a month before the feast
of Bel and he was back in Connat again, trying to prevent a full scale war, after
four anguished months at home. It had taken all his powers of persuasion even to
get Conary to agree to let him come.

Orlam was pacing all around the little house where the four of them had been
left to wait. “They can’t do this to us,” she said, touching her hand to the green
leaves on the spray of beech pinning her cloak together. Conal glanced down at
his matching one for a second.

Ap Carbad, who, as senior herald, had carried the large branch all the way from
Ardmachan, shook his head. “If word goes out that Maga has abused heralds, she
will lose her allies, and if she were to kill us Conary would in honour be bound to
invade Connat,” he said. “But we are only being kept waiting, not abused so far.”

“Her allies might not take any notice. They’re panting at the prospect of
carving up Oriel,” Conal said. He would never have believed things could be so
bad. A year ago he had fought off Atha’s attack. Now Atha was their only ally
and, depending what Beastmother’s threat had meant, Oriel might be about to be
destroyed. Suffer, he thought, for the thousandth time, turning it over in his mind.
Suffer as the mare suffered. The mare had died. Would they all die in the first
battle? Or die as soon as the border was crossed? Or would they all be in some
way struck down, transformed and helpless as his dreams told him? In some ways
that would be the worst of all.

Ap Carbad sighed. “Can a kingdom be carved up like a cow?” Immediately
Conal’ s overactive mind offered up the image of Amagien carving the cow at
Edar. The first among the young champions. His father would never forgive him
for losing, never. He would never forgive himself. He felt sick at the memory.
“Would the gods allow it?”

Inis looked up. “Kingdoms can be lost. The victors make a new peace with the
gods of the land. This is how our ancestors took Tir Isamagiri. It isn’t even

difficult. A man and a woman lie together on the earth and call on the gods to
answer, and the world changes, names change. The land gods listen to the king,
whoever the king is, and that is one way to make one.”

“But the law prevents such wars,” Orlam said, gently. “Unless there is cause for
a bloodfeud, and there is no such cause here. No cause at all.”

“The law is what we have come to call on,” ap Carbad said. “We will tell Maga
that she will be placed under the Ban if she takes advantage of our weakness to
invade for her own power.”

“It will be enforced,” Orlam said. “It might be little comfort to us afterwards,
but they are sure at Rathadun. And the threat of the Ban ought to be enough to
prevent Maga from this course.”

“Or anyone,” ap Carbad said. “Why do people risk such wars, dead against the
Ward?”

“Feuds, or invasions of strangers,” Inis said, and his eyes had that glaze that
meant he was looking across the worlds. “Or the Ward may be broken. All these
things are coming too. Soon, but not yet. Maga is enough for now, and set on her
purposes.”

Conal had about a thousand questions, but he knew better than to ask his
grandfather. “That’s not cheering news,” he said. Inis grinned.

Ap Carbad frowned. “That Beastmother is ready to destroy all of us for
breaking our covenants with the animals is hardly cheering news either,” he said,
sternly. “Don’t make remarks like that to Maga. I told Conary you were the wrong
choice for this mission. Too young and frivolous.” He sniffed.

“My father said the same,” Conal said, and smiled.

Orlam whirled around. “Can we stop having this stupid argument? We’re all
heralds of Oriel. We need to be united. Conal is here, and will do what he can.
Conary wanted to send a nephew. Darag is . . . busy and my brother would hardly
be appropriate.”

Being as it was all Leary’s fault that Maga knew about their weakness, to be
sure. Conal would have replied with an attempt to conciliate ap Carbad, but the
door opened and a champion of Connat came in. “Come to the Lower Hall, Maga
will see you now,” he said, bowing.

They followed him out in silence.

The Lower Hall was crowded. Maga and Allel sat together on a bench at one
end, their three children standing behind them. Conal didn’t look at anything else
for a while, for there was Emer, Emer at last. His heart rose at the sight of her
after so long. She looked tired and sad and her face was pulled down where her
scar was. He longed to hold her, to smooth her cheek, to get into a chariot with
her and drive far away. She smiled when their eyes met, which was enough to let
him know that everything was all right. Then she looked away.

To her right stood two priests, one middle aged, his shawl folded tidily, the
other very old, her white hair so thin that it hardly showed where it was cut for the
gods. Her eyes were very dark and alert, moving over the crowd. To Maga’s left
stood a man who must be her lawspeaker. He was smiling at Orlam. Next to him
was ap Dair, the poet. Conal looked over the crowd and was surprised to meet
Ferdia’s eyes. He looked bemused, as so often. Conal felt a little sorry for him.
Next to Ferdia was his father, Cethem of Lagin. He was looking at the heralds
appraisingly. His uncle Lew of Anlar was there, too, dressed in armour, avoiding
Conal’ s eyes. Things were very bad if even Anlar had deserted Oriel. Yet his
being here in the hall might be good. All of the leaders of Maga’s allies must be
here, and some of their champions as well as most of hers. Perhaps it would be
possible to shame her in front of them.

After they had been given heralds’ welcomes and safe-conducts, ap Carbad
spoke first as they had agreed, holding up his big beech branch.

“We have heard that you intend to make war on Oriel, and King Conary would
know why.”

Maga smiled. Conal didn’t like to look at Maga. He had expected her to look
like Elenn, but she didn’t. When she smiled like that she looked like a twisted
version of Emer. It was painful to see. “That’s easily answered,” she said. “We do
not intend to make war.”

Ap Carbad was silent for a moment, clearly taken aback. “Then we have been
misinformed,” he said, in a tone of doubt.

“And all these military preparations we saw as we came south?” Conal asked,
his tone one of polite inquiry.

Maga laughed. Conal looked away from her. Elenn, he noticed, was looking
into the crowd. Mingor and Allel both looked at Maga with approval. Emer was
frowning and staring at her feet. “We are planning a cattle raid,” Maga said,
spreading her hands. “You see, my husband has a wonderful bull, and I would
have one to match it for my herds. I have heard that Amagien the Poet has a truly
wonderful bull, famed in song, at his farm of Edar.” Her eyes rested on Conal for
a moment, full of contempt and triumph. “We have decided to go raiding up
through Oriel until we should reach our prize or be stopped. There is nothing in
the law against that, is there, lawspeaker?” She was so smug she was almost
purring. A ripple of laughter ran around the court. Most of their arguments were
demolished by this outrageous claim. A raid was different from a war.

“Not if you keep the law,” Orlam said, very evenly.

“Of course we will keep the law,” Maga said. “But if we were to find our way
undefended then we might keep what we had taken. This would not be against the
law. It would not be a feud where all must die and no prisoners be taken.”

Conal could see it already. They were as good as dead. Or, possibly, enslaved if

the curse did not kill them. But Inis turned to him and winked. Then Inis took a
half-step forward. He took off his shawl, shook it, and settled it again on his
shoulders. There was something about the way he did this which was compelling.
Conal darted a glance away and saw that almost the whole room was watching
Inis. The other priests, both of them, rearranged their own shawls. Nobody else
moved at all. With one hand on his herald’s branch and the other outstretched,
palm downward, Inis spoke at last.

“Will you send many against one?” he asked.

There was a silence. “Of course not,” Allel answered, glancing sideways at
Maga, who looked uncomfortable but stared at Inis with the rest.

“Will you skulk in the woods and go around defended roads?” Inis asked.

“Never,” Allel answered. “We will fight by the rules of war. Do you think we
have no honour?”

Inis swayed a little as if he were absorbing the force of the direct question.
“You have honour, Allel ap Dalian, but does your king?” he answered. “Will she
stand by your words?”

“Allel is my war-leader,” Maga said. “Such choices are his.”

“Do you stand by his words, Maga ap Arcon?” Inis asked again.

“Yes,” Maga said. “We will not send many against one. We will not go around
defended roads. Not that I think there will be many defended roads.”

“There are only two roads from Connat into Oriel,” ap Carbad said, stating the
obvious.

“One with deep water and the other lined with thorns,” Inis agreed, which was
more poetry than sense. Conal had come by the one with deep water this time.
The ford had been very pleasant in the sunshine. He had gone home by way of the
one lined by thorns last time, and found it an ordinary wooded road.

“Two will be enough,” Maga said.

Conal was afraid she was right. But Inis looked insanely cheerful, so maybe it
had not been enough in other worlds. He couldn’t see how. Even if they had two
people who could fight, who could fight all these champions, even one at a time?
Maybe Inis was just too crazy to care.

There was a feast for them that night. Conal kept trying to speak to Emer, but
he couldn’t get near her. He was seated with Inis and Maga and Elenn. Emer was
off in the opposite alcove with her father and Orlam and ap Carbad.

“So nice to be able to talk to you again, ap Amagien,” Maga said, as she served
the meat. “How very kind of Conary to send a nephew, even if he couldn’t spare
his heir.”

Conal wondered if Maga could possibly know what Darag was doing right
now. He smiled at her as best he could. “I will have to suffice,” he said. He
glanced over at the opposite alcove. There was an advantage to this seating. Ap

Carbad couldn’t possibly hear anything he said. “Besides, I had another reason for
wanting to come. I want to negotiate with you about my marrying your younger
daughter, my charioteer, Emer.” He took a bite of his venison and smiled at her
around it.

“Does Conary agree?” Maga asked.

“He does,” Conal said. It had been a hard fought battle, and he had often
wished Emer was there to help. Conary liked Emer. “He has written to you
ceasing the negotiations for her to marry Darag and asking about this. Have you
not received the letter?”

“And what about your dear parents?” Maga asked, side-stepping that question
entirely.

Conal would rather not have been asked that. “They will raise no objection,” he
said, stretching the truth a little thin. They would raise no more objections if faced
with an actual marriage, anyway. At least, he hoped not.

“Then it is a pity,” Maga said, biting her lip as if she meant it. “Only this past
month I have agreed a different alliance for Emer. I thought since Conary was no
longer offering Darag, and since an alliance with Oriel didn’t suit my plans, that I
should look elsewhere. Might you be interested in Elenn instead?” She gestured to
Elenn, who was eating neatly. She was dressed beautifully, as always. She gave
him a look that had daggers in it, but said nothing.

Conal raised his eyebrows to indicate that he didn’t believe a word of what
Maga said. “You astonish me,” he said. Inis let out his high-pitched cackle.

“What, ap Amagien, with the news that it is my ugly daughter and not by
beautiful one who is first betrothed?” Maga asked. “But Elenn has not yet taken
up arms.”

Conal was so furious that he was almost glad to be freed of the constraints of
politeness. “Why, you wrong yourself and the daughter who inherited your
looks,” he said. “Elenn is something out of the ordinary, of course, hair like black
night and eyes like stars as my father’s poem puts it. But Emer is not ugly, indeed
she is better than plain. As you also must have been, when you were young.”

For a moment he saw that he had really angered Maga, and rejoiced. Inis sat
contemplating them, a smile on his lips. Elenn was shrinking back against the wall
as if to avoid a blow. Then Maga leaned forward towards him and smiled.
“Conal,” she said, and hearing his name on her lips was shocking, showing they
had left behind even feigned politeness. “You have made me an offer. Now tell
me what it gains me to marry my daughter to you?”

“Peace with Oriel,” he said.

Maga laughed scornfully. “That is not something I wish to gain. She could be a
queen. She could give me a kingdom.”

“She could yet be a queen married to me. The choice of the Kin of Oriel has not

been made. There are many chances in the world.” Even as he said it, Conal
realised he didn’t believe it any more. Darag would be king, and his sons after
him. Nothing he could do would be enough.

Maga raised her eyebrows in scornful doubt. “Is that the best you can offer?”
she asked. “Then listen to me, Conal. Oriel is doomed. You’re clever enough to
see that. It is mine already. It isn’t even going to exist when my cattle raid is over.
Come and join me. You can be one of my champions, fighting for me and for
Connat, living in my hall. This isn’t very much gain for a daughter, but I am
prepared to accept it.”

Conal looked away from Maga’s eager face. Inis was staring into the invisible
distance. Elenn’s lips were parted in astonishment.

He couldn’t possibly agree. He could hardly believe she thought he had so little
honour that he might take her offer seriously. Nobody would. Still, saying that
would gain him nothing. He looked across the room. Emer was talking to Orlam.
He glanced at Inis and saw that his grandfather was bright eyed again, watching
him. He took another bite of his venison, chewed and swallowed, then looked
back at Maga.

“I will say nothing now to your proposal. Let me talk to Emer.”

“Then talk to her,” Maga said. “But this offer is made reluctantly and at her
request.”

“She has done nothing but beg to be allowed to marry you since she came
home,” Elenn said. Maga spared Elenn an irritated glance and looked back at
Conal.

“You can speak to her after dinner,” she said.

They continued their meal in silence, broken only by Inis’s occasional
humming. When Conal got up to go to Emer, his grandfather put his hand on his
shoulder. Conal looked at him, but he said nothing, just let him go again.

The musicians were getting ready to sing and servants were pouring out more
ale as Conal crossed the room.

“Your mother said I can speak to you,” Conal said, leaning on Emer’s shoulder.
“Where can we go?”

“Outside,” Emer said, rising at once.

Allel smiled at them benignly. Ap Carbad frowned and muttered something
quietly to Orlam. Conal bowed and followed Emer out of the hall.

Emer greeted the guard at the door and led Conal through the village towards
the stables. The night was overcast and damp and the ground was muddy. It
wasn’t easy to see where they were going. They walked in silence.

It was even darker inside the stables. There was a smell of horses and of hay
and damp springtime and then Emer was in his arms and he was intoxicated by
the smell of her. They held each other for a long moment, murmuring nonsense

and affirmations.

“Did Conary agree?” Emer asked, after a little while.

“It wasn’t easy, but he did in the end,” Conal said. “And I see you got your
mother to agree to something, but it isn’t something I can possibly consider.”

“My parents have been fighting about it,” Emer said. “That you become a
champion of Connat is supposed to be a compromise. I know how impossible it
is.”

“I feel terrible for having left you here all this time with them,” he said. “I
didn’t realise until tonight how awful she is. We’ll have to run away. I think we
could go to Muin, or failing that right away across the sea to seek our fortunes in
other lands.” The thought was enticing. Travelling together had been a joy. He
wished they could start right away.

Emer hugged him tighter. “I never thought you’d say that,” she said, so quietly
he could hardly hear her. “But we can’t, you know we can’t. Not now. Maga
won’t turn aside for anything. You can’t desert Oriel now, and it would be the
same if you agreed to Maga’s offer or if we ran away. You couldn’t live without
honour.”

“You’re right,” Conal said, his heart sinking. “Well, if I must die, at least you
should know that I love you more than breath.”

Emer kissed him, and if he had to die he wished he could die in that moment. “I
don’t think you need to die,” she said, breathlessly. “I have been talking to ap
Fial, our priest, and he seems to think that the most likely thing is that all the
fighting folk of Oriel will be fall sick for a span of time, three days, or maybe six
or nine days. After that they will be well again. And Inis ap Fathag, may the Lord
of Healing let him see many more summers, has made Maga say in front of
everyone that she won’t cheat. So it ought to be possible to hold the roads for that
long.”

“Who could?” Conal asked. A horse shifted nearby and another sent out a
whuffle that sounded enquiring.

“You and me, if you can fight. But if not, anyone who will fight. I’ve been
thinking about it. There are bound to be exceptions. Probably it will only strike
champions. Maybe the farmers will be able to fight. And then there are people
like your father who would hardly count as fighting folk of Oriel but who can
fight. And — ” she hesitated, then kissed him again. “Ap Fial might be wrong but
he seemed to think that Darag would be able to fight because his father is a god.”

“Darag’s father?” Conal asked, blankly.

“They’re calling him Black Darag here because of the way he was black with
blood when he came down from the heights,” Emer said.

“Why does ap Fial think his father was a god?” Conal’s voice seemed to echo
in his ears in the darkness. He clutched at Emer as if he was drowning.

“I expect he saw it across the worlds,” Emer said. “You should ask Inis. But he
thinks Darag will be able to fight and hold one of the roads.”

“And Atha can hold the other,” Conal said.

“Atha? Can you trust her that far? She might take the whole country if nobody
can stop her.”

“She’s married to Darag. While we’re down here. Today, in Ardmachan. It
should be done by now. She won’t be bringing troops from the Isles, her mother
won’t countenance it, but she’ll be there herself. But could anyone hold a road for
nine days? Against everyone, even one at a time?”

“I will go and help,” Emer said. “As soon as the war starts I will run away and
find you, and help hold the road.”

“Maga will be furious with you,” Conal said.

“I will do it in disguise, so she doesn’t know who I am. If she did, she’s
perfectly capable of kidnapping me, to stop me. Then afterwards, when Oriel is
safe, we can go right away and change our names and leave everything behind.
We could go to Tir Tanagiri, to King Urdo. My mother has told me that his sister
is plotting against him, we could tell him that and warn him and he might accept
us as champions. After three years we can marry without needing our parents
blessings.”

“Come away with me now,” he said. “When we leave tomorrow. Don’t stay
here with her another day.”

“She would call that an abduction and cause for a feud between Connat and
Oriel,” Emer said, sadly. “But once the war has started she won’t miss me in the
day time as long as I am here to eat at night.”

They held each other for another long moment. “You are so brave,” Conal said,
already feeling the pain of the thought that she could die holding the road for
Oriel. “I will always love you,” he said.

“I love you,” Emer said. “What will you tell Maga?”

“That I cannot in honour desert Oriel now, but that we shall see what time
brings,” Conal shrugged. “It is not a lie.”

“You must get Conary to bring his fighting folk south before the feast of Bel,
so that after the three or six or nine days they will be there where they are
needed,” Emer said.

“Unless it is thirty days, or ninety,” Conal said. “Even nine days is a terribly
long time.”

“On the other side of it we will be together,” Emer said. He squeezed her in
silence, trying to believe in another side of the perilous gulf that lay ahead of
them.

2. (Elenn)

It should have been lovely. They were going to defeat Oriel, but Lagin was allied
to them. Ferdia was here. The good thing about everyone in Oriel being struck
down by the curse would be that nobody got hurt. They had a big army ready, her
father said, in case the farmers came out to fight. Her mother said the big army
was to keep their allies happy and to glorify Connat. But in any case no
champions of Oriel were supposed to die, and none of Connat either, none of her
friends, none of the people who she had smiled at when they opened the gates for
her. The army went out of Cruachan on the morning after the Feast of Bel, all in a
long stream, chariots ahead and farmers streaming along behind in little clumps.
The champions were all painted and armoured for war. Many of them had banners
flying. Most of the banners were the naked man of Connat, black against blue, but
among them flew the bramble of Muin, red on black, the raven of Anlar, black on
white, and the green hill of Lagin. War seemed a splendid thing when she stood at
the gate of Cruachan and waved them off.

But it was all wrong already. By sundown they were not even across the border
of Oriel, and they had thirteen bodies to burn and sing the Hymn of Return for.
She hadn’t known it but it had all gone wrong from the moment that Inis tricked
her mother into agreeing not to go around the two roads. That meant there were
only two ways they could get into Oriel. That shouldn’t have mattered, but both
roads were held against them. They were astonished when the news was first
brought back to them.

First they heard that the road through the woods was guarded by Atha ap Gren.
It wasn’t such a surprise as it might have been, because they’d had the news that
she had recently married Darag in a great hurry. The Isles had promised not to
send support even so, they knew Connat was going to win. But Atha was there
and not alone.

Allel told them about it at dinner. The family were eating in a tent out near the
border, where the whole army was encamped. They were alone in the tent except
for the champion Nandran ap Roth. Dinner was scant, bread and cheese brought
up hastily from Cruachan. Maga had expected to be half way to Ardmachan by
now, living off the land.

“They waited, hidden in the woods until the army of Connat and its allies
advanced onto the soil of Oriel. Then we heard cries, letting us know that the
curse had fallen on the waiting folk of Oriel. But even as we rejoiced, Atha and
her companions fired their deadly slingshots and some of our champions fell to
the ground. Others had to stop as chariots up ahead collapsed as their horses

stumbled, legs broken. Then Atha came out in her chariot, with a charioteer. I
asked her why she was there fighting us, when we had no quarrel with the Isles.
She said she was married to Darag. I asked about her charioteer and companions.
She laughed and said that every bride may bring her handmaidens from home.
She said she had brought twelve handmaidens, all chosen for such fine womanly
skills as she had thought she might have need of in Oriel.” Allel sounded almost
admiring. Nandran had a smile on his face too. Mingor shook his head a little.
Elenn didn’t see what was so good about it.

“What did you do then?” she asked.

“Oh, she waited in the middle of the road and called out for honourable single
combats, one against one as we had promised ap Fathag. My nephew Bran
demanded the honour of fighting her, which I granted. He went forward to fight
her, and died almost at once, a spear through his heart.” Allel paused. “Then a
champion of Muin came forward and fought her, a woman called Samar ap
Ardan, one of the war-leaders, very experienced with many heads on her chariot,
but old for a champion, with grey in her hair. They fought for quite a while before
Atha killed her. This was discouraging for the rest of our champions. Atha has a
formidable reputation. Nobody was pressing to come forward to fight against her.
I decided to leave half the army there to keep her there and take the others to the
other road.”

“Dithering,” Maga had snapped. “Showing weakness.”

“It should have worked,” Allel said, mildly. “We went on until we

reached the ford on the other road. On the far side of it were some folk of Oriel,
standing beside the road looking very weak and unhappy, and in front of them
was Darag, fit and well, in his chariot. His charioteer was disguised, a scarf over
his face. There was no way of telling who he was, even by the way he moved or
stood. He did not speak.”

Emer opened her mouth, but closed it again when her father gave her a stem
look. Elenn wondered who it could be and why they would need a disguise.

“We were astonished to see Darag, much more than Atha. Atha belonged to the
Isles when the curse was spoken, and maybe even now. But Darag is
unquestionably one of the fighting folk of Oriel. I asked him why he was here and
not laid low. He answered that it seemed he had his father to thank for that,
whoever his father might be.”

“Who is his father?” Nandran asked.

“Nobody knows,” Maga said. “His mother was unmarried, and he was bom at
the feast of the Mother. Nobody ever knew Dechtir to care about any man except
her brother Conary.”

Elenn didn’t want to say anything, she especially didn’t want to make Maga
angry, but she couldn’t help remembering Darag’s face when he’d talked to her at

the Feast of Bel last year. “Everyone knows the gods go to the festivals
sometimes,” she said, quietly. “If he’s not been struck down it’s more likely
because his father is a god than anything unnatural.”

“Incest is hateful to the gods,” Nandran agreed. He looked at Elenn
worshipfully. She smiled at him. He was only two years older than Mingor, but
already he was acknowledged the greatest champion in Cruachan. He would have
been handsome if it hadn’t been for his scars. A few years ago she used to think
he was wonderful. It was nice that he looked at her like that even though she must
look a mess. She still had her hair straggling loose around her face from the
funeral.

“Go on,” Maga directed Allel.

“Darag demanded single combats, exactly as Atha had. Twelve men went
against him before the light went, twelve champions, and all of them he killed or
wounded. Only one of them struck him, wounding him in the upper thigh. He
recovered from it rapidly.”

“So what tomorrow?” Mingor asked.

“The same,” Allel said.

“The same except that someone will kill Darag or Atha and the army will move
forward as we planned,” Maga said, impatiently.

“Atha is a famous warrior in the prime of her life,” Allel said. “Darag is young
and relatively untried, but he did remarkably well today. Even though they are
fighting alone against us all, we must fight them one at a time, so it might not be
as easy as you think to get past them.”

“I have heard that Darag once played hurley alone against all of the children of
Ardmachan,” Mingor said.

Maga frowned at him. “We have such a large army,” she said. “Some champion
will bring them down. Let us send champions against both of them until one of
them falls.”

Allel looked at Nandran, who looked away. Elenn waited for him to say that he
would kill Atha. She hoped it would be Atha, who was loud and rude and thought
herself better than everyone else. She liked Darag. She realised abruptly that war
was horrible when it came to killing people. She remembered the Ward, the vow
that Maga had renewed only yesterday. How could you have strife without
bitterness if you were killing people, one against another? She wanted Connat to
win, of course, but her cousin Bran was dead. Dead, never again to laugh and flirt
with her or try to get her to go for walks with him outside the dun. Even now his
soul would be moving through the underworld, giving back his life, ready to come
out and be reborn. He’d have to go through childhood again somewhere else, as
someone else. It would be twenty years before he was again as old and wise as he
had been this morning. He would never again be Bran of Cruachan, or know that

he had been. His soul was passing through the underworld and all his memories
were being given back with his name. Poor Bran. Or worse, maybe Atha had
taken his head and one of his souls would live on trapped inside it as one of her
protectors. Either way was terribly sad. She wondered suddenly how Darag felt.
Atha had killed people before, but Darag hadn’t.

Nandran had still not said anything, and the silence was becoming awkward.
“What’s it like to kill people?” she asked. Everyone turned to stare at her.
Nandran looked embarrassed. Maga looked curious. Allel looked tired.

“Easier than you would think,” Emer said. “Like in practice, only doing it for
real.”

“I didn’t mean that,” she said, not able to say what she meant, knowing it was a
childish question, an unanswerable question, something she shouldn’t have said.
Maybe it was even one of the things that had been explained sometime when she
had been sitting dreaming with her ears turned off. She struggled to explain. “I
was thinking about Bran, so alive this morning, dead now. What it is to do that to
someone.”

“When you’re in battle, you know they’d do it to you, unless you do it first,”
Emer said.

“And there’s usually no time to think anyway,” Mingor said. “That’s what
Emer means about it being like practice. You know what to do, you do it, you
don’t think. Especially you don’t think about that sort of thing, that they are alive
and so are you, and soon one of you will be dead, goodbye to everyone, down into
the dark and everything to learn again.”

“Did Atha take his head?” she asked, wanting to know now.

“Yes,” Allel said.

“I took the head of the man I killed at Edar,” Emer said. “It is protecting
Conal’s chariot even now. His family wanted to ransom it, but I wouldn’t.”

“I don’t know how you could,” Elenn said.

“Your older daughter is as gentle as she is beautiful,” Nandran said to Allel. “If
you will let me marry her I will kill Darag for you.”

Elenn went cold all through. She liked Nandran. But she loved Ferdia. Surely
Maga wouldn’t agree, surely she couldn’t. She had told Conal Elenn could not
marry before she had taken up arms. But she had been negotiating shadow
marriage alliances all spring.

Allel looked at Maga uncertainly.

“Do we need to bargain with our champions now?” Maga asked, looking down
her nose.

“Darag killed twelve of your champions today,” Nandran said. “People fight
because they want to win. Let me put it the other way around, if I kill Darag and
open the road to Oriel as an offering to lay at her feet, might I hope to marry your

daughter?” He smiled shyly at Elenn as if it were all agreed between them and
they had only to convince her parents. She smiled back, chilled at heart but unable
to say anything.

“Kill Darag, and I will entertain your suit,” Maga said.

Elenn did not faint. She continued to sit and smile for the whole evening. She
went to bed, keeping Beauty with her in the tent, which wasn’t allowed now that
Beauty was bigger. She knew Emer would not complain about it. She hardly slept
all night, even with the comfort of Beauty’s presence. She didn’t know what to
think. She tried to console herself. Marrying Nandran was not such a terrible
thing, after all. She liked him. She could stay at home. But in the dark hours she
realised that this was not what she wanted. She wanted to leave Cruachan, to get
away from Maga.

When she did fall asleep her dreams were confused nightmares. She kissed
Nandran before he got into his chariot, boasting he would kill Darag and marry
her. She kissed his cold lips when they brought his body back. He became an
empty armour coat, which she feared and loathed, but Maga laughed when she
saw it. She was hunting through a press of people on the top of Ardmachan
looking for Ferdia. At last she saw him through the crowd, but when she pushed
her way to him she found that he was hollowed out from within, and there was
nothing inside his skin.

She woke to find it still dark. Emer was asleep and snoring gently. She dressed
quietly in the darkness. Beauty was asleep too, but woke quickly when Elenn
roused her, making hardly any protest, her tail thumping enthusiastically. They
crawled out of the tent. It was not long before dawn. A chilly wind was blowing,
she clutched her cloak around her. People were sleeping everywhere, in tents or
wrapped in cloaks, but nobody else seemed to be awake. She could walk away,
pick her way between the sleeping champions, walk right away from Nandran and
Maga and everyone. Emer would be so surprised when she woke up. But where
would she go? Where was there a place for her in the world?

Beauty pushed her nose into Elenn’ s hand. She hardly had to jump up at all
now, she had grown so much. She was half her full size already. Elenn stroked her
head absently, staring into the darkness. There wasn’t anywhere to go, nowhere
out in the wide world for a princess and her dog. Worse, Maga didn’t mean well
for her. She couldn’t be trusted. Maga always said she knew best, and Elenn had
believed it, or tried to believe it. Maga loved her, of course she did. She pulled
Beauty’s ears, making the dog wriggle with delight. She couldn’t say no to Maga,
she knew she couldn’t. It was bad enough for Maga that Emer was defying her all
the time since they came home. Elenn had to do what she said. But that meant she
was in Maga’s power, for good or ill. Maga had said to Conal that a champion
was a small gain to her for the loss of a daughter, which made it seem as if to

Maga her daughters were something to be spent. She didn’t want to be spent for
her mother’s goals.

She wondered if she could go out into the night and find Darag and persuade
him to make peace. She had no sooner thought it than she knew how ridiculous it
was. He hadn’t sought this war. Maga had. Her mother and father and everyone
else thought it was a wonderful idea. They could stop it if they changed their
minds, but Darag couldn’t. They had talked about the wealth of Oriel, the gold
and the weapons and the real wealth of course, the cows and the land. Darag was
only defending his home.

The sky was growing a little paler. Day was coming. Maga never changed her
mind once she had really made it up. There was nowhere to go, and besides her
mother needed her. She should go back to the tent and sleep so that she would not
look terrible when she waved the army off again in the real morning. She kept
telling herself this, but she didn’t move, just stood there with Beauty as if she
thought something was going to change.

3. (Emer)

The streaming clouds in the western sky were red-lit as the sun slipped down
between them. On the other side of the stream Darag was taking an ax to the
throat of Trivan ap Cunegan, whose mother was Allel’s charioteer Iross. Maga
had never liked Trivan. For once she would be pleased at another day’s delay,
assuming Atha had held her road.

Emer felt as if she had been beaten all over. She could hardly drag herself out
of the chariot to stretch. She was covered in bruises and healed wounds. The grass
under the trees looked temptingly soft. She could have flung herself down on it
and slept for three days without waking. She stretched, loosening her muscles, but
the ache went bone-deep.

She was sickened by the whole thing. She had not thought what it would mean
to be killing her friends and kinsfolk, or rather helping Darag to kill them. Trivan
had fought Atha on the second day and survived, badly wounded. As soon as she
was fully recovered she had come against Darag, wanting the glory. The cold
comfort in seeing Trivan dead was knowing that at least one of the champions
who had come against them today had not done it dreaming of Elenn. Far too
many of them seemed to have taken up the cult of Elenn’ s perfection and longed
to die for her or win her. There was something unwholesome about it, especially
the delight Maga took in it.

She wished she could have warned Trivan how good Darag was. Trivan was
ten years older than Emer. She had been a fine hurley player. Emer had always
been a little in awe of her. She had spoken up against Maga in council. She was
one of the Royal Kin of Connat. Her grandfather was Allel’s father’s brother, she
was a cousin. If Emer had killed her it would have been kinmurder. All she had
done was hold the horses steady; Darag had killed her with his first thrown spear.
In any normal situation, even if they had been fighting on different sides of a
battle, she wouldn’t have gone against her cousin.

Darag smiled up at Emer as he waded back across the stream. The Oriel side
was higher than the Connat side, and fringed by willow trees. This was to their
advantage when they were waiting as it gave them shade and some relief from the
flies. He climbed out up the side of the ford. “You look tired. I wouldn’t wonder if
we feel as bad as everyone else tonight, and nobody is envious of us.”

She smiled back, feebly. “I can’t come back with you now, there’s no time,”
she said.

Darag glanced at the sun and then over at the massed champions of Connat,
who were clearly milling about preparing to go back to camp. Trivan’s charioteer

was carrying her headless body towards Allel.

“She was the last challenge of the day,” he said, swinging Trivan’s head by its
hair. “You could spare an hour. It cheers Conal so much to see you.”

Emer couldn’t say that it didn’t cheer her to see him, though it was the truth.
She could never have imagined strong Conal struck down and made feeble,
groaning in pain, hardly able to stand. Still less would she have imagined her own
squeamishness. She could bear battle and death, but sickness and pain were
different, especially Conal’ s pain which she could do nothing to help. Seeing him
on the other nights had been terrible. His face was drawn and lined and every so
often he drew in his breath as he endured another pain. He said it felt like being
knifed in the belly, but ran through him like cramps. The whole host of Oriel was
in the same state. Finca seemed to take it best of all of them, hardly wincing even
when the pain was so bad she had to hold on to a tree in order to stand up. Emer
didn’t want to see them again. Today had been bad enough already. Until she
could see Conal restored to himself it was unendurably painful to see him at all.

“They will miss me at the camp if 1 don’t hurry back,” she said, although there
had been no sign so far that they had missed her.

“I do really appreciate your doing this,” Darag said. “I know Conal does, and
Conary too. All of Oriel.”

“All of Oriel doesn’t know, and needn’t if all goes well. Don’t thank me yet,”
Emer said, looking resolutely away from the head in his hand. She was glad of the
scarf over her face, hiding her expression. Sometimes, fighting with him, free
from the thought of having to marry him, she could almost like Darag. Other
times he still made her skin crawl. He knew who Trivan was, he knew she was
Emer’s cousin, but still he stood there, swinging her head as if she were nothing
more to either of them than another guardian for the chariot. It had plenty of them
already, too many of them people she had liked.

“We’ve got through three days,” Darag said. “Ap Carbad said we’d never do
that. Maybe it will end tonight. But anyway, I’ll see you here in the morning?”

“Of course,” she said. She had promised Conal she would do it, even if she had
not thought what it meant to belong to both sides at once. They would put her
name in the lists as a traitor if this were ever known. If the curse were over
tomorrow, she would hear it from Darag. She did not believe it would be. Some
part of her did not believe it would ever be over. Life would keep this pattern,
killing her own people day after day, and she would never have enough rest.

She spat on the ground and called on the Wise Lady’s help against self-pity as
she came under the shade of the trees. She changed out of her armour, leaving it
there for Darag to retrieve for cleaning later. At least there were plenty of hale
people to do that. She tucked the scarf inside her helmet. Then she dressed in the
clothes she had left bundled up that morning. She made her way through the trees

downstream to the other crossing point she had found lower down.

When she slipped into their tent, Elenn was combing her hair. Beauty was
sitting at her feet. They both turned to look at Emer as she came in. “Where have
you been?” Elenn asked.

“Around,” Emer said, lying down on the comfortable mound of heather that
was her bed. She didn’t need to change her clothes, they had hardly been worn.
“Do I have time for a nap before dinner?”

“No!” Elenn sounded impatient. “Get the leaves out of your hair. If you’ve
been in the woods all day you won’t have heard, but can’t you even see what I’m
wearing?”

Emer opened her eyes and looked. Elenn’s overdress was one of Maga’s, a very
pale yellow. On her shoulders she was settling a tightly woven shawl, the warp
red and the weft yellow. The effect was bridal orange.

“She’s letting you marry Ferdia?” Emer asked, bouncing up off the bed and
feeling the stiffness in all her bones.

Elenn’s face closed up like a flower at sunset. “No. Neither Ferdia nor Cethern
have asked. A new alliance.”

“I didn’t think she’d go as far as marriage unless someone actually opened the
road into Oriel,” Emer said, then regretted it at once as the calm mask of her
sister’s face cracked and for a moment she saw the anguish beneath.

“Neither did I,” said Elenn, and her voice had tears not far behind it. She
swallowed. “But Firbaith ap Gren has come, come by sea. Maga thinks Atha will
have to withdraw if her brother tells her to.”

“That’s nonsense,” Emer said. “I met Firbaith when I was in the Isles. I got the
feeling he’d make a fine king one day, because unlike Atha he can do things other
than fight. He’ll probably make you an excellent husband, though I suppose he
must be nearly thirty. But the thought that Atha would listen to him, or to anyone,
is nonsense.”

“But it’s Mother’s kind of nonsense,” Elenn said, picking up the comb again.
“It is an alliance, and of the kind she most wants. At least I’ll get away.”

“And it means she’ll have to stop promising you to people as a sort of prize for
killing Darag,” Emer said.

Elenn ran the comb through her hair, though it was smooth and shining already.
“Firbaith has promised her that as well as the alliance he will open a road into
Oriel. If Atha won’t obey, that means he’ll have to fight Darag.”

“How awful for Darag to have to kill his wife’s brother,” Emer said, without
thinking, Trivan’s face in her mind, dangling by the hair from Darag’s hand.

“You might consider that he could win,” Elenn said, flinging the comb down.
Beauty whined and put her nose in Elenn’s lap. “Do you thi nk I like the thought
of being married to someone who is about to die?” she asked more quietly.

“Yes, of course he could win,” Emer said, quickly. “He’s not as noted a warrior
as Atha, but Atha would tend to overshadow anyone. Firbaith has a good
reputation.” She was surprised that he’d agreed to anything so silly as opening a
road, his reputation was for good sense. Darag was so terribly good, almost
inhumanly good. Even though she had practised near him and seen him in
contests all the last year, it was only now that she was driving his chariot she saw
how good he was. It would be disloyal to think that he was better than Conal. But
he was awfully good, and it seemed to come to him so easily. No wonder Conal
resented it.

She pulled the leaves out of her hair, looking at her sister thoughtfully. Maybe,
though she’d never say it, Elenn would be glad if Darag killed Firbaith, so she
could marry Ferdia. But she didn’t think so. Elenn’ s sense of duty was much
stronger than that. Besides, Firbaith was a handsome man, and much more
sensible than Ferdia. She had never been able to understand how it was that her
sister had got so besotted with the sulky idiot in the first place.

Elenn tutted at Emer and put on the pearl circlet Orlam had given her. It looked
magnificent. “It’s almost time,” she said. “Your hair will do.”

“Time for the funerals?” Emer asked. “Darag killed Trivan, did you know?”

“Nobody told me, but somebody would have told me if she’d managed to kill
him and open the road, so I suppose I knew. And right after the funerals comes
the wedding.”

“The actual wedding?” Emer was shocked. “Now? Tonight? Not just a
betrothal?”

“Would I wear the shawl for a betrothal?” Elenn asked, smoothing it on her
shoulders. The bridal colour did not suit her as much as the colours she normally
wore.

“People often do. Betrothal is a sacrament too.”

“Well anyway, Firbaith wanted the real wedding tonight. After all, Atha is
married to Darag. It’ll give him moral authority talking to her.” Elenn was clearly
repeating something she’d been told. She stood up, stooping because of the tent,
and Emer realised that she was shaking a little. Beauty stood too and paced beside
her mistress.

“It’ll be all right,” Emer said, clumsily.

Elenn put her hand out to Beauty, who licked it. She fussed at the dog, pulling
her ears, not looking at Emer as she spoke. “I keep wishing Orlam could be here,”
she said. “I wanted to ask — have you and Conal — ” she hesitated. “I mean, I’ve
never — ” she began, and trailed off again.

Emer felt like an old woman, immensely older than her sister, decades and
centuries older. “Yes we have,” she said. She stopped and looked for words for
something which was mostly a wordless delight. “It’s just as good as everyone

says. It’s a bit awkward at first, but then it’s lovely. You just need to pay attention
to how things feel and not be afraid. You think about making him feel good — and
don’t worry about asking if you’re not sure. Then making you feel good is up to
him. Most likely Firbaith knows all about it and can show you.”

Elenn still wasn’t looking up. “Thank you. That is a help. Ap Fial blessed my
womb and told me about childbearing, but 1 didn’t like to ask about that.”

“What did he tell you about childbearing?” Emer asked, suddenly intensely
curious. “Eve always wanted to know.”

Now Elenn looked up, her beautiful face sealed shut. “It’s a mystery of the
Mother,” she said. “The sun is nearly down. We should go.”

Emer followed her sister to the funeral pyres. They were in the same place they
had been the other nights, just outside the camp. She tried to thi nk of the fallen,
but repetition had made the ceremony seem almost routine. Her body was
exhausted but her mind could not be quiet, even as they sang the Hymn of Return
it kept darting off to Conal, stricken, to love and death and the nature of betrayal.
Afterwards ap Fial and their parents came over to them. Allel thrust a bough of
blackthorn into Emer’s arms. It was heavy with pink blossom, the heady scent
hung on the air. He was carrying birch and Maga silver fir. “Where have you been
all day?” Maga asked.

“Emer ap Allel has been helping weave the gods’ will,” ap Fial said, almost
before Emer could wonder how to answer. Ap Fial frowned at Maga and drew his
shawl tight around him.

“Well you’ll have to manage without her tomorrow,” Maga said. “I need her.”
“She must help daily while we stay here,” ap Fial said, still looking very severe.
“Without her we would all be less than we could be.”

Allel patted Maga’s shoulder warningly. Maga looked as if she wanted to say
more, and even question the priest. She looked angrily around. “The bridegroom
is waiting,” she said.

Emer went through her part in the ceremony as if in a dream. If she was doing
the gods’ will, then what could the gods possibly want? Beastmother had struck
Oriel down. It didn’t make sense. She had thought she was thwarting the gods.
But then, she hadn’t thought Maga would notice she was missing. As for ap Fial,
how did he know? Oracle priests could know anything, but did that mean she did
this in other worlds? And was he betraying Connat in protecting her? The oracle
priests had their own loyalty, to the gods and the worlds, but he belonged to
Connat as Inis belonged to Oriel. She threw down her branch an instant after she
should have but Firbaith trod it down just as he should. It was a terribly rushed
wedding, but all the omens were good, and at least Elenn would not be stuck here
with Maga. If Emer was in Oriel she could go to the Isles and visit sometimes,
and Elenn and Firbaith would be bound to visit Atha and Darag. Emer could not

make these thoughts more than empty wisps of plans which she knew would
never come to be even as Firbaith kissed Elenn. He was as good as dead already,
whether he knew it or not.

The feast was held out of doors around the campfires in the dusk. It was like a
festival, everyone eating in sight of everyone else, except those who were part of
bloodfeuds who ate carefully apart, as always. Bloodfeuds were suspended for
festivals so anyone could eat with anyone.

Emer ate with her parents, Elenn and Firbaith, and Lew ap Ross of Anlar. She
had no idea why Maga had singled him out for attention, but was glad to see him,
he seemed almost like an ally. His smile reminded her of Conal. They talked for a
while of the contest and the journey she had made with the three princes of Oriel.
She longed to ask him why he had abandoned his longstanding alliance with
Oriel, but dared not. Maga seemed pleased Emer was entertaining Lew and spoke
mostly to Firbaith. Emer was glad to be overlooked again. She didn’t want to have
to lie about what she had been doing all day.

Firbaith and Elenn shared the traditional loaf, but everyone else ate griddies hot
from the campfires. Maga had spared one of her herd for the feast, giving Firbaith
the champion’s portion. The meat was stringy and limited. Emer heard some
muttered complaints from the champions. At least there was plenty of ale, and
everyone drank deep. There was much laughter. Although it was war and their
friends were dying, there had been no great battles. The host seemed ready to be
amused after three days waiting about achieving nothing. Every moth that
blundered into the fire aroused laughter, every joke made people roar. Even those
pining for love of Elenn, or saying they were, seemed to thi nk Firbaith a fair
match for her. Ferdia seemed to be drinking sparingly, but cheerfully enough as
far as Emer could tell. People were talking as if it were a settled fact that the road
would open tomorrow.

During the singing, Elenn leaned close to whisper to Emer. “Sisterly secrets!”
bellowed Firbaith, laughing and downing another cup of ale.

Lew smiled. “Don’t they make a pretty picture heads together like that?”

Emer felt apprehensive. What could Elenn have to ask now?

“Will you look after Beauty tonight?” Elenn asked urgently. “She’s used to
sleeping with me, and she might come and look for me. And if I tie her up, she’ll
howl. There aren’t any other dogs here or I’d leave her with a kennel master.
She’s used to you. She won’t mind.”

Emer looked down at the hound. Beauty was more than half grown now, not a
puppy any more. She liked dogs well enough, in their place, out hunting. “Of
course I will,” she said. Elenn knelt and hugged the dog, whispering in her ear as
she had whispered in Emer’s. When she rose she had tears in her eyes. They were
gone before she turned to the others again.

Then Elenn and Firbaith went off to the specially prepared tent, everyone
calling out traditional bawdy blessings on the marriage bed. It occurred to Emer
that this was probably the first wedding she had ever been to where the bride and
groom really were consummating not just their fertility but their relationship.
Some of the jokes were ones usually heard at betrothals. Harps and drums struck
up tunes and half the camp began to dance. Emer kept her hand on Beauty’s neck,
holding her from going after her mistress. She drew the dog with her through the
crowds towards her tent and her bed.

Maga came up to her as she left the circle of the firelight. There was a
tremendous noise from the music and the dancing but nobody was paying them
any attention. “That went well,” she said. Emer smiled her agreement.
“Tomorrow, I shall betroth you to Lew ap Ross of Anlar.”

Emer stood still for a moment, chilled through. Then hot anger warmed her.
“You will not,” she said. “Have you forgotten what I said to you when I came
back from Muin? Have you forgotten all I have said to you since?”

“Conal is a fool and has taken so long considering that it amounts to refusing
my offer,” Maga said. “I have had enough of your obstinacy. Lew is an allied
king. He likes the look of you, and has done so since he first saw you. You were
talking to him happily at dinner, so it is clear you do not dislike him. He wants a
wife who will guide him and make him a strong alliance, he has said as much to
me. As for you, you will be a queen immediately. What more could you want?”
Emer remembered Anlar, the cobwebs in the hall and the dogs lying down
among the champions. She thought of Lew, good-hearted but nearly forty years
old and weak-willed. “While Conal the Victor lives, I will never marry anyone
else,” she said.

“He won’t live very long once we open a road to Oriel,” Maga said, and smiled.
“If you hear news he is dead, talk to me of your matchmaking,” Emer said.
“You cannot make me marry against my will.”

Maga looked at her impatiently. “What will you do?” she asked. “Kill yourself
like a cowardly Vincan and set yourself against the pattern the gods have woven
for your life? ‘Her father brought bold Drusan to her bed, but there they found fair
Elenn lying dead,”’ she sang. Beauty raised her hackles and growled at Maga.
“Life is not for throwing away like that.”

Emer was ready to fly out against her mother, to rail and shout and object
again. As she drew herself up to do it, she felt all the aches of the day again. “I am
too tired for this nonsense,” she said, evenly. “I have said everything I am going
to say about this many times already. I told you I am not your property.”

“I gave you life,” Maga said. “I gave you breath itself. And no thanks, just
ingratitude. I am your mother and your king and you owe me obedience.”

“There’s more to being a mother than that, or a king either,” Emer said. Then

while Maga stood speechless she walked on towards her bed, taking her sister’s
dog with her.

4. (Ferdia)

Just as Ferdia was about to make his second cast at the target, a hush spread
among the other young warriors who were practising with him. He threw, making
his neck shot, then turned to see. Maga was stepping down from a chariot close
behind him. She was wearing all her finery, gold tores and armrings, and brooches
set with pearls, and long chains of amber. She smiled at him, but did not speak,
waiting politely for him to throw his third spear. He turned away from her, took a
calming breath, and threw. The spear flew straight for the heart of the target and
his companions stamped their feet in praise. His face heated as he turned back
towards them.

“Well thrown, son of Cethern,” Maga said. “I am going to Cruachan with the
carts to bring back ale and food for feasting. Will you come with me to drive my
chariot and protect me from dangers we might encounter on the way?”

Ferdia just looked at her for a moment. Who would attack Maga’s chariot,
when all the fighting folk of Oriel were laid low by a curse and everyone else in
the island was allied to Connat? And he knew she could drive a chariot herself.
She had just driven it across the camp after all. Or, if she had wanted a champion
to go with her, the whole might of Connat was drawn up here with nothing to do.
After seven days of it they were becoming so restless they were beginning to fight
among themselves. All the same, however ridiculous her request was, he could
not in courtesy refuse her. Besides, everyone was listening. “I will come with you,
for what little I might do,” he said, and bowed.

Maga narrowed her eyes. “I am sure you could do great deeds if you were
called upon to do so,” she said, and bowed in return. Her gold flashed as it caught
the sun when she straightened. She turned and mounted the chariot, holding the
reins to Ferdia. He took them and climbed in beside her. The looks the others gave
him were envious. He would gladly have changed places with any of them.

The ponies, both dusky black mares that looked as if they had no staying
power, were lively and very ready to be off. They drove in silence until they were
out of the camp. Ferdia had to concentrate on steering wide of tents and groups of
people running about. Most of them seemed to be sharpening weapons or
practising, but there were big groups gathered around people telling stories.
Nobody seemed to want to move out of his way. He was glad when they were past
the press of people. The carts were waiting, drawn up on the road to Cruachan
under a stand of alders. There seemed to be a great number of them.

“We will lead the way,” Maga said, waving to the carters. “Go slowly, and let
them stay only a little way behind. We are here for their protection.”

There was nobody now to hear anything Ferdia said. “What are we to protect
them from?” Ferdia asked.

Maga looked at him and smiled, a smile he did not at all like. “Mostly from
their own fears,” she said. “But we have taken up arms, and long ago I made a law
that in time of war all supply carts will be accompanied by a chariot. It has many
times saved food that we needed from being taken by the enemy.”

“This is not war,” Ferdia said, almost before he could think what he was saying.

“It is most like war,” Maga said.

Ferdia thought it wisest not to reply to this at all. His father kept the distinction
very clear.

They drove on slowly for a little while. They passed farmhouses and tilled
fields and here and there a wooded spinney. The land was much like Ferdia was
used to in Lagin. It would have been a pleasant drive, except that he was very
aware that Maga was watching him.

“You are a fine young champion,” Maga said, after a while.

“Thank you,” Ferdia replied, horribly embarrassed.

“It seems to me that you would do well against one of the Keepers of the
Roads. You throw your spear straight, even when you have been surprised. You
are young and strong and well trained. Yet you have not gone against them. Why
is that?”

Ferdia stared between the horses’ ears. She should not have asked. He could not
say that he had no desire to die. “Darag is my foster brother,” he said. “It would
be the greatest impiety to fight him.”

“Oh yes, that little stay in Ardmachan from which we all hoped for so much
and yet gained so little,” Maga said, her voice very gentle. “I was against it from
the start, but allowed Allel to overrule me. If Darag is your foster brother, you
must know him well.”

“Very well indeed.” The road was rising to go over a little hill, and a dark cloud
covered the sun.

“We all know he is good with a spear, but so little else about him.” Maga
hesitated as if she wanted Ferdia to say something.

“I can tell you what he is like, but you met him when he came to Cruachan in
the contests after Amagien’s Feast,” Ferdia said.

“That was for such a short while, and besides, he was on the hill or asleep for
most of the time. And such strange things he fought, too, three headed dogs,
headless ogres. Is it true that his father is a god?”

“I have heard it said,” Ferdia said, cautiously. “It would explain how it is that
the curse has not laid him down.”

“Such a strange curse,” Maga said. “And who knows how long it will last? But
if he is the son of a god, which god would it be, do you think? Or has he not

confided that even to his foster brother?”

“He doesn’t know,” Ferdia said. “Many of the gods come to the festivals, it is
said.”

A soft rain started to fall. The first drops of it sent up a fresh green smell from
the dust of the road. Maga drew up a fold of her overdress over her head. “How
curious that the god should protect him without revealing himself.”

“I don’t know if he’s protecting him,” Ferdia protested. “It could just happen
that way, because of who his father is.”

“If his father didn’t take notice, he wouldn’t have seen the three-headed dog,”
Maga said, as if she were perfectly sure, as if the gods took her into their
confidence about such things. “No, he must know and be keeping it to himself.”

Ferdia thought about what Darag had said about the strangeness. He was sure
he had been telling the truth. He didn’t want to say that to Maga. He just shook his
head, feeling the dampness of his hair as he did.

“Also, some divinity must be protecting him both from the curse and from our
spears, and guiding his spears to kill our champions,” Maga went on, in the same
tone.

“He doesn’t need his spears guided by the gods,” Ferdia said. “He is
uncommonly good, fast and accurate with good judgement as well as a good eye.”

“I begin to understand why you don’t want to fight him,” Maga said.

Ferdia felt heat rising in his cheeks. “He is my foster brother,” he repeated, and
turned his face away from Maga. The rain was heavier, but he welcomed it now.
He realised he had unintentionally put on a burst of speed, and slowed carefully,
so the carts could keep up.

“Do you think my daughter Elenn beautiful?” Maga asked. Her voice was soft
and confiding now.

Ferdia wondered how many men she had beguiled to their deaths with that
question. Four at least, whom Elenn had married, one every night for the last four
nights. Nobody would ever know how many others had gone to death hoping to
clear the road and win Elenn’ s fabled starry eyes and midnight hair. “Very
beautiful,” he said. “One of the three most beautiful women of the Island of Tir
Isamagiri, as the poet has it.” Anything else would have been rude. Besides,
nobody could deny that Elenn was beautiful.

“And do you not desire to win her for yourself? She loves you already.”

That wretched dog, he thought at once. He was not going to die for a foolish
mistake like that. Then he realised Maga could be lying, could say that to all the
men as well as asking about Elenn’s beauty. “My father has different marriage
plans for me,” he said, cautiously.

“And you are such a dutiful son you would give up your own desires? Lagin is
allied to Connat. A closer alliance would please Cethem now, whatever he said

before. Besides, he is sentimental. He would put your happiness before
expediency.”

Ferdia was by no means as confident of that as Maga seemed to be. But in any
case, it wasn’t the point and she clearly wanted to force the issue. He could not
get away. Cruachan was not yet in sight. The land seemed green and gentle, all
hard edges softened by the rain and low cloud. “I do not want to marry your
daughter,” he said.

Maga was not smiling now. Her eyes were very bright as she peered out
beneath the fold of cloth. “You do not? What a strange man you are, Ferdia ap
Cethem. You do not want Elenn, when all the other champions of the island want
her. You will not fight Darag because he is your foster brother. As for Atha you
doubtless have some equally strong but undisclosed tie that prevents you from
fighting her?”

He could say nothing. He drove on, staring forward at the endless road, up and
down, the fields, the green and dripping trees.

“Has the Great Cat taken your tongue?” Maga asked at last. “No ties to Atha?”

“No,” he admitted.

“Then why would a bold young man like you refuse to go against her?”

“You cannot make me go to my death for nothing,” he said, finding words at
last. “Atha is the greatest champion of our age. I took up arms only a year ago. I
am willing to fight in battle, eager. But going against Atha would be certain death.
It would clear no roads for you, and leave my family grieved to no gain.”

“There are worse things than death,” Maga said. Incredibly, she was smiling
again. “Do you know ap Dair, the poet? He is in the camp.”

Ferdia did know him. He found him annoying. He had been the one to negotiate
Cethem’ s alliance with Maga, against all Ferdia’ s advice. He kept bringing
Maga’s messages, and when Ferdia reproached him with mnning her errands he
said that mnning Maga’s errands was inspiring. He said nobody could ever have
imagined this war and poets would be writing about it for generations. He was
protected, as a poet, nobody could kill him and so he did not fight. He talked and
laughed as much as someone who had the right to boast of his deeds. “I know
him,” Ferdia admitted.

Maga put a finger on Ferdia’ s chin, forcing his head up. “Look at the road,
young champion,” she advised. The worst of this was that despite her
impertinence she was right, it was dangerous not to pay attention, especially now
the road was slippery in the rain.

“Sorry,” he said, between gritted teeth.

“Ap Dair will make whatever song I tell him,” Maga said. “If I tell him you are
a coward, he will sing that. If I tell him you gave a pledge to Elenn and then
refused her love, he will find that material for a fine song. It will not kill you, but

he is a poet of renown. You will hear it all your life, and every day you do not
hear it you will hear in every silence the certainty that people have just stopped
singing it because you came along.”

“How can you so insult my honour?” Ferdia asked, furious.

Maga laughed, throwing back her head and letting the fold of cloth fall so that
her hair was free in the rain. “You cannot speak of honour,” she said. “You are a
coward and a pledge-breaker. It is nothing but the truth.”

“What do you want from me?” Ferdia wondered if he could possibly kill Maga
right now and say they had been attacked by bandits, or even that she had been
struck by lightning. Then he remembered the carts, following along behind. They
were private, but in plain sight. Maga knew what she was doing. She was always
so very clever. Ferdia knew he could never hope to outsmart her.

“I want you to fight Darag and clear a way into Connat for me. The gods are
protecting Darag. Putting great champions against him seems to be doing nothing
but killing the champions. Maybe if he saw his friend and bedmate before his
spear he would hesitate and let you kill him. Or if not, maybe if he kills his foster
brother the gods will take their hand away from him afterwards, for the impiety of
the act.”

It took Ferdia a moment to understand what she had said. “You are a fine one to
speak to me of honour,” he said.

Maga smiled. “Neither of us have honour, so we can understand each other,”
she said.

“Then why don’t you send troops through the woods and leave them guarding
the roads for nothing?” Ferdia asked. “It is only honour that constrains you to go
against them one at a time on the roads.”

“/ am not going against them,” Maga said. “You are. And that is why I cannot.
Honour is all in appearance. Inis ap Fathag was very clever when he made me
promise before everyone that I would not go around unguarded roads. If I did,
everyone would know I had no honour — and that would be if I could find enough
people who would follow me without honour, which is doubtful. You might, little
champion, but would your father? There are not enough of my folk who would,
unless I were to make them very drunk, and maybe not even then. They fear the
Ban. I cannot control Rathadun, much as I would like to.”

Ferdia could not suppress a gasp of horror at the very idea. It seemed
blasphemous even to think of controlling Rathadun of the Kings. He looked at
Maga, at her gold and jewels and her damp hair. There was nothing to show of the
horrors inside her except a gleam in her dark eyes. If she could think these things,
who else might? “How many people are like you?” he asked, hardly knowing how
he dared ask.

“Shocked, little champion?” she asked.

“Yes,” he said, baldly. “I meant how many people are like you and set the show
of honour above the real thing?”

“You yourself are like me in that, Ferdia ap Cethem,” Maga said. “And so you
will go out and fight to open the road for me.”

She was right, he thought. He had no honour. He had taken the gift from the
dog-woman and given it to Elenn. He was afraid to fight Atha. It would be better
to die and take the name of honour down into the dark with him than to live with
Maga and ap Dair singing satires about him. “I will fight,” he said. They came
around the curve of the hill of Cruachan as he said it, and he saw the gates across
the road no great way before him.

“Good. Then the supplies we will take back to the camp now will be for your
wedding feast tonight.”

“No,” Ferdia said, determined. “It seems you can send me to my death, but you
cannot make me marry your daughter.”

“Elenn loves you,” Maga said. “And you gave her the dog as pledge. What is
one night, to make her happy?”

“Dead men father no children,” Ferdia said, it was a proverb everyone knew.
Spending one night married to her and dying would not give him an heir. “And I
might yet live,” he finished, not believing it, and slowing the chariot to give
himself time to finish what he needed to say before they reached the gates.

“And would it be so terrible to live and be married to Elenn the Beautiful and
be the envy of all men?”

“No. But it would be unendurable to have to call you mother,” he said.

Maga laughed, sounding genuinely amused for the first time since he had
known her. “A betrothal then,” she said. “A betrothal you can break in a little
while if you survive, but which will not break her heart if you die. I am speaking
now not for policy but for my daughter’s happiness.”

They were nearly at the gates. Ferdia lowered his voice. “Much you cared about
Elenn’ s happiness when you married her to four men the last four nights.”

“She still believes you are an honourable man,” Maga said. “If you go out to
fight without at least a betrothal she will see that you are not, because you have
broken your pledge. I might even have to enquire where that dog came from and
why you gave it to her.”

Maga spoke to the gate-guard and they swept inside the dun, the row of carts
following. Ferdia drove in silence as Maga directed him towards the storehouses.
He could see it all now. Even dead the dog could confound his honour. It was just
like the stories of Lew or Wydion, curses set on a hero, the one mistake he had
made had the power to overset everything else.

“You will have to speak to my father and explain it to him,” he said.

This time, Maga’s smile was triumphant.

VII - The Battle at the Ford

1. (Conal)

Darag came walking down the road alone. She hadn’t come again tonight. Conal
turned and signalled to the boy waiting, who set off at once back to the camp at a
run. He braced himself against the bole of an elm as the pain came through him
again. He tried not to tense, to relax against it as his mother had told him. He was
the best Oriel could do for a sentry right now. While he knew it was a very poor
best, he would do what he could, always. He had argued against giving the duty to
the children and servants, or even to Amagien and Orlam and Inis, though Orlam
had volunteered. It was necessary to have someone there who could run at need,
as the fighting folk could not, now. He had agreed to keep one of the children
with him, and it had proved useful.

Even without being able to run, or fight, or do anything much, it was right that
a champion be here, at the edge of the wood, waiting. Even on a damp afternoon
like this he was glad to be here. It got him out of the camp and away from the
others, which he found a blessing. When Conary had suggested that the children
could have the duty alone, Conal had said it made him feel better to be doing
something. The other sentries had agreed. He wondered if they also spent their
days thinking that they would be the first to fall to the enemy spears if Darag or
Atha failed them and let the whole host of Connat through.

Conal drew breath as the pain left him for the moment. “Was it a good day,
cousin?” he called.

Darag came nearer. He was black with blood again. His armour coat must have
got drenched with it, and his face and legs were spattered. He raised his hand in
greeting and grinned cheerfully. It was hard not to show that he hated him. Conal
could have laughed to think of the reasons he had hated Darag before. Now, none
of the other reasons mattered. It was hard not to hate anyone who was well, even
the servants who had not fallen to the curse, let alone Darag. It was probably good
Emer had not come. She might have seen resentment in his eyes. Maybe she had
seen that on the first two nights and that was why she had not come back since. If
only he didn’t miss her so much.

“I held the road a seventh day,” Darag said, as he came close enough for
conversation.

They stood a moment and looked at each other. They had already made all the
jokes that could be made, on the days that had come before. Then the pain took
Conal again, and he looked away, staring hard at a fringed piece of creamy fungus
growing at the tree’s root and just trying to breathe deeply, not giving in to the
pain. Plenty of strong champions back at camp were screaming when the pains
took them. He had screamed only once himself, when it came on him
unexpectedly between one stride and the next, tearing through his guts like a
jagged knife. He had fallen awkwardly, and the jolt from the fall bruised him and
took his defences. Screaming hadn’t helped. It may even have made it worse. He
was bitterly ashamed of it, most of all because his father had been nearby at the
time. He had nearly knocked Amagien off his feet. He would not scream again,
and certainly he would never scream in front of Darag. As the pain passed off this
time he leaned into the tree and panted for a moment. His lips were bitten ragged
already. Where he had not been clutching it, the bark was still spotted with cool
water from the rain that had fallen an hour ago.

“Is Emer well?” Conal asked, when he could speak again.

“She took a spear in her arm,” Darag touched his own arm, just above the
elbow. “But the spear was there, we could heal it without too much trouble. It
wasn’t a bad wound that would leave a weakness. Apart from that, she’s fine.
She’s tired from all the fighting, of course. She sends her love to you, but she said
she had to get back before they missed her.”

This was what she had said every night since the third. Conal was surprised
how much it hurt to hear that she had been wounded again. He buried his
disappointment, pushing his sense of his own helplessness down with it. That sort
of pain he was good at hiding. He just wished he could talk to her. “Did she say if
she was having trouble with Maga?”

“She didn’t say anything about it,” Darag said. “She doesn’t complain. You are
fortunate to have her as your charioteer. As soon as this is over you must marry
her right away, if we all live. I will support that before Conary and your parents.”

“Thank you,” Conal said, dumbfounded by this support. “If that isn’t possible,
we have talked about running away together.”

“What worse could Maga do to Oriel than this?” Darag asked, waving a hand
that seemed to take in his blood-soaked coat.

“Were you wounded?” Conal asked.

“Only little wounds that are healed already,” Darag said.

“It’s not your own blood you’ve been wading in then?”

Darag frowned, then looked down at himself in mild surprise. “No, this is the
blood of Laran ap Noss, a champion of Connat. His head is on my chariot now.

My sword took him in the throat and the blood went everywhere.”

“Your sword?” Conal echoed, and raised his eyebrows.

“Not my best weapon, I know.” Darag shrugged. Conal had almost always been
able to beat him with the sword, though that didn’t stop him trying. Nothing
stopped Darag trying. “It was quite a long fight, very tiring. I don’t know why you
like swords so much. But he was another husband of Elenn’s. Emer had eaten
with him last night. She didn’t feel comfortable going against him. So when he
came up and made his boast I asked if he would fight me on foot and he agreed.”

“He didn’t know who Emer was?” Conal asked quickly.

“He didn’t. But he was an honourable man, with an honourable charioteer, and
they agreed at once.” Darag sighed. “I have killed four of the poor girl’s husbands
now, starting with Atha’s brother. How long can this go on?”

“Until Maga stops attacking, or until Beastmother lets us come and join you,”
Conal said. As he raised his hand to his head to make the Beastmother sign, he
could feel the pain beginning again, slowly this time, building up as it ran through
him like a cramp. He bent forward and rested his forehead on the cool damp tree.

“Wouldn’t you be better lying down?” Darag asked. The concern in his voice
made Conal grit his teeth. To his surprise, gritting his teeth, combined with calm
breathing, actually seemed to help a little.

“Lying down is much worse,” he said, as soon as he could, fighting to make his
tone light. “I have even been sleeping, as much as I can between pains, sitting up
leaning back against a tree.”

“I haven’t been sleeping much either,” Darag said. “I can lie down in comfort,
but the screams come so often and sound so terrible.”

“You should sleep,” Conal said, awkwardly. “We all need you to be well.”

Darag smiled, almost a grimace. “I am glad I can keep the road. But it makes
me feel so cut off from the rest of you.”

“You’ve run mad at last,” Conal said, rolling his eyes. “How terrible, all the
champions of Oriel are struck down by a curse except one, and that one is as crazy
as an oracle priest.”

Darag laughed. The pain came to Conal just as he finished speaking, not a very
bad one this time but much too soon after the last one, when he was still weak
from it. It seemed to him that the pains were growing closer together. This one ran
through his belly, both a griping and a cramping, as if he had eaten too many
green apples. It would not have been too terrible, except that it had been going on
for seven days without a break. It was hard to bear Darag’ s laughter. He bit his lip
and set himself to endure. If he had been well he might have fought Darag now,
for the thousandth time. But if he had been well they wouldn’t all need Darag the
way they did. In some ways, that was the worst of this. Not only was he helpless,
but that Darag should be the one who wasn’t.

“Don’t worry,” he said, lightly as he straightened up. “My mother says it is no
worse than childbirth.”

“Lots of the women are saying that,” Darag said, a little uneasily.

“My mother said that’s why she decided not to have any more children,” Conal
said, waving his hand airily. “But it’s like seasickness, nobody dies of it, they just
wish they would.”

He had expected Darag to laugh, but he frowned instead. “I always heard that
childbirth hurts, but it is a mystery, that the woman is in the hand of the Mother.
But then I heard of a woman in Muin who died having a baby once, in our great-
grandfather’s time.”

“Died?” Conal was astonished. “I never heard that. Who told you?”

“Samar ap Ardan,” Darag said. “She said there was a young wife living out in
the woods whose husband had been killed by a falling tree, and she started
walking towards Muin and the baby came, and she was alone and didn’t know the
right prayers and too afraid to call on the Mother without prayers, maybe, so she
just. . . died of the pain.”

“Maybe a wolf,” Conal began. He was going to add “. . . or a bear,” but the pain
came down hard and this time he couldn’t trust himself to speak through it.

When he could looked at Darag again, Darag was staring at the sky. “Maybe a
wolf or a bear got her on the way,” Conal said, keeping his voice low. If Darag
hadn’t been there he would have rocked to and fro a little, that sometimes helped.
“Or maybe it is just the sort of story people tell late at night on watch to scare
each other. Inis might know. But in any case, this isn’t childbirth.”

“Childbirth doesn’t usually last this long,” Darag said. “Aunt Elba was two
days with Orlam, one night with Leary, and half a day with the twins. She says
your mother was a day and a night with you, and my mother was three days with
me.” He lowered his voice a little at the end, as always when he spoke of his
mother.

“You’ve really been thinking about this,” Conal said.

“Maybe because I’m not suffering it,” Darag said. “I asked last night. Aunt
Elba said that it was just this sort of pain, but it was all worth it because you knew
you would have a child at the end.”

“Well maybe that just might make this all worthwhile,” Conal said, and
laughed, which was a mistake because it brought on the pain again.

“But what could you be giving birth to, if you were?” Darag asked. Even if
Conal had been able to speak he would have had no answer.

“She said we would suffer as the mare suffered,” Conal said, after a short
eternity which was only the pain. With automatic piety he touched his hand to his
head in the way that symbolised Beastmother as he spoke of her. Darag echoed
him, looking more worried than ever. “Grandfather thinks that means for a term of

days, and so does the oracle priest of Connat, ap Fial. But we have passed three
already, and six. What if it never leaves us? The mare died.”

Darag hesitated, drew breath, thought better of it, then spoke at last. “I don’t
think so. I think if what we saw in the Cave of Cruachan means anything, it means
we will survive this.” He drew breath again, carefully. “Besides, the reason I have
been wondering about birth is because I had a dream about the first time. About
the building of Ardmachan. In my dream the mare gave birth as she was killed
and Beastmother,” again he touched his head, “spoke through the filly that was
born. And all the folk of the dun lay on the ground in pain that was very like the
pain you have.”

Conal looked at him sharply. “Have you told Inis?”

“You know how hard it is to ask Inis anything,” Darag said, guiltily. “I had this
dream before you killed the mare, before any of this happened. But I had it over
and over.”

“Inis was always asking us about dreams like that,” Conal said, accusingly,
then the absurdity of it struck him and he smiled. “Of course, I never told him my
dreams either, and no doubt we had the same reason.”

“You have dreams?” Darag asked, shaking his head. “Then they could have
made oracle priests out of both of us and left the kingship to poor Leary?” He
grinned at Conal.

It was difficult to do, because the pain was coming again, but Conal managed
an answering grin. He let the pain flow through him, trying not to be impatient
although he knew what he wanted to say and could not say it. He knew better than
to try and talk across the pains. He had heard other people trying. Talking came
too close to screaming. The pain felt like lightning striking through him, slowly.
He clenched and unclenched his fists. Darag kept standing there waiting for it to
go, not showing any impatience. Hatred welled up in Conal like bile in his throat,
but he swallowed it back. He could have clutched it to him like a familiar cloak on
a cold night, but instead he pushed it away. This wasn’t Darag’s fault, he thought
for the first time. Not everything was. It had taken this to make him see it, but it
was true.

“Remember how we let Leary win the race on the road to Cruachan?” Conal
asked, as soon as he had breath. Darag’s grin had recalled Muin, where their
rivalry had for a little while seemed a wholesome thing. “Leary would make a
terrible king of Oriel.”

“You wouldn’t,” Darag said, warily.

“You wouldn’t either,” Conal said, and they looked at each other tentatively for
a moment, on entirely new ground.

Darag looked down. “In the cave, on Cruachan, I saw you avenge my death.”

Conal went cold. “Were you king of Oriel then?” he asked.

“I was. But we were not old men, we were hardly more than ten years older
than we are now.”

Conal thought of the way he had seen himself crawling forward, looking for
water, clutching a helmet in one hand, the other arm hanging loose from his
shoulder. How hard it was to judge time. He had not been wearing a king’s
colours. There had been some grey in his hair. He had been wearing a herald’s
spray pinned to a short cloak. He shook his head to drive the vision away. “Inis
says nobody can know our real future, which is always changeable. He says we
can only know how things have been in other worlds.”

“I think you avenge my death in all the other worlds,” Darag said.

“What else did you see in the cave, really?” Conal asked, wanting time to think
about the implications of what Darag had said, and about the new way they were
talking.

“Apart from you avenging my death? You returned my head to my body, to
give me release.” Darag’ s smile was very strange. “Well, I saw my death, of
course, bound to a stone, to weak to stand without support but fighting to the very
end. And I fought monsters, as I said in the hall, and met the god who called
himself Bachlach and took his head, and let him take mine.”

The pain had come over Conal again as Darag was speaking, and he kept his
eyes fixed on his cousin’s face, seeing it very closely, the curl of his nostril and
the angle of his dark eyes. He had hated him for so long that it was a hard habit to
break. He had denied all the good things about him to do it.

“I knew he might kill me, of course, but I had already seen my death, and what
could be worse than that?” Darag went on, not looking at Conal, staring off into
the trees. “When he handed me back my head I asked him the way back to the
third day after I had come up the hill, and he pointed the path out to me.
Somewhere on the way down my head went from being under my arm to being
back on my neck again.”

“I thought,” Conal began, but the word came out on a squeak, so he began
again, husking the words. “I thought it was because you did not sleep.”

This made Darag look more cheerful. “That would be a worthy reason,” he
said. “I thought it was because the gods take an interest in me, and because I am
not afraid to ask them for help.”

“That isn’t an unworthy reason,” Conal said, reluctantly. Their eyes met. “You
won the contest,” Conal conceded, for the first time.

“I always thought you hated me for things I can’t help,” Darag said.

There were a lot of easy answers he could have made that would have turned
that away. But Conal understood what he meant. He swallowed awkwardly, and
suddenly he felt the way he did in his dreams, the way Inis talked about feeling, as
if the choice he made next would change worlds. The easy way would be to lie

and go on striving futilely against Darag. But the hard way — it was only recently
that he had realised there were ways of living honourably that did not involve
becoming king of Oriel. He had told Emer that there were things more important,
but he should have put it like that. She would understand, and he wasn’t sure
Darag would. He thought how brave Emer was, to stay in Connat, eating with her
mother every night, and every day coming to the ford to fight for them, holding
the road at least as much as Darag was. There was no honour in taking the easy
way, none at all. “I hated you because you made me always second best,” Conal
said, stumbling over the words. “I hated you because you were better than me.”

“I never hated you,” Darag said. “I just reacted to you hating me. And you are
better than everyone else, it’s not surprising you wanted to be best of all.”

“I don’t think I hate you any more,” Conal said, not quite sure whether it was
true or what it meant or even that he would really say it until the words were
hanging on the air.

“Are you offering me friendship?” Darag asked, incredulously. There was
warmth in his smile. Conal almost, no Conal did like him for it.

He could feel the distant warning that the pain was coming again. “Friendship,
loyalty, my house to yours,” he said, as briefly as he could.

Darag put out his arms to embrace Conal as kin. Conal moved forward to return
the embrace, and as he did the pain took him, skewering him right through. If
Darag had not held him up he would have fallen. He breathed hard and did not
scream. He was sure the pains had not been this close together even yesterday,
even this morning.

When he could stand alone, Darag let him go, and they looked at each other
warily. They had known each other all their lives, but they had never before been
friends.

“You should go back to camp before Atha comes looking for you,” Conal said.

“The boy will have told them I held my road,” Darag said. “If she had not held
hers we would know by now. Your relief should be coming soon. I’ll wait here a
little while longer with you.”

2. (Elenn)

Elenn was sitting in front of her tent when they brought Laran back. She was
staring aimlessly across the camp, but she would have denied to anyone else that
she was waiting. She could not deny it to herself, not the fourth time she had done
it, the seventh morning of the war.

She had dressed that morning in her new slate blue overdress, a wedding gift
from Laran. She had bound up her hair with Orlam’s silver and pearl circlet. She
had kissed her new husband farewell and wished him luck, in front of her parents
and half the camp. Then she had taken Beauty to the master of hounds, who was
here without his dogs and only too glad to have Beauty to train. She had come
back here alone. She could not bear to be with anyone, and the comfort Beauty
offered was too painful. After four days of sending husbands off to fight Darag,
hope was something she would have liked to feel. Laran ap Noss was a good man
and a fine champion, one of the Royal Kin of Muin. She had liked him, and he
had adored her. Their night together had been delightful. She had wept silently in
the darkness after he fell asleep, struggling to hold back sobs that might have
woken him.

His charioteer, Semion, drew up in front of the tent. He and another of Laran’ s
followers lifted Laran’ s headless body out and set it down on the ground in front
of Elenn.

Now that she was expected to weep, tears seemed far away. She rose to her feet
in one movement and stood grave and still. She reached up and removed the
circlet from her hair and ran her hands through it, letting it fall into the disarray of
mourning.

“Bring me water and cloths,” she said. She set the circlet down just inside the
tent, where it would stay dry. Then she knelt beside Laran’ s body and let her hair
fall forward over her face. She gave the traditional three howls. As she did, the
tears came, as they had every time. She let them fall unchecked.

A servant brought a bowl of water and some strips of cloth. Elenn straightened
up and pushed back her hair. She did not wipe her eyes. It was good that her tears
should be seen. Tears were said to ease the dead on the first part of their journey.
She would have done anything to she could to make it easier for Laran. It was the
least she could do. After all, whether she wanted him to or not, he had died for
her.

She took the bowl, then motioned the servant away. A circle of people had
gathered. She wished they would not. She knew this must be done under the sky
and before any who would watch, but even so, she would have preferred to be

alone. Alone with Laran one last time, if he cared for that now. Dark clouds
covered the sun. Soon it would rain, but she could pay no attention to that.

Semion brought a length of fine white linen, as fine as the blue Elenn was
wearing and doubtless also woven by Laran’ s mother. Elenn took it and set it
down carefully. She wished there had been time for her to weave a winding sheet
herself. Even the poorest farmers wrapped a little strip of woven cloth around
their dead, binding it around a wrist or a forehead. However much or little, the
cloth was always made by those closest to the dead, a parent, or a spouse, or a
child. She wished there had been time for her to know Laran’ s mother.

The charioteer hesitated a moment, looking at Elenn with grief on his face.
“Shall I help?” he asked. Elenn shook her head. She did not want the distraction.
She knew what to do. She had always done it alone before.

She pulled off Laran’s soiled and bloody shift and clout and piled them together
behind her. She dipped a clean cloth in the water and began to clean off the blood.
The water wasn’t really warm enough, but Elenn didn’t want to call for more.
She’d have to talk to someone. She worked steadily, washing him as gently as if
he had been alive and able to feel her touch. She remembered her father washing
and binding up her scrapes and scratches when she had been a child. One day she
might wash a baby, or perhaps even wash and bind the wounds of a living
husband. She hadn’t found the death wound yet. Darag had taken his head and his
armour, as usual. She wished she could ransom the head, all her husbands’ heads.
She had asked Maga about it, but her mother had said that she had nothing Darag
wanted.

It took hours before Laran was clean. The rain came long before she had
finished, but she worked on. Without a head she could not possibly remove all the
blood, but she had done her best and he would not come before the Lord of the
Dead disgracefully dirty. She commended him to as many gods as she could,
calling out loudly and holding up her hands in the rain. She had no idea whether
any of them heard or cared. She doubted it. When she bent to wrap him in the
linen she felt despair. If any gods paid attention to people they were away on the
roads, helping Darag and Atha hold off the might of the island and kill her
husbands. None of them cared for the mourning cries of Elenn ap Allel, alone in
the centre of the camp of Connat. All the same, she sewed up the linen in the
ritual way and whispered a last prayer to the merciful Queen of the Dead. She
pricked her finger with the needle and blotted the blood carefully onto the last
damp stitches. Now he was ready to have his body burned and his name given
back in the Hymn of Return at sunset.

She tucked the needle back into her sleeve. She bent forward over his body one
last moment, then straightened up and stretched, alone in a little circle of quiet
among the waiting people. It was only afternoon yet, there was all the rest of the

day to live through, before the next. The rain had stopped and the clouds were
scudding fast across the sky.

Semion came forward and bowed. “I shall take him now,” he said. Elenn
bowed in return. Semion’ s face was cold as he lifted the burden into the chariot
one last time. Elenn wondered if he hated her for causing Laran’s death. They had
been very close. Last night Semion had eaten with them, smiling and
congratulating them. All her husbands and their charioteers were sure they would
be different, would be the ones who would kill Darag and live on past the fight at
the ford. She wondered what would happen when she stopped being able to
pretend to believe them.

She looked at the crowd then, expecting to see her mother come with news of
who she must marry tonight. But Maga wasn’t among the watchers today. The
person who came forward as Semion took Laran’s body away was Lerdia’s father,
Cethem of Lagin. He was a man in vigorous middle age, broadly built like his
son, and dressed as a king in red and green. Several other people also stepped
forward, but he raised a hand to bar their way. “I have business with the Lady
Elenn that won’t wait,” he said, frowning at them until they gave way and
retreated before his authority.

“May I sit down?” he asked, politely, coming forward. The people waiting
moved further away. Some of them left altogether.

Elenn raised her chin, confused. She had never had much conversation with
Cethem, although he had been at Cmachan for a month before the war began. She
could not think what his business with her could be, unless possibly he had come
to speak for his son. Her heart gave a great leap, and then a lurch as she
understood what it would mean. “You are welcome, sir,” she said, automatically.
“Can I offer you refreshment?”

Cethern sat down on the drier grass where the tent had partly sheltered it. “Not
now, thank you,” he said, quietly, so only she could hear. “You must fast until
sunset, and I would not eat before you.”

Elenn smiled, hiding her feelings. She moved Laran’s bloody clothes into the
tent, out of the way for now. Then she settled herself next to him on the cushion
she had used before, straightening her skirts carefully. The leather of the cushion
was wet. “So, why do you honour me with your company?” she asked.

He looked at her shrewdly, and shook his head, gesturing to the people around
them. Ap Dair the poet was among them now. He smiled at Elenn as their eyes
met. “This is about as private as we can get, without going out of camp, which
there isn’t time for. And Em sorry, but there’s no polite way to say this. Your
mother wants my son to marry you. Em against it, not for any harm you’ve done
me or anything against you yourself at all. You’re beautiful enough in all tmth,
but I don’t like this business you and your mother have been doing between you.

The last thing I want is for my son to get killed tomorrow morning because your
mother is holding you out as a prize in a game, and he’s gone daft enough to try to
win you.”

“Neither do I,” Elenn said, and to her dismay felt her voice quaver in the
middle. The thought of Ferdia brought before her dead and headless was
unbearable. She swallowed hard to avoid tears. “Not in the least. Do you think I
like having my husbands brought before me cold and dead? Can’t you see it
would be ninety times worse if it were Ferdia?”

“So it’s true what your mother says?”

“What does she say?” Elenn asked, getting her voice back under control.

“She tells me you are in love with my son. She says he is in love with you too,
and gave you a dog in pledge of this before you both left Ardmachan. Is this true,
or one of her fabulations that she has put together to ensnare me? And if it is true,
how is it that you have allowed yourself to be married off to four other men night
after night, and seen them each killed in the morning? Are you the most heartless
woman in Tir Isamagiri, as well as the most beautiful.”

Elenn looked down, knowing her cheeks were heating with anger and
embarrassment. How she had gloried in being called one of the three most
beautiful women in Tir Isarnagiri, and how it hurt now to be called the most
beautiful. “I am not heartless,” she said, quietly, keeping control of her voice only
with an effort. “And what my mother says is true. 1 love

Ferdia, and he gave me a dog. The dog is with the master of hounds now, but
you may have seen her with me.”

“I’ve seen her,” Cethem admitted. “But then why did Ferdia never mention this
to me? Even now it was your mother came and told me, with him just standing by
saying yes and no at her side. I’m not such an ogre as all that. He’s a grown man
now, and he isn’t afraid of me, usually, though he has been very close with his
counsel since he came back from Oriel.”

“I think he thought it wasn’t policy,” Elenn said, looking up again, to see him
frowning at her. “I knew it wasn’t my mother’s policy.”

“You’re telling me two young people in love put it aside without mentioning it
for considerations of policy?” Cethem sounded frankly disbelieving.

“I certainly mentioned it to my mother,” Elenn said. She held Cethem’ s
sceptical eyes, with an effort. “My sister came back from Oriel screaming and
shouting that she was to marry ap Amagien the Victor, and my mother took it
very badly. So I didn’t press her about Ferdia. I thought there was time, and she
might see the advantages later. Then — I know it sounds terrible, but Ferdia was
here and he didn’t say anything and you didn’t, so I didn’t know what to think. He
hadn’t exactly said that was why he was giving me the dog, though it seemed
clearly his intention at the time. He wasn’t breaking any specific promises if he

didn’t want me any more. It was all things unsaid. Sometimes I wondered if I’d
made the whole thing up. He’s been avoiding me since you’ve been here. And I
knew it might not be what you wanted for Lagin, I thought you might have told
him a definite no. Then Maga had made arrangements already and she didn’t give
me any choice, and they were all men I liked, even if they weren’t Ferdia. My
mother told me the kind of love you feel as a girl is sweet, but marriage is
something different. I tried to put Ferdia out of my mind. I would have been a
good wife to any of them, if there had been time.”

“You’re a biddable girl for your mother’s daughter,” Cethem said, biting his
lip. “Well, I suppose there’s no reason why you shouldn’t be, and I can see you’re
telling me the truth as you see it. Your side of it seems clear enough. Poor girl,
you’re as much the victim in this as anyone. But that doesn’t explain why Ferdia
didn’t say a word about it after he left Ardmachan, to me or to you.”

“I don’t know,” Elenn said, furious. “You should ask him. And I am not a
victim or a biddable girl. I have made my own choices.”

“Choices you didn’t have many options in, from the sound of it,” Cethem said.
A watery sunshine was coming through the clouds. It caught the silver streaks in
his beard.

“I would have said no if my mother had suggested anyone I could not bear,”
Elenn insisted. Cethern looked pityingly at her, and she smiled to avoid gritting
her teeth. She wanted to growl in the back of her throat the way Beauty did when
she was forced to keep still. She hated pity. She hated being treated as a child. “I
will refuse to marry Ferdia tonight,” she said.

“Maybe you are your mother’s daughter, if you’ll spite your heart out of pride,”
Cethem said. “Besides, a marriage has not been arranged. You are men and
women grown, if very young and foolish ones. You don’t need my consent for a
marriage. Whether I would still call Ferdia my son if he married without my
consent is another matter. An alliance is a different thing, and your mother is
talking about an alliance. That’s what she wants, whatever you want. She wants
one that will hold even with Ferdia dead. I said I’d not even begin to negotiate one
until I’d spoken to you.” He sighed. “Even if I give consent, what Ferdia wants
now is a betrothal, with a marriage to happen after the war, all being well.”

“He is the cleverest most admirable champion on the island of Tir Isarnagiri,”
Elenn burst out. Cethem raised a warning finger, and she went on more quietly.
“Then he won ’t be killed trying to open a road, and I won’t have to marry another
champion every night.” It did cross her mind that Ferdia might have thought of
this several days ago and spared her considerable anguish, but she banished the
thought in the general relief. She could have embraced Cethem. If he was to be
her husband’s father he would be kin and she could. But not now, not with people
watching.

“That would be if I agreed to a betrothal, which I haven’t,” Cethern said. “I
haven’t yet,” he softened it, looking at her. “And in any case, according to your
mother, he insists on fighting Darag tomorrow whatever happens.”

Elenn stared at him in consternation. “Fighting Darag?” she asked.

“Hush, not so loud,” Cethern said. “They may all guess what we’re talking
about, but let’s not make them sure of it. Fighting Darag, yes, when every other
sentence out of him has had Darag in it since he came home. And when he’s told
me ninety-nine times that Darag is the best fighter of the generation, even before
he started killing all comers. I can’t see any sense in it.”

“Are you going to stop him?” Elenn asked, leaning forward, her voice only just
above a whisper.

“How can I?” Cethem’s voice was barely louder than hers. “I can refuse
consent to a betrothal or an alliance, but I can’t stop him fighting Darag if he
wants to. I can counsel him against it, but if he really is decided on it, then he is.
He’s a grown man, not a babe, he’s taken up arms even if he isn’t the best
champion there ever was, the way he says Darag is. He can fight if he wants to.
Eagin is on this side of the war, much as I may regret it now. We’ve lost two
champions already, one against Darag and another against Atha, my people
wouldn’t stand for it if 1 took them away now. It might be different if Ferdia were
the only heir to Lagin, but I have another son and two daughters, not to mention
all my nephews.”

“Then if Ferdia’ s decided to fight and you can’t stop him, why are you talking
to me at all?”

“I wanted to know get to the bottom of things. I was hoping it was all a lie,
though I can see it isn’t. If you love each other, it makes a difference. It may be
that your mother isn’t about to give up using you as a prize to make men fight,
and she’s told Ferdia he has to fight if he wants you. That seems most likely to
me. I was hoping that if 1 could forbid the betrothal clearly and permanently, and
with good arguments, he’d change his mind about wanting to fight. I wanted to
say you were a pretty face who doesn’t care for him and a bad alliance, issues of
policy as you said, policy does come into it when you’re a king’s son or a king’s
daughter.”

“I know,” she said, and though she wouldn’t have thought there were any tears
left inside her, she had to blink some away. “Tell him that. Tell him I don’t want
to marry him. Anything to save his life.”

Cethern leaned forward urgently. “Will you speak to him? Will you tell him
that? Will you tell your mother that?”

Elenn took a deep breath and thought of Ferdia, dancing with her at the Feast of
Bel, so polite, so kind, never pressing her as so many men did. She thought of him
giving her Beauty, his diffidence, the brightness of his smile as they left

Ardmachan and were alone in the chariot. She loved him. She could be brave for
him. She could give him up to save his life. “I will,” she said, thinking hard about
Ferdia to avoid thinking about Maga and what this would mean to her. “Come
with me now, let’s find them together.”

3. (Ferdia)

The sun was shining, the trees were green and under them was a twilight-blue
haze of bluebells, scenting the air even out onto the road where Ferdia’ s chariot
was hurtling at what felt like breakneck pace towards the ford. He wished they
would go even faster so he really would break his neck before they got there.

Ferdia was ready to die, but he wished he could do it without having to see
Darag’s face. He couldn’t pretend Darag wouldn’t mind killing him, however
many other champions he had killed. He straightened himself with a hand at the
side of the chariot. The banner of Lagin with its green hill spread out behind him.
His spears were ready to his hand. It should have been a glorious first ride to war.
When they sang about it afterwards, nobody would be able to tell he was only
here because he was afraid.

His charioteer shot him a quick glance. “It’s not too late to change your mind,”
she said. He shook his head at her. She was not really his charioteer but Cethern’s,
comfortable old Pell who had first taught him to harness horses and how to stand
in a chariot.

“Oh yes it is,” he said, glancing behind them. They were leading the way.
Behind them came the other people who planned to challenge Darag that day,
after Ferdia fell, and behind them that part of the army of Connat and the allies
who wanted to see the day’s sport, along with those few confident folk who
thought that Darag might still be defeated. Less than a third of the champions
were there, along with a handful of the farmers. Cethem was there, and Allel, and
ap Dair. It was quite enough people to remember it forever if they had seen Ferdia
ap Cethern retreat from what he had said he would do. “What I was thinking,
though,” he said, hesitantly, knowing he should have suggested it before. “They
say Darag’s charioteer always fights disguised.”

“Nobody know who she is,” Pell confirmed. She lowered her voice, even
though they were out ahead and nobody could hear them. Pell was no different
from the way she always was, even though she knew he was going to die. She
always knew all the gossip and loved passing it on. “Some say she is a
lawspeaker, and others say she is one of Atha’s women. Atha has lost three
charioteers, in seven days, but Darag has kept this same one, as far as we know.
But even though she’s disguised, if she’d been killed and replaced, someone
would have seen her go down. I think it’s the same one, whoever she is. After all,
he has the advantage of the water, which makes a difference. The road is higher
on the Oriel side.”

He had seen the ford on the first day, and the terrible sight of Darag’s single

chariot standing alone to defend it against all the might of the army.

“I was wondering if I could fight disguised,” Ferdia said.

Pell laughed. “Because you are too new a warrior for your name to put fear into
anyone? It might do for a charioteer, but not for a champion. You must give your
name to make your boast. Only a fool would fight an un-named champion at a
ford.”

Ferdia had forgotten the boast. “It is just that Darag is my foster brother,” he
said, apologetically. In some ways, it was best that Darag recognising him would
be the worst thing. It would be over quickly, right at the beginning, and dying
would almost be easy, after that.

“Your father told me to keep reminding you that you could turn around at any
time,” Pell said. “I told him you wouldn’t, young men are fools. But you could
turn around now and in fifty years’ time think back on riding this far as youthful
folly.”

“I wish you wouldn’t keep saying that,” Ferdia muttered. Nothing would have
pleased him more than turning around. Nothing was less possible.

Pell pursed her lips but kept driving on, barely slowing for the bends in the
road. She was good, but then she had been a charioteer for thirty years. Three of
her four children were here with the army. “Yesterday Darag chose to fight with
swords first,” she said. “He talked with Laran ap Noss about it a while across the
ford, asking if he would do that, then when Laran agreed they fought on the far
bank. He might do that again.”

“I have a sword,” Ferdia said.

The road passed through a belt of alder and willows then came out into the
open space with the river ahead of them, and the ford. Darag’ s chariot was
standing on the further bank, just as it had the first day, and no doubt every day
since. He looked at it and looked away. His stomach turned over and he
swallowed hard. There was nothing else now. He was here to die and he would
die. He wondered if the garlanded animals at the feasts felt like this when they
saw the knife.

Pell slowed, and he realised everyone following them was stopping. They drew
to a halt just by the ford. Ferdia braced himself and looked up. Darag wasn’t
looking yet, he was in intense conversation with his mysterious charioteer.

“Give your boast now,” Pell urged. He didn’t know what to say. How could he
boast, who had no deeds to boast of?

When in doubt, go with what you have learned. He had a name to give, at least.
He shut his eyes. “I am Ferdia ap Cethern,” he began, and rolled out his ancestry
as he had learned it, one after another, his grandfathers and great-grandfathers
back through the generations until he came to the end, or the beginning, the
founding heroes of his line, “... ap Galian ap Liath ap Lethan. I am a prince of

Lagin,” he said, raising his voice a little, because it was here that his own deeds
should have gone if he had any. He opened his eyes. Darag was standing as still as
a stone and staring at him. “I am here to challenge you for passage of this ford.
Will you yield to my might and let us pass?”

He kept his eyes resolutely open. It was about as bad as it could be. Darag leapt
out of the chariot and ran down the bank towards the water. “Ferdia ap Cethem?”
he called. “How can this be? Ferdia ap Cethem is my friend and my foster
brother. Surely you are some imposter abusing his name to challenge me.”

“No, it really is me,” Ferdia said, miserably, but beginning to be aware there
was something strange about the way Darag was talking. Something unnatural. He
sounded as if he was playing a part, not like himself at all. Maybe it was the
shock.

“Then why do you come against me, my brother?” Darag demanded.

“Honour demands it,” Ferdia said, falling back on what had worked before. He
wished he could explain to Darag, who alone of everyone he knew might have
understood. But of course it wasn’t possible. There were too many other people
here. In any case, Darag was honourable, he wouldn’t understand how Maga had
a hold on him. Ferdia could never tell him about the dog.

“We have been brothers, must we now be enemies?” Darag asked, sadly,
spreading his empty arms.

Despite Darag ’s unnatural tone, Ferdia choked on a sob and felt tears burning
in his eyes. Pell put her hand on his arm. “You really could back out now,” she
advised. He shook her off fiercely.

“I must challenge you for the passage of the ford, so we must fight, but we need
not be enemies,” he managed to say, clearly.

“Then come here and embrace me for the last time before we begin,” Darag
said.

Ferdia looked at Pell for guidance, and was astonished to see that she was
dashing away tears from her eyes. “Go, go,” she said. Then as he was climbing
out of the chariot she added, “It’s like a story. They will sing of this for as long as
there’s anyone on this island to sing.”

Ap Dair was somewhere in the crowd behind them. Ferdia had almost
forgotten.

He walked down the edge of the water and then waded across. It was cold but
not unpleasant. The other side was steeper. Darag offered his hand to help him
out.

They stood there for a moment, looking at each other. Darag ’s face, up close,
did not look sad but full of suppressed excitement. They embraced, and he
whispered fiercely into Ferdia’ s ear. “Emer told me. You have promised to fight
and challenge me for the road. You haven’t said you’ll try to kill me and neither

have I said I’ll try to kill you. You said we’re not enemies. We can fight here all
day, the way we have other days. Practice, I mean. Say what we’re going to do, so
we can block. Make it look good.”

“Emer?” Ferdia whispered, completely confused. Darag’s eyes went to his
charioteer. Once Ferdia knew he wondered how he had not recognised her before.
He didn’t understand why she was here, when he had seen her in the camp of
Connat last night. She was betraying her own land, her own family. He blinked at
her.

“Do you agree?” Darag asked.

Ferdia thought it through for a moment. Pretending to fight opened up a
possibility he had thought lost, life opening up beyond today, with honour. But
was it honour, truly? “I promised Maga I would fight you,” he said.

“Did you promise to try to kill me?” Darag asked.

“No, but I promised to try to open a road into Oriel, which is the same,” Ferdia
said, wretchedly. He pulled back from the embrace, and they stood looking at
each other. “You just heard me say so,” he said, as if it would help.

Darag looked uncertain now. He frowned. “Tomorrow will be the ninth day
since this began,” he said. “Inis ap Fathag said that the sickness that has fallen on
everyone else would last three days, or six, or nine. So tomorrow it should be
over. Why don’t we fight here today in show only, and then tomorrow you can
fight anyone you want for the road to Oriel, and I’ll fight to stop your army, but
we needn’t fight each other.”

“Yes,” Ferdia said. That was honourable. He smiled at Darag, and wanted to
embrace him again. But everyone was watching. He bowed instead.

“Swords, first?” Darag asked, bowing. “I should think we can change weapons
several times, and have rests between. Usually I rest while people are taking away
the bodies and making their boasts. You wouldn’t believe how tiring it is fighting
all day, day after day.”

“We could stop for meals,” Ferdia said, and giggled.

“Don’t forget that people are watching,” Darag said. “They can’t hear us saying
what we’re doing if we keep it low, but they can certainly see everything.”

He drew his sword, and Ferdia did the same. Absurdly, he remembered all the
reasons against practising with real swords. “Be careful. It would be terrible if we
killed each other by accident,” he said, but this time managed not to laugh, even
though the nervous relief he felt was greater than it had ever been before. He
could live past this day. He could live and still be friends with Darag. The sun was
shining and sparkling on the water of the ford and he was alive and might remain
so. He could have sung with joy.

“We have to make it look good,” Darag said, and leapt towards him, sword
high.

They fought hard, moving up and down the clear space before the water. After
an hour they rested, and after another hour of close sword work he went back to
the chariot for the spear fight, sweating and bleeding from a few scratches where
he hadn’t brought his shield up quickly enough. Pell looked frankly admiring as
she blotted and sang charms over the scratches as he rested. “You have lasted
longer against him than anybody else,” she said. “They must have good
armsmasters in Oriel. It’s clear you and Darag learned from the same one.” Ferdia
looked at her sharply. Had she guessed they were going through practice forms?
But it hadn’t all been routines, he thought they had varied it enough.

They exchanged spears several times. Ferdia was surprised how much skill it
took to throw the spear and try not to hit, even when they had arranged in advance
which direction they should duck. Darag ’s spears all struck the chariot. His first
throws went wild, and one of his later ones went too close and wounded one of
Darag’ s horses. “What a song this will make,” Pell said, when they agreed to go
back to swords.

At the end of the day, Ferdia was so exhausted he could hardly stand. He was
back in his chariot. Darag held up his hand for them to speak.

“The day is drawing to an end,” he called. “We cannot fight in darkness. We
should lay down our weapons now until dawn brings a new day.”

Ferdia looked at Pell for advice. “They will sing of this all over the world,” she
said. “Yes, tell him you will leave it until the morning.”

“I will agree to that,” Ferdia called. “Tomorrow we will fight again.” There was
a loud murmur from behind him, and a drumming of feet in approval. He turned
to look, and saw that the space between him and the trees was packed. Almost all
the champions were there.

“They have been coming up all day since they heard you were holding,” Pell
said.

Ferdia turned back to Darag. “Farewell until the morning, then,” he said.

“Hold,” Darag said. “Let us spend this night together as brothers, sharing our
food and blankets for a last time.”

“Can I?” Ferdia asked Pell.

“Do you want to?” she asked.

It was only then he realised how much he did want to. He would give anything
to spend the night with Darag instead of having to bear again Maga’s demands
and Elenn’s expectations and his father’s anguish. “Oh, I do,” he said. “But will
they think it strange?”

“Strange, yes, but this whole day has been strange. Go. If he kills you in the
night, the army will all avenge you,” Pell said. “Not that I think for a minute he
will.”

“I will spend this night with you,” he said, and climbed out of the chariot.

Cethern was there. Had he guessed? There was no hint of it in his eyes. “I am
so proud of you, my son,” he said, and embraced Ferdia. “Forgive me, I didn’t
realise you had a real chance against him. Now I understand why you wanted to
fight.”

Ferdia could say nothing. He couldn’t tell his father he and Darag hadn’t been
trying to kill each other. He couldn’t say he looked better than he was because
Darag was so good he could do things that made him look good. So he just smiled
awkwardly. “You don’t mind me spending the night here?” he asked.

“It’s little Elenn who will mind,” Cethern said. “But I’ll try to explain. Coming
back and going out again would be very hard.”

He raised his chin in acknowledgement. After a few more words Cethern left
him to go back to the camp before sunset. He realised there would be fewer
bodies to bum tonight, only those Atha had killed. As well as surviving himself he
had saved the lives of several other champions.

He waded back across the ford to Darag. “Emer has gone off,” he said. “She
has to get back before they notice she’s gone. It was her idea that we did not need
to kill each other. I’m so glad she thought of it, because it might not have
occurred to me until it was too late.”

“I’d never have thought of it at all,” Ferdia said. “I couldn’t see any way out.”

“How did Maga make you fight?” Darag started to stroll along the road into the
trees.

“She said she’d tell ap Dair I was a coward, and ap Dair would make a song
about it to shame me. She said Elenn was in love with me and she’d tell everyone
I’d spumed her.”

“Emer said you were betrothed to Elenn,” Darag said. “Congratulations.”

Before Ferdia did anything stupid like explaining about all that, he remembered
that Darag had been a little in love with Elenn. So he just smiled, as if he wanted
to marry Elenn, as if he were glad. Just then they came to the end of the trees, and
someone was there, supporting himself against the tmnk of a tree. With a shock,
Ferdia realised that it was Conal. All the arrogance of his posture was gone, and
most of his good looks. He looked haggard and old and battered, like someone
who had been badly wounded and the weapon taken away so there could be no
cure. He twisted his face into a bitter smile of greeting.

“Have you come to join us at last, Ferdia?” he asked.

“Ferdia and I have been fighting all day. He has come to spend the night with
us.”

Conal looked incredulous, which wasn’t surprising. “I see,” said Conal,
frowning and taking deep breaths. Ferdia had heard that the folk of Oriel fell on
the ground and cried out when the pain came over them, but Conal did nothing
but lean his head gently on the tmnk of the tree. Probably it wasn’t as bad as

everyone thought.

They waited for the spasm to pass, so Conal could continue to say what he had
wanted to say. After a little while they both looked away. It was that bad after all.
Ferdia didn’t like Conal, but it was horrible to see anyone suffer like that. After a
moment Darag gave a great hail and raised his arms. “Atha,” he called.

Atha was coming along the road from the camp. She was still dressed for battle,
naked and painted for wild defiance. He could well believe the stories about
strong champions fainting just at the sight of her. She was blue all over with
rolling eyes painted on her nipples and a fanged mouth on her stomach. She had
the Eye of the Isles in the centre of her forehead, and over her eyes she had the
Oak Branch of Oriel. Below that were lines and spirals in white and black, so it
was impossible to read any human expression on her face. As if that wasn’t
enough, her hair was limed so it stuck straight out from her head in points that
looked sharp enough to do damage, and she had dipped the very ends in red. It
was similar but not identical to the way she had been painted on the first day
when she came out to hold the road. Ferdia wondered if she managed to make it
different every day.

“The boy said you were back, and I was already at the camp, so I came looking
for you in case you’d decided to stay out here for hours like last night,” she said,
embracing Darag. She was still considerably taller than he was.

Ferdia looked away. It wasn’t that he had forgotten Atha, or that she and Darag
were married now. He just hadn’t exactly been thinking about it when he agreed
to spend the night here.

She bowed greetings to Ferdia and Conal, along with a slight inquiring look at
Ferdia, but she could clearly hardly wait to speak to Darag. “How many?” she
asked eagerly.

“Oh, you win easily today,” Darag said. “Not one. Ferdia and I fought all day
with hardly a scratch for either of us.”

“You are just in time to hear them explain how this amazing feat happened,”
Conal said, recovered, and as sarcastic as ever.

Ferdia’s cheeks heated. “Tomorrow, if you are not restored, Darag and I will
fight in earnest,” Ferdia said, gritting his teeth. It would be a pleasure to fight
Conal.

“So you were not fighting in earnest?” Atha asked.

Darag laughed. “It was Emer’s idea. We were bound to fight, since Ferdia had
been forced to challenge me. But why were we bound to kill each other? I held the
road. He fought me. Tomorrow, as he said, when everyone is restored, he can
fight someone who is not his brother. Tonight he is spending with us. Everyone
agreed.”

Atha’s face remained unreadable. Conal frowned. “If we are well tomorrow,

that will be well,” he said. Then he clutched the tree again, gritting his teeth
audibly.

“Everyone will want to speak to you in the camp,” Atha said.

“I ate with Maga yesterday. It can’t be much worse,” Ferdia said.

“You haven’t seen our camp,” Darag said. “I wish we needn’t go back there, I
wish we could just all stay out here in the woods for the night. All that screaming
and talking between is so difficult.”

“It’s ridiculous to feel guilty for being fit,” Atha said gruffly. “But we needn’t
go back if you don’t want to. I could bring out some food and we could do that,
sleep by the ford. Why not?” She turned to Ferdia. “Unless you specially wanted
to see the others? Conary, or maybe Inis?”

Ferdia felt as if he were being dragged along on a current he hadn’t expected.
He would have liked to spend the night with just Darag, but he couldn’t possibly
say so to Atha. “Yes, I mean, no,” he stammered. “I’m not sure what I want. I’m
so tired.”

Atha laughed. The normal pink of the inside of her mouth looked strange with
all that paint around it. “You don’t know what tired is, after only one day,” she
said.

“I’ll never call one-day- tired tired again,” Darag agreed.

“And tired just doesn’t compare,” Conal put in, his voice sounding normally
sardonic, only his face belying his tone.

Atha turned to Darag. “I’ll go and get some food and bring it to the ford. Better
if you don’t go back at all to have to deal with questions. Nobody will bother me.
Elba and Finca are frightened of me.” She curled her lip.

“You’re so good at dealing with people,” Darag said, admiringly. “Bring some
ale as well.”

“It’s no use trying to drown troubles, they can swim,” Ferdia said.

“Sometimes a little ale is good for sleep,” Atha said. “I’ll bring some. And I’ll
tell everyone about your day.” She went off down the path again, raising a hand in
farewell. Ferdia couldn’t help but be glad to see her go.

“I’ll tell them too, when I go back,” Conal said. “But tell me, how is Emer?”

“Very well,” Darag said. “She even got to rest today. A lot of the time Ferdia
and I were fighting with swords, because it was safer.” He smiled at Ferdia. “I
told you this was her idea.”

“Is she coming tomorrow?” Conal asked.

“She said she would come in case,” Darag said. “But surely tomorrow you will
all be well and I will be the one to lie at my ease while you protect me.” Ferdia
was disconcerted to see that Conal didn’t look as sure as Darag did.

They made their way back to the ford. Someone had seen to the horses already.
The Connat side was deserted now and looked untidy, trampled and strewn with

leftovers, bits of food the crows were picking over. “They’re probably
disappointed there was no blood today,” Darag said.

“I was thinking it’s strange to see the sun set without being at a funeral,” Ferdia
admitted. Darag shuddered. “Is it awful?” Ferdia asked, tentatively.

“Atha and I make a game of it, counting heads. But yes, it’s awful.” Darag
shook his head and stared across the stream. Ferdia put his hand on Darag’s
shoulder, and Darag leaned back against him. “Today was the last of it,” he said.
“And may all the gods bless Emer for finding a way to spare me killing you.”

They were still sitting like that, quietly, when Atha came back. She was still
painted for war but carrying a basket of food. Ferdia would have moved, but
Darag put out a hand to stop him. Atha sat down on Darag’s other side without
comment. She shared out the food. They ate and drank, talking about fighting,
about people you would want at your side in battle and people you would not. To
his surprise, Atha had a good opinion of Conal. As it grew dark Ferdia felt the ale
going to his head a little. The conversation became more relaxed. Later, Atha
spread out the blankets she had brought. Without discussion she made one bed for
the three of them. Darag lay in the centre and embraced them both.

Ferdia’ s head was spinning. “She is your wife,” he whispered to Darag. He
meant that wives were women, not girls, their wombs had been opened with the
Mother’s blessing, they were fertile ground that could bear children and should be
planted with seed from nobody but their husbands.

He wasn’t quiet enough. Atha laughed. Ferdia sat up abruptly, the blanket
falling off. “Shall we tell him our big secret?” she asked.

“Yes, tell him,” Darag said, drawing Ferdia back down.

“It’s safe, I am pregnant already,” Atha said. “As long as I keep thinking good
strong thoughts of wanting him and don’t let him slip away, the way so many silly
women do, I will bear a son at the Feast of the Mother. Unlike most such, mine
was begotten by my husband.” She laughed again.

“And you’re still fighting?” Ferdia asked, before realising how stupid he was
being. “Forget that,” he said quickly.

Atha embraced him. “You are my husband’s brother, and you are welcome in
our bed,” she said.

It was strange, the three of them together, sometimes unexpectedly awkward,
but in the end strangely satisfying. He was happy when he slept, curled up, with
Darag again between him and Atha.

Orlam ap Ringabur woke them. “Bad news,” she said. “The sun is risen and the
curse still holds.”

Ferdia’ s heart tried to find a way out of his chest.

“Icy water on the neck would have been kinder,” Atha said, sitting up without
regard for her lack of clothes. The designs on her paint were smeared.

“I have said I will fight,” Ferdia said, despairing.

“I can’t,” Darag said, not moving at all.

“I have come to say I will fight in your place,” Orlam said. “I can fight to
defend my homeland.”

“But it’s sacrilege to kill you,” Ferdia protested.

“We have talked about this and we don’t even know if it would count as the
road being defended,” Atha said. “Darag will fight.”

“I will?” asked Darag. A crow across the stream made a derisive noise.

Ferdia felt as if a heavy weight had been dropped onto his shoulders. He stood
up and reached for his clothes. Yesterday morning he had been ready for Darag to
kill him, almost resigned. Now it was a fresh horror. Life was sweeter, it had more
to offer him. It could still be snatched away like this.

“We could do what we did yesterday,” Darag said, still without moving.

For a moment hope rose again, then he shook his head. “For how long?” he
asked. “No, we have to fight.”

“Inis said it may be your doom,” Orlam offered.

“Trample my doom in the mud with the pigs,” Darag said, sitting up at last. “I
will not kill my brother because of doom.”

“Then I will, or he will kill me,” Orlam said. She smiled at Ferdia. “No hard
feelings, I hope?”

“This is crazy,” Darag said. “Ferdia, go away. Go off into the woods. Let me
fight someone else.”

“Go away and do what?” Ferdia asked.

“Live,” Darag said. He groaned.

“You can’t ask him to live without honour,” Atha said, as someone stating an
obvious truth.

“Is it even worth fighting to protect everyone if they are going to be in that state
forever?” Darag asked. “Is it a life worth living? And how long can we go on
without making a single mistake anyway? One mistake from either of us and we
all die. It’s amazing we’ve made it eight whole days. We can’t keep it up
indefinitely. Nobody could.”

“We’re very good,” Atha said.

“Even so,” Darag said. “My grandfather said three or six or nine days, and this
is the ninth and still it goes on.”

“Maybe tomorrow,” Orlam said, but Darag made a hand gesture cutting her off
and she was silent.

“Maybe twelve or fifteen or a hundred and forty-four,” Darag said.

“Not even Necessity knows all ends,” Atha said. “Maybe it is doom.”

“I hate doom,” Darag said, emphatically. “I always knew it would be something
like this, some horrible position where everything is wrong and whatever I choose

leads to disaster. What next, if I kill Ferdia? Killing you? Killing my shadow?
Killing everything I care about in myself? There comes a point to say no, and this
is it.”

“I have said I am ready to fight in your place,” Orlam said.

Darag flung off the blanket and walked off naked into the trees. Nobody said
anything as he walked away.

“I should cross back over the stream,” Ferdia said, after a little while. “They
will be here soon.”

“I need to paint myself and go to my own road,” Atha said. She hesitated, then
embraced Ferdia as kin. “Your name in my heart,” she murmured, quietly so that
Orlam would not hear. He whispered the same back to her.

“And tell Darag,” he said.

“Darag knows,” she said, shaking her head at the trees where he had vanished.

Orlam bowed to Ferdia. He waded back across the stream. It was another
beautiful day, the mist was burning off already. He sat on a rock, his whole heart
yearning to run after Darag, but knowing he must wait. He had never seen Orlam
fight. She might not be as good as Darag. She might not even be as good as
Ferdia. But she was a lawspeaker. If he killed her, he would fall under the Ban.
Nobody would eat with him or speak to him. The gods would turn their faces
away from his prayers. He would be an outcast. He would not exist in the same
world as other people. Yet it would be cowardly to just stand here and let her kill
him. He wondered when Pell and the others would arrive. He felt as if he might
have been hungry at any other time. He went down to the stream and drank,
which, horribly, made him feel a little better.

Emer came first, coming out of the woods. Then a servant brought up Darag’s
chariot and the horses. Orlam spoke to Emer for a little while, too softly for Ferdia
to hear what they said. Then he heard the sound of chariots coming along the road
from the camp. Before he could move, Darag stalked out of the woods. He said
something to Orlam, then picked up his scattered clothes and armour and put them
on. Orlam stepped out of the chariot and went back along the road towards the
camp of Oriel.

Ferdia stared at his friend across the river. What had brought him back? Doom?
Duty? Honour? Fear? Then Pell was there with his father’s chariot. Behind her
was the full might of Connat and the allies. It looked as if absolutely everyone
with arms had come to see him die.

“Are you ready to start again?” Pell asked.

“I have to be,” Ferdia said, climbing in and checking his spears. One of them
was barbed. He looked at Pell. “Where did this come from?”

“Maga,” she said, grinning. “Cruel looking thing, isn’t it? What they call a
belly spear. Goes in straight and can’t come out.”

“It’s horrible,” he said. “I’d rather have another ordinary one.”

“The King of Connat gave you this one for your valour yesterday,” Pell said.

Had Maga guessed they hadn’t been fighting in earnest? Probably she had.
Even if he was trying to kill Darag, he wouldn’t want to hurt him that much. He
wouldn’t want to use that thing on his worst enemy. He would throw it first,
casting it wide to get it out of the way. Maybe Darag would call for swords first
again.

He did not. There was no need for a boast. When he was ready he looked over,
and Darag was standing ready in his chariot, the heads bobbing on the back as
Emer guided the horses slowly forward.

“Ready?” Darag called.

“Yes,” Ferdia said.

He turned to Pell. “Drive straight forward, into the water,” he said. She obeyed
without question. Even before they reached the water he aimed and threw the first
spear, the barbed one, carefully wide. Then, as they splashed into the ford,
Darag’ s three spears came thudding across with hardly a breath between them.
The first one wounded a horse, causing the chariot to swerve violently to the side
before Pell brought it under control again. The second killed the other horse stone
dead as they hit the water, bringing the chariot crashing to a halt in the water.
Ferdia almost fell as he took aim with his own second spear and had to clutch the
side with his free hand. Then Darag’ s third spear came through the air and took
Pell in the chest. The fourth spear was a surprise. It was the one he had thrown, of
course. Darag would hardly have had time to look at it, pulling it out of the
ground and sending it back. It took him in the belly, as it was meant to, twisting
and spilling his guts out. He would have expected it to hurt, for the blood was
coming out in waves, but there was only pressure.

Darag leapt the stream and came to a splashing halt at his side. “Ferdia ap
Cethem, the valiant champion is wounded and his charioteer is down,” he called.
“I will draw out the spear and bind up his wound. He can withdraw in honour and
I will fight the next challenger.”

Nobody questioned this. That was why he had killed Pell, of course. Darag
must have thought he could draw out the spear quickly and heal Ferdia with the
help of strong spells and the weapon. Everything seemed to be turning red, which
was unusual, but there didn’t seem to be anything he could do about it. He
couldn’t move, the spearpoint was pinning him to the chariot. There was water
around his legs. If it had been an ordinary spear it would have been a good idea,
serving honour well. Darag was clever. He would never have thought of that.

“Your name in my heart,” he said, or tried to say, his mouth didn’t seem to be
working well. He knew that when Darag pulled out the spear he would die, before
any charm could take effect. He hadn’t expected that it would hurt quite so much,

or for quite so long before the merciful dark.

(THE SONG)

Under the willows
didn’t I see Darag
armed and alone
defending his people.
Beside the ford
didn’t I see Darag
battle-ready
arming with spears.

Into the rushing stream
didn’t I see Darag
pride of Oriel
advancing with weapons.
Deep in the water
didn’t I see Darag
the fearless warrior
slaying the champions.
Out in the flood’s heart
didn’t I see Darag
tears on his face
killing his companion.
Wild-eyed and weary
didn’t I see Darag
black blood his garment,
mourning his enemies.

4. (Emer)

The camp was bright and bustling in the glitter of sunshine after rain. There were
friends and strangers everywhere in little knots, talking, singing, practicing, even
wrestling. They had the restless look of people trying hard to amuse themselves
when they’ve been kept waiting too long. Emer wished them all far away. She
could hardly put one foot in front of the other. Healing always made her feel
distant, not properly connected to the world. There had been no time to rest today,
after Darag drew out the spear. If she could reach the tent without anyone
stopping her, there might be time to sleep a little before tonight’s funerals and
weddings. If she could sleep even for a few moments she would be able to bear it.
If Elenn was in the same mood she had been for the last few days and didn’t want
to talk she might manage it. She edged carefully through the crowds and into the
welcome dimness of the tent.

Elenn was not there. Just inside she almost tripped over a wad of bloody and
befouled garments. Next to them on the ground was her sister’s silver circlet.
Emer picked it up and frowned at it. It wasn’t at all like Elenn to be so untidy.
Something must be seriously wrong. Though what could be worse than what
Maga had been doing to Elenn the last few days, she couldn’t think.

She turned the circlet over in her hands for a moment. It might be nothing,
some sudden summons. Or it might be something terrible. Elenn had been so quiet
and obedient, she hadn’t wanted to talk at all. Emer had suggested that she could
go to Atha and claim her protection after Firbaith died. Elenn had just shaken her
head and smiled and said she did not mind the new marriage Maga had found her.
It was as if she were sitting in the middle of one of the pearls on her head-dress,
smiling and beautiful and distant, protected from everything happening around
her. Emer had no idea what the consequences might be if something had broken
through that.

She looked longingly at her own bed, set the circlet down carefully on Elenn’ s,
and went in search of her sister.

Several people had seen Elenn leaving with Cethern of Lagin and marked the
direction, so it wasn’t long before Emer came up with them. Maga was standing
near the pyres where today’s dead were waiting for sunset and the spark of fire to
send them on their way. She was smiling in a way Emer recognised as triumphant.
At her side stood Ferdia, looking sullen and unhappy. Cethern was beside him,
frowning. Elenn, on his other side, was almost incandescent with anger, though
she might have seemed calm to someone who didn’t know her. Emer had never
seen her sister so dishevelled. Her hair was loose for mourning, and her blue dress

was stained with grass and blood. The poet ap Dair stood between Elenn and
Maga in an attitude of rapt attention.

Maga was speaking when Emer came up to them. “Most kings wish their sons
to win renown,” she said.

“Most women wish their husbands to survive,” Elenn said, passionately.

Emer eased in beside Elenn. Ap Dair bowed as he made space for her. Maga
smiled a welcome. Elenn ignored her. Cethem gave her a quick glance then
returned his attention to Elenn. Ferdia didn’t even seem to see her.

“I am going to fight anyway. Honour requires it,” Ferdia said, darting a look at
his father that seemed almost guilty.

“Oh Ferdia,” Elenn said. “It isn’t necessary. Someone will open the road or
they won’t, but it needn’t be you. If our parents will agree, let us be betrothed
now, and married later, after the war, and after the details of an alliance have been
worked out.”

“You will have plenty of chances to distinguish yourself in battle without going
up against Atha ap Gren or Black Darag directly, now, when you are still a young
man,” Cethern said.

“I am going to fight anyway,” Ferdia said, staring straight in front of him.

It was clear to Emer that Maga had got at him somehow. Maybe it was clear to
Cethem as well, from the way he was frowning.

Elenn looked on the edge of tears. “I won’t let you die for me,” she said.

Ferdia looked at her sternly, almost with dislike. “I am going to fight anyway,”
he repeated doggedly.

“Why?” Emer asked. Everyone looked at her. “Why are you going to fight?”
she asked again.

Ferdia stared dumbly at her for a moment.

“Yes, why, son?” Cethem asked, eagerly.

“It concerns my honour,” Ferdia said, at last, looking at ap Dair.

“Nothing could dissuade you,” ap Dair said, as if quoting something, or perhaps
making something up.

“Nothing,” Ferdia echoed, gratefully.

Nobody could say anything to that, of course. Elenn drew breath to speak, but
thought better of it and sighed instead. Emer wanted to shake Ferdia. He would be
killed. It would break Elenn’ s heart. Worst of all, she would have to help, or stand
by and watch Darag kill him. It was only then she realised how bad things were. It
would break Darag’ s heart even more surely than Elenn’ s. Indeed, it might
distress Darag so much that he could not keep fighting. Her breath caught on that.
It didn’t bear thinking about, because if Darag couldn’t go on then the army of
Connat came forward into Oriel. This didn’t seem like chance. This seemed like a
plan. Emer looked at her mother, the master-planner. She was smiling sweetly at

Cethem. Emer looked back at Elenn. A tear had escaped her brimming eyes and
was trickling down her cheek. There was something terrible and relentless in this,
something far beyond ordinary cattle raiding, or even ordinary war.

There was only ever one way to stop Maga, one person who could stop her. She
had to find her father. Maga’s smile reminded her only too well of the last time
their parents had been at war with each other. Allel could stop her, though it
wouldn’t be easy even for him.

“Do we have a betrothal tonight?” Maga asked at last.

Cethern let go of his beard, which he had been tugging gently. He looked at
Ferdia, who was staring at the grass at his feet. Cethern did not quite shake his
head. He turned to Elenn, who was standing perfectly still and quiet but whose
face was now running with tears. “We do,” he said, and he sounded thirty years
older than he had before.

Elenn bowed to Cethern, who bowed back gravely. Then she put out her hand
to Ferdia, who took it and held it tightly.

“Tonight after the funerals then,” Maga said

The sunset, the funerals and the betrothal passed in a haze for Emer. Allel was
there but she could not hope to have him alone for a moment. There was plenty of
food afterwards, for once, fresh supplies must have come from somewhere. Ferdia
did not seem to have much appetite. Elenn kept looking at him, but he rarely met
her eyes. Allel too kept very quiet, drinking with Cethern and Lew of Anlar, who
seemed to be a permanent addition to their dinner group now.

Elenn and Ferdia led the first dance. Most people seemed to be wild and
enthusiastic in the firelight. Emer waited until the second dance, which was one
anyone could dance, men together, women together, even children with parents.
She grabbed Allel’ s hand and pulled him up. “Dance with me, Father,” she said.
Their eyes were on a level now, as they had not been when last they had danced
together.

“There are plenty of younger people who would be only too pleased to dance
with you,” he complained, and gestured to Lew, who smiled. Lew could hardly be
used to being called young.

“Oh please, come on,” she said, not letting go of his hand.

Allel sighed and shrugged and followed her as if he had no choice. As soon as
they were far enough away from the others, with enough dancers between them
and Maga that they couldn’t be seen or heard, she stopped and took both his
hands. “You must stop Mother doing this to Elenn.”

“I can’t,” he said, freeing his hands and gesturing with them as if to ward her
off. “I promised.”

“Promised who? What? Why?”

Allel looked wretched. “Promised Maga I wouldn’t interfere.”

“Wouldn’t interfere with what?” Getting him to talk tonight was like teasing
out a sea anemone with a piece of seaweed.

Allel sighed and looked around as if for help. Everyone around them was
moving in the dance. Nobody was even looking at them. “I shouldn’t tell you.”

“I have kept your secrets before, even at cost to myself,” Emer said, which was
a truth Allel had to acknowledge. “I can’t see what you can have promised that
would stop you helping Elenn.”

“Well, but make sure this doesn’t go any further,” he said. “Maga said she
could bring the whole island together to conquer Oriel, and conquer it, right to the
northern sea, before the feast of Lew and the harvest. If she does, she has
dominion over me, and if she does not, I have dominion over her, no more
fighting between us in either case. But I must not interfere. I promised I would
leave her alone to do what she wanted to arrange it.”

“This entire war, all this craziness, is a war between the two of you?” Emer’s
voice shook with anger. She felt almost drunk with it.

“1 didn’t think she could possibly do it,” Allel said. “You know what she can be
like.”

“I know what she can be like and if you can’t resist her how much less can we?
Have you thought what this is doing to Elenn?” Emer glared at her father.

“They have all of them been good men, and good marriages,” Allel said. “Maga
is trying to win, yes, but she has a care for you children as well. She wouldn’t hurt
you to try to win.”

“I don’t know how you can be so blind and stupid,” Emer burst out. “Do you
know she has been trying to marry me to Lew ap Ross?”

“He is the king of Anlar, and he has no heir,” Allel said, uncertainly.

“He is forty- five years old at least, and he is Conal’s uncle!”

“I spoke to her for you, for Conal,” Allel said, much more confidently. “She
made him an offer and he wouldn’t take it. She may have suggested Lew, but she
hasn’t forced him on you. He wouldn’t be a bad match in many ways. Yes, he’s
older, but he’s a good man.”

What Emer wanted to say to that would have taken all night, and it was
irrelevant anyway. “I am not going to marry him. I am going to marry Conal. But
what about Elenn? Do you know she loves Ferdia, and Ferdia doesn’t love her and
Maga has somehow forced him into fighting, even though he is young, Darag’s
best friend and nothing like as good as Darag?”

“1 didn’t know he didn’t love her,” Allel said. “But — ”

“She has seen four good husbands die for her, and three dozen good men die
trying to win her, and now she is going to see the man she loves die just like them,
under Darag’s spears. You have to stop this, whatever you promised, you have to
stop Maga, she is completely out of control and nobody else has ever had any way

of checking her.”

“I promised,” Allel said, moving aside to let a pair of hurtling dancers pass
them. “If I get in her way, she will call it interference and call the whole thing off.
She hasn’t forced you or Elenn to marry anyone. Ferdia is Cethern’s son, not
mine. It’s not my responsibility if he’s fighting people who are better than he is.”
“And you’ll let Elenn break her heart like that?”

“She has agreed to it, and so has he. Maga may have suggested these
men to Elenn, but Elenn has accepted them. Making marriage alliances is a
reasonable thing for a king to do.” He hesitated. “Or a queen.”

“She’s agreed to let you be king if she loses?” Emer was horrified.

Allel looked uncomfortable. The music stopped, but he led Emer aside out of
the way as another couple dance began. “I’m of the Royal Kin the same as she is.
We were both chosen, in a way,” he said, in a tone of justification.

Emer had been taught by Inis for a year, and by ap Fial for years before that.
“You know better than that, Father,” she said. “Kingship is not something to be
passed from hand to hand like an arm-ring. It is a sacred trust, and what’s more
she just won’t give it up.”

“She swore she would, if she lost.”

Emer was silent for a moment, amid the noise of the harps and drums and
dancers leaping in the firelight. “Then maybe she will,” she said. “But she should
not. The gods will not permit it.”

“The gods are showing every sign so far of being on your mother’s side,” Allel
said.

“I’m sure Damona the Just isn’t,” Emer said, stretching her fingers as she said
the holy name.

Allel frowned. “They are not my concern. If I come to be king, I will stand
between them and the people then. Now, that is for Maga.”

“Is the chance of kingship so much for you that you will risk my happiness and
Elenn’ s and Mingor’s if need be, for the chance of it? You know there are no
children in marriage without love. And all of this is hurting Elenn more than she
can bear.”

“It’s not your happiness, and love grows in marriage,” he said, uncomfortably.
Emer knew then that this was hopeless, that he would not help her. He could be as
stubborn as Maga when he was put to it. He had always resented Maga for being
chosen king when he was the warleader. “It is my promise. Anything I say she
will see as interference. And besides, you exaggerate. Elenn is very young. She
will recover. Or maybe Ferdia will beat Darag and open the road.”

“I always thought I could trust you,” she said, feeling that assurance slip away.
The world seemed colder without it. As a child, Maga had never been fair, but
Allel always had, when she could attract his attention.

“I haven’t told her you’re driving Darag’s chariot,” Allel said, smiling
placatingly.

“You know?” This was another, even colder shock.

“Did you really think a scarf would hide you from your own father?”

“Who else knows?”

“Nobody,” Allel smiled. “I haven’t told anyone, and I have stifled speculation
whenever I can. When people have talked about it I have suggested it is ap
Ringabur the lawspeaker, in disguise because she should not stand among the
fighting folk of Oriel.”

“And why didn’t you tell anyone?”

“I wanted Darag to hold. 1 don’t want Maga to win.” Allel laughed.

“Then you are not even keeping your promise,” Emer said, despising him.
There had to be another way out, even if he had failed her.

“Not telling isn’t intervening. She can’t know I knew, and even if she did, it
isn’t the same as trying to stop her plans,” Allel protested.

Emer looked at him and saw not her kind and powerful father but a tired greedy
man, past middle age, his hair thinning on top. “Elenn thinks that those people are
dying for her,” she said. “She’ll live with that burden her whole life. I am helping
Darag to kill them, and they are my kin and my friends. I will have to live with
that. But you don’t understand, and you should. They’re dying for you, you and
Maga are killing those good people. And the same would hold if there had been
no curse, if there had been a war with battles in the normal way of things. The
weight of the souls of everyone who dies in this war falls on you and Maga
because you are both so selfish and so caught up in your own personal war that
you can’t see how terrible it is to fight that war with other people’s lives. If words
were not wounding enough could you not have taken up swords, or staves, or
snowballs in winter as we did in Muin, or wrestled in the mud for supremacy? It
would have better become the dignity of the kingdom of Connat than this.”

Allel stood speechless as she turned and walked away. She was shaking with
anger and tiredness and she went back towards her tent. She did not know if Elenn
would be sleeping there tonight or if she would go with Ferdia. She hoped her
sister might at least have one good night with the man she loved to remember
afterwards. Thinking of Ferdia’s face, she did not thi nk so. If he loved anyone it
was Darag. Maybe Elenn loved him because he didn’t love her, he didn’t press
her to love him like all the others. She hoped he would be kind. He would die
tomorrow, there wasn’t any way around it. He would die, and Elenn and Darag
would break their hearts, and she couldn’t do anything to stop it, because the only
alternative was Darag dying, with Conal and all the folk of Oriel after him.

As she went into the tent she tripped over the pile of bloody clothes. She
pushed them outside wearily. Then she went out again and put them carefully out

of the way, at the side of the tent where Elenn would not trip over them coming
back. It wasn’t much to do for her sister, all things considered.

Inside the tent once more, finally able to close her eyes, she was too tired to
sleep. She kept running over the argument with her father, thinking of better
things she might have said, hearing again his denial of her happiness as a thing of
importance compared to his own power. She had always loved her father. Still,
she had Conal. Conal had said he would go away with her. He did not care more
about power. He could be trusted. She tried not to think of Conal’ s face riven with
pain but to remember the feel of his arms around her. She remembered the nights
they had had together, just sleeping, the comfort of the warmth of his body. She
counted them, recalling the feel of each, in Edar at the feast of Bel, in the Isles, on
the road, in Muin, the whole blessed month in Muin. Recalling Conal in Muin at
last she felt sleep close over her head like deep water.

Sometime later, she became aware that Elenn and Beauty had come into the
tent, and that Elenn was weeping. “Elenn?” she asked, trying to pull herself up out
of sleep.

“Go to sleep,” Elenn said, her voice full of misery and resentment.

Without opening her eyes, Emer pulled herself up and reached over to her
sister’s bed. She opened her arms and embraced Elenn, who was stiff for a
moment and then hugged her back. For a little while they held each other as they
had when they had been tiny children and their parents had been quarrelling. “Go
to sleep” Elenn said again at last, this time affectionately. “I think you are still
asleep.”

“Mmm,” Emer agreed, “You go to sleep too.” She let her sister push her into
her own bed and pull the blanket back over her, and held sleep off until she heard
Elenn lie down on her own bed. Then she went back to sleep, a wonderful healing
sleep which brought her the dream that showed her the way out she had thought
was impossible.

VIII - Taking Responsibility

1. (Conal)

If she came today, — which he would not hope, because hope hurt too much — but
if she came he would be able to explain to her that she was wrong. Pain
interrupted once more. Conal breathed hard through it but held the thread of
thought. There was no time now when pain was not, but there was rhythm still,
ebb and flow of the pain-tide. He could hold a thought through to the ebb, and
even speak it after. Last night, at least, he had been able to speak it. Now, every
whole thought held was a victory. If she came, if, he would tell her Amagien had
not been cruel to make him face the bull when he was afraid. If he had not faced
him, if he had not faced his fear, how could he have held through this?

He breathed. The sun was shining. The elm, which by rights should have been
crushed by the force of his grip, remained straight and tall and utterly indifferent.
Birds were singing in the spring sunshine. The pain was not in any one place. It
moved through him like breath, like the breath of an enemy contesting for
mastery. He would not give in. He could gain very little by standing here in
defiance of the pain without moaning or screaming or weeping, but what little
there was to be gained was hard won learning, and he embraced it.

As soon as he heard the chariot hurtling down the road towards him he turned
and signalled the waiting child. It was a girl today, ap Casmal, not yet twelve
years old. She did not hesitate but pelted off, her hair flying up behind her. The
camp would have some warning, for whatever good it would do. Conal was one
of the strongest of them this morning.

Emer was alone in the chariot, a scarf bound about the lower part of her face.
She turned in a tight circle and drew to a halt beside him. He took a step towards
her, and another step. He breathed. The pain, its tide rising, breathed through him.
He took another step despite it. He could endure this. He could endure anything
he set himself to endure. He reached the chariot and realised he would have to
climb in.

Emer was saying something about Darag and Ferdia. He could not attend yet.
He needed to be in the chariot. He needed to be in the chariot now. But while he

could make himself stand upright and even walk, his body balked at climbing.

“Help me in,” he said. Even speaking was an effort.

“I knew you would come back with me,” she said, satisfaction clear in her
voice. “Quickly.” She was there, and the touch of her arms was a comfort but she
could not lift him. The horses were fresh and would not keep still without her
hand on the reins. They shifted uneasily, making the chariot bounce. Conal did
not scream, held on to not screaming. At last he made it in and stood there
trembling.

“Back to the ford?” she asked, and took his silence for assent. She took up the
reins again and set off once more at racing speed. He could only clutch the side of
the chariot and breathe, trying not to pant. The chariot jolted and lurched and he
could not move in compensation, so every jerk went through him with a wave of
pain, setting the waves at angles to each other so that they eddied and crashed
over him in a series of crests without rhythm. After a little while there came an
ebb at last. They were almost through the little belt of woodland, they would be at
the ford in a moment. Emer’s eyes were hard as flints, she stared out over the
horses’ heads as a charioteer should. They came out from the shade of the trees
and Emer checked the pace of the horses.

The army of Connat was in front of them, filling the space between the river
and the trees on both sides of the river, champions in chariots, painted spearmen
on foot around them, banners rippling out in the breeze. He saw Mingor looking
enthusiastic and Allel looking reluctant and Cethem of Lagin, afoot, his face full
of grief and fury. Conal fumbled blindly behind him for a spear. His hand met
empty space. He turned his head to look, and the chariot bounced over a rut in the
road. The pain was everything and everywhere and all of the world for a time, so
that it was a moment before he realised that his eyes were fixed on three empty
slots where the spears should have been.

He stared at the emptiness for a moment, then started to laugh. He was wracked
with laughter, as with the pain, which it exacerbated. Emer looked at him,
frowning over her scarf. He could not stop laughing. He had his sword, but he
could barely stand. Would they wait for him to climb out of the chariot to
challenge them? The waves of laughter fought the waves of pain and Conal fought
both of them for mastery. Emer drew the chariot to a halt facing the army of
Connat.

“Enemies of my people,” he said, forcing his voice even by will alone. “I
challenge you. I am Conal ap Amagien, of Edar, Conal the Victor and I hold this
ford against whoever will stand.” A wild high giggle escaped him on the last
word.

Mingor stepped forward, and Conal realised that unlike Darag he could not
fight anyone who came against him. If he killed Mingor or Allel it would set a

bloodfeud between him and Emer, and he could not risk that. Allel, perhaps
moved by the same thought, put a restraining hand on Mingor’s shoulder. Cethem
pushed his way forward to stand by Allel’ s chariot.

The pain came swelling up again so that Conal could not hear what they said
and he knew only that there was a silence he was expected to reply into. “This
ford is held against you,” he repeated. He drew his sword.

“You are in no fit state to fight,” Allel said, “Go back, Victor. You will die to
no purpose.”

“Young people have not learned that life has endings,” said a voice from
behind. Conal did not turn to look, he did not need to. He would have recognised
Inis’ s voice anywhere. “But I am an old man and here I am to stand beside my
grandson, with my son and my granddaughter to stand with me.”

Inis and Orlam came forward, supporting Conary between them.

“Ap Fathag. . . ” Allel began.

Inis shook his head. “Weak as we are, we are all coming.”

“Do you stand to fight?” Cethem asked.

“I do,” Orlam said. “I will hold this ford.”

“No,” Allel said. “You cannot. A lawspeaker or a priest might fight to defend
their home, yes, but not stand to hold a road when we must kill you at once and on
purpose.”

“Then you must risk that, and risk what Rathadun will make of it,” Orlam said.
Allel and Cethern looked troubled, and one or two of the older faces among the
enemy frowned, but more looked eager and impatient.

“You can stand to fight if you insist,” Allel said. “You may not hold the ford in
single combat. We will all come against you. Either you are fighting folk or you
are protected, you cannot be both.”

“Then I will fight you, Allel ap Dalian,” Conary said. His voice was cracked
and feeble, but his determination showed through clearly. “Conal, will you lend
me your chariot?”

“No,” Conal said, speaking against the pain which was rising again. “I will
rather fight to defend you.”

“I have already lost one nephew to this foolishness,” Conary said. Emer made a
noise in her throat but said nothing. “I forbid you to fight now. There will be time
when I am fallen, perhaps. Give me the chariot and your charioteer.” Conal gritted
his teeth against pain and frustration.

“I will fight you, Conary ap Inis,” Cethem said. “I am on foot, as you see. My
son and your nephew have killed my charioteer and broken my chariot. But you
should know that your nephew is not dead. He swooned over my son’s body and
holds the ford no longer, but he lives and will recover.”

“Thank you,” Conary said, and swayed with the same pain that wracked Conal.

So Darag lived. Conal thought he was glad to hear it.

Orlam drew Conary’s sword and put it in his hand. Inis handed him his shield.
He took a lurching step forward towards Cethem. Cethem’s sword blocked
Conary’s easily. Conal watched with horror-struck fascination. The wonder was
that Conary could stay on his feet and avoid Cethem’s blows. His sword and
shield were clearly weights he could hardly lift. Yet time and again he brought
them up to block as it was needed.

“That’s practice,” Emer breathed admiringly, as Conary staggered but stopped
another high blow. Practice and something else, Conal thought, as he stood and
breathed, enduring. He was not sure he could do what Conary was doing. Conary
brought his shield up again. He had never looked so much the king of Oriel as he
did now, stooped and staggering and still undefeated.

Emer turned to look at something behind as the pain ebbed a little. “What is it,”
he asked, holding what strength he had for when he would need it.

“Everyone’s coming,” she said. Her voice was awed. “Meithin and Leary and
your mother and Leary’s, everyone, all the fighting folk of Oriel, dragging
themselves along.”

Conal did not take his eyes off Conary. There was another exchange of blows.
Conary feinted high and thrust low. Cethem blocked the blow with his shield and
brought his own sword up fast towards Conary’s belly. Conary brought his shield
down to block, but too slowly. Cethern’s sword went in and as Conal’s pain rose
high again, Conary cmmpled slowly forward onto the grass.

“Do you yield, people of Oriel?” Allel was asking when Conal could hear
again. “Will you give us what we ask?”

“What do you ask,” Inis asked in reply. “The Black Bull of Edar? Or our
country and our homes? Is this cattle raid or war now?”

Allel did not answer, which was answer enough.

“Isn’t this enough?” Inis asked, conversationally. He turned to Conal and
waved his arm in cheerful enquiry. “Don’t you think this is enough?”

Conal remembered a dream, or something like a dream. He raised his hands and
his voice as the pain flowed strong again. “Isn’t this enough, Rhianna?” he
addressed the air. “Damona of the Judgements, have we not suffered even as the
mare suffered? Bel, Lord of Moderation, who made the wards that make us what
we are, isn’t this enough ?”

The pain rose to a new crest as he shouted his defiance to the gods, and on that
crest came a new wrenching. He screamed then, because his mouth was open to
speak, and he could not stop it. He thought the enemy might take it for a battlecry,
because it was surely as loud as one.

Something heard. As the pain was at its highest, blood gushed out from
Conary’s fatal wound, and out of the black bloodtide came Blackie. He thundered

forward towards the enemy, head lowered and horns ready. It worked at Edar,
Conal thought crazily, wondering which god might have thought this a good
answer. Rhianna, maybe. Then, as the wrenching ebbed and his scream died
away, the ground around him was covered with the shadows of champions
advancing on foot. The pain ebbed and ebbed, and still they came, the shadow of
an army wielding the shadows of weapons. He could recognise his own shadow,
many times repeated, clustered around him and going forward. Conary’s shadows
rose from his fallen body, and Leary’s flowed out from him, and Finca’s from her,
and shadows from all of those there who had borne the pain and stood ready to
fight on the ninth day. More and more shadows came pressing up from behind;
many of them he did not immediately recognise even as they parted around the
chariot and flowed forward towards the army of Connat in eerie silence.

Conal raised his arms and more shadows flowed out of him. The air around was
dark with them, going forward away from him. The army of Connat was giving
way already before the army of shadows. They were back in the water and still the
shadows pursued.

“Should we go too?” Emer asked.

The pain was still running through Conal, and he still had no spears, although
most of his shadows did. “Go on,” he said. Whatever he could do, he would do.
Emer spoke a word to the horses and they moved on, ears back uneasily.

As they went forward among the shadows, the darkness pressed around them
until he could see nothing but darkness in any direction. He heard a cat growl and
saw again the huge cat he had defeated on the heights of Cruachan, there among
the shadows. He was standing alone on a mountain-top, stars falling all around
him. Then he was in the chariot again, moving, with a rush of wings, a swirl of
ravens very close, dark against darkness.

Then the shadow of the ogre Bachlach was there, his huge axe held in both
hands, swinging up to strike at Conal’ s head.

Emer urged the horses on. Bachlach strode after them effortlessly. The pain
was rising again. “I think we can outpace him,” Emer said.

“He didn’t have his turn,” Conal said, forming the words carefully. “He
survived being beheaded, and so did Darag.”

“He’s a god and Darag is his son,” Emer said, not slackening the pace at all.

“How — ” Conal began, but the pain, combined with the jolting of the chariot
was too much.

“I just worked it out,” she said.

Bachlach’ s shadow was in front of them, huge and implacable, axe raised. The
pain swelled up to meet him, the highest crest yet. Conal bowed his head and felt
the axe blow as mercy. The pain did not ebb but left him entirely. His head rolled
down his chest. He caught it in his right hand, laughing. It was smaller than he

would have expected, about the size of the heads on the chariot, not like a living
head. It must have been shrunk already.

They were still driving on through darkness. Bachlach was gone, and so was
the pain. “Are you all right?” Emer asked.

“I thi nk so,” Conal said. After all, his head was safe in his hand and nothing
hurt at all, which was very good. He moved a little, experimentally. He drew a
deep breath. It was wonderful. “I love you,” he said.

The shadows were still all around them in the dark, some of them shaped and
some shapeless, all of them pressing insistently. Another swirl of ravens came out
of nowhere, silently sweeping past. Then the chariot was gone and Emer was gone
and he was falling through the star-shot darkness, his head clutched tight in his
hand.

2. (Elenn)

She smiled at ap Dair, she smiled at her mother, she smiled at the Demedian king,
she smiled at the wedding branches, autumn coloured now, she just smiled and
smiled and waited for it to be over.

It felt as if she had kept that smile on her face every day of the four months
since the black bull had come charging into camp and died at her feet. She had
known at once that Ferdia was dead, though she had not understood what it meant
for the war until later. She had smiled and gone on smiling, hiding everything she
was feeling underneath the smile. It was surprising how much strength she found,
underneath. She had thought she was weak, but all the time her strength had been
there, waiting for her to find it. She had always hidden her secret feelings away
from her mother, but now she hid them from everyone. She was strong. It was
Emer who was weak.

So Elenn waited, smiling her way through all the customary hand-kissing and
congratulations of betrothal. Marriage was so familiar a ritual she could have done
it in her sleep. The only thing that made this different was that the handsome
young stranger standing beside her was not her new husband but his nephew,
come to take his place in this ceremony and escort her back to him. Otherwise, it
was all just the same, even to the dizzy speed of the proceedings. She waited, and
as soon as they let her go to get her things she hastened to tell her sister.

Emer was lying face down on her bed in the room they shared, absolutely still.
Her tangled hair spread out on the blanket. There was none of the relaxation of
sleep, but she could easily have been dead. The first time Elenn had seen her like
that she had rushed to her in alarm. Now, after four months, it seemed almost
normal. All the strength and independence Emer had found since she took up
arms had disappeared since the battle, since Conal’s death.

Elenn closed the door. “Ap Dair is back,” she said to her sister’s unresponsive
back. “He’s come straight from the ship in a tearing hurry,. Urdo wants me.
Wants the alliance, that is, he hasn’t seen me of course. But so much the better. I
am sick of men wanting me for my beauty. He will take the whole army and feed
them and let them fight in his war and keep them as long as it lasts. I am betrothed
to him already and we sail at sunset.”

Emer rolled over slowly and sat up. Her eyes were red and the shadows under
them were darker than ever. “Sunset today? Then you will get away,” she said.

“Yes. I will be High Queen of Tir Tanagiri. And I will take you with me,”
Elenn declared. “I have been thinking about it. If Conal comes back for you he
can find you as well in Caer Tanaga as anywhere else.” In her heart, Elenn was

sure Conal was dead. At the truce talks Atha had told them he was. His mother
and his father had worn their hair loose in mourning. Emer had refused to believe
Atha and gone to ask Darag, who was king of Oriel now, as Elenn had always
known he would be. Darag had told Emer gently that nobody had seen Conal
since the battle. It was true there was no body, but only Emer refused to believe
he was dead. She had been mad, mad like Inis, talking as if she had been in the
battle, when in fact everyone knew she had been back in Cruachan, not even in
the camp. Since then it was as if all the life had gone out of her. Elenn didn’t
understand it. It wasn’t like grief as she knew grief.

More tears welled up in Emer’s eyes. They both ignored them. “Have you
asked Maga if I can come with you?” she asked.

“Not yet,” Elenn said. “But I will, and we are leaving on the tide.” Her clothes
were all in the chest at the foot of the bed. She could just take the whole thing.
She took off her pearl circlet and dropped it in on top of them. She picked up her
comb and turned it over in her fingers, then dropped that in too. She shook off the
orange bridal shawl and folded it. She would need that once more, for the actual
wedding, once she met Urdo. She would wear her cloak. She could collect Beauty
from the kennelmaster on the way and then she would have everything. She
would never come back, never. When Urdo died she would marry someone else in
Tir Tanagiri, someone she would meet there, someone she would choose herself.

“She won’t let me go with you,” Emer said, flatly, breaking into Elenn’ s
thoughts, which were already half way to Tir Tanagiri.

“What makes you think that? It’s a good idea. You’ll be company for me, and
away from here and doing different things.” All Elenn’ s plans for getting away
had counted on taking Emer with her. She recognised that there was an element of
selfishness in this; it would be nice to have somebody familiar there with her. But
even if she didn’t want her, she could not leave Emer in the position she had been
in herself, being forced to do what Maga wanted and knowing she had nowhere
else to go.

“I know all that, and I’m grateful, really I am. But Maga won’t let me go. You
are bringing her an alliance. I am too valuable a piece on the gameboard for her to
give up for nothing.”

“You haven’t asked her either,” Elenn said, reasonably.

Emer shrugged fiercely, showing a flash of her old fire. “I asked to go to
Rathadun to train to be a priest. Ap Fial says I have the skills, and Inis said the
same.”

“It’s twenty-one years training,” Elenn said, sitting down on her own bed.

“I know that,” Emer said. “But I’d be away from here, and I’d like it and be
good at it.”

“Orlam says lawspeakers and priests can go anywhere,” Elenn said. The idea

was new to her. She’d never thought of doing anything like that. But Emer really
wasn’t like her at all. In some ways it might be what her sister needed to help her
get over losing Conal. She had exhausted herself day after day doing the gods’
work throughout the war, after all, and never said a word about it unless you
counted the babbling about axes and ravens when she came down the hill on the
last day. Being an oracle priest was something she could do where madness
wouldn’t be a disadvantage. Elenn shook her head. She wanted Emer to come
back to sanity, not choose madness as an escape.

“Yes. Go anywhere, have their own lives. Be useful. But Mother refused. She
wants to make sure there’s only one way out, the way she wants me to take. So
I’m sure she won’t let me go with you either, kindly as you intend it. I pleaded
with her and Allel for that, and she was adamant. I’m not going through that
again. I don’t have the energy to spare.” Emer sank down on her arms again.

“Couldn’t you go anyway?” Elenn asked, tentatively. “I remember Orlam
saying, and maybe Inis as well, something about them taking anyone at
Rathadun.”

“The way they do it is that they will take a farmer’s child for nothing but expect
a large payment from a king’s child. This means they can keep doing it. Kings’
cast out children might not be welcome anywhere,” Emer said, flat despair in her
voice.

“Ell ask if you can come with me, and you’ll always be welcome with me,”
Elenn said, putting her hand on her sister’s shoulder. “I’ll go and ask now while
she’s with other people.”

“Is Urdo ap Avren here?” Emer asked, her voice muffled.

Elenn almost snapped, then remembered to be patient. At least with Emer she
did not have to keep smiling. “He couldn’t come himself. He’s in the middle of a
civil war. He sent his nephew, the new king of Demedia, and his wife has come as
well. She’s a Jam and wears a veil. It seems very strange. But there are lots of
Jams in Tir Tanagiri. I’ll have to get used to it.”

“He must be a very new king of Demedia,” Emer murmured.

“He is. His father’s dead and his mother’s in rebellion, but Urdo tmsts him.”
She would have a lot of new politics to learn. She could see it would be a lot of
work. But she could do it. She could manage a kingdom, even a huge high
kingdom. As long as she was away from Maga and had a husband who could keep
alive for long enough. She could love a husband, bear him children, do everything
she needed to. “It’s the rebellion that Urdo needs our army for.”

“Mother will be so glad to be rid of the army,” Emer said.

It was true. Maga had raised the army and now they were an embarrassment.
They wanted to fight someone. The Battle of the Ford was neither a victory nor a
real defeat. They had mn from shadows, but the shadows hadn’t actually killed

anyone. The only people killed in the battle were Ferdia and Conary. When the
bull died at Elenn’s feet and the shadows disappeared, the priests and the kings
had decided the war was over. For the time being there was peace, unless anyone
did anything new to provoke more fighting. So the army hadn’t been needed.
They had stayed at Cruachan rumbling with discontent all summer. The allies had
gone home after the patched-up peace, but when they heard that the army of
Connat remained in arms they had kept their people in arms too, afraid Maga was
about to attack someone. Allel had tried to dismiss the army, but how could you
dismiss an army that wanted so badly to stay in arms and make up for the past?

“This is a wonderful solution,” Elenn agreed, not saying that it was her own
idea. “Sit up and put your clothes in your chest, then let’s go and find Maga, then
we can say goodbye and go to the boats.”

Emer sat up slowly as if it were a great effort. She didn’t look at her chest or
pull together the clothes that were scattered about the room, but Elenn decided not
to push. In any case, she didn’t have anything like as many clothes as Elenn, who
had all her wedding gifts. Without looking, Emer picked up her two arm-rings,
which were lying on the floor beside the bed. She pushed them onto her arms.
Then she lifted her chest and looked at Elenn. Elenn picked up her own chest and
led the way out into the hall.

Maga was still talking to the king of Demedia, his wife and ap Dair. “Ah,
girls,” she said, smiling as they came up to her. “Ap Talorgen, ap Guthrum, let me
present my younger daughter.”

Emer set down her chest and bowed, and the two Tanagans bowed in return.
Elenn set down her own chest. Emer was staring at ap Guthrum. Elenn could
understand that. It was hard not to stare. She had hair the colour of muddy straw.
Her veil hid most of her face, but her hands and what was visible were yellowish-
pink, nearer the colour of a pig than a person. Her eyes were as grey as the winter
sea, yet her expressions were kind, as far as Elenn could judge over the veil. She
looked at ap Talorgen, so as not to stare at his wife and saw that he was grinning
at her. She smiled graciously, then turned to her mother.

“I was wondering if my sister might go with us, to make a visit and to spend
some time with me in Caer Tanaga,” Elenn said, boldly.

Maga frowned. Ap Dair looked thoughtful. Ap Guthrum blinked. Ap Talorgen
smiled. “I don’t see why not, if your parents don’t mind,” he said. “There will be
room on the ship.”

Maga smiled as ap Talorgen turned to her, but shook her head decisively. “I
need Emer here,” she said. “She hasn’t been well, and she is to be married soon.”

Emer raised her head and looked at Elenn. Her eyes held a mixture of defiance
and pleading.

“Just for a few months, perhaps?” ap Guthrum said. “The winter climate in the

south can be good for recovery from illness.” Elenn was right, she was kind.

“It just isn’t possible,” Maga said, with regretful finality. Emer’s face was full
of resigned despair. Elenn wasn’t afraid that her sister would outright kill herself.
She was no coward. But she might throw herself to the front of any fight that
offered itself. Or, worse, she might just stop eating. Elenn had been coaxing her
sister to eat as it was.

“We’ve packed her clothes,” Elenn said. “She could be back in the spring.”

But Maga knew as well as she did that if Emer got away she’d never come
back. She just shook her head. “It’s touching to see how much you love your
sister, but you will need to give all your love to your husband now,” she said.

Elenn wanted to draw herself up to full height and demand to know how much
love Maga gave Allel, how after everything, Maga dared lecture her about love
and marriage. But she held her smile. Arguing that way with Maga didn’t achieve
anything. Indeed, she knew she had lost and Maga had won. She looked at Emer
with regret. She couldn’t do anything else. She had to save herself even if that was
all she could do.

“Who does the younger ap Allel marry?” ap Talorgen asked.

“Lew ap Ross, of Anlar,” Maga said. She sounded proud, as if she expected ap
Talorgen to congratulate her on her alliances. He just looked blank, as if he had
never heard of Anlar. Emer said nothing, just stood there looking miserable. “Her
sweetheart was killed in the fighting,” Maga continued, still smiling, clearly
feeling she needed to explain why Emer looked so sad.

“He is not dead,” Emer said. “He is falling through the falling stars, but he will
find his way home.”

Ap Dair leaned forward, clearly fascinated. “The falling stars?” he asked.

Emer looked at him with contempt. “You find my mother’s lies inspiring now.
You turn your back on true poetry,” she said.

“She’s mad,” ap Dair said, recoiling.

“Recovering from madness,” Maga said. She turned to Elenn. “Are you ready
to go? The army are getting onto the boats already.”

“I only need my dog,” Elenn said, her chin high and her eyes meeting Maga’s.

“Shall we walk out to the kennels, then?” she asked. Ap Talorgen gave her his
hand to help her rise, then did the same for his wife. Then he picked up Emer’s
chest, easily, as if it were light. Maga led the way out of the hall and they all
trailed after her.

Ap Dair walked beside Elenn. “You are more beautiful than ever,” he said. “It’s
strange. When I first saw you, I thought you were very beautiful. When everyone
was dying for love of you, I sang that you were the most beautiful woman on the
island. But there is something in your face now that makes my memories of you
seem shallow. Urdo will be proud of you.”

Emer looked at him silently for a moment. She couldn’t think of any possible
response. Telling him to drop dead would have been satisfying, but she might
need him again. “Thank you for helping to arrange this marriage,” she said.

Allel was waiting at the kennels, Beauty with him. She was waiting patiently,
even when she saw Elenn she only gave a little whine and did not rush to her. She
was almost full grown now, her head nearly on a height with Elenn’ s when she
was standing. The kennel master had trained her very well.

Allel had something folded in his arms. “This is a gift for your husband,” he
said, bowing and handing it to Elenn. It was leather, tanned and supple, folded
over on itself. Emer gave a little gasp. It took Elenn a moment longer to realise
what he was giving her, and then she had to suppress a shudder. It was the hide of
the black bull, the bull that had been Maga’s pretext for the war. It was a
magnificent gift, and a terrible insult to Maga to give it to Elenn to take away. She
looked up at her father, who was smiling. He wanted what was best for her, but he
was usually so weak, compared to their mother.

She searched for something to say. “It must have been tanned by someone who
knew all the charms well to have it ready so soon.”

“I did it all myself,” Allel said.

Elenn risked a glance at Maga, who was smiling unreadably. There would be
storms ahead.

“Will you come with me to the ship?” she asked generally.

After she had embraced her family on the strand she went up the little
gangplank onto the rocking ship. Ap Talorgen put the leather into her chest with
her other belongings. She stood with the chest on one side and Beauty on her
other side, her hand resting on her dog’s head. Maga and Allel stood together in
something that looked like united amity from the distance the boat gave. Emer
raised her hand in farewell. Elenn waved back. She wondered if Emer was mad.
She hadn’t gone mad because of grief herself, but she had always had a body.
With Ferdia she had even had a head. She would not think of that, would never
think of that again if she could help it. Poor Ferdia, too good, too honourable to
live.

The sun was setting behind the hills of Tir Isamagiri and the boat slipped gently
away from the shore. She waved one last time then turned her back on her home
and her family and stared out over the rose-gold water towards her hopes for the
future. She knew Urdo would spend one night with her and be off to war. She was
used to that. She was more concerned with the work she had never yet done, the
administration of his forts and organisation of his supplies. She would learn.
Beauty stood silently beside her, her warmth and solidity a comfort. Though ap
Talorgen and ap Guthrum tried to make her more comfortable, Emer stood still
and straight as a figurehead through the night, her smile carefully on her lips, her

eyes fixed hopefully before her.

3. (Ferdia)

Beneath the world, Ferdia does not yet know he is dead. He has come through the
rain of stars, through the fire, through the narrow gates, past their guardians, who
ignored him. Now he walks downwards, which seems to be the thing to do. His
wounds are visible, but no longer bleeding. He has no idea how he came to be
here. The walls are packed earth, making a narrow corridor. He passes a three-
headed dog, which reminds him of something he has already forgotten. It raises its
heads to watch him walk by, then settles them down again on its paws.

He hears the lamenting around several corners, breaking the stillness. When he
comes up to them at the dark landing place he knows he is down among the dead,
and wonders how he came here.

The dead do not talk as they wait, though many remember how to weep. There
is no recognition in their eyes. They stand in the darkness, all together, but each
alone.

When the boat comes slipping silently down to the landing, Ferdia, always
polite, is pushed to the back as the dead push forward in desperate urgent spasm,
as if time could have meaning here.

The hooded boatman reaches with his pole, pushing the dead aside, choosing
the ones he will carry. This trip is for those who were killed by Darag. There are
enough of them to fill the boat.

Up in the sunlight, Darag knows it and weeps. The tears reach Ferdia as a thin
thread of regret. He remembers his name and his death. The boat slips
downstream, crowded with lamenting souls of those who fought and lost forever.

Ferdia stares into the darkness, remembering spears, one thrown over glittering
water, one thrown in a sunlit field. His best friend, his dear enemy, his broken
heart. It is his lost future he mourns most. His life, his hopes, his father’s
kingdom, thrown away with nothing in exchange.

The boat comes at last to shore. Ferdia stands alone before the dark throne in
the pillared hall, a shadow among shadows. The Lord of the Dead and his Bride
look at him sadly, and judge as they must.

When he has given back his name, the sinews of his life and station, all he has
been and done, his thin moth soul goes on to rebirth, wailing in the wind.

There is not, in this case, very much left at all.

4. (Emer)

“Queen of Anlar sounds well, does it not?” Allel asked, pleadingly.

Emer said nothing, as she had said nothing all the time her father had been with
her. She submitted to allow her father to arrange the folds of the bridal orange
overdress one more time. She wondered if the color looked as bad on her as it did
on Elenn.

“Not quite as well, perhaps, as High Queen of Tir Tanagiri, but well enough.
And Fialdun is a strongly built fortress, and Anlar is a strong ally of ours.” He
gestured to the Vincan tapestry that covered one of the walls of the dusty little
room Lew had given her.

“At least Ell be away from you and Maga,” she muttered, unable to keep silent
any longer.

Allel patted her shoulder. “Em so glad you’re being sensible at last, if you can
call a marriage half a month after the Feast of the Mother sensible. The branches
will be bare twigs and you’ll both freeze your toes off.”

“None of it is sensible, or my choice,” Emer said. “Em getting married because
Maga was making my life unendurable and she carefully left me no other
options.”

“Conal is dead,” Allel said. “It’s nine months since the battle, and nobody has
seen any sign of him.”

“Do you think Ed be marrying Lew if I didn’t know that?” Emer asked, turning
on her father with bitter anger. “He’s falling through the falling stars, and that
may be the road to death, or he may be falling forever. His name is written in my
heart. I know I need to go on from there, to live my life without him. But the way
I would choose to go on isn’t this — there are other things I could do, things I
would do better. I am a person, a human being. Father, look at me. It isn’t too late
even now. Let me go. She refused to let me go with Elenn, or to go to Rathadun,
and she has had me too carefully guarded for me to get away. Nobody is guarding
me now in this hour before the wedding. Turn your back and I will go out of the
dun and down to the harbor. I won’t disgrace you by joining with your enemies,
I’ll leave Tir Isamagiri to find some life fit for myself far away in Narlahena or
Lossia or Sifacia.” For a moment she almost believed it might yet be possible.

Allel frowned petulantly. “Or on the moon,” he said. “Do you call living as a
mercenary champion in some strange land a fit life for a king’s daughter?” He and
Maga were still at feud over which of them now held the kingship, with Maga
swearing she could not renounce it and had been beaten by a trick, but Emer was
undoubtedly still a king’s daughter. There was no getting away from that.

“A fitter life than what you and Maga would give me,” Emer said. She turned
her copper and bronze arm-ring with the fingers of her other hand. If Conal had
lived she would have been able to escape no matter how closely guarded she was.
She had been so tired, so very tired all the time since the battle, everything
exhausted her. She would lie on her bed and weep, and sometimes even weeping
took too much effort so she would just lie there. Caring about anything at all was
difficult. For the last few days she had felt a little better. It was almost as though
there had been something holding her down that was gone. She wondered what it
might have been. She had thought it was grief, but she had not stopped grieving
and yet the weight of not caring had lifted.

There was a scratch at the door. “Come in,” Allel called, heartily. Emer could
tell how relieved he would be to get rid of her.

“You can’t have it both ways,” she said, almost hoping someone would
overhear her. “You can’t tell yourself it’s all alright and at the same time feel
guilty about it.”

Allel turned his head away and did not reply.

It was the oracle-priest Ap Fial who came in. “Not long before sunset,” he said.

“I’ll leave you two together,” Allel said.

“Oh no, stay,” Emer said, feeling cruel. She turned to ap Fial eagerly. “Could
my mother have cursed me?” she asked.

Allel shuddered. “I’ll see you soon,” he said, and took a step towards the door.

“Never under the Hawthorn knowledge,” ap Fial replied, ignoring Allel, his
eyes going distant as he answered the question. “Though parents sometimes do set
a curse on their children to protect them.”

“Not the Hawthorn knowledge,” Emer answered. Allel left, still smiling
nervously. There had been times when Emer had understood the enjoyment Inis
got out of being mad and almost wanted to give way to it. “I’ve known all that for
years, you taught me it yourself — remember the mother who set a curse that her
son could only be killed by a green boar with no ears and then he told his best
friend and then quarrelled with him? I always wondered how his friend managed
to get the boar to stand still to be dyed?”

“Stop babbling, lady,” ap Fial said. “I am here to bless your womb for
marriage.”

The form of address stopped her for a moment. Ap Fial usually called her
“child” and she was a charioteer, a champion and not a lady, wasn’t she? How
could she have agreed to this marriage at all? Could Maga really have cursed her.

“I know why you’re here,” Emer said. “But could Maga have cursed me with
helplessness for the last nine months? I have had no energy to do anything.”

“She might have if she had your blood and hair. There is a charm for that to the
Stormcrow. But it should not work unless you had the displeasure of the gods,

which I know you do not, or unless part of your soul was outside the world, which
it might have been. Now I must bless you.”

“1 did not seek this marriage.”

“Nor did I force it on you. I am here in Anlar for the same reason you are, to
get away from your mother. I’ve spoken to Lew, and I’ll be staying with you.”

“That’s wonderful,” Emer said. Maybe it wouldn’t be too bad after all. She
would have ap Fial with her, and he was a friend. Lew had a smile like Conal’s.
And she had already tentatively worked out a way of reorganising Fialdun, except
that everywhere in her old plan were little holes in the shape of Conal. She
wouldn’t weep, not now, not again. Bachlach had struck off his head. She would
love him forever but she had to make some kind of life without him. She put her
hand up to her scar and rubbed it with her knuckles.

Ap Fial raised his hands to invoke Mother Breda and begin the blessing.

At sunset, Allel came back to lead her out of the hall.

Few was smiling. The people holding the bare branches were smiling. The mud
underfoot was frozen hard as iron, and almost as cold as iron. Emer could not
smile. She knew if she tried she wouldn’t be able to hold back the tears. So she
walked out gravely, enduring the smiles and the little sentimental sighs and the
look on Few’s face as if they had been minor wounds she could not stop for in
battle. She could even bear it when she saw that one of Few’s branch-bearers was
Amagien. Why not, he was Few’s brother after all? She bowed to him gravely,
and he bowed back, hand on heart. She would have had Amagien at her wedding
in any case.

The thought was almost too much for her. She held back the tears. She had
driven the chariot for nine days at the Battle of the Ford. Nobody here knew that,
unless Amagien had discovered it, but she let the knowledge of it strengthen her
as she danced the marriage measure with Few, treading down the branches and at
last taking both his hands and making her vows in a clear voice before the gods
and the assembled people. She had said she would do this. At least she would get
away from Maga.

Few held Emer’s arm as if he thought she might still escape. She looked at him.
He was still smiling. He did not know how reluctant she had been to marry him,
and he would never know. He was a good man, if a weak king, and Conal’s uncle.
She would be the best wife she could be to him.

The hall had been swept and the dogs chased away. The place was lit with
many candles and full of the scent of roast boar. Amagien was playing the harp.
Everyone was making wedding-night jokes, which Lew returned. He kept hold of
Emer’s arm as he drew her through the crowds. There were a few familiar faces
from her last visit, and a few of Maga’s entourage, including ap Dair, but most of
the crowds were strangers to Emer.

Lew led her out in the first dance, whirling her among the confusion. It was a
northern dance, danced in couples, not a southern dance with chains the way they
danced in Connat. Emer hoped she wasn’t too clumsy at it. The exercise made her
feel better in a way, but also almost tired. Lying on the bed and weeping for nine
months had got her out of condition. She would be able to practice the chariot
again here. The stables were good, she remembered, as Lew turned her in his
arms. She would make friends with the stablemaster as soon as she had the
chance.

After the dance Lew again kept her arm. He seemed to know where he was
going, and she had no plans so she let him draw her after him. After a while they
paused between two alcoves. Maga and Allel were sitting together to their right.
Maga was dressed magnificently in primrose yellow, and wearing all her gold.
She smiled at Lew as if he were a new possession. He would not be, Emer swore
silently, she would not guide him towards her mother’s policy but rather away
from it. Emer bowed as coldly and as formally to her parents as she possibly
could.

In the alcove opposite sat Atha and Darag, equally resplendent, both of them
wearing red and silver. Atha had one breast bared to nurse a new baby. Emer had
never thought she could be so pleased to see Darag.

“I didn’t know they were here,” she said in surprise.

“They wanted to come,” Lew replied. “I didn’t see any harm in it when Atha
suggested it, they are one of my oldest alliances. Though ap Ranien, who is one of
my councillors and who you must meet soon, said it might annoy Maga.”

“It might,” Emer said. “But annoying Maga is not the worst thing. And it was
very good of them to come when Atha must have given birth so recently.”

“A nursing mother is lucky at a wedding, yes, but at this time of year they are
quite plentiful,” Lew said, laughing.

“I was thinking of making the journey with the baby,” Emer said. “But shall we
go and greet them?”

She did not wait for Lew to agree but guided him towards Darag’s alcove. “My
blessings on your bed,” Atha said as they approached. “Four children and a
fortunate beginning.”

Lew laughed and bowed, though all of them knew he had had a daughter
already, who was dead. Atha began to joke with him, drawing him a little aside.

Darag put out a hand to Emer. “How are you?” he asked.

She had seen him when they had been patching up a truce after the battle. He
was the only person she would trust to tell her that nobody was hiding Conal from
her. She had fallen on the hillside in Cruachan, near the cave, why hadn’t he? She
had been very close to madness then and Darag had looked ravaged. He looked
healthier now, but years older than the boy she had known.

“I am better than I was,” she said, starkly. “You too?”

Darag bit his lip. “Can I claim a lucky dance with the bride?” he asked Lew.

Lew was beaming at something Atha had said. It was going to be hard to live
with a man whose smiles made her want to cry. “Yes, go, dance with the King of
Oriel,” he said, patting Emer gently on the hand. She managed to smile at him as
she went. His eyes met hers as he was cooing over the baby.

Darag led her into the dance. He seemed to know the steps. “We would have
given you our protection,” he said, quietly. “Not only for Conal’ s sake but for
your own. We know how much we owe to you.”

“My mother kept me far too closely guarded for me to consider escaping to
Oriel,” Emer said.

“We would still give you our protection,” Darag said, his voice barely audible
even to her.

Emer sighed. “I am no oathbreaker,” she said. “Lew is not who I would have
freely chosen, as you know, but he is not a bad man and there is work to do here. I
have given my oath. I am married. It is too late. Besides, it would mean war with
Connat, and you have probably had enough of that already.”

“Oriel and I owe you a debt we can never repay,” Darag said, looking more
distressed than ever. “War with Connat and Anlar both would not be too high a
price.”

Emer shook her head. She and Darag knew what war meant. “We can be
friends,” Emer said. “That’s all I think we can do for each other now.”

“If Conal had lived — ”

“Everything would have been different,” Emer interrupted harshly.

“I had only just learned to like him,” Darag said. “That makes my loss of him
very great.”

Emer could hardly keep control of herself when she heard this and thought of
how Conal and Darag had hated each other. But Darag seemed sincere. “I was —
he was — ” she broke off. “It is the worst thing that could happen,” she said.

“Not the worst thing,” Darag said, very low. “You didn’t kill him yourself.”

“Oh Darag,” she said, full of sympathy she did not know how to express.

The dance was ending. Darag squeezed her hand and let it go, then they bowed
to each other. People she barely knew were pressing up to take their lucky dances
with the bride. Then the outer door opened with a thump, and a blast of icy air
came into the hall, blowing out a few of the candles and making people laugh and
shiver. Emer turned to the door. This was her hall now, and disturbances were her
responsibility, even if she had not yet taken up the keys.

Inis stood in the doorway, tall but stooping over the burden he carried, his
multi-colored priest’s shawl blowing loose over his shoulders. The burden looked
like a body, wrapped in dark cloth. It was dripping water.

Amagien had stopped playing in the middle of a phrase and the voices that had
not hushed already seemed loud and false in the spreading silence. Emer found
herself taking a few steps towards the door, without having intended to.

“Ap Fathag?” she asked, tentatively, trying not to make it sound like a question.

There was a moment then where she both knew and didn’t know, as the
wrapping fell away from his face. Then for an instant she thought it was Conal’s
body he carried, drowned somehow, for his eyes were closed and water ran from
his hair. She thought she heard someone screaming very high and far away. Then
Inis lowered the body and she kept moving forward, so that she was kneeling
before Conal when he opened his eyes and looked up into her face and said her
name.